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Today’s Finds including a bit of a deep dive on the Brown shooting and Clones. 12.27.25

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DMSO’s unique therapeutic properties reveal the unifying thread between many different “incurable” eye diseases.

EBS:

https://justthenews.com/politics-policy/elections/satliberal-states-created-election-trimester-ballots-now-conservatives

pretty sure the people already living there technically “discovered” it first…

i love seeing things like this:

here we go – some deep dive time:


**THE SHOOTER: Claudio Manuel Neves Valente** Born January 1977, Portugal. 3rd place, Portugal National Physics Olympiad (1994).

Attended Instituto Superior Técnico (IST) in Lisbon from 1995-2000.

Same physics program. Same years. Same university as Nuno Loureiro.

Appointed teaching assistant: September 1998.

Terminated: February 29, 2000.

Published in official government gazette.

No explanation given.

Loureiro graduated that same year. —

**THE AMERICAN YEARS** Valente entered the U.S. on an F-1 student visa, August 2000.

Enrolled at Brown University for physics PhD.

All his classes were in Barus & Holley building.

The same building he shot up 25 years later.

Leave of absence: April 2001.

Formal withdrawal: July 2003.

On his 2017 visa application, under “degree” he wrote: “None-Dropout” —

**THE GHOST YEARS**

July 2003 – January 2005: 18-month gap. No records.

January 2005: Incorporated CLAUDIO VALENTE INC. in Florida.

September 2010: Dissolved company.

September 2010 – April 2017: 7-year gap. No records.

April 2017: Gets green card via Diversity Visa Lottery.

His website is still live: http://claudiovalenteinc.com

The registered agent on his company?

Gustavo Stella. Not a lawyer. Not a commercial agent. A personal acquaintance living in Miami Beach.

No Florida real estate license found. Zero academic publications. Zero court cases. Zero professional licenses. Zero property ownership. Zero federal criminal record. —

**THE PREPARATION**

November 2025: Rents storage unit in Salem, NH. In his own name.

November 26-30: Boston hotel.

December 1: Rents Nissan Sentra from Alamo using Florida license.

December 13-14: Swaps Florida plates for expired Maine plates.

Weapons: Two 9mm handguns. Two high-capacity magazines (~30 rounds each). Ammo: Hollow point and frangible rounds. Burner phones.

U.S. Attorney Leah Foley: “Not using credit cards tied to his name.” —

**THE ATTACKS** December 13, 2025 — Brown University

Location: Barus & Holley building.

Dead: 2 Injured: 9 Shell casings: 44 Victims had no known connection to Valente.

December 15, 2025 — Brookline, MA

Nuno Loureiro shot multiple times at his home around 8:30 PM.

Died December 16.

U.S. Attorney confirmed: “Loureiro was the intended target.”

December 18, 2025 — Salem, NH

Valente found dead in his storage unit. Self-inflicted gunshot. Same day as the Trump Media-TAE merger announcement. —

**THE VICTIM:

Nuno F.G. Loureiro**

Born ~1978, Portugal.

Graduated IST Lisbon 2000. PhD Imperial College London.

Director, MIT Plasma Science and Fusion Center (appointed May 2024).

FPA Board of Directors member.

His quote: “Fusion energy will change the course of human history.”

MIT’s Plasma Science and Fusion Center spawned Commonwealth Fusion Systems.

CFS has raised ~$3 billion.

CFS has a power purchase agreement with Google.

CFS received $15M from the DOE Milestone Program.

TAE Technologies was NOT selected for that program.

Boston Globe called TAE “one of Commonwealth’s top rivals.” —

**THE CONFERENCE**

FPA 46th Annual Meeting December 9-10, 2025 Washington DC

December 9, 7:30 PM: FPA Board of Directors meeting.

December 10, 8:20 AM: Michl Binderbauer (TAE CEO) presents industry perspectives.

December 10, 10:15 AM: Nuno Loureiro presents MIT PSFC research highlights. Both on the FPA Board. Both presented the same day. Both almost certainly attended the same board meeting the night before.

Unanswered: Was Valente in DC during the conference? —

**THE MERGER** Announced December 18, 2025.

Transaction: $6+ billion (all-stock).

Ownership: 50/50 split.

Trump Media invests up to $300M cash into TAE.

Co-CEOs: Devin Nunes + Michl Binderbauer.

Donald Trump Jr. joins 9-member board.

Trump personally controls ~41% of Trump Media.

Investor call duration: 8 minutes.

Questions allowed: Zero.

Six months earlier, TAE was valued at $1.8 billion. The merger values them at $6+ billion. 3x increase.

When did negotiations begin? Undisclosed.

Who initiated? Undisclosed.

