Today's Reflection ~ new level of bored. Where am I exactly? ⋆ LOVE IN ACTION NOW

I just came inside after spending time enjoying the warm sun. As I began to walk through the door I paused and told my mate what I had planned for dinner. He gave me the thumbs up and I said “I don’t know who will be making it but that’s my idea.” We both laughed. Making meals has become further challenging. E V E R Y T H I N G literally has become a challenge.

One of the outside activities we did today was biking. My girl and I rode up to one of our favorite places. I stopped to take pictures of the Fall foliage. I made an attempt to appreciate the colors. They were beautiful – reaching a peak. But I’ve seen it all before.

Boredom has taken on a new intensity. I feel called to give it a new name. Or phrase. Something like mind-numbing activity on repeat or “if i have to see that scene again i am going to turn into that little guy from The Incredibles”…..

Last night was intense. I was very sleepy around 7:30pm so I rested for an hour or so then was pretty awake until well after midnight. My mate and I were still awake at 2am – trying to fall asleep – when suddenly we began to vibrate inside at that cellular level. He felt it first and commented and just as I said “nope, not feeling it”, I rolled over on my side and began to feel the surge. I suddenly felt 16 and had the desire to go for a 2 mile run. As it was dark, cold and I have the knees of a, well, someone of “my age”, that wasn’t an option, so I got up, walked around the house and breathed through the experience.

No idea what time I actually fell asleep. I just know I woke up around 4:30am and slept in fits after that. I’m conserving my CBD oil until I feel comfortable enough spending the money for a new bottle.

I am also having those “where am I?” experiences – little piece of me here with another piece of me elsewhere. Or the rest of me. Whatever that is ain’t exactly clear. I feel I am just used to the experience – something that has been gradually happening and is now pretty much continuous.

Today as I swept off the front porch, I thought how many times I’ve done that. Yeah, you get the picture. I know it is collective now – we are bored. We are done. We are ready for New. And we ARE on that verge for unlike having these experiences in the past few years, which were fleeting, this energy is a constant. For those in this house that is the experience and for some of you I speak with.

I also noticed my girl and I aren’t the only ones having the need to watch Contact. Another friend from Home expressed the same. Today my girl, out of the blue, said “Mom, I think Contact will be the last movie we watch.”

We are watching it tonight. lol

Love to you all ~

Victoria “I’m ok to go” Sistar

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