Big Event. “Flash”. Yes – a literal “FLASH” card she shows. Amazing! Finding ourselves again in the “lower world” (underworld). Exhausted – end of rope – feeling like energy is being drained. Spiritual narcolepsy (mind-wipe). Ready for “integration” – another part of ourself………..also a “foreign” energy………. Does this happen during those moments when we just lay down suddenly and “black out”? That’s my sense………. Meditation….Stillness……..”Recovery mode”……….Last night I drew a card for myself – and that is what came through for me. 2018 I began to feel the closer we got to “it” – the more I would need to sleep/rest. Rest and detox/cleanse before what’s coming “next”……….A good one…..San Tarot latest…………(for me – don’t really need to see anything else)
So apparently this is Dark Sky Week ~ some bizarre event started in 2003 (but I never once heard of it until tonight) to get us all to turn off our lights to appreciate the dark sky minus light pollution. Anyway, in my hopeful mind I thought oooh use something of theirs back at them so maybe something really amazingly WONDERFUL will manifest during this week so let’s gematria it and see what comes up:
Simulation
Rigged Election
Election Fraud
Trump Winning
False Reality
The Time Machine
I Have A Chance To Break
The Deep State
Trump is Q
I don’t know friends – I know this is an inside experience – and I go inside and go inside and go within and I continue to come up with the same desires and wants and knowing I am waiting for something OUT THERE to change that aligns with what IS IN HERE INSIDE ME now. I mean come on – this is getting stewpid and insane and just beyond WTAF IS GOING ON HERE AND WHY IS THIS STILL GOING ON?!?!!! And What can WE DO TO SPEED IT UP??? I’d like my abundance back and my wealth and my healing abilities and all of that. I want to remember what happened here and where I really am and WHO I really am – those questions I’ve had since I was 5. I’d like to be able to not feel trauma and my mind go numb when I see something in our life here that needs or may need to be taken care of that requires money we really don’t want to spend because we have been saving (trying to certainly) for the past year to find that right perfect home for us in a much more rural, like-minded community – and oooh that search is going SOOOO (NOT) well and is producing just further frustration – but I keep at it because that is who I am – and my mind goes there because of our current situation as well as how my mate handles things when there is an expense (real or otherwise) needing to be taken care of – and I just – I go numb for awhile. The energy behind all of this is so intense – I realized when I was sharing this all with my mate – my gums bled. Ya know you have a lot of repressed stuff when that happens! So……… You know, I’m just absolutely frigging beyond damn done in knowing others have power over me/us all because of M O N E Y. That’s it – all because of MONEY because here Money = POWER. And anyone who disagrees with that one can ask just a few of the thousands of homeless people living in tents in our city because hey – now people want to charge $900 f’ing dollars for a ROOM. I don’t get it – I don’t get it at all – just because you CAN do something doesn’t mean you SHOULD – because hey – the world suddenly decided to go extra bat sheot crazy and hike up food 25% and housing that much or more but hey we NEEEEEEEEEEEEEED to do this so people can SEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEe and yet it is the people who NEEEEEEEEEEEED to see – at least around here – who are doing fine in their big homes and ukranian flags with their little sunflowers all over them because BLM is no longer popular and neither is “doing it for the all” so they needed SOMETHING to “feel good about” – and putting up a sign makes them feel soooooo good. But hey – they’re waking up and seeing right?
UGH. UGH UGH UGH UGH!
I mean – two of the gematria’s right now – staring at me in the face are telling me “I AM SO BORED RIGHT NOW” and “REALLY REALLY STUPID” – that’s how I feel. That is what is REALLY WITHIN ME NOW – surrounding the peace and quiet and desires and visions is that experience – the ME HERE is BORED and FED UP and NEEDING CHANGE! GOOD CHANGE. OUT. THERE. That positively motivates and expands on my experience. GET BACK TO US GOD orrrrrrrrrrrrrrr GET US BACK TO GOD! Like – N O W!!!
Preaching to the choir. I’m walkin’ off the soapbox stage now. Until next time, right?
Ok ~ today started out feeling quite lovely – as in neutral – which is a gift these days. But as the day went on, I felt drained of everything. I tried a bike ride but my body screamed WHAT R U DOING?! I pushed – then decided to listen and returned home. I feel heavy – and overwhelmed – numb with the responsibilities at the current time. And flat out done with waiting and having to partake in what simply doesn’t align. Knock knock – anyone answering the door outta here yet?