Binderbauer’s only explanation: “This is the one that moved… I just have to reduce it to that simple sort of factor.” —

**THE STOCK** 10 trading days before announcement: – Stock down 9% – Down 7 of 10 days – December 17 close: $10.47 (near 52-week low) Announcement day: – Surged 32-42% – Volume: 56-99.5 million shares – Volume increase: 1,265% above average – C

all options purchased: 118,731 (146% above normal)

November 24: TipRanks flagged “call volume above normal and directionally bullish.” —

**TAE vs COMMONWEALTH FUSION**

TAE: Field-reversed configuration. Needs 1+ billion degrees.

CFS: Compact tokamak. Needs ~100 million degrees.

TAE funding: ~$1.3-1.8B pre-merger.

CFS funding: ~$3B.

TAE DOE Milestone Program: NOT selected.

CFS DOE Milestone Program: $15M award.

Binderbauer on tokamaks: “The magnetic field used in a tokamak is very inefficient. We are about 10 times as efficient.” —

**THE CONFLICTS** R

ep. Don Beyer: Called for congressional oversight. Robert Weissman (Public Citizen): “Markets are betting on direct federal government payments to a company whose leading shareholder is the president.” R

ichard Painter (former White House ethics lawyer): “Huge conflict of interest.” Context: –

DOE created Office of Fusion in November 2025 –

TAE met DOE officials early December urging federal fusion funding –

Ernest Moniz (Obama’s Energy Secretary) sits on TAE’s board –

Fusion industry needs ~$77B to bring pilot plants online —

**CRITICAL TIMELINE**

1995-2000: Valente and Loureiro at IST Lisbon together.

Feb 2000: Valente terminated.

2000: Loureiro graduates.

Aug 2000: Valente enters U.S.

July 2003: Valente withdraws from Brown.

May 2024: Loureiro becomes MIT PSFC Director.

June 2025: TAE raises $150M at $1.8B valuation.

Nov 2025: DOE creates Office of Fusion.

Nov 2025: Valente rents storage unit.

Nov 24: Unusual DJT call option activity.

Dec 1: Valente starts stalking Brown.

Dec 9-10: FPA Conference — Binderbauer and Loureiro both present.

Dec 13: Brown shooting.

Dec 15: Loureiro murdered.

Dec 18: Merger announced. Valente found dead. —

**UNANSWERED**

Why was Valente terminated from IST in February 2000?

What was his specific relationship with Loureiro?

What was he doing July 2003 – January 2005?

What was he doing September 2010 – April 2017?

How did he fund the attacks with no credit cards?

What triggered action after 25 years?

Why target Brown students who had no connection to him?

Was Valente in Washington DC December 9-10?

When did merger negotiations actually begin?

Who initiated — Trump Media or TAE?

What did TAE’s DOE meetings in early December cover?

What’s in the Salem storage unit beyond weapons?

What was on the burner phones? —

The Stella lead and the Wayback Machine on http://claudiovalenteinc.com are immediately actionable.

What do you see when you look at this?

now some diving on cloning:

What did Silver do today? What if it goes to 88?

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Sometimes, yes……

Strange day. Strange energies. One of those “what time is it what day is it where am I” experiences.

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Further Reflecting on December.

I read something this morning that was like a warm blanket to my nervous system: Don’t let others have access to you just because it’s December.

As I reflected yesterday, the holidays can bring with it years or decades of bodily held pain. Memories pleasant and unpleasant. Confusion coming from a dysregulated nervous system.

Celebrating can feel like we are both revisiting and soothing an old wound.

How many of us look at the month of December with dread? I do.

The expectations.

The longing for something I don’t have and the pressure TO have it. Options offered but knowing those options are also not what I really need or want.

What would your holiday season look like if you were to get completely clear on what you want it to be about?

Push past the expectations, the pressures, see what comes up within the body, the sensations.

Notice.

Observe.

Offer up some gentle somatic movements, breathing (longer out than in).

Bi-lateral tapping.

Butterfly hug.

Write down the inner story. Sometimes that choice alone is enough to get your nervous system back online. And if you are able to or want to, give yourself a little bit of what that inner You needed all along.

Calendar systems don’t need to dictate our life. It is just another program/spell of illusion to break.

Then create new through healing those illusions.

💖

Victoria

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Christmas Reflecting.

Feliz Navidad greets me on the radio as I sit down to write this. No joke.

This morning, an email newsletter from a nervous system healing group in which I belong greeted me as did another money manifesting newsletter in which I belong.

All of this sits in my mind and body, calling me to write about it.

