Author: Victoria1111

oh watching this one is like breathing in a sigh of relief, of understanding…

i love how she says for many of us, we have felt this “what’s the point” ~ why are we still here?  this has been most strong the past year.  the lack of motivation, which waxes and wanes.  for me i will get an idea to try something new, only to feel the feeling fade, sometimes in an instant.  i’ve even gone back to capture those feelings when i was 19, 20 to motivate me.

just not happening.

this is not a popular view to hold and as lisa has said about new age bullshit (which it is, imho), if you share such a statement, there will be some troll or bot who reaches out to smack you back down by saying things like “no one escapes out of this realm” or “change the attitude.” or my personal favorite “raise your vibration”.  my vibes are based on my inner mind experience. and my innate vibe is peaceful and loving.  i personally have gotten away from this “high” vs. “low”.  go for what feeeeels best.

and as she says – our understanding of dimensions has been off – something i have felt as well.  what there is are realms and within each realm there are different frequencies.  this of course is our innate ability, our Original, to traverse these realms, and this ability was taken from our species when we were put into this essentially one vibe realm (certainly it has restricted us from full expression and experience).

soooo….when people claim they are in 5d or 9d or other such label, they are misguided in some way, understandable considering the programs out there among the spiritual communities.  i fell for them myself, although not fully as it never resonated.  it felt like some sort of a clique – a better than. thy lowly angry frightened human ~ rise up to ME and i will THEN assist you.

nonsense.  just more division with a hard smack of judgment.  as lisa says – we are ALL infected w/this virus.  let’s be kind to one another.

i appreciate lisa’s honesty in saying she cannot say for sure whether she would have shared the date if linea had not.  i am, however, supportive of such info being released.  why would one keep such information?  we all have the right to know something like that ~ such intel.  just as i believe this team Q needs to release ALL to the public.  let the people decide what to do with the information and what they choose to do with it, which includes knowing/listening/reading it.  just my perception.

i do love the concept – LOVE – that WE are the Event.  the great flash that enters this realm charges up our crystalline bodies.  that is just so beautiful to me.  and why should it all be an outside experience, separate from us?

i appreciate as well her insight into the deja vu experience, which just a short time ago, was intense for me and frequent.  the idea that we have already experienced this attempt at bringing in that energy source and escaping this realm – more than once – as much as i dislike that concept to all that i am, i do feel it holds some (if not a lot of) truth.  it also explains the memory i had years ago where i went back to my birth and was in my energy form ~ huge ~ i felt physical structure to myself (even though i could see no form).  but i could hear and see and feel and sense and think – pure consciousness.  anyway i was “psyching” myself “up” to jump into that body that i was entering and what i recall hearing and feeling was this sense of “let’s do it.  and let’s get it right this time!”  the feel was “i am NOT doing this again!” so i knew then this was not my first landing in this realm and my first attempt at breaking us out of here.  as lisa says, we had to have enough of us here to accomplish this…. and this point, we do.

karma is another program, designed to tell us we deserve certain experiences (usually the traumatic ones), when we do not.  absolute nonsense and happy to hear her say the same.  as i say – if karma were true Universal Law, this experience would never have been allowed (and bush and cheney would have been destroyed years ago).  if anything that program was designed to make life royally suck at times for you and i while letting the criminals get away with their horrors.  of course that is changing ~ quickly ~ but it has nothing to do with the karmic program.  maybe by canceling it, has rendered ALL equal under the “accountability” concept.

also resonating with her insights into noticing those who are heart centered and those who, well, aren’t.  the easiest version is the ability to feeeeeeeeel and connect w/the heart.  you can see it.  you can feel it.  i recall being a girl in school (which sucked big time for me lol).  i made friends easily – but keeping them?  yeah, that was the problem.  i was the type who would always welcome the new student.  i never wanted anyone to feel left out or lonely.  so as was the case i would become friends with a girl and that would last until they decided to move on to the more popular people and they would leave my experience ~ at times abruptly.  those were the toughest ~ those moments when the rug is pulled out from underneath you.  it was only when i began to not personalize these experiences that the trauma, the pain began to heal (still healing).

i recall in my late 20’s having a conversation with a group of women.  i said “wouldn’t it be awesome if we just all shared fully what was in our hearts?  shared our deepest fears and dreams.”  one woman said “are you kidding me?  that would be a nightmare!  don’t you dare go there.”  most of the others agreed.

wow.  if only i had known of the concepts of heart-centered beings and bots. and the matrix.  lol  would have been really nice to have that information and insight reveal itself to me way back then instead of later in my adult years.

i also like her insight into how we just being here is enough.  whether we were/are fully awakened to the idea or not, holding that incoming energy to break down the codes, the frequencies of the matrix, has been our gig.  that looks different for many (which rather destroys the notion of self-importance which i have seen enough of THAT).  we get so wrapped up in self doubt and the feeling of “i should be doing more”.  again, more programming.  i’m still letting that one go.  there are occasions when i think i SHOULD post something here.  i notice when i do, my computer (or site) will make that difficult.  at times ya’ll won’t even get my posts via e-mail (for the subscribers).  i will give you a quick visual of what that looks like:  there is a lot of swearing and clenching of the jaw and stomach.  probably some frowning too.  today i did this – observed – and laughed at myself.  chill out girl.  all is well.

all IS well.  yes we are weary.  we are done.  D O N E.

but all IS well.  for the first time in many cycles.

love,

victoria

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