So………..speaking of………….I tuned into the event – to get a clearer feel on it. I’ve likely had it before – just don’t remember (memory? what’s that??!!) – but today it felt like it lined up for me. It’s simply a frequency of God/Universe/whatever it is that we once were a part of before “they” disconnected us from it – and it gets returned to us. What happens after that – who knows. Each of us will experience it differently. I like what Pattie B said in last nights video I shared – each of us decide what kind of a body we want. Current one upgraded or a new one. Considering we used to be amazingly powerful creators who could participate in creating planets and realms – creating a new body in whatever way works for each person will be quite easy.
Going within – alone – UNINTERRUPTED – is what works best to get through this. For me. I would comment on last night’s sleep – if I could remember. I had a thought – if something is coming in powering up these bodies, I will need to sleep like a baby. I cannot seem to get enough of that z-time – in a quality way. And I am also quite aware of “them” trying to poke and loosh. I won’t talk about those experiences – not worth my time or energy.
Interesting – saw something earlier today about “the tree of life” – it may have been in a book – lol i don’t remember………..(he’s referencing the image in the above video):
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Looks like the start of the roots of the Tree of Life at the East Gate
Michelle Walling from last month:
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#EEKS our conversations, our understanding does accelerate our speed to exit. It is our conscience light that dissolves dark matter….
Michell Walling http://Howtoexitthematrix.com
politics still doesn’t align with me anymore……….spoke with Sister D today and we talked about how were both soooo into the plan and T – at least the political part of it and now – nothing…….
still wondering if this is even a distraction……..a “light knock” to reach the sleepers subconscious to let them know and feel SOMETHING is off about this reality….when i seeeeeeee and feeeeeeeeeeeeeel it all – you know, come on – what’s bigger? calling out the human twats (which most have been dealt with) or realizing we’re inside an energetic prison by invisible enemies and we’re going to be set free? yeah….
Our Ozone Layer is being removed. UVC radiation is ground level????!
UVC radiation is a detoxifier, a germ killer and a mutating wavelength!
Someone commented that her mother cares for agriculture and has noticing plants are burning.
Here is our personal experience and we’ve noticed it – slowly – over the last few years. But now – whatever is happening is happening in the winter and early spring. We have a tropical palm tree that typically loves the sun. But now – many of the leaves that get the most sun are burned. We also have some cedar trees and the 2-3 that receive the most sun are, and I am not exagerrating, 2/3 burned.
So something’s up. Is it changing these vessels? Is it a benevolent or otherwise agenda? Why are some plants being fried in some areas and say down the street or next door – nothing weird is happening.
As I say pretty much most of the time these days: I don’t know.
As I’ve said I don’t like having to come up with titles for what I share here. I remember writing stories in school and saving the title for last. One piece I remember was for a creative writing class and we would share our pieces with the class. Anyway what I wrote was quite intense and received a lot of positive interest (except for a few of the women in the class who didn’t like intense scenes) – but the title was, in my opinion, weak and ridiculous. I never was able to come up with something so I left it blank in the end.
So………….I did what I could to move this unwanted energy. Bike ride. Gardening. A long good cry. Still feeling the same “stuff” – just less of it. I’m just gonna say it as I keep denying it in some way: they have us hooked up just like Neo and each of us receives “programs” – pushed on us – to weaken us. Maybe not all of us have this here – which would make sense if you want to create division. What I keep seeing – we’re each experiencing this different – some more alike than others (which is why we resonate more with some than we do the rest) – and as such each of our individual experiences is unique and very valid. And I will also say this just as strongly: This has taken far. too. long.
Moving on……….
I was looking at some of “their” nasa stuff – and I couldn’t get into it. So I checked on the KP – that’s slowly going up:
But who really knows. What I DO know is something has been up for many of us in recent days/weeks – while we sleep. So what we say is sleep when you need to and eat when you need to and let everything else go. Easier to say it than DO it at times of course – but something is up. Battles that I don’t remember – dreams I don’t want – waking up shaking and tense from top to bottom. But not every night – just most nights lately – and increasing – which says something to me about where we are but not quite sure – and not really wanting to share an insight into that for personal reasons.
I can share though that I feel more pulled away from the whole T/Plan experience. Can’t explain it – but it’s happening within me. Others I see are having the same. Again – my feel on this is we are each experiencing this ending however we need/want to. Whatever aligns. And less and less here does – for me.