The song. Who didn’t grow up hearing that song this time of year? A simple little tune, happy, upbeat. I used to sing along with it as I bopped around town in my little car. Visiting friends. Visiting family. Sucking on those 1″ thick candy canes from my youth.

The newsletter from the money manifesting started off by talking about the massive holiday preparations she was undertaking, getting ready to cozy on up with her spouse and children. Perhaps a getaway to the mountains to rent a nice cabin. (to which my teenage self muttered “well goodie for you”)

Today neither of these two above resonated with me. All they served was to trigger me, which is why I really appreciated the nervous system newsletter, which talked about the masks we wear during the holidays, especially at Christmas. Christmas brings up the best and saddest/most pained of what’s inside. All of those unhealed parts stored in our nervous systems, showing up in each of us, coming out in a myriad of ways we often don’t even notice. Checking our watch to see how much longer until we get to leave. Deep sighs coming from mom’s smiling face. Chugging down a glass of wine to “relax”.

Who hasn’t experienced this?

It seems this year in particular is hitting extra hard. The fatigue. Fog of war (is it any wonder there’s been an unusual amount OF fog this year – let alone the last few years?). The cost of E V E R Y T H I N G. The overspending. The fear TO spend. The pressure to put on a smile and “be grateful” when that’s the last thing your body needs much less wants TO do.

Can’t we all just remove our damn masks and let out how we REALLY feel?

This year I put up a tree. Hung lights. Put out more decorations than usual. Bought gifts. Sent out cards. What is it I am trying to hide FROM? Why do I cave to the pressure? Do I really even want to celebrate?

I do. I want to celebrate. But I also want to be left the hell alone until I want to reconnect again. I want sad memories gone. I want the happy memories gone because they only make me feel sad over a life that feels like it happened a million years ago in a different timeline and at that, it feels like it was an illusion. A lie. Like I was living in a cloud I didn’t even know existed. Today, I am a completely different person. Still me but HUGELY different.

Awakening has a dark side. It exposes all that is fake.

So then….

What FEELS real now?

What am I really connected to?

Pray to Jesus.

Jesus is the reason for the season.

Why do I feel NOTHING when I focus on those?

I LONG for what feels real but don’t know what that is much less what it even looks like. I can’t even frigging VISUALIZE my life now. I try and I try and I try and come up blank. Empty. Literally – like there’s nothing there inside left to offer up. I may get an idea but there’s just like no lasting feeling. Even though I have a new direction in this 3D matrix and an appointment early next year to get going on it, fresh road kill has more life to it than does this new direction.

It’s like my nervous system is telling me to just STOP.

And something deep within is saying the same.

JUST. STOP.

Stare at the damn sky even if it’s a mess with fog.

Look at pictures even if they don’t inspire me to feeeeeeeeel.

Play my piano even if I feel robotic doing so.

It’s like I’m digging SO DEEP now. A new layer that I haven’t touched but I still feel like it’s there. A distant far off memory. A remembrance.

Of what was before all of this matrix shit consumed my experience.

Of who I was IN it.

Whatever it is you are doing this week with whomever or even alone (remote cabin in the woods by a lake sounds quite appealing now doesn’t it?), know you aren’t alone if any of this resonates with you. There can be no lonelier feeling than to be alone and feel you need TO be with others just as there is no lonelier feeling than being WITH family/friends and feeling totally disconnected.

Maybe the best gift we can give ourselves is just to let ourselves sit with however it is we do feel inside. Let that part of us speak. It has a story. A story that deserves to be seen, allowed to exist and told instead of drowning it with a glass of wine, a forced smile or a glance at our watch.

💖

Victoria

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Reflecting: Finding kindness in the chaos. Our Awakening. Some finds and headlines. 12.22.25

I find my part in the Awakening as an inside and outside doing. The most important part, for me, is the inner Awakening.

Obviously.

What often begins on the outside – seeing the deception. The evil. The lies. All of it – everywhere inside of this place. What begins out there at some point returns home – Within. Because outside has lied TO us and inside voices of lies have deceived me as well.

And man is this happening to me.

YEARS and YEARS of keeping things to myself out of fear of being abandoned or attacked – it’s all coming out. That process really kicked on about two years ago when I got snapped awake by something my daughter said – something I NEEDED not only to hear but to hear her say – and it’s been a tidal wave of inner verbal volcanic Truths coming out, leading me to this point where I no longer care. I don’t fear NEARLY as I once did at being totally transparent with my life experience.

I let my own fear consume me and keep me small and afraid.

Now and then when I found the voice to defend myself, that has come out at times sounding as horrible as the original attacker.

Which then gives them reason to say “I” am the problem.

