Author: Victoria1111

so there is talk going around that George Floyd may still be alive and may be the first public unsealed indictment/arrest….well that would certainly wake up the masses….we know one of the Q drops ended with HELLO GEORGE….we know Obama showed an image of Floyd days before he was allegedly murdered…and we know there is often double meanings with the drops…

so who really knows….i continue to feel less into all of that and even talking about what’s going on now – analyzing it – trying to figure out what’s what and what’s going on – i just cannot feel it or get into it….i do feel we are in the storm (contrary to some saying we are in the calm)….i feel like i’m just some spectator watching from afar….

this white privilege is just another narrative….i am white….i have been denied jobs due to my gender….due to my being white (i wasn’t hispanic and spanish speaking)…and i have had people in my community assume because i am white i am privileged and thus less in need of help than someone who is an immigrant…..employers at times have these quotas to fill and that can deny those not of the minority status employment….i hardly feel “privileged” here….i’ve faced loss of friends, family due to my opinions….being white has not protected me from health challenges or trauma as a result of living in this realm nor has it afforded me the kind of care i deserve….and i don’t need to talk about my life long battle to “make a buck”…..

as terran cognito said so beautifully in his recent piece – i didn’t feel the need to go destroy property when i have encountered these situations….

we have ALL been deceived here….all of us traumatized to varying degrees….this is in many ways hell (at the very least a poor copy of original earth with a lot of hellish substances sprinkled inside) – and so i don’t feel the need to rub my face in what i already know to be true and what i have seen and experienced myself for my 50 some years here by watching all of this stuff play out…it now immediately repels and drains me…ask my mate….the last 2 days when he has dove in to the headlines and tells me “you’ve gotta come see this” i put up my hand and say “NO”….

i also don’t feel the need to fight….maybe at times i do – but energetically i feel other things are going on with me…and to be honest at this moment i simply desire to be in my home – candles lit – enjoying some nice music, ice cream and watermelon as i surrender into the last scenes of this experience, knowing the reel is about to run out of film.

this is a good one by gina maria colvin hill…..the docking station is gone…whatever “it” is – left the building….lol  it’s almost as though they are removing their items for the big boom i just saw in my recent vision that is upon us…

so be it.

love,

victoria

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Today was an odd one.  I woke up early – the only one in the house – and felt so much peace.  I was fully in my heart and I felt so much love – it was wonderful.  Authentic.  I stayed in that space until my girl crawled into bed with me – and the two of us snuggled up and returned to sleep.

Then I was awoken from a deep sleep by a knock on the door.  A misunderstanding about a delivery (I did not answer the door quickly enough) that came through in a text moments later and it was a food item I had planned on making for dinner and they were not able to return until next week.  I began sneezing and had to close windows (grass pollen).  Mate turned on the news (I don’t know why he still does this – grumble grumble grumble) and it was of course not a pleasant experience.

My mood was not in that same space it had been a few hours previously – and I tried to return.

I have found it is a big challenge for me to find my own inner space/world with others around me.  I have become ultra ULTRA sensitive – especially to other voices around me.  I am easily distracted now – and I have just surrendered this is who I am… now.

I feel in between worlds.

I feel I am without a home or direction.

I see things playing out – I see the people wanting to be heard and protest peacefully – I see the ones creating horrible violence – and I see the Anons doing their work…the plan taking place….

And I just don’t align with any of it.  I feel like an outsider more than ever before.

In limbo.  That is where I am.

And I know I am not alone.

So hello to you over there in limbo.  I see you.

Home awaits our arrival.

Love,

Victoria

Another really good/positive update….Her reference to 2012 was interesting….I thought back to last night and how I went through an old journal from 2013….It actually began in late 2012 and went through 2014….But I kept feeling this 2012 narrative as I read through my journal – the end times energy…the mayan calendar, etc….the new earth….I now can see what I was subconsciously doing was merging a part of me back then with who I am today….Life was very challenging for me back then – my choices weren’t always the best (version of me) – but I was drawn to a few entries that surprised me – the wisdom and the humor and strength that came through….It feels to me now what I did last night was “take” some of those pieces of me and merge them into me today – especially the humor….I used to be very child-like at times with my humor – I would laugh at things deemed “not socially acceptable”….That sense of silliness and playfulness – I have missed that piece of me…Now and then I tap in and bring that out – but not as often as I would like…

The number 13 was also interesting to me…..I am a “13” baby (came into this realm on the 13th)….I have had the usual comments throughout my life about the bad luck and voo doo stuff….I have always felt I chose this date for a reason and have spent moments returning the number to purity….

When Lisa speaks of this upcoming event – not necessarily THE EVENT – but some big event that stops everyone – that unites everyone – that is something that is a worldwide event (and I love that she used JFK Jr coming out as an example – my feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel since the beginning that he is the one to unite everyone and redpill the masses in an instant)…..I wonder if the two recent experiences I have had – where I literally felt time come to a stand still and felt EVERYTHING had stopped (including the experience I had tonight and shared earlier) – perhaps I/we (mate had the same experiences) are being prepped or given a preview of what’s to come.

Oh yes – I just remembered this one – Lisa speaks of making these leaps in consciousness – how the energies now support this – and how we can suddenly go from this here to this Being with “super powers”.  That sparked something in me.  Definitely something to ponder – and open myself to.  I always did want to be Mighty Mouse when I was a young girl.

I think that’s all I wanted to share.  It is sleep time for me so my brain is saying “stop”.  I therefore listen and end this piece…

A good restful night to all.

Love,

V.