I’m scared.
My new(ish) laptop fried out today. Classic moment of irony as it aligns with my own mental burnout. I used to be able to handle quite a bit. Today? All it takes is one thing, and I lose my grip. I am on my daughter’s laptop, a hand me down from me. I need a replacement as this one does not handle Zoom/similar and that is how I see my counselor, plus my upcoming school program. Any help with that is appreciated. This could not have come at a worse time given my income drops $400 next month, and I have not been able to make up for that. Plus I am under housing pressure facing competition with those who have the most money and highest credit score being put to the front of the line. It’s really hard out there. Really. Fucking. Scary. Hard. I am seeing video and story after story – just here locally. I used to be able to read other people’s struggles. ATM? My body/mind can’t process. And it’s scaring me – feeling my mind break down like this. I simply do not know what to do to help myself feel better now.
I’m scared. I’ve learned a lot in just the last few weeks. I’ve learned the brain and the body don’t know the difference if a traumatic event showed up with a fist in the face, a sexual assault, or ongoing survival threats. Trauma is trauma. I’ve learned the executive functioning part of the brain gets interrupted when under long-term threats, chronic stress, and trauma. I’ve also learned the importance of environment – something my body has always told me is crucial to feel well, to function, to survive.
And I need “out there” to change. !!!!!!!!!!
We ALL do.
Here is what I am seeing tonight.
🙏💖
Victoria
This. is. outrageous. I cannot believe there is even just one adult – one parent – who could E V E R be ok with this.
Unusual EAM’s continue:
Who WAS arrested:
This gave me the April 17, 1961 vibe (and see below for GROK date conversion since, allegedly, we are using the ETHIOPIAN calendar for time travel):
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ZELLE: themamatrinity@gmail.com
VENMO: @VT6610
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