Psychologists mislabel the phrase as “reactive abuse”. When one has been pushed over and over again for a period of time, at some point you snap. It’s instinctive. And often when that happens, as I said, you sound like the one who has been abusing you. The difference is key: What is referred to as an argument leads to behavior change, ownership, the desire is to connect. The opposite seeks to CONTROL.

Control or connect.

I only choose connection – and I need to feel safe to do that.

Even though I know I learned TO overly control things as much as I could as it was the only thing that felt safe to me given my lack of connections with those I wanted most to connect with.

If that makes sense.

So I am highly selective now – probably for the first time in my life.

After a life long belief that I should allow anyone and everyone into my life, lost in a false pollyanna belief that the Universe would never let anything bad happen to me, that everyone was good and could be trusted (or I should give them many chances and/or stick around if they were kind at times even if the rest of the time they were treating me like crap) I woke up and saw this reality for what it is. It is not a place for blind trust. Discernment is key. Going SLOW is key. Taking my time to get to know others – utterly essential.

And I can’t do ANY of that effectively until I KNOW MYSELF.

The ME before the expectations and the pressures and the harm and the horror.

For most of my adult life I’ve had the fear that I am the problem. I am the reason why some have just seemed to gravitate towards me and work to break me down while not owning A N Y of their behavior.

But I don’t have that fear anymore and nor do I have the belief that I and I alone am the problem.

I do the inner work.

I go within.

I will own my b.s. when I feel I need to.

I talk with others.

I want to KNOW myself.

I want to heal.

I want to understand.

I want to create peace AND I want to understand my fears of it.

I want to hold safe space and to have safe space held for me as I seek to heal and understand all of my gunk and junk that has clogged up my beauty.

I want to connect and build.

That is what I’ve longed for my entire adult life.

I just didn’t have the courage to believe I could have it. The lack of trust in myself.

Well no more.

My days of being involved in ANY situation or relationship that does not focus on the actions of connecting and building are o v e r.

DONE.

As in put a f’ing fork in that part of me that is DONE.

I will not be silent.

I will be ME.

This is our Awakening. It’s messy for awhile. But in the end? It’s f’ing beautiful.

💥🎇💫

Victoria

Today’s scripts and movie scenes (don’t know about you but I feel more and more attached to this – as though something else is more important):

Every day there’s a bizarre plot twist:

The veil is gone. Illusion shattered. The truth of everyone everything is seen.

Ah but remember:

Dang, I forgot I put this together last night:

YEAR OF THE HORSE 2026

This happens every 12 years.

The last time was in 2014.

Dan Scavino, under his personal account at the time, was posting pictures of HORSES.

According to GROK: “Yes, Dan Scavino (primarily via his account

@DanScavino) has posted multiple images of horses over the years, mostly from around 2013–2015. These include: Photos of rescued horses from Lucky Orphans Horse Rescue (e.g., groups of riders on horses, individual horses grazing or in stables, and therapy-related images). Collages and photos related to famous racehorses like American Pharoah (Triple Crown winner) and California Chrome, often featuring the horses in races or victory poses.”

I also decided to do a GEMATRIA: YEAR OF THE HORSE Which is a 888

(Hebrew GEMATRIA) 888

Divine Plan

Presidents Day (which is Feb. 16, 2026 – ONE DAY before the official onset of THE YEAR OF THE HORSE)

Goodbye Deepstate

Enough Is Enough (from Q posts of which there are 7)

Trump and Qanon

Trump Putin

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12.17.25 ~ Checking in. Finds. BONGINO is out.

It is feeling really rough and heavy – and I haven’t even gone out into it yet. We had a wild windstorm last night, which given it started shortly after midnight, felt a bit fortuitous. We’re all feeling that collective purge/push, as though we’re about ready to give birth and the baby is just hanging out in the birth canal, head has crowned and we’re like GET OUT NOW! I don’t know – maybe some aren’t feeling this. Many of us are, and certainly all are longing for a NEW WORLD. For now, we have T showing that America (and the world) has been occupied by that “I” country. We’re seeing he was Jewish all along – remember before the last election he told Christians this was the last time they would have to vote and that he wasn’t Christian?

Well, there you go.

It feels nasty. Uncomfortable. Needing to run but no place to run to, unless someone knows of a rural home available, let me know. Seriously – I am willing to go wherever it takes to bring in more peace.

That ongoing pressure behind the 3rd eye continues. Waking up tense continues. A mix of wanting to just sleep but then scream and run – escape – stand in one place and drop a million f-bombs – it’s all there atm.

Breeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeathe in. Breeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeathe out.

Go for a walk.

And eat a cookie. My girl and I made frosted sugar cookies last night, with sprinkles. It is sometimes the small things that keep the sanity in check. We are past the 100th monkey.

