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Mind Viruses E V E R Y W H E R E. Reflecting and Some Finds, including COMMS showing pizza and hot dogs being destroyed. GROK tells us we are being censored and why.

I can feeeeeeeeeeeeeeel it.

The matrix.

The simulation.

The programs.

Operating at high capacity now.

Today I was thinking about division – it is “their” operating tool.

Combine that with the narcissistic frequency program and it makes it VERY easy here TO divide.

I see the program on the left with the woke narrative and the pronouns and non-binary lunacy.

I see the program on the right with the rugged individualistic capitalistic I GOT MINE, GET YOURS lunacy.

NEITHER side believes the other side has a damn thing worthy of being listened to.

If I could, I would insert a giant collective Pill of CHILL into this reality.

Deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep breath.

Go inward.

Unless you can be The Observer (which is a challenge to do at times – I get that):

Stop watching the chaos.

Stop identifying WITH it.

Stop giving it a label or even a story.

Just S T O P.

OMG my inner Me is screaming JUST EFFING STOP.

Stop the noise.

I feel like the Grinch, only I’m not the Grinch. I have a heart. I’m just f’ing done having it betrayed and pounded, you know?

I went to the store tonight. This is the second time I have noticed people are suddenly louder in their talk. Like REALLY loud. There was a group of 20 somethings talking so loud I could hear them on the other end of the store. As I got to the front of the store to check out, their talk was so loud I had to plug my ears. If that wasn’t UGH enough, there was a man in there, probably 40 or so, shopping with a woman. At first, I thought he was mentally challenged, so I gave him some grace. However, observing him some more, I realized he was either just a clueless asshat or he was drugged up on something. His eyes looked similar to Charles Manson. Freaked. me. out. I was so uncomfortable. His moves were erratic and unpredictable. He ended up standing right next to me as I bagged my groceries (as quickly as I could, seeing he was now in the line I had been in), talking very loudly to the clerk about his non-binary status. Totally lost in the program. I could see it and feel it, and his energy was very uncomfortable to be around, so I finished bagging as fast as I could, then suddenly said, loudly, “I AM A FEMALE” and got out.

Talk about matrix attacks. I still let them get to me. After enough of them, I have to assert my boundary. Loudly. I don’t know how to do it any other way these days. But deep within I also know Truth rises to the top – sometimes loudly at first – but it remains solid and quiet.

I also don’t know how to look at things that are clearly fucked up and total bullshit without including those words (more on that below for a nice validating analysis). Like when Dan Scavino Jr is on stage talking about job seekers being denied employment because they lack whatever bullshit requirements employers demand these days. In what reality, Divinely Created, do we require controlled banking scores to determine worthiness of employment, much less what other reality that is also Divinely Created requires we pay it to survive?

It’s

All

Fucking

Bullshit.

ALL of it.

The PSYOPS.

The division.

Just U G H. ENOUGH.

We’re all tired.

All spent.

Our Souls have been contained FAR too long.

Waiting on this endless train of insanity, waking up Minds along the way.

So, all on the train who are still fully immersed in the division part of the game, who think the problem is the human with the rainbow shirt sitting next to you or the human with the MAGA hat standing beside you, you are looking with eyes, mind, and heart still closed. The enemy hoodwinked us all.

So WAKE THE FUCK UP and SEE the bullshit.

PLEASE.

Some of us KNOW we have LIVING to do and are tired of waiting FOR it.

💖

Victoria

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Trending (although I’m wondering if that’s a psyop as well):

WE know what pizza and hot dogs refer to:

The next step to crush the $ystem…

EYES ON – landed in LAX Thursday (yesterday):

She clearly hit him with her vehicle before speeding off. Officer used self-defense.

Fun little game:

Inside this place, yes, I believe it does – especially when they are used intentionally to speak your truth:

I scream NOOOOOOOO inside when I hear words like “midterms”. This is not about politics. Or elections.

The truth is quickly drowning out the media/system’s narrative:

Out on Jan. 30th:

I was heavily conditioned to be a nice girl (as in pleasing and quiet and putting everyone first). It about destroyed me. Thankfully I never fully lost sight of the Lionness within.

https://www.timesofisrael.com/widespread-iran-protests-reach-13th-day-rights-group-says-at-least-51-killed-in-crackdown

CAUGHT ON CAMERA: Laura Ingraham SCORES BIG TIME as Leftist Protester Accidentally Admits She’s “Getting Paid Right Now” After Being Asked If She Has a Job

NEW: FBI Veteran Chosen to Replace Bongino

Clintons are supposed to testify on Jan 13 and 14 of next week. Interesting Q delta’s for those two days:

And my favorite:

What a cool idea:

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1.7.26 ~ Breaking News. Headlines. Greenland. Iran. MN. New FOOD Pyramid. Ending CORPORATE-OWNED Homes. GAME OVER. Flipping “their” script.

