i hope i remember the barrage of rambles that came my way.  i really need a waterproof recording device – or computer.

earlier today i was engaged in a conversation and could see how judgmental i was being in my own mind.  this doesn’t feel good.  i was tired, yes – frustrated, oh you betcha, of this “hurry up and WAIT”, and thus was not into surrendering any of my programs or current story.  i was fully aware of how i was being – but i was too damn tired, or i let that be my excuse, to stop the train of thoughts going through my mind that were leaving behind nothing of beauty or softness.

i thought of this tonight in the water.  i knew there was a fear there.  and i found it – quickly.  i have this fear that unless those of us on this awakening journey (wanting truth on the ALL – here, there and everywhere) – this fear that unless we ALL are on the same page in terms of our feels on karma, reincarnation and theories like that as well as this matrix/controlled realm/simulation, we will never be free.

a huuuuuuuuuuuuge sigh was released with that one.  felt and released.  and yet the question still remains.  if we are co-creating this experience, doesn’t holding onto this realm’s version of karma, reincarnation and the like keep those very experiences going?  is it similar to voting in the same two party system puppets expecting a different result while ignoring the controls behind the political party system?

how powerful is it when we refuse to comply with the old spiritual teachings, even the new age ones (which i know offends some in the lightworker community)?  i ask not only HOW effective and empowering it is for us ALL to put our energies on freedom so we can once again be free to create/be/do as we wish without restriction, without powering over another – removing ALL systems of control…i also ask is doing this necessary for us to transcend the old and bring forth the new of freedom?  (saying this as love is freedom)

so i am wondering if my fear is something to just surrender or is there truth in it? perhaps both? 

my feels on the previous/above theories have expanded over the years. there was a time i thought (our current definition of) karma was one of the “laws”.  i would see someone suffering and think “oh you were really bad in a previous life” – or else i would think “soul contract – you signed up for this” and other such nonsense.  i never could align with these thoughts, they never made their way into my heart (heart rejected them continuously) so they remained thoughts in the mind in my cranium.

however the mind in my Core – the eternal mind – the feeeeeeeeeeeling center – grew stronger as i began to listen to her more.  karma.  telling someone “you are experiencing so much struggle and suffering in this life because you were likely horrible in a previous life” – even though of course we have mind wipes coming into this realm and thus have no MEMORY of this alleged previous life so we are flying blind – and yet those who preach the “law of karma” would say it is our responsibility to figure all that out.

this is as effective as telling a child “you are having a consequence you don’t like for a behavior you did only we aren’t telling you what that behavior is. you will have to figure that out on your own.”  yeah, not effective.  nor loving.

i do have a feel there is a level of karma – but what we have been taught here is a CONTROLLED level of karma and is thus an illusion.

we’re only experiencing the result of the controller’s version.

same thing for reincarnation.  reincarnation is of course who we are – beings that continue to seek experiences, often in physical form.  we experience as eternal Source Fractals in a variety of ways, on and on and on and on.  always has been. always will be.  and yet as defined in this controlled realm, reincarnation says “you HAVE to go here.”  or upon death “you HAVE to go through this process.”  and my personal (NOT) favorite:  “you HAVE to keep returning in order to remember something you cannot remember because we have taken that ability away from you and in order to become what WE say you must become only THEN can you get to paradise which of course will never happen because we lose our power for our power comes from our controlling of you and keeping you afraid and weak.”  i know that isn’t the definition of reincarnation presented in this realm, but it may as well be.  a much more truthful energy of reincarnation says “go experience.  be.  love. create.  however you wish.”  (in so long as you aren’t powering over another – and when you ARE in the space of Love you have no desire to power over another).

i am seeing/sensing old programming coming up in big ways.  i am seeing, sensing/feeling this by people suddenly pushing the agenda’s of karma, soul contracts, reincarnation, and the sin of “playing the victim”.  it is my feeeeeeeeeel this is due to the Source within us pushing this up and out – filtering out the lies, the illusion, the filth, the programs – and what often happens first is an intense clinging to what is familiar.  change can be scary ~ and that in and of itself is a huge program in this realm.  

so i will leave this as a final share:  old programming is all over the place now. shed the beliefs of the brain in the head. let go the words of the master’s, guru’s, channelings, religious texts and feeeeeeeeeeeel within for that brain within your center for your truth. it is simple – if it feels loving, supportive and free, it’s truth. if it feels restrictive, painful, struggling, judgmental it’s false.  let.  it.  go.

that is all for now (there is more to this i am continuing to feel, but this is all i feel the need to share at this moment).

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