💖🙏

Victoria

Big Swamp Creature #1 stepping down…”he wants to go back to his show.” Any bets as to who follows? Patel? Bondi? Noem?

BREAKING: Bongino Announces He is Resigning From the FBI in January

Dan Bongino on Wednesday confirmed he is resigning from the FBI.

Bongino said he will be leaving the FBI in January.

Full statement on X:

I will be leaving my position with the FBI in January.
I want to thank President Trump, AG Bondi, and Director Patel for the opportunity to serve with purpose.
Most importantly, I want to thank you, my fellow Americans, for the privilege to serve you.
God bless America, and all those who defend Her.

WATCH: US SMOKES 26th Drug Boat Killing Four Narcoterrorists – Tucker Carlson Suggests War with Venezuela Imminent

JUST IN: House Passes Bill to Prosecute Doctors and Parents for Sex Changes for Children with Three Democrats Joining Republicans but FOUR Republicans Voting Against – Trans Rep. Tim McBride Freaks Out Ahead of Vote (VIDEO)

The bill, authored by Rep. Marjorie Taylor Greene (R-GA), makes it criminal to “knowingly perform, or attempt to perform, genital or bodily mutilation on another person who is a minor” with penalties of up to ten years in prison. It further protects minors from chemical castration or hormonal treatments.

Parents who facilitate, consent to, or transport the minor to receive sex change surgeries could also be charged.

This codifies President Trump’s January “Protecting Children from Chemical and Surgical Mutilation” Executive Order, 

I’m wondering if this is a GO signal:

$1,776 Checks for the Military

Fetterman and Cruz. “leaders”. 😂🤡

HTML code on this one – 911

“Operation Cast Thy Bread” (Hebrew: Shallah Lahmekha) was a secret biological warfare operation conducted by the Haganah and later the Israel Defense Forces (IDF) during the 1948 Arab-Israeli War (known to Palestinians as the Nakba). 

Objectives and Execution

The primary objective of the operation was to prevent Palestinian Arabs from returning to villages captured by Zionist forces and to impede the advance of opposing Arab armies. 

  • Method: Israeli forces, including a special unit known as the Mista’arvim who disguised themselves as Arabs, contaminated drinking water wells with typhoid bacteria.
  • Targets: The contamination targeted water sources in Palestinian towns and villages, including Acre and Eilabun in the Galilee, as well as areas in the Jerusalem corridor. Plans also existed to expand the operation to neighboring Arab states like Egypt, Lebanon, and Syria, but these were reportedly not carried out in full.
  • Outcome: The operation caused a typhoid epidemic and severe illness among dozens of local Palestinian civilians, contributing to the depopulation of several areas. It did not, however, achieve the large-scale, crippling effects its advocates had hoped for and was discontinued by December 1948. 

“US GOVERNMENT AND THE JEWS ONE IN THE SAME”. Why aren’t the good Jews calling out the bad Jews? Here we have an Ashkenazi Jewish American Genius calling it out. (btw – it is said according to my family history I am an Ashkenazi Jew as well and I ask the same. damn. questions.)

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MY FELLOW AMERICANS (we Truthers are DONE)

It’s all one giant Truman Show.

Living in this reality will do this to a person. Evil is everywhere. And traumatized people who don’t SEE their trauma and work to heal it will only keep the cycle going.

My purpose is to see, call it out and heal what I can within. Because not only am I not coming back to a reality like this ever (NEVER) again, I am canceling removing healing all that is not me.

In the FUCH NO stage atm. As in NO to the scripts and fake scenes and NO to the idea we have to build a new world without any blueprint or organized plan because even though there are some intentional communities most are for the young and healthy – or wealthy – or who don’t eat meat, etc.

What do I want? A FREQUENCY EVENT that opens UP the new world ALREADY THERE. Feeeeeeeeeels is stronger than it’s ever been.

WE ARE DONE WITH IT HERE.

She nails it below. Many – if not most – if not all of us are right here at this moment. It. is. constant.

His address will happen on the 17th. We’ll see….

All I see are clowns and stewpid people out there…

3I Atlas UPDATES:


3I/ATLAS is now Glowing GOLD as Earth’s Closest Approach Countdown Begins

3I/ATLAS IS COMING!

Until I am able to get the $$ help I need (and applied for but the system totally dropped the ball on me putting me right back to where I was back in spring), and until one of the myriad of focused efforts on my part actually bring me in a more stable, higher level of income, I remain here, doing what I do.

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12.13.25 ~ A Few Finds. THE SUM OF ALL FEARS. Reflecting on our Nervous System, healing and this reality.

Hey everyone.