Time. Time is moving so fast now. I was thinking of everything I still wanted to do today. Dinner. Order a book for my girl. Walk. Vacuum. Laundry. I managed to get it all in – including making a blueberry pie from scratch in 8 minutes. No joke. I surprised myself.

Lots going on. Let’s get to it.

💖

Victoria

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What are the odds? Moving about GREENLAND coming up this Friday the 9th:

Anniversary of when he left this place – 1.7 (17):

https://www.reuters.com/business/energy/us-seizing-venezuela-linked-oil-tanker-after-weeks-long-pursuit-2026-01-07

  • Vessel had been renamed and registered under Russian flag
  • Seizure took place in the Atlantic, near Iceland
  • Pursuit of vessel was part of US pressure campaign on Venezuela
  • Seizure took place days after capture of President Nicolas Maduro
  • Coast Guard also seized another Venezuela-linked tanker

UPDATED:

Venezuela Updates: U.S. Forces Seize Two Tankers; Rubio Lays Out Plan for American Control

https://www.nytimes.com/live/2026/01/07/world/venezuela-us-trump

The New INVERTED Pyramid. Flipping the script – literally. A lot of meat, butter, eggs, fruits and veggies. The body NEEDS protein to build strong bones, muscles, tissue, etc. When I made just one switch from toast and cereal for breakfast to eggs, butter and bacon? I lost the 20 lbs I had not been able to lose. That was the only change. And I felt better – no carb crash.

https://understandingwar.org/research/middle-east/iran-update-january-7-2026

US is getting ripped off. Current market price in USD in China:

There are MANY homes around here corporate-owned:

January 11, 2026 = 1/11/10 or 1/11/1 or 11.11

The Red Folder:

Some interesting theorizing. It will happen when it happens…

MN

Current feeeeeeeeeels:

(she does such amazing work – no fancy titles – just a woman who has been there):

Ashley Nicole 

🖤 THE “QUIET” SYMPTOMS OF C-PTSD (THAT PEOPLE LOVE TO MISLABEL)

(You’re not lazy. You’re not dramatic. You’re not broken. You’re thawing.)

Let’s talk about the parts of C-PTSD no one warns you about.

Not the flashbacks people expect.

Not the panic attacks they recognize.

I’m talking about the quiet symptoms—the ones that get mistaken for personality flaws, laziness, moodiness, or “you just need to try harder.”

Spoiler: you’re not failing.

Your nervous system is doing exactly what it learned to do to keep you alive.

.•:*:•.

🧠 WHAT “QUIET” C-PTSD ACTUALLY LOOKS LIKE (DAILY LIFE EDITION)

C-PTSD doesn’t always scream.

Sometimes it whispers.

It looks like:

• bone-deep exhaustion that sleep doesn’t fix

• delayed emotional reactions (you feel it days later… or not at all)

• zoning out without realizing you left the room mentally

• constant self-doubt even when you know you’re capable

• executive dysfunction (you want to do the thing… the body says “no”)

• not being able to sit still OR not being able to move

• chores piling up because your brain is already at capacity

• avoiding texts, calls, or conversations—not because you don’t care, but because you don’t have the bandwidth

• smiling on autopilot while feeling completely disconnected inside

• masking to survive (and no, not the same kind narcissists do)

• contradiction: high insight + low energy, deep empathy + strong avoidance

None of this means you’re broken.

It means your system learned to conserve energy in an unsafe world.

*:•.•:*

🧬 THE NEUROSCIENCE PART (WHY THIS ISN’T A CHARACTER ISSUE)

This is where the dots connect.

When people call trauma survivors “lazy,” what they’re actually witnessing is Dorsal Vagal Shutdown.

This is part of Polyvagal Theory and it’s not optional.

When fight or flight failed repeatedly, the nervous system pulls the emergency brake.

The body enters a hibernation-like state to preserve life.

You cannot willpower your way out of it.

You cannot “push through” a shutdown state.

Your body isn’t refusing to move.

It’s protecting you.

That exhaustion sleep doesn’t fix?

That’s HPA-axis dysregulation—the system that manages cortisol and adrenaline.

When your body has been marinating in stress hormones for too long, the receptors burn out.

This is physiological depletion, not a motivation problem.

Executive dysfunction and zoning out?

That’s the Anterior Cingulate Cortex being impacted—an area responsible for attention, task-switching, and emotional regulation.

This is a hardware issue.

Not a discipline failure.

.•:*:•.

🧠 WHY GOING QUIET ISN’T “THE SILENT TREATMENT”

When trauma is triggered, blood flow decreases to Broca’s Area—the speech center of the brain.

Translation:

You literally lose access to language.

That “I can’t text back.”

That “I don’t have the words.”

That going completely quiet?

That’s not avoidance or punishment.

That’s speechless terror.

Your brain temporarily loses the physiology required to articulate complex thoughts.

Silence isn’t cruelty here.

It’s biology.

*:•.•:*

🧠 ABOUT MEMORY GAPS & INCONSISTENCIES (THIS MATTERS)

Trauma disrupts the hippocampus, which stores memory in linear order.

