editor’s note: the 2nd article below – kavanaugh delivers a very emotional, powerful opening statement. he nails it. this had clinton written all over it from the start.
BREAKING NOW: Ahead of pivotal Senate hearing, a new witnesses has surfaced to say Christine Ford may have mistaken him for Brett Kavanaugh as the person who assaulted her at the 1982 party https://t.co/ONwqAhLQmZ
was guided to look at the tv first thing this morning ~ saw the song playing (can’t find my way home)… later on at the park, i was going through my notebook and turned to a page from about a year ago – and i was in much the same state within as i am today. i firmly told myself – change it up if nothing out there is aligning with you. change up yourself, girl… because i will not continue to have this inner experience of waiting for this and waiting for that. nor will i continue to listen to those who say “be patient – it’s coming” (the “unfettered access”….the arrests….the collapse of the system….even the event…)
can’t find my way home. you know – a common theme for many of us. and yet acceptance is something i need to do. “somebody must change”. that “somebody” has to be me if i wish to have a different experience. while i (seem to) obviously have zero control over “getting” to this new earth-real earth realm – and wonder if it’s even “real” or if i am going to experience it in this life cycle – i need to change ME so that i do not continue along this path of emotional longing.
and number ONE: i NEED to find another means of increasing my income for my child’s friend just stopped in and asked if our girl wanted to go out to pizza with them and we had to say we just can’t afford it. the little friend asked why – her family does just fine in this regard – so a moment of discomfort.
this brings up a deep rage. if i am serving such a purpose – WTF is the Universe not rewarding me? and why can’t my regular readers toss a few dollars my way each month? that is not asking for too much – not given the amount of time and energy i spend at this each day. this breaks my heart and makes me question why i ever started this site. (for those handful of readers who do donate/contribute – this statement is not intended for you. i am in deep gratitude for your financial support! it took me awhile to allow myself to emotionally accept this support!)
time for new – even if “new” isn’t really what i envision for myself.
editor’s note: perhaps if trump supporter’s began demanding to DROP THE HAMMER NOW or we w/d all support – we’d see some actual MOVEMENT. apparently guilty until proven innocent is the standard. so much for our constitution…this is a pathetic joke to me and POTUS engaging by tossing insults towards Avenatti makes him look every bit as ridiculous, imho. Event Wave NOW to flush away all of this nonsense.
editor’s note: disclosure with a false narrative…Q-17…they even used the “17”…another “Q” supporter with a small channel. throw him some love by checking him out and subscribing.
still carrying – feeling – the same experience as yesterday. i thought hmmm maybe if i open myself to channeling someone, more will show interest in this page and throw some money my way. perhaps if i turn this into a pay/subscribe only site, i will experience the same result.
but that’s not me. but i am still left with the same feeling of sadness and neglect. kind words and the like do not pay my bills. i log 40 hours a week on this site and i am paid less than a slave laborer in china.
yes i know this site is fulfilling a purpose. and yet again, feeding that heart-based need doesn’t put the food on the table i am now needing to do nor does it buy my girl the pair of tennis shoes she is now needing – or replace the bicycle wheel on her bike.
so for now i am putting my focus on more practical pursuits – the kind that actually pay me for my service. oooh how overly done i am in sharing my gifts for free. i have done it with my music and writing for years. I am valuable. i am worthy.
and what i do has value and has the same right as all else who provide valuable services to receive regular energy exchange in the form of monetary compensation. i know this current system doesn’t provide that the way it could – and needs to – so it is up to me to make this happen – just as it has been all along. and yet i can’t do it alone either. i need support and i am not receiving it in the ways i need.
a couple of last minute tidbits – last night’s dream i was seeing and saying the words “razzle dazzle frazzle bazzle”. lol not sure what this means other than it does seem to resonate with my inner state of “Screw this – what do I do NOW?!” …. there continues to be (a growing number of) people saying october event. many are starting to dream of it and are seeing much of what i saw in early 2017. some are seeing all line up as they saw in dreams of previous months. i just know something has to give because the pressure has built up inside of me to JET – to experience NEW. for now, i am enjoying the day at the park with my girl – finding my joy in that.
love,
victoria
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Cover of OIG report “Federal Bureau of Prisons’ Management of Its Female Inmate Population” Respectfully There is NO Oversight, ZERO Integrity, We The People Give You Guidance on The Damnable and Horrifying conditions Female prisoners are subject to. ~ BZ Riger@IUVPORTAL on behalf of Heather Ann Tucci-Jarraf, Carissa Carpenter, Julia Teryaeva-Reed … thousands of others.
#UNIVERSALCLEANUP: DOJ OIG Releases Report on the Federal Bureau of Prisons’ Management of Its Female Inmate Population
BZ: I received this email from Heather this morning, its her response to an article I sent her on the OIG report.
From: HEATHER ANN TUCCI-JARRAF (86748007)
Date: 9/23/2018 11:06:58 AM
TO: BZ Riger
Subject: RE: female inn mates doj ig finds
Thank you to everyone that sent me this article <3
I make the following FEW (of many) comments/notes/highlights/overlights, with these two points in heart:
1. What you sent me for review is an article; and, link to article sent
2. I have not viewed the OIG report that is the point of topic in said article. [attempting again to send her the contents of OIG reports- BZ]
that done…
The points that the article cover regarding the conditions and treatment of ONLY female inmates, are the tamest points that femal inmates experience…and if the general public actually saw, knew, or experienced the totality of what female inmates do, the penal systems in America would not exist, and answers would be demanded from the DOJ as to the human rights abuses they allow, encourage, and “policy” to be practiced in said facilities.
“Damnable” and “horrifying”, in my professional opinion and experiences, are tame words to use to describe the conditions and treatments inflicted on female inmates in the penal systems operating in America. What is most concerning is there is no true recourse or remedy for any of the female inmates while they are in custody, and no effective assistance possible from their attorneys, if they even have one…and by some accounts, those factors and more, have fatal results…and by many accounts, permanently crippling results.
From informed experience and investigations, many men and women that are in the penal systems, should not be there. There are more instances than I care to recall, where “criminal procedures”, “criminal process”, and “due process” were not followed, not even a little bit…where those thought to have been delegated authority to enforce “laws”, could not even follow said “laws” themselves, and with the most heinous flair. Couple that with the infamous “shame and shun” societal programming when the purported “inmates” are released, which “China” has now taken beyond extremes, and you have guaranteed infite market for “prison bonds”.
Are there situations where measures must be taken to keep all beings safe and protected…yes, for the here and now…however, the situations are manufactured at the highest levels, and inherent in the very systems and the manner of application of said systems the people use daily…coupled with an unaware populous…and corrupt enforcement…I could speak for weeks on that topic alone…and I will leave it until the appropriate moment and forum.
During this operation, I had to bite my tongue from gushing forth apologies, and blink my eyes repeatedly to stop the tears for all that was experienced by ALL purported inmates.
I choose to focus on all I can to change it…and I am <3
Love All
<3
DOJ OIG Releases Report on the Federal Bureau of Prisons’ Management of Its Female Inmate Population
