Going through a journal from early 2020

 

Interesting.  I picked up an old journal from back in February – a few weeks before the nazi lockdowns.  I had NO IDEA – no concept – of what was coming.  Why is that?  Normally I am very perceptive – except when it comes to the last couple of years (the ability to see the future).  I may FEEEL certain things – but do they ever manifest into anything solid or does the descent into hell continue? Maybe that’s why I CANNOT see anything – I am not in tune with those energies of evil – even when I feel them attempting to smother as I feel today.

Reading my words from back then – how excited I was to be starting the healing work I was doing – even the simple act of going out into the world – it was too much for my heart today.  I felt defeated.

That time period marked the end of my right to breathe freely.

To travel freely.

The right to continue the healing I had only just begun just 3 weeks earlier.

To visit stores whenever I wanted and however I wanted.

To visit a store and be able to walk around wherever I wanted.

The right to hug someone I care about (outside of this house).

To interact with other customers – to engage in dialogue and smiles.  To SEE the full face of the person in which I was engaged in.

It marked the end of my child’s friendships and play times.  The end of her activities.  The end of much of her life.  (And who again in our circle showed any concern about this alone??)

It marked the end of certain connections with friends and family who became unknowing nazi agenda sympathizers.  Attacking and criticizing me for my patriotism, my knowledge of my rights – of ALL of our rights – and for exposing the truth and fighting FOR those rights.  These same people would report me to the gestapo for not wearing the designated mark:  the mask.

Mark of their beast.

Little sympathizers walking to their own slaughter – giving up their rights and freedom – willingly.  Without question.

Pathetic.  Cowards.  Ignorance is their disease.

And yet I still see they have the same rights and freedoms as I do and I will continue to speak out for those rights and freedoms – even if I am the only one who will CLAIM THEM.

You learn who and what is real in these experiences of the past year.  You learn who will really have your back.  And I have seen how very few do have my back.  One, maybe two around here.

I will never give in and never consent to this agenda playing out.  How could I do that – especially what this year has done to my child alone.  The rage I have towards those I once gave the label “friends and family” to – who have been willing to sacrifice my child’s health and happiness for an agenda so obvious – is big tonight.  My prayer is they wake up and feel and see.

And join in together with the rest of us.  Sometimes, when I feel weary, as I do tonight, I cry and laugh at the same time and say – to them:  “All we want is our freedom – the same as you.  How can you not see that?  How can you even think to criticize or attack me or anyone like me for wanting that very simple thing?”

Off to find a movie to allow me to forget this reality altogether – even if only for a few hours.

Love,

V.