That’s why survivors remember events in fragments:

sensations, images, emotions—out of sequence.

This is often weaponized against victims:

“You said Tuesday, now you’re saying Wednesday.”

But here’s the forensic reality:

Inconsistent recall is a hallmark of trauma, not deception.

A calm, linear story is easier for a regulated brain.

A fragmented story is proof the system was overwhelmed.

.•:*:•.

🧠 STRUCTURAL DISSOCIATION (WHY YOU FEEL CONTRADICTORY)

C-PTSD often creates structural dissociation.

There’s:

• the ANP (Apparently Normal Part) — the adult you who understands everything

• the EP (Emotional Part) — the traumatized part holding the steering wheel

That’s why you can be:

Highly self-aware AND completely depleted.

Insightful AND frozen.

It’s not hypocrisy.

It’s two parts trying to survive the same body.

And what many people mistake for depression is often functional freeze:

high internal arousal with external shutdown.

You’re not numb because nothing’s happening.

You’re numb because too much is happening at once.

*:•.•:*

🧠 SMILING, AGREEING, STAYING PLEASANT (LET’S NAME IT)

That smile you put on when you feel unsafe?

That’s the Fawn Response.

It’s a biological submission signal meant to de-escalate a perceived threat.

It’s not manipulation.

It’s not being fake.

It’s your nervous system saying:

“Please don’t hurt me.”

.•:*:•.

🧠 WHY REST IS MISLABELED AS FAILURE

Western culture ties worth to productivity.

Sociology calls this the Productivity = Value fallacy.

But for trauma survivors, rest isn’t indulgent.

It’s neurological repair.

There’s also the sociological concept of the “Sick Role.”

People are allowed to rest when injuries are visible.

C-PTSD survivors are denied that role because their wounds are invisible.

You’re not “having a bad day.”

You’re injured.

And processing safety is work.

*:•.•:*

🧠 THE DEEPER WOUND: MORAL INJURY

C-PTSD isn’t just fear-based.

There’s often moral injury—a soul-level fracture that happens when someone who was supposed to protect you caused harm.

That’s why you see:

deep empathy + strong avoidance

wanting connection + not trusting anyone with access

You’re not antisocial.

Your trust center was shattered.

.•:*:•.

🧭 ABOUT THAT “DANGER” FEELING YOU CAN’T EXPLAIN

If you grew up in narcissistic or abusive systems, you likely developed exceptional pattern recognition.

Your body learned to track:

• tone shifts

• micro-expressions

• inconsistencies

• energy changes

• what isn’t being said

Your body knows before your brain does.

The conflict happens when empathy steps in and tries to override it:

“Maybe I’m wrong.”

“Maybe I’m projecting.”

“Maybe I should give them the benefit of the doubt.”

That’s not a flaw.

That’s a beautiful heart.

We’re not removing it.

We’re teaching it discernment.

*:•.•:*

🛠️ SMALL, SAFE WAYS TO START PROTECTING YOURSELF (ONLY WHEN YOU’RE READY)

No pressure. No urgency. No fixing.

Just options.

• Pause before responding—not to be polite, but to let your body finish its sentence

• Name sensations instead of stories (“My chest feels tight” is data, not judgment)

• Delay decisions—clarity doesn’t happen in threat

• Treat confusion as information, not failure

• Notice who requires you to override yourself to stay connected

• Use neutral exits (“I’ll think about it.” “I need time.”)

• Track patterns, not intensity—consistency tells the truth

These are learned slowly.

In micro-moments.

At your pace.

.•:*:•.

🧠 THIS IS A SKILL YOU SHOULD HAVE BEEN TAUGHT

People with emotionally safe caregivers learned this quietly:

when to trust themselves

when to slow down

when to walk away without explaining

If you didn’t learn it?

You didn’t miss something.

You survived something.

We start when we start.

Readiness decides the pace.

*:•.•:*

❤️‍🔥 FINAL TRUTH

You are not broken.

You are thawing.

You are integrating.

You are learning skills that were never modeled for you.

Your empathy is not a weakness.

Your sensitivity is not a liability.

Your awareness is not too much.

It just needs protection.

And you get to learn that slowly, safely, and on your terms.

I see you.

I believe you.

And you’re doing better than you think.

And some music to add in:

I would love to find a quiet, dark club that hires 3-piece jazz ensembles. Used to be one here in town I would hibernate in – in one of those old 70’s style malls. Got torn down, bought out and eventually turned into office buildings for the corporate hospital system. I really miss live music like this. Makes me happy inside.

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Venezuela: Marker [9] FIRST PUBLIC ARREST TRIGGERS MASS POP AWAKENING. MR PODESTA = MADURO. Is MADURA THE KRAKEN? 5:5 PUTTING IT ALL TOGETHER

Last night I stopped what I was doing as I had this thought: “I wonder when we will see #9?” I wasn’t sure what it meant, but today, I do. I will do my best below to put it all together. One thing is for certain: this is going to roll out quickly (unless they wish to avoid a Vietnam-type event/public reaction – which is already happening with WW protests).