So – are we all in agreement that sleep is not the antidote to our constant exhaustion? Our nervous systems have been a constant target here. From world stage happenings to disclosure to the war on our minds to the poisons to the targeted attacks to just being trapped in this pay to live reality of totalitarian bullshit, we are in survival mode and have been for who knows how long. Our nervous systems, who don’t do well in such an environment, have become wired to live this way and depending on who you are and your experience here, your background, your families and connections and locations and choices, some are having it easier, some more difficult.

The nervous system as I have said is like the wiring harness of the car. If all of the wires aren’t properly connected or in good shape, your car is going to feel it. Doesn’t matter if you put on new tires or new brakes or clean it up with natural cleaner, if the wiring system isn’t functioning properly, you’re going to have a car that can often be sluggish and unpredictable. This is why supplements alone aren’t enough. Diet. Exercise. While important, they only offer SUPPORT. To heal, the nervous system needs more than just support. It needs to begin to feel SAFE.

Healing happens in micro moments. Focused intention on what’s going on within. Find where there’s tension – ask what is needed. Movement? Warmth? A gentle rub?

Micro-moments. Moments of certain breathing techniques. Mindful movements. Placing gentle pressure on certain parts of the body. Yoga and stretching. Humming. Tones. Eye movements. Pausing before entering and exiting places. Focus on neutral or pleasing scenes. Identifying where you are and what you see. Asking the body what it needs and be prepared to talk to the nervous system in the way it needs – via sensation. And acceptance.

And realize sometimes, nothing works. And when that’s your situation, just sit with that.

All that said, this reality doesn’t support our nervous systems. It commands us to be robotic and tough. Survival of the fittest was never about our needs. It was always about competition and who is the toughest in the game.

I say FUCH THAT.

GAME OVER.

Here’s what I’m seeing.

💖🙏

Victoria

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So this happened today…

Trump went to the Army-Navy football game today. https://thehill.com/homenews/administration/5648025-trump-attends-army-navy-football/

The NAVY won: Navy ultimately came back to win 17-16. (MOVIE)

There are 10 Q posts with the phrase: SUM OF ALL FEARS

In the movie SUM OF ALL FEARS:

In The Sum of All Fears, the U.S. President, J. Robert Fowler (played by James Cromwell), attends a Super Bowl-like championship football game in Baltimore, where a nuclear bomb is detonated by terrorists, leading to chaos, the death of CIA Director Cabot, and near nuclear war between the U.S. and Russia. The terrorists, led by Dressler, aim to incite war by making it look like Russia’s doing, forcing Jack Ryan (Ben Affleck) to expose the truth and stop escalation. 

Gematria: SUM OF ALL FEARS (888)

All of Gods Children Are Free

Donald J Trump

Time Traveler

Eye of the Tiger

Morning Star

Can ya’ll tell? I have no patience for this b.s. at this point…

No patience because THIS 👇 I feel I have aged a lot since 2020. Energetically spent – even when I’m having good moments my SOUL is screaming exhausted. I want “off this ride” too.

Entire matrix = narcissistic, self-serving, self-focused, power over, seeks to control instead of connect, ZERO accountability program. And it. is. everywhere now. OR perhaps it’s always been there and those of us real humans with a Soul simply see it now….

For the love of………..MAKE IT SO….

Even if you buy used or work under-the-table/don’t pay taxes – we’re all still enslaved until we wake up – see it for what it is – STAND and command the rules of the prison be destroyed. You don’t reason with evil – you destroy it.

Those who instill forced silence via gaslighting and word salad seek to hide truth.

I still like what my late friend John once said to me: “Don’t go to the light. It’s an alien holding a flashlight.” I remember a couple of months after his departure, I tuned in and tried to get a sense of where he was. I had an intense vision of him – he was angry – he left so quickly and was not ready to go. He had a couple of other “people” around him, trying to calm him. So I pulled out. A few months later I tried again and this time I saw him with a weapon, a ship and he was fighting the dimensional demons. He had found a purpose. When he first came through, I could feel his excitement in connecting with me. “I got out!” he said, calling me by the name he used to give me.

FUCH YES

the same freak who married his cousin too…

Holy guacamole!

Wow – 14 years ago this was out there.

