nothing much i am reading today is resonating with me ~ nor is it providing me any “good” sort of feelings.  in particular is the “ascension” topic.  here is a run down of what i have read.  this will be easy as it doesn’t ever really change.

april was tough.  kicked our ass.  but we came through and released x y z.

may.  wow may was a doozy, wasn’t it?  kicked our ass again but hey we came through.

june.  june was interesting.  we purged and got our asses kicked but at the end it felt like we were just about ready to break free and fly the magic unicorn outta here.

then came july.  long month.  enduring.  we burped and belched and lived half our day in the bathroom with this one.  but hey – we are ALMOST there, right?  well maybe not because now comes august.

august.  apathy.  lots of body pain.  more purging.  more enduring.  more ass-kicking.  but hey this is the price we pay for choosing to live in this shit pit, right?

can we talk?  can we get real?  can we get out of this elusive “never-ending” speak?

good.

LOVE ACTS NOW.

LOVE DOES NOW.

love sees those trapped in a prison and steps in and helps.  pulls them out. does whatever it can without saying “nope you aren’t quite ready to deserve this lovely gift of freedom”.

does anyone else speak this way but me???

am i the only one???

am i to continue to live/think/do/be feeling like i have no one to talk to and who understands this about me – other than through this computer?  (which i am so grateful for but DAMN – this life has become too damn lonely for me and i am sick of it.  just god damn sick of it.)

where is Source?  the Source in me says ENOUGH.  E N O U G H.

end this show.

end this lie.

end this prison.

FREE US ALL NOW.

at least give ALL the chance NOW TO BE FREE.

this is not difficult to grasp.

if all of us would begin to create that energy space instead of spending so much time focused on all of this additional “work” we “have” to do….this “earning the right” to b.s…………..maybe

just maybe……..

we could all break outta here.

love,

victoria

i awoke around 10 ’til 6am and put myself in a very deep state of gratitude.  all was beautiful ~ i began drifting off to sleep only to be awoken by a loud BANG explosion outside.  power went out.  i knew the fuse on the line on the corner had blown or something similar.  i crawled out of bed as my child and mate, suddenly jolted out of deep sleep, were trying to get their bearings.

i called in the outage, and we all crawled back in to bed.  my child and mate fell back asleep but i remained awake.  i have this claustrophobic issue ~ like many of us ~ becoming uncomfortable when feeling trapped whether that is in traffic, in line or in a hot, stuffy room.  we are in the beginning of a mini heat wave and all i could think of was “damn, no a/c.  how long is this going to take to repair?”  the monkey chatter was off and running.  after a bit i said ok enough.  no more fear thinking.  tune inward.  there is a part of me that knows what happened and knows when this will be fixed.  the multi-dimensional all happening in the NOW me.

it took awhile.  maybe 20 minutes.  i’m not sure ~ my mind kept running off in fear mode but i kept returning to BIG ME within.  all knowing ME.  i was not going to let the answer come from my brain.

in a flash i felt “animal” – bird of squirrel – was the cause and power would be back on by 8.  i thought 8pm?  and heard “2 hours”.  which would be 8am.

ok then.  i began feeling my appreciation for the ability to cool ourselves on hot days.  to cook our meals.  even though yes it is archaic old tech, it’s all we have now and i DO appreciate how it provides us with the basic means to cook our meals and keep our bodies warm when needed, cool other times.  in doing so i drifted off to sleep.

i was awoken by the sound of the power returning, fans coming back on.  i stumbled into the bathroom – looked at the clock:  8:00am exact.  lol

we later found out a bird was the cause (it did not survive of course).  that brought up sadness and reaffirms the knowing how much we deeply need new everything so that such events do not happen again.

my family was still asleep, so i crawled back under the cool sheets, fan blowing on me, and quickly returned to sleep.

when i awoke later, i lay there thinking and feeling.   i had this feel that these incoming energies are like putting codes into our bodies ~ but are not yet activated. perhaps that happens after the event ~ the accumulation of the final energy (which i feel we are in now).  it’s like uploading a program on a computer but not running it.  only when you run it does it operate – come online.  hope that makes sense.  that’s what i felt/heard.

another interesting experience to share ~ last night prior to drifting off to sleep i spoke to my subconscious and said dreams were no longer necessary and in fact, i did not want to have them unless they were guided by ME and created by ME and at that, only if they were to visit the New Realm.  check things out.  i said the beLIEf that dreams were necessary for processing and healing was a false program.  the astral plane was put in place as a means of (easily) siphoning off our energy and putting more fear into our minds.  i’m done with it

and, i did not dream last night.

if dreaming produced healing, we would all be healed by now, right?  well, that is my “feel”.

a couple of interesting “hmmm’s” i am observing right now.  roseanne barr (you tube page) put up a video this morning, showing a black left eye.  she claims she fell on her head.  it could indicate she was paid a visit and she was letting her viewers know this.  who knows.  i’ve long been on the fence about her as i feel she was handled in the past.  maybe still is.  who knows.  anyway along that same line of observing, alex jones showed up in a video last week with a very red and swollen left eye as well.  he was on a rant about how he was going to quit the channel, quit his work, he was done, etc.  i stopped watching his “stuff” months ago but was guided to check out this particular video.  now there is a huge stir around “alex jones channel has been removed”.  my take is this is a diversion to rile us up.  maybe a poke by the d.s. to see how many people will take the bait and get involved and cry out “bring jones back!”  again, i am being observer in this one – not giving it any of my energy – just pointing out what i have observed.

other than that, my mate and i had an interesting conversation about the event, the event horizon, black holes and the sun.  i recorded it and may share it tomorrow (in written form).  i am trying to put it to words now and my mind is saying “stop” so i will.  too tired to put together any further puzzles at the moment.

oh – well i can share current energy symptoms – very much in alignment w/jenny schiltz.  burping WOW.  being hungry but nothing seems to align with my body much.  (where is the new and new food for this changing vessel???  lol)  today my energy was either SUPER charged – lots of energy and totally blissed out/grateful (wow on that one ~ i was like “it’s about time!!” and it came through me on its own – no effort on my part.  i indeed noticed that.  it IS our natural state.)

so that’s that.  i will leave you with a couple of tunes i listened to – both of them inspire me, align me and empower me.  may they do the same for you.

lotso love,

victoria

Published on Aug 16, 2015

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