It’s possible as well that now the leader of Iran has no place to hide (in Venezuela) – and Israel can’t go in and attack them. ?? Like we removed the Queen from the chessboard today. And we know Venezuela was a CIA hub – going back to Bush Sr. – drug trafficking, etc. – so that hub has been removed. And the fact that this happened overnight says controlled – clean and shift. And a big one: The matrix is being dismantled. The program will ATTACH itself to those who are in highly emotional states now. So as Q has said – and something I agree with (but don’t always like obviously): Don’t get lost in emotions. This is war – war is logic and strategy. Feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeels.

Here is where I feel we are in the timeline: We have been stuck in this bottleneck of time (as Bill Wood referred to it at the time) – for years. Today I feel MOVEMENT. After feeling pressure building up for weeks where it reached the level of feeling I CANNOT TAKE THIS ANYMORE – as I always feel with the Shifts – today it’s moved – finally. January Q posts that resonate with me: CHECKMATE (1.13) and 4-6 LOST FOREVER. Lost because they just could not see. And I feel we are at that point where we go forward – quickly – so playing catch-up especially if one has not seen at all yet – will be more difficult. But always possible.

💖

Victoria

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17…

5 RED FOLDERS. 5 WORLD LEADERS [ACTORS]. 5:5:

“been believed to be publicly visible confirmations of active “RED”/DEF1” wartime conditions inside related nations. Trump, Putin, Xi, and Kim also had “Red Folders” publicly displayed at differing points during the same 2-year time period. Trumps “Red Folder” made a dramatic appearance in the public domain on January 6, 2021.

Now add:

Who set up shop in Venezuela/SA a half century ago, and has been using it as a South American secure_ops HQ to coordinate crimes so vast in scope and number, that it is impossible to describe them properly through a keyboard?

-> The intelligentsia community, granddaddied regionally by the CIA, Shin Bet, MI6, and KGB/Cuban mafia junctions.

What has Maduro been doing by posturing as though Venezuela will “take on” the US military?

-> Frightening and confusing every single paramilitary and/or intelligence faction actor hiding in the shadows of the background control structure they’ve meticulously crafted in-country, by blending warlords and political sycophants with ordinary people, and throwing enormous sums of money into the fray while reducing international purchasing power for the nation.

How do you think Maduro managed to stay alive all those years before he came to power?

Don’t bite the hand?

Did he like living as a second class citizen inside his own power circle?

Did he like living with the knowledge he could be patsy’d at any time if his “usefulness” to the real rulers of Venezuela ran out, who would then loot and sell off what remains of his government’s wealth and treasure to the highest black market bidder?

Do you think he (Maduro) was unaware that, in the event the above happened, there would not be a single entity on Earth that could avenge him?

Now add:

Do you think his price to then be the “Judas Goat” for the entrenched DeepState power nodes on the ground inside his own country was more or less than 30 pieces of silver?

What about: “You’ll spend time in an American prison, but you’ll live”?

Can you imagine, if given the chance, how much incriminating material Maduro can bring to the worldwide table re: rogue US gov/DeepState operations in Venezuela/SA?

What about about evidence of those rogue groups’ extensive involvement/activities tying back to the stolen US Presidential Election from 2020, that we still have yet to fully address?

With this in mind, how well do you think those aforementioned shadow state entities can respond present-day to ongoing Venezuelan mil and civilian security operations internally, as they simultaneously come to grips with reality?

Specifically, the reality that if Venezuela’s authorities don’t catch them before they leave the country, the US military will smite them from the heavens, destroying their hoards, and sending any “insurance/leverage” they might have had to the bottom of the Caribbean Sea or the Pacific Ocean.

With their public figure “boogeyman” now ostensibly on his way to an American jailhouse, how well do you think their hold on power inside the country will fare?

The answer to the above is obvious when we step back and look at things from a high altitude.

These people are shameless parasites. They thieve, assassinate, rob, bribe, entrap, kidnap, blackmail, arm-twist, subvert, and ransom hostages, with the same level of indifference that the ordinary person feels when they order a fast food lunch.

They are humanity’s Enemies, full stop.

And Maduro and Trump just liberated Venezuela from their death grip, by executing one of the most spectacular, coordinated countercoups ever pulled off in modern warfare.”

A thought I just had: “What are the people of Venezuela thinking?” Within minutes, I found this:

https://www.zerohedge.com/geopolitical/us-forces-strike-venezuela-trump-reveals-maduro-has-been-captured

Operation ABSOLUTE RESOLVE (a GEMATRIA):

The Perfect Storm

What A Time To Be Alive

Love Conquers All

The Beginning of the End

Twin Flames Unite (I know a few who will like this one)

I Will Live In Heaven

Unlocks Hidden Door

Reverse the Curse

Silvercalculator (it is $73.54 today Spot)

Speaking of ~ Silver In Asia today:

  • Japan (JPY): Around 7776.92 JPY/oz (bid), with recent drops of over 4%.
  • Hong Kong (HKD): About 391.28 HKD/oz (bid), also down by over 4%.
  • Singapore (SGD): Roughly 65.36 SGD/oz (bid), showing a similar dip.
  • China (CNY): The XAG/CNY rate was around 508.17 with recent daily gains, but check sites like Investing.com for live data. 

