Thanks to my mate for divinely finding & sharing this – without my knowledge – without knowing what I watched tonight or what message my heart received.  

I watched The Faith Healer tonight ~ Season 6.  A charismatic Evangelical Preacher visits Walnut Grove, after being invited by Mrs. Oleson, who allegedly has the ability to Heal (hands on).  There are people of course who have that ability but tonight – red flags begin to be revealed about this Preacher.  The crowds he attracts inside his huge outdoor tent far out-number Reverend Alden’s weekly Sunday congregation in that little white Schoolhouse.  In time ~ Reverend Alden is approached by this new Preacher with the request the two share the Church space.  The Reverend refuses.  In short time, his congregation has gone down to just two families and Doc Baker.  So with hurting and heavy heart, he hastily decides to leave Walnut Grove.  When Pa attempts to speak with him, asking him to reconsider at least sharing the space, the Reverend fires back.  Pa realizes this is about the Reverend’s pride – which the Reverend emotionally acknowledges is true – God help him.

Within days, it is discovered the Preacher simply has hired actors showing these alleged healings.  This information is shared with the people of Walnut Grove – who confront the Preacher, ending his healing gigs – at least in Walnut Grove.  Reverend Alden stays on and delivers an emotional, humbling service that following Sunday.  He admits when he was younger, he imagined himself doing God’s work in front of large crowds in a huge, beautiful church.  Little did he know, he was instead called/guided to be a Simple Preacher in a small town, inside of a small church.  He admitted to being envious of this flashy Preacher.  Being “challenged” in the way he was with the presence of this new Preacher, he felt he couldn’t compete.  And yet in his own way he realizes ~ he remembers ~ competition isn’t Godly.  Service isn’t about competition.  You hear the calling and you just serve and let God do the rest.  The right people will show up.

I thought about this site and my own journey – not just the past 5 years but the past 20 plus years of writing and sharing my truth as I see and feel it.  At times I’ve wanted one of those “big congregations/big pulpits”.  At times I’ve been envious of those who have the big audience and make the big dollars.  And yet ~ like Reverend Alden ~ when I have those moments of envy, I remember why I do what I do.  I remember where it all started: as a calling from my Heart.  That calling is still there.  It’s what pushes me when I feel “I’m too tired – I’m done – I can’t do this anymore”.  And I know I have something special that perhaps some of these bigger/flashier people don’t have:  intimate, real connections with my little group of people who read, share, support.  Many of you have become close friends and we talk regularly.  And THAT is where the real gift is for me.

Love,

Victoria

I don’t feel any movement.  Last night I reached this place of detachment from everything here.  Felt my “mission” (whatever that really is) is complete.  Or perhaps the better term is HOW I am doing things and WHAT I am doing is over.  And I am left with nothing but an empty feeling.  Body hurts.  Discouraged.  Mostly what I see is good people standing firm and getting physically attacked – with no one to step up and stop the physical assaults.  I mean come on – people getting radiated and burned – but the focus remains on being peaceful?

When does evil ever comply with a request?

Where is this alleged “good” military?

I’m tired of it all.

Tired of sharing my heart and ideas in a search to build some sense of community.

Tired of the 30 plus years I’ve devoted to searching the truth and sharing it.

It hasn’t had that much of an impact.

It certainly hasn’t contributed to ENDING any of the evil and corruption.

Mostly what it’s done is created a lot of heartache and grief – and loneliness – and allowed me to connect with other “crazies” – pretty much feeling the same.

I don’t know where to go.

I don’t know how to make more money.

I don’t know what to do different.

It is truly the same show – same experience – different day.

And I am tapped out of answers to change my personal experience in the way I need and want.  I’ve searched – asked for guidance from Higher Self and beyond – asked for human help – NOTHING.

It really is about this now – until something shifts and until I no longer have to:

Now – just U G H.

V.

Before I share the musical fun, I wanted to do a check-in and see how you’re all doing.  Last night was better than the night before.  I still feel the war in the energetic.  Given what I sensed and what I have been seeing – that AI narc program is struggling to survive and is lashing out – in a way through behavior AND seeing bugs/spiders.  I don’t know why I see it that way – it’s just what I’m getting.  Also had quite a bit of body pain prior to going to sleep last night which could have been partly due to solar/sun/whatever it is that comes in now and then stuff.  Or the war.  Or…both.

So the music synch:

I’m in the kitchen getting dinner together.  I turned on some music (to end my day lol)……….We Will Rock You comes on.  I sing and stomp with the beat.  Next up (naturally) is We Are The Champions – which I sang as WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS OF THIS REALM.  As that song came to an end I felt I was in that flow so I said ok bring another one that aligns.

Up next?

Jump.

Ok – just got another one.  As I was listening to the radio, I had the desire to put in my Prince CD and play Let’s Go Crazy.  I didn’t have to.  It just frigging came on the radio.  The more they get defeated – the more we get our natural abilities back.  I got that impression strongly late last night – an impression I’ve been feeling more and more in recent days.  Embrace and USE.

Just going to share the songs to spread the energy.

Love,

V got it – intern agrees.

It’s late evening – into my own quiet space – theorizing and feeling (while making pancakes – no joke) – into the G’s Wife’s latest.  Thinking on Time Travel – how it is being used to win this war.  My mate/intern says “I feel JFK was alive in this timeline” (when T hugged that old man in the wheelchair).  I was highly dubious at the time when people spoke about this – but hey – in this game with so much being used to win the war – I have learned to be more open to all possibilities.  Tonight?  When he said that – my hands were in the dishes – water is a transmitter of info for me – always has been – and I paused and suddenly said “They used Time Travel to go back in time and change his assassination.  He survived in this time line.”

Then I had one of those mind-expanding moments – turned to my mate – he and I looked at one another – eyes open wide – and he said “I think you’re spot on” and we did our high-five move.

“They” show us movies and give us “scientists” that say you can’t mess with the timeline.  They’re lying.  You can and we have – but only if you know what you’re doing.  It has been my feel that we have tried to win this war more than once.  And we have learned.  Some of these “resets” have quite possibly – most likely probably – been OURS – divinely created – so we CAN get it right.  You know the whole mirror thing – mirror what “they” do – to OUR advantage.  As I have shared here – when I went back to my birth (surprising my ego/mind) during a hypnosis/past life class – it felt like a gift – a part of me using the opportunity to share info THEN that I would understand TODAY.  And at the time my Eternal Self said (well gave me the impression of the following): “We can do this.  Let’s get it RIGHT this time.  This is the last time we’re doing this.”  Then WHAM – the suction machine  machine is turned on – the Soul flies into the mother’s womb and blackout/veil occurs.  Then – at the time – I physically jerk and wake up back in my hypnosis classroom wondering WTH I just experienced.

This plan is simple in its goal: Remove the “invisible enemy” and put them in their own space – lock them there so they can NEVER get out – and return US to the Natural Universe/Real Space.  But the way we’ve done it – is complex and involves a lot of Souls/People/Being’s inside AND outside – and a lot of advanced PERFECT technology/frequencies.

Please let me know what ya’ll think/feel.  I am off to count the pancakes we made.

Love,

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I put on my “trucker hat and boots” in this one at times.  Energetically –  mentally – challenging day (hence the cover choice).  Onward I/we go.