The “go within and be the love” message from a few nights ago continues.
Today I had several experiences, which I will do my best to share. Â I am so tired at the moment, having ridden another cosmic energy blast today that began a couple of days ago. Â These beauties are REALLY impacting me.
The first experience happened at the park. Â I hung out and observed while my child played. Â I was able to notice my self-talk and turned it around into something loving, keeping the words short and simple. Â I noticed as I did this, people began to look at me. Â A bird flew over and rested on a branch above me and began making a flurry of noise that continued until I greeted it ~ then it quieted and flew off. Â A woman walked over and sat down on the same picnic table (there are several at the park). Â Usually when I go out, especially these days, I put out the “leave me alone” energy. Â Today I switched that.
On the way home, we took the long way. Â Nice view that way and next to zero traffic. Â As I climbed to the top of the hill, the radio blipped out. Â No big deal normally, only this time I felt something shift in my body. Â I suddenly became disoriented as though I was in that space of two different realities. It was ~ strange. Â I decide to change the radio station and on comes Janice Joplin ~ “take another piece of my heart”. Â Love her music, so I kept it on. Â I pull up to the stop sign, hang a left and as I head down the street, I notice these two teenage kids walking uphill. Â They looked, well, out of place. Â The girl was in a jean skirt, plaid short-sleeve shirt and thick long straight brown hair, like down to her butt long. Â She looked straight out of the 70’s. The boy with her had 70’s hair, poofy and feathered, a bright orange 70’s style t-shirt w/that big white lettering schools once used and jeans. Â (I know these styles as I was a kid myself in the 70’s). Â What happened? Â Was this possible? Â I thought “where AM I??!!” Â The feeling continued. Â I get to another stop sign. Â My girl said “Mom look at that jeep! It looks old!” Â A 1970’s style jeep is coming up the hill.
Coincidence??!!
I sat there, jaw dropped open. Â The feeling slowly faded as I headed home, turning onto our street.
Ok, onto the next experience. Â Later in the day, I was in no (energetic) mood to cook the meal I had planned, I needed something easy, so I decided to go pick up something at the store. Â As I checked out, I told the clerk to excuse me (I tried to swipe my debit card instead of putting it into that annoying chip reader thing) ~ I was really wonky today. Â She looks at me and says “oh my GOSH you have no idea how many people have come in today saying the same thing! Â They are soooo tired and so out of it!” Â I told her about the solar blast we are under and said “lots of things going on now with our realm and bodies”. Â She wasn’t aware of any of this but thanked me. Â I smiled, told her I loved her scarf and hair and headed out the door.
I get into the car and turn on the radio. Â “What About Love” is on the radio (Heart song). Â The words “what about love…don’t you want someone to care about you….what about love….don’t let it slip away” blast away. Â I suddenly felt this energy grow within me. Â It was palpable, so much so I said “oh boy hold on it’s coming” and I knew what it was ~ Love. Â I was having another one of those just amazing expansive quantum experiences where I felt love for ALL. Â So I drive home, looking at everyone I can, smiling, tears in my eyes, my heart HUGE and wide open, sending everyone love or whatever this feeling I was having. It was too big to contain. Â I had no choice but to share it ~ which is what happens when I have these experiences.
I arrive home, go about prepping dinner (for those curious, packaged ravioli and tomato basil mushroom canned pasta sauce). Â Later on in the shower I spoke a lot of words and released even more tears. Â Pain. Â Regret. Â Loss. Feeling all is changing within me and “out there” as well and I have no control over any of it. Â All I can do is feel it, move through it ~ only in a way that is coming from love and not fear. Â I noticed where I was clinging and instead allowed ~ even allowed the clinging (by just observing and accepting). Â If that makes sense.
As I entered the living room minutes later to go snuggle with my girl, I decide to turn on the music channel. Â Here is the name of the song playing:
The Divine wasn’t finished yet. Â After getting my little one in bed, I decided to have some tea. Â Below is the message on the label.
Indeed. Â [wp-svg-icons icon=”heart-2″ wrap=”i”]
As I had heard and felt at the park “speak words of Love”.
Speak. Â Feel. Â Share.
Thank you, more please. Â Keep the reminders coming that I DO have love ~ the REAL THING ~ within me. Â It is still there. Â And it wants to be free every much as the person in which it resides.
Love,
Victoria
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Pearl is one of my favorite albums. One of the best ever