WATCH THE WIVES:

WATCH THE WATER (remember from frigging YEARS ago Trump holding water like this? COMMS for NOW I would say.)

“RELEASE” THE KRAKEN: (html code = 222)

The PODESTA was just arrested – been feeling #34 recently too…

We know BONDI has to go:

SCAVINO JR on X: SKY EVENT comm

I saw Oreo at first. lol Interesting reference to March 30. One of my THIS IS IT months for THE BIG SHIFT (March, May, Sept).

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World Stage Happenings Reach Critical Peak – Along with Critical Mass

So much money – this is far deeper than I thought. A new rabbit hole to explore – if I felt like it – which I don’t. I already know this place is run by evil, created by evil. So at the end of the day, not really surprising – as in it may hit a bit like “oh wow” but then immediately settles in as “ok no surprise – yep”.

yup….

there will be hell to pay if accountability does not being the second the calendar flips to January 1. we the people are done waiting – EVERYWHERE.

I personally feel no need to worry about this – if this is a strategic plan, there will be limited chaos. Don’t want to push the people with their $$ when we are already pushed beyond our limit to begin with… Swan Lake – a story about deception and illusion. Black Swan. White Swan.

COMMS. I love how she’s been talking lately. Sounds like someone I know personally…

Comic relief

The People Are Awake

their look of hopelessness and defeat in their eyes is heartbreaking. man do we ever need that shift into NEW. now. these people don’t have time or energy to “do the work” and other nonsense. we’re all traumatized. the entire pay to live system KEEPS our nervous system in survival mode. the only way out is truly to be liberated FROM all controls of evil intent.

there was a repavement project done in my area which included laying a new walking/biking sidewalk. this was done about 5 years ago. it looked so nice and so pretty. the problem? it was done cheap, on the dime. the sidewalk is already buckling – bad enough as it is a safety hazard in a few spots – because these idiots don’t know how to cure concrete apparently (I used to work for a concrete company). and today walking up there I noticed the road is doing the same in spots. 🙄 btw – our roads like this all over the city – except of course by the University. it’s nice and smooth and purty over there.

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12.29.25

Sleep is still a luxury.

As is feeling calm and focused. Yoga. Breathing. Somatic crap. Tapping. Walking. NOTHING is (permanently) shifting this volcano of anxiety within my body.

Time is running out for something truly positive to happen for me – as is the time crunch I was thrown into where I have to start all over again because of local agency UTTER incompetence. I have one foot out there in the “real” world trying YET AGAIN to fucking make some progress in getting my income to where it needs to be if I am going to survive this year and take care of my kiddo – the belly of the beast of corruption – in a system that as we all know now prioritizes immigrants over citizens. I am ready to paint my f’ing face dark brown, slap on a wig and say I’m from one of the myriad of countries that get you put first in line for housing food and f’ing cash.

Where are all of these people I have emailed about getting some emotional support for my girl? And a new one for me because the one I see misses almost 1/4 of our appts and is not advocating for me. At. all. Where are my emails going? And my texts? Is the matrix stepping in and intercepting?

I mean seriously W T A F is going on??!! Dystopian nightmare level 3??

My girl is suffering because of – well – all of this. She sees the immigrants getting the help and it’s making her vacillate between anger to defeating depression. Each day that passes by without seeing her mom get SOMETHING accomplished – get my voice HEARD – get myself f’ing SEEN and TRULY CARED FOR – she is suffering. And that continues to break my heart and enrage me at a level I thought I would never feel much less that is possible.

I put myself out there and am being seen less and less. I see the numbers. I see some who used to come around here have disappeared as well.

ARE THERE SO VERY FEW REAL HUMANS LEFT????

Where is the help I NEED?

Where. is. my. life?

Where is my peace of mind? 🤪

Why aren’t MY COMMANDS for MY LIFE manifesting for me?? Why has my income dropped off again? Why is the f’ing electric bill conveniently including an extra week? Of all months? Hmm?

I’m losing it people.

I’m f’ing losing it out here doing this all alone. And the silence? The silence is f’ing crushing me! 😭

💖

V.

Oregon Rising Up. if I could get myself up there i’d attend – but I have this condition that I have been unable to get any tangible help for – another thing I began focusing on anew all this year – a condition caused by trauma and long term abuse.

Burden of proof is on you the claimant. We have no obligation to prove or deny any claim, until you establish your claim.) Would you? No link, no video. Put it right here. Grok couldn’t

Before you start, let me save you time by reminding you:

1. 2400 out of the 3000 personnel at Nuremberg were Jews. Normal courts would not allow such conflict of interest.