😂 Safety first…

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12.11.25 ~ YOU MUST SHOW THEM. Finds and updates on 3I Atlas

Strange (feeling) day. Doing 3d technically oriented stuff. Spent 3 hours last night getting my new printer hooked up. Finally was able to get it to print. Today? I’m afraid to touch it. New tech sucks. 🤣

💖🙏

Victoria

ZELLE: themamatrinity@gmail.com

CASHAPP: $VictoriaT1144

My daughter’s Amazon Wish List:

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As Q said in 10 different posts, sometimes you can’t tell people the truth. YOU MUST SHOW THEM. All caps too (in 8 of the 10 drops). Let’s do a GEMATRIA on that one first:

a third of this planet dead sun supernova

decode you are the phoenix

the bright morning star

currency revaluation

to unlock my powers

has plan to save all world

thirty two dimensional planes (would not surprise me)

the twelve tribes of Israel (saving is ra el and that evil horror for last)

“From what is known of Jacob, he had two wives, sisters Leah and Rachel, and two concubines, Bilhah and Zilpah. The twelve sons form the basis for the twelve tribes of Israel, listed in the order from oldest to youngest: Reuben, Simeon, Levi, Judah, Dan, Naphtali, Gad, Asher, Issachar, Zebulun, Joseph, and Benjamin.” And the Jews and Christians are ok with this??

There are a lot of May references, which is interesting as the SKY EVENT is only mentioned 4 times, two of them in May (the other two are in April).

BTW, we are going from the Year Of The Snake (them) to the Year Of The Horse. Freedom and Liberation. Begins Feb. 17th too.

Here are more YOU MUST SHOW THEM finds. It keeps going to new levels.

3I ATLAS UPDATES:

NOW THAT !! Gas of 3I/Atlas moves slower than Natural Sublimation would allow it ! Physics SHATTERED

New X-ray image reveals what 3I/ATLAS is REALLY doing near the Sun ! Unbelievable Update !

NEW 3I/ATLAS “COINCIDENCE”

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12.10.25 ~ And “GOLD SHALL DESTROY THE FED”. CENTRAL CASTING. Sharing an interesting experience and some Finds.

I was out front just after sunset changing the batteries on my lights. I hear the voice of a little girl, about 5 or so. “Oh, you SCARED me!” I look down and see she’s talking to me. I smiled and apologized, saying I was sorry I scared her. I was changing the batteries for my Christmas lights. She began chatting with me, saying I looked like a doll with my pretty hair. I thanked her, adjusting the settings on my lights. She continued to talk in that way 5 year old little girls do. Excited. Zero censorship button. She then went on to tell me I looked like a cartoon character, which I found interesting because, you know, that whole simulation theory how we’re all really just characters inside a game. So I said, “Oh really? What kind of a cartoon character?”

“A princess!” she said.

I thanked her for not saying I looked like foghorn leghorn or something. Her mom was there at this point, laughing along with me. The talk turned to American Girl dolls before she decided she was done with the conversation, returned to her bike ride and continued on her way.

A nice little conversation in an otherwise interesting day, which for me is feeling like a Shift has taken place this week. Time speeding up. We are also having very unusual weather – as in unheard of. 60’s. With sun. I was out front sweeping pine needles in yoga pants and a tank top, looking at my tree inside thinking I was in Florida. I’ll take MUCH more of that.

Here is what I am seeing on stage. They are all clowns to me now.

💖🙏

Victoria

ZELLE: themamatrinity@gmail.com

CASHAPP: $VictoriaT1144

My girl’s Amazon Wish List.

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Feeeeeeeeeels…

Central Casting…

JUST IN: Federal Reserve Cuts Interest Rates by 25 Basis Points

JUST IN: House Passes $900B Military Defense Bill – Hardline Conservatives Decry Liberal Provisions and Ukraine Funding in Bill (VIDEO)

BREAKING: Trump Administration Releases Video of US Seizing Venezuelan Oil Tanker

BREAKING: Trump Confirms US Forces’ Interception and Seizure of Sanctioned Oil Tanker off the Coast of Venezuela – UPDATE: Watch Footage of US Troops Seizing the Ship

Interesting synch – my girl and I are watching The Brady Bunch Movie on a nudge – commenting on the two totally different worlds taking place at the same time. Bringing back the Brady Mobile. I had a feeeeeeeel that Trump’s recent focus on those TINY CARS was reference to their end and a new product coming out. Is this it?

It is very possible the ICC is corrupt too….

No matter how slow I read this, it is still a foreign language to me…

Watching NK and Is ra el too….Could be the [controlled] scare event…

Nope – did not vote for this..How angry does the military want us to get?

💖 In it:

“When a woman outgrows her old life, she often walks forward alone.”

There is a loneliness that belongs uniquely to women who are healing.

You start shedding old versions of yourself — the people-pleaser, the one who overgave, the one who tolerated mistreatment, the one who silenced her own voice to keep the peace.

You begin to want deeper conversations, softer love, gentler mornings, more aligned friendships.

You want truth, not guessing games.

You want reciprocity, not emotional labor disguised as connection.

But the moment you step into this higher version of yourself, you notice the distance.

