As long time readers/friends of my work know – I do not align with unsolicited advice. I have had a practice of reminding myself to hold space and ask what the person needs or if I can do something for them to help. If not, I keep my thoughts to myself. Well, I certainly try to. I could improve on this!
At this moment, more than ever before, I feel the words below are very important. The experience here is exhausting now. And those tools, some days, simply don’t work as they once did. Letting go is a challenge at times. I employed it earlier and I felt these little energetic knives coming my way each time I said “let it go”. I can let go of my frustration at having my right to shop for food denied the way I am accustomed to because I cannot wear a mask – until it is time for me to decide “ok how am I going to get food and where”.
How does one find ongoing peace when in prison? I reflect if that ability is partly due to ones personality and energetic imprint. I want my full freedom. That is just who I am. Staying in that neutral and or all is well space for long periods just does not align with the Truth of that inner need/desire for Freedom. I am an intense, driven Energy Being who knows what she wants and don’t like to have that experience contained in ANY way.
The striking back coming at this experience now by whatever/whoever these invisible entities are is palpable. Perhaps not all feel this. Many do. For now….I hold space for myself and for all of us who are feeling the blow back going on. If any of you need anything, just ask.
Love,
Victoria