2. Nuremberg suspended rules of evidence and used post arrest tortured confessions and hearsay. Do not do it here.

3. Do not use now debunked theories of fire pit, masturbation machine, catapult …

4. All witnesses that ever claimed they “saw” gassing (the rest are all inadmissible hearsay) were unverified in their roles as sonderkammandos; all were self alleged.

5. Telegram fraud, see

6. Posen Himmler speech manipulated from “uproot” to “exterminate”

7, Hitler 1939 speech manipulated from “destruction” to “annihilation” counter to contemporaneous translations.

8. Any inference through euphemism (eg Wannsee Conference) would be thrown out as per se circular reasoning.

9. Do not ask questions such as “what happened to the population decrease?” as it is for you the accuser to establish, not for defense.

10. In any case, Jewish population size was self reported by American Jewish Congress and not independently verified, suggesting conflict of interest.

11. Do not claim “steel door was later used” unless you can back it up with evidence.

12. Do not claim the tall stacks are intended for gassing when the labels on blueprint and receipts indicated only ventilation.

13. War atrocities occurred on all sides.

14. Do not include the revenge killings of Jews in response to Jewish perpetrated genocides before Germans rolled into town.

15. Do not include data that is not Jewish, not civilian, or criminal in the deaths.

16. By 1940, Jewish Soviet, British and Australians had interned German Brits and Australians and put them behind barbed wires, stripped them of belongings and rights.

After you provide admissible evidence, you have to overcome a long list of reasonable doubts such as – wooden unsealed door – inflammable lamps – admission by Poles that gas pallet chutes were added postwar – detached and postwar added chimney – lack of cyanid residue in walls – lack of testimony of signature pink bodies or autopsy report – impossible nail scratches in concrete – zero “eye”witness that is not hearsay or tortured or proven to be present – contradictory witness accounts – absurd debunked death method claims – impossibility of body burning rate – impossibility of coal and Zyklon B supply – undisturbed ground around camps in lidar let alone mass graves or ash piles – lack of bullet hole in wall that supposedly experienced 20k+ executions – inexplicable need to preserve shoes and hair in times of typhus when bodies are allegedly burnt – footages of camp soccer teams, orchestras, swimming, inmate dentist work… – existence of hockey rink, zoo and brothel! – evidence of permitted letter correspondence – award to midwife of thousands of babies and happy newborns and mothers in pictures – still existing music room and swimming pool –

Ann Frank’s ballpoint pen and handwriting tests, taking of correspondence classes – Franks, father and daughter, being transported to German hospitals for treatment, when German civilians and soldiers were lacking in medical care

– Auschwitz inmates’ voluntary retreat to another camp West when Soviets approached …

Waiting. Meanwhile, 100% tribal financed Jews genocided 60M Whites and Asians, including Volga and Baltic Germans …

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Reflecting on this reality: The very nature of PAY TO LIVE is a narcissistic program that seeks to control and power over.

We are told that money is just a tool.

And that our inherent right is Abundance.

Both are true.

HOWEVER in this reality that TOOL (money) is CONTROLLED.

And ANYTHING outside of us that operates on controlling us DENIES Us our RIGHT TO Abundance.

Abundance = Universal Creator/God

This Awakening is an Inside AND Outside experience.

We go within to see our false programs and trauma and lies done TO us from outside forces seen and unseen.

Then we f’ing hold the abusers and criminals and evil OUTSIDE of us accountable.

Those who operate 100% on the matrix narcissistic program lack the ability to self-reflect AND care and/or see about how their behavior harms other life.

And until THEY are held accountable and removed, we will continue to live in a prison.

Like it or not.

Sometimes this is the hardest pill to swallow: that you are a prisoner.

It isn’t said to disempower.

It is said to EMPOWER.

For you cannot CHANGE what you cannot see/own/acknowledge.

spike it – then drain it……they’re so f’ing evil……

THIS. as someone who has been s.a. by demons hiding in male form – this hits home:

It’s a pathetically sad day in the matrix when you have to become your own healer because those you’ve been seeing off and on for years not. ONCE. spoke words like this:

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12.29.25 ~ Time is weird atm. FLYNN coming in with ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.

Whoever is running the time program has slowed it down – again – as they usually do towards the end of the month. But wow is it at a slugs pace now. Like something doesn’t want the switch from ’25 to ’26.

“they” are spraying heavily today including X’s and a circle – something I haven’t seen in a very long time.

On this b.s. goes. Which is why I 100% align with Flynn’s statement today. Have for so many years. Q told us FLYNN was safe – a protected Patriot. While I have been on the fence about him (as I am about everyone now until I SEE in full), it’s possible he has been given clearance to “let loose” so to speak. Q reminds us MANY times to TRUST OURSELVES. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.

Therefore, we are designating 2026 as THE YEAR OF ACCOUNTABILITY!

