Back and forth O M F G END “THEIRS” ALREADY!

Yesterday felt like ours.

Today?  Theirs.

I felt it come in last night.  It was sudden too and I resisted it.  I pushed back.  I put myself into MY desired outcome – over and over – where I will remain until……..

However – we are forced to still be in “their” sheot pit of a reality.  Together in this toxic soup.

Yeah – I’m not likin’ it today and not feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeling like being love and light and blah blah towards this entire game/movie/simulation/experience.  My being body mind heart just needs. it. o v e r.

My spouses doctor – there was an agreement of a refund.  A pittance of a refund – and certainly not what we deserved to receive given the treatment my spouse received – but still a refund.  Spouse shows up today as requested – it’s half of what was promised.  Why is that?  Spouse didn’t pay for the last 2 months installments.  Pause to recenter…………

And why the fook should he?  Doc had already said go find another doctor number one and dropped him like a hot potato.  And number two the promised visit and consults – which we have in email as confirmation – never. happened.  So why pay for service(s) you aren’t receiving?  Isn’t that borderline theft?  Certainly adds much more to the gross-negligence-lacking-in-professionalism-unf’ingrealyouhavegottobekiddingme that we thought would be different with an MD who was so otherwise awake?

Just because one appears to be awakening doesn’t indicate they are trustworthy.

So this girl – well I’ve had it.  Doctors are good for one thing and one thing only – setting broken bones and removing stuff from the body that needs to come out.  That. Is. IT.  I don’t care if they hold alternative titles or are educated on nutrition, herbal remedies, etc.  REAL healing – for most people – starts in the GUT which then leads to the Vagus Nerve which is where the trauma cycle starts and continues until it begins to harm the body.  And you don’t throw supplements at that – you deal with the original emotional traumas and pain.  THEN you go from there and address cleaning up the physical symptoms created by the trauma.  

As far as other diseases and infections – frequencies.  Energy.  Intention.  Together – people doing this together.  And lastly and most importantly – getting out of this toxic reality.  BIGGEST ONE of ’em all.

People are detoxing and feeling like sheot.  I see some begin to improve and feel better only to have to go through the cycle again.  Been there myself.  THIS IS NOT HOW IT IS SUPPOSED TO WORK.  It’s not that much different than chemo and similar when you think about it logically – where you kill off a bunch of stuff inside your body – hoping you can build it back up again – hoping your body is strong enough to survive the process.

Love should cure all, right?  And I just don’t think any of us will be HEALED until we get outta this frequency.  I mean – see how I described the two timeline experiences above?  I don’t want to be in this energetic space today – but I still am – and as always it’s up to me – each of us individually – to do the best we can when we’re pushed into it (and yes it feeeeeeeeeeeeeels like a push – as I said I felt it enter last night and I did all I could do to resist it and push it away).

Notice how it’s healing and not healed?  Yeah – I don’t know a soul who is fully HEALED.  How can you do that here?  I sure keep trying – but I am really f’ing worn down in the whole “try this try that” approach.  Eat this no don’t eat THAT eat THIS (even though it makes ya feel like cr@p) – try this no try THAT.  A little headway – ok now a lot of headway – uh oh relapse.

Again – THIS IS NOT HOW IT IS SUPPOSED TO WORK.

I see more and more the proof we’re inside a simulation with things outside of our full control (certainly the ability to SEE much less control) throwing unwanted sheot our way.  Absolute madness, nonsense and insulting to the very core of ME.  And YOU.

IMHO at this point, healing attempts are nothing but taking the approach of throwing a dart at a dartboard hoping to hit the target.  Sometimes you do – most of the time you don’t.  Sometimes you hit it a bit – sometimes you totally miss and have to start over.  I simply don’t know ANYONE who is fully healed of all that ails them no matter WHAT matrix remedies they have tried and EVERYTHING here is matrix remedy.  And why is that?  Because it’s allowed to BE HERE to begin with.

That is why this girl named V continues to f’ing command NEW and REAL and LOVE and FREEDOM.

And she ain’t stopping.

Until.

Love,

V.