The friends still living in chaos no longer feel like home.

The men who relied on your self-sacrificing nature no longer have access to you.

The circles where you once fit now feel too small.

This loneliness is not a punishment —it is a passage. It is your soul expanding faster than your surroundings. It is the clearing of space for connections aligned with the woman you are becoming.

This loneliness teaches you: how to soothe yourself how to enjoy your own company how to fill your own cup how to trust your own wisdom how to stop settling for half-love how to stop shrinking just to belong

Eventually, the loneliness lifts. Not because you go back to what you outgrew, but because new people find you—people whose hearts resonate with yours.

Growth is a lonely season, yes. But it is also the gateway to a life overflowing with people who see you, choose you, and match you.”

~ Ancestral Healing

Anyone want to hear some real talent? Check this out – my nephew.

More musical talent…This is just beautiful.

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12.9.25 ~ Checking in. Finds & Headlines

I had a whole plethora of things to say – kept gathering them in my mind all day – and now? Think I can remember any of it? Nope. I was engaged in phone calls and emails, starting from scratch you could say in the financial/job area, all of the intuitive stuff just got sort of swept away.

I would laugh – but I read something today – because this struggle has become very real and it’s been bothering me. I know it isn’t just the war or the energies – it’s my dysregulated nervous system with a compromised brain resulting from being in survival mode for so many damn years. Long term abuse and trauma are behind it all. Part of that trauma is indeed being in this pay to live compete to live system of survival. Billions of people with just the one system. That there is the definition of insanity.

This shit keeps our nervous systems – our brains – always on the lookout for danger of varying degrees. And if the experience here is intense enough and challenging/difficult enough, combine that with high sensitivities, the brain changes. The hippocampus shrinks. The amygdala takes over the logical portion of the brain, making relaxation in full next to impossible, certainly not for long duration’s of time, which then makes it impossible to concentrate in full. End result? Memory issues.

This is Neuroscience.

Healing is always possible of course. Being in an environment that is supportive. Loving. Where you can relax enough and begin to trust enough to let go and allow safety in – in a new way.

But that pay to live bullshit? Yeah that has to change for ALL of us to heal and return to Who We Really Are IN FULL.

Perhaps at the end of this day, this is all I really needed TO share.

🙏💖

Victoria

ZELLE: themamatrinity@gmail.com

CASHAPP: $VictoriaT1144

My girl’s Amazon Wish List

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This movie is confusing as hell to me now. Figuring out who is who. Ugh. It only satisfies my ego at times much like playing a game does and wondering who will win and who will lose.

Does it nourish my Soul?

Not one bit.

We have democrats ruining cities. Republicans saying how GREAT the economy is. “Look at all of those beautiful jobs!” we hear. “See how gas prices and food prices have come down?” they blather to our weary ears.

Dystopian reality is front and center. Central casting. AI. It’s all feeling so ungawdly horribly FAKE. I want to scream at how F A K E it all is.

As I keep reminding myself – I was NEVER – N E V E R adept in figuring out who was who inside of movies – it all felt and still feels so fake. Regardless of whatever purpose it may all be serving, I don’t trust ANY of them out on stage now. They are all possible suspects to be thrown under the bus and forgotten about at this point, for me.

He did a rally today. Doesn’t it seem – and feeeeeeel – different now? Quiet? Staging area far less filled up with MAGA.

AI pushing AI. What if the purpose of this is to wake us up to the fact that we are inside of a computer brain – inside of a simulated reality run on AI? And we’re all smaller here, more dumbed down, with just a Spark of our Truth remaining within. And what if this show and tell is helping all to see enough of this FAKE reality so that when the frequency hits us taking our Spark to full on BOOM – it is much easier for the mind to let go because we have all become so desperate for a new experience.

Even though we have local cattle farms around here, most of the beef simply doesn’t taste the way it should. It’s like it isn’t finished and prepped correctly. Too much blood remains. When butchered and finished properly, allowed to age, that beef can taste wonderful. The last time I had this experience was with a local farm that was doing it right for awhile then changed. Their beef began tasting like store bought. Shortly thereafter, they just sort of disappeared. I haven’t been able to find replacement since – this after trying over half a dozen area small family farms.

Personally I have no desire to live my life as a nomad on wheels.

There’s NK again…BTW – there are 17 Q posts containing NORTH KOREA

Exposed? Or implemented?

A good replacement – Simple Mills. Ingredients you can understand. I like their cinnamon honey crackers – sweetened with coconut sugar and honey. Put a dollop of organic cream cheese in between a couple and you have a healthy alternative to whatever *this* is….

Says the Alien himself…

Putting my meme skills to work:

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