Why now?

Because the country is at a breaking point.

Our freedoms are being chipped away in plain sight.

Our government has grown bloated, arrogant, and unaccountable. P

ublic trust has not merely declined; it has been obliterated.

Power has been stripped from citizens and hoarded by bureaucrats, agencies, and unelected elites.

Those who call themselves leaders protect each other while the American people pay the price.

Civic duty has vanished from classrooms, replaced by obedience and ideology. The family, once the backbone of this nation, has been systematically weakened and devalued.

Enough is Enough!

At its core, this is not partisan.

All Americans are demanding ACCOUNTABILITY.

We the People reject the lies, the gaslighting, the censorship, and the deliberate erosion of our lived reality over the past decade.

We remember what was done.

We know who did it.

We are no longer willing to move on without consequences.

The message is unmistakable and unstoppable. Americans demand ACCOUNTABILITY.

So Mr.@POTUS, the question for you to answer is simple.

Will you stand with We The People or will you protect the system that failed us?

Make 2026 the year of ACCOUNTABILITY.

We will stand with you through thick and thin like we always have, but you must respect our wishes.

If you don’t, as our founders warned, the deep state concentration of power in government will lead to greater corruption and eventual tyranny.

And your legacy in history will be tarnished beyond repair.

Respectfully, 1 of the 79 million voters

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12.28.25 ~ What do we believe now? Reflecting. Finds/Headlines. FLOOD of disclosure. $$ New$.

What do we believe now?

What do I believe now?

What I see with my eyes?

Whatever is going on out there on stage, I am keeping a discerning eye on. I am not giving it 100% of my trust that it is for our betterment, part of the Awakening. All signs for me point to that – this being a scripted movie – but who is the movie for? Does it have a happy ending FOR humanity?

Given I do not trust anything or anyone without taking time to get to know that someone and what is being presented by them – I am watching with a discerning eye. I have a child to think of. Her future. Both of which I care a fucking lot about, which is why I don’t really find this process (movie) all that humorous. Not with what this “show and tell” has allowed. The evil that is everywhere (kids are supposed to awaken too apparently with their lack of a frontal cortex – I ponder that). You can only hide so much from your child. Ask any parent. And then there’s the criminally expensive cost just to eat and house yourself. She sees this and is at times terrified nothing will get better, no matter what I say, because for as long as I have been saying things WILL get better, she no longer believes me.

Who can blame her?

This reality has hit warp speed in its insane-uppedness.

Certainly not one to trust someone just because they are on some big world stage telling us things like “trust the plan”.

Do I know you?

Then you don’t get my trust.

I trust what I sense and see.

When the two align will I relax and say “ok that is deserving of my trust”.

This is my life after all, dammit.

And yours too.

☀💥💖

Victoria

Tower of Babel Needs to be Destroyed:

From what I understand – ZIM are being replaced by ZIG notes. And you need to be in the country or use a money transfer service as most banks do NOT engage in this service. Question remains if the ZIM have lost all value as many are asserting.

For those who want to follow the $$ in your particular state (America):

How to Follow the Money in Your State

This is a deep rabbit hole:

Unless it’s a private individual’s property, we have the Inherent Right to go wherever the fuch we want to go.

Anons, truthers and patriots are in front of the line of Truth:

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Today’s Finds including a bit of a deep dive on the Brown shooting and Clones. 12.27.25

https://www.midwesterndoctor.com/p/dmso-heals-the-eyes-and-transforms

DMSO Heals the Eyes and Transforms Ophthalmology

DMSO’s unique therapeutic properties reveal the unifying thread between many different “incurable” eye diseases.

EBS:

https://justthenews.com/politics-policy/elections/satliberal-states-created-election-trimester-ballots-now-conservatives

pretty sure the people already living there technically “discovered” it first…

i love seeing things like this:

here we go – some deep dive time:


**THE SHOOTER: Claudio Manuel Neves Valente** Born January 1977, Portugal. 3rd place, Portugal National Physics Olympiad (1994).

Attended Instituto Superior Técnico (IST) in Lisbon from 1995-2000.

Same physics program. Same years. Same university as Nuno Loureiro.

Appointed teaching assistant: September 1998.

Terminated: February 29, 2000.

Published in official government gazette.

No explanation given.

Loureiro graduated that same year. —

**THE AMERICAN YEARS** Valente entered the U.S. on an F-1 student visa, August 2000.

Enrolled at Brown University for physics PhD.

All his classes were in Barus & Holley building.

The same building he shot up 25 years later.

Leave of absence: April 2001.

Formal withdrawal: July 2003.

On his 2017 visa application, under “degree” he wrote: “None-Dropout” —

**THE GHOST YEARS**

July 2003 – January 2005: 18-month gap. No records.

January 2005: Incorporated CLAUDIO VALENTE INC. in Florida.

September 2010: Dissolved company.

September 2010 – April 2017: 7-year gap. No records.

