Most of us have seen the Matrix. Â We know the story of Neo and of his awakening. Â Even once he has met Morpheus, he’s still inside the Matrix. It isn’t until he is literally unplugged from the imprisonment cocoon that he realizes the Truth.
I feel like I had a similar moment happen. Â I don’t know why either, meaning I thought I was “more awake than that”.
I was outside with my daughter, looking at the clover in the grass. Â I told her the story about searching for the 4-leaf clover, how I had not yet found one in this lifetime. Â Searching for a few minutes, my daughter sighs and says “mom, maybe no one has ever found a 4-leaf clover.”
I told her many people have then went on to say how amazing nature is.
As amazing as nature can be in this simulation, I thought to myself, which was then followed by the thought “if nature is a simulation, maybe I am as well.”
I have yet to have that thought. Â At least not to the extent that I felt that insight in my body tonight. Â But it rather knocked me out of my body and left my mind searching frantically in its database for an answer. Â Not gonna find the truth there of course…
My mate came out, walked over to me and seeing I looked a bit “off” asked what was wrong. Â “I just had another Neo moment,” I said then shared what I had just experienced.
As I type these words, I feel this explains why I have been experiencing this growing feeling as though I am “split up” – with a part of me in one realm and a part of me here – and the remaining parts of Me feeling quite ready to “jet on outta here”. Â I certainly feel it today – it’s as though staying awake – in the literal sense – in this 3d world is becoming very very difficult for me. If it weren’t for my duties as a mama, I would likely spend most of my time sleeping and meditating. Â No joke.
How many “parts” of me are there? Â For any of us?
Where the hell am I? Â lol
Seriously wish to know the answer to that one. Â Perhaps that is the biggest question of all. Â I’ve been going down the “who am I” path for so long – maybe it is time to bring in that question as well. Â It’s a mighty big mystery to me and I feel we are all collectively going to be knowing it All very very soon.