In the area of the Odessa port “Yuzhny”, the special services of Ukraine are planning a provocation with the use of toxic chemicals to accuse Russian troops of allegedly striking civilian infrastructure facilities.
▫️The most likely scenario of the staging may be an imitation of a missile strike by the Russian Armed Forces on the western naval base of the Ukrainian Navy, as a result of which the port’s cooling plant, located 500 meters from the military facility, will be blown up. To implement this scenario, a tank with ammonia (10 tons) was delivered from Odessa to the territory of the enterprise on April 18, 2022, and personal protective equipment was issued to law enforcement and special services in the Odessa region.
Sharing given what we heard recently – would not surprise me at all if some of the local schools around here have this crap:
Humor….and to be fair – some of us experience similar or the same emotional response when we’re told “trust the plan” or given that dreaded dayem word “soon”……………
I woke up this morning and thought ‘today is a 2-day’ – then shrugged and said, to no one in particular, ‘who cares’ then went about my day. It began as a long night until I finally got up at 3:30am – had a bowl of cereal with cashew milk and sat there – alone – in the dark – and really reflected. Clarity came after I asked myself some very honest questions – dismissing all of the “yeah but this is how the world and system is” and instead came from that state of pure knowing of what I want. So I have a couple of things to focus on – mate is in alignment – and we will see.
Internet’s been weird – very slow – including my site. Stagnant and sketchy. I checked on downdetector – quite a few issues but none with wordpress.
I haven’t gone “out there” yet to see what crazy is being pushed and what “our side” is accomplishing – I seem to do that later and later now. I did see earlier today that someone was trying to fire up CERN – then saw further confirmation in the comment section from one of ya’s.
Just like I always used to want to know in my youth WHO was operating the keg and WHO was rolling the joints, I want to know WTH is wanting to turn this thing on again.
Aye aye aye………….
We heard word from a family we know – proof of the grooming the schools are engaged in (in this case – elementary). My mate had already passed on some info we had all seen. They received a call inquiring about their “son” – when they have a daughter. Not according to the school. They now refer to their daughter as a boy – and she even has a new boy name. How nice of them to tell mom and dad, right? That was it for them. They’ve seen – it’s hit home now – and they’re doing something about it. Mate let them know we support them completely and are here for them – as always.
That’s how we wake up – and how we get through this: TOGETHER.
Speaking of, I want to say this: It humbles the ever-lovin’ socks off of me to know that even just one person reads my words/work and gets something positive/helpful/supportive out of it. Seriously – it still surprises me at times when I hear from one of you – either in a comment or personal e-mail. I will never lose that sense of humble – and is something I focus on regularly in maintaining – especially when my ego wants to fly in with my heart and say LOOKIE ME LOOKIE ME LOOKIE MEEEEEEEEEEE!! Those of you that I know – have connected with – YOU ARE AMAZING! You inspire me. You are a gift to me, the misfit, and I hold a lot of gratitude for those connections.
So – I’m about to dive in and share what I’m seeing. I have a sense I may need one of those hazmat suits.
Feels like a marker…
The painting “Washington Crossing the Delaware” is going up for action next month.
Maybe after 4 years and 6 months Durham is done?
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No ‘green screen’ here folks, this looks real.
Here Russia’s V group is in action in Mariupol, firing at Ukrainian snipers and anti-tank teams in apartment buildings.
This is apparently the last residential neighbourhood controlled by Ukrainian Azov battalion.
My old stomping grounds……….they done turned RED…..lol
Barbarians are at the Gate (noting the caps of Gate):
“The expression “barbarians at the gate” is often used in contemporary English within a sarcastic, or ironic context, when speaking about a perceived threat from a rival group of people, often deemed to be less capable, or somehow “primitive”.’