April 2017: Gets green card via Diversity Visa Lottery.

His website is still live: http://claudiovalenteinc.com

The registered agent on his company?

Gustavo Stella. Not a lawyer. Not a commercial agent. A personal acquaintance living in Miami Beach.

No Florida real estate license found. Zero academic publications. Zero court cases. Zero professional licenses. Zero property ownership. Zero federal criminal record. —

**THE PREPARATION**

November 2025: Rents storage unit in Salem, NH. In his own name.

November 26-30: Boston hotel.

December 1: Rents Nissan Sentra from Alamo using Florida license.

December 13-14: Swaps Florida plates for expired Maine plates.

Weapons: Two 9mm handguns. Two high-capacity magazines (~30 rounds each). Ammo: Hollow point and frangible rounds. Burner phones.

U.S. Attorney Leah Foley: “Not using credit cards tied to his name.” —

**THE ATTACKS** December 13, 2025 — Brown University

Location: Barus & Holley building.

Dead: 2 Injured: 9 Shell casings: 44 Victims had no known connection to Valente.

December 15, 2025 — Brookline, MA

Nuno Loureiro shot multiple times at his home around 8:30 PM.

Died December 16.

U.S. Attorney confirmed: “Loureiro was the intended target.”

December 18, 2025 — Salem, NH

Valente found dead in his storage unit. Self-inflicted gunshot. Same day as the Trump Media-TAE merger announcement. —

**THE VICTIM:

Nuno F.G. Loureiro**

Born ~1978, Portugal.

Graduated IST Lisbon 2000. PhD Imperial College London.

Director, MIT Plasma Science and Fusion Center (appointed May 2024).

FPA Board of Directors member.

His quote: “Fusion energy will change the course of human history.”

MIT’s Plasma Science and Fusion Center spawned Commonwealth Fusion Systems.

CFS has raised ~$3 billion.

CFS has a power purchase agreement with Google.

CFS received $15M from the DOE Milestone Program.

TAE Technologies was NOT selected for that program.

Boston Globe called TAE “one of Commonwealth’s top rivals.” —

**THE CONFERENCE**

FPA 46th Annual Meeting December 9-10, 2025 Washington DC

December 9, 7:30 PM: FPA Board of Directors meeting.

December 10, 8:20 AM: Michl Binderbauer (TAE CEO) presents industry perspectives.

December 10, 10:15 AM: Nuno Loureiro presents MIT PSFC research highlights. Both on the FPA Board. Both presented the same day. Both almost certainly attended the same board meeting the night before.

Unanswered: Was Valente in DC during the conference? —

**THE MERGER** Announced December 18, 2025.

Transaction: $6+ billion (all-stock).

Ownership: 50/50 split.

Trump Media invests up to $300M cash into TAE.

Co-CEOs: Devin Nunes + Michl Binderbauer.

Donald Trump Jr. joins 9-member board.

Trump personally controls ~41% of Trump Media.

Investor call duration: 8 minutes.

Questions allowed: Zero.

Six months earlier, TAE was valued at $1.8 billion. The merger values them at $6+ billion. 3x increase.

When did negotiations begin? Undisclosed.

Who initiated? Undisclosed.

Binderbauer’s only explanation: “This is the one that moved… I just have to reduce it to that simple sort of factor.” —

**THE STOCK** 10 trading days before announcement: – Stock down 9% – Down 7 of 10 days – December 17 close: $10.47 (near 52-week low) Announcement day: – Surged 32-42% – Volume: 56-99.5 million shares – Volume increase: 1,265% above average – C

all options purchased: 118,731 (146% above normal)

November 24: TipRanks flagged “call volume above normal and directionally bullish.” —

**TAE vs COMMONWEALTH FUSION**

TAE: Field-reversed configuration. Needs 1+ billion degrees.

CFS: Compact tokamak. Needs ~100 million degrees.

TAE funding: ~$1.3-1.8B pre-merger.

CFS funding: ~$3B.

TAE DOE Milestone Program: NOT selected.

CFS DOE Milestone Program: $15M award.

Binderbauer on tokamaks: “The magnetic field used in a tokamak is very inefficient. We are about 10 times as efficient.” —

**THE CONFLICTS** R

ep. Don Beyer: Called for congressional oversight. Robert Weissman (Public Citizen): “Markets are betting on direct federal government payments to a company whose leading shareholder is the president.” R

ichard Painter (former White House ethics lawyer): “Huge conflict of interest.” Context: –

DOE created Office of Fusion in November 2025 –

TAE met DOE officials early December urging federal fusion funding –

Ernest Moniz (Obama’s Energy Secretary) sits on TAE’s board –

Fusion industry needs ~$77B to bring pilot plants online —

**CRITICAL TIMELINE**

1995-2000: Valente and Loureiro at IST Lisbon together.

Feb 2000: Valente terminated.

2000: Loureiro graduates.

Aug 2000: Valente enters U.S.

July 2003: Valente withdraws from Brown.