Today is a good day to find an abandoned cabin and get away from all of the drama – as far into nature as is feasible. Today turned into a day where I am left feeling the overwhelming need to run away to save my mind that feels like it’s cracking. Many of us are feeling this. I have moments where I fantasize about the RV life – selling/tossing most of my belongings and living that life. But then I think an even tinier space – with my girl – and my tall/large/loud spouse – and I know/feel:
I have no answers. Got nothing. No one knows what’s up – no one has the full truth – except for the very few who do and they ain’t sharing w/the rest of us who want to know. Seems to me we’re all stuck together – waiting on the world to change/shift – on some outside event – that frequency event that changes everything. All I honestly feel I can do is wait – because doing/thinking/focusing different never ever ever E V E R changes what I feel within. And from what I have seen here – if the inner doesn’t align w/the physical, you’re doing this when attempting to change your experience:
Perhaps I will feeeeeeeeeeeeel different tomorrow. For now – I am exhausted – my body is achy and sore all over – which indicates incoming energies doing something needing to be released. A good massage is in order. The KP is not showing anything – which is strange – the Schumann however is giving us an indication of whassa happenin’….I have a hunch something is afoot that we don’t know about (in terms of these “solar” happenings)……..It’s not coming from that object in the sky………..whatever is happening that we are feeling is coming from outside and beyond………or perhaps from within too…….
White Swan Event:
High certainty
3 principal characteristics:
Certainty
Impact easily estimated
After the fact
explanation shifts the
focus to errors in
judgment or some other
human form of
causation.
General Mills. Well some say that’s to wipe out the crappy food so we can have incoming NEW and GOOD/Healthy food. That’s a nice thought. But is it true? (General Mills also owns the Annie’s Organic line). Most good food now – those organic brands – have been bought up by the Big Dudes over the years. So to me – the way to bring in new is just to BRING IN NEW without having to destroy the food supply that’s already in place, right? Not like this. Trauma ~ fear ~ is not necessary to roll out this plan. You know, what about Love to inspire and motivate and assist? Hmmm? But hey, that’s just me and I’m female and it seems to me it is the masculine (need to blow up) that is behind this plan and that’s starting to piss me off some. lol
Speaking of Elon, he’s promoting this sheot on his twatter page…….
The Boring Company just raised $675M at a $5.675B valuation from A-list investors. Purpose is to recruit amazing people, scale up boring machine production & build thousands of miles of tunnels.https://t.co/BpSE9syuGs
I went here with a pleading energy of PLEASSSSSE BP give me something gooooooooooood…….As he says – nothing more most of us can do now. We already know – perhaps too much (in terms of keeping ourselves mentally well)……….The whole snake venom – showing how there are compounds of it in the human body (well this designed model that is) SCREAAAAAMS to me and any one of us who is really awake – how “they” f’d with our DNA and inserted their DNA into our vessels.
They can keep that sheot. I plan on jumping into my REAL body – untouched by them – asap. We are HUMAN – MAN/WOMANKIND – not parasitic reptiles. (and uh – so much for those “freedom” phones – i’m waiting for everything to change b4 getting any of these sparkly goodies they keep pushing at us – their website claims they are “completely uncensored” – they sure aren’t if what BP claims he experienced is true – see his experience in the link below)
Seems to me – T drew out everybody on both sides leaving us with uh how many in the public eye we can actually trust? These big accounts who claim to know so much? I like spacious homes with big yards – and small channels who own errors and can say “I don’t know”.
STRONG EARTH-DIRECTED SOLAR FLARE: If you round up, it was an X-flare. On April 21st at 0157 UT, Earth-orbiting satellites detected a strong M9.6-class solar flare. The source was sunspot complex AR2993-94, which is almost directly facing Earth.
Radiation from the flare caused a shortwave radio blackout over southeast Asia and Australia: blackout map. Remarkably, this is the second day in a row the same region of Earth has experienced a radio blackout. It happened yesterday, too, in response to an even stronger X2.2 flare.
Shortly after the flare, the US Air Force reported a Type II solar radio burst–a natural form of radio noise produced by shock waves in the leading edge of a CME. This means we can expect a CME to emerge from the blast site. Stay tuned for updates. Solar flare alerts:SMS Text
I saw this intel yesterday – couldn’t source it/verify so I decided not to share. Then I see it has some “sauce”. Accidentally, they say…………I’ve wondered if such an invasion would be more silent – not like what is happening between Russia and Ukraine……….
Taiwan’s government-funded Chinese Television System (CTS) accidentally broadcast a running news ticker on Wednesday morning falsely declaring Chinese forces had launched a military invasion of New Taipei City, the Taipei Times reported on Thursday.
The Taiwanese public broadcaster CTS allowed mock alerts intended for an upcoming disaster drill in New Taipei City to enter its text feed for a running news ticker at the bottom of its 7:00 a.m. news bulletin on April 20. The text included alarming messages, such as, “Communist forces strike New Taipei City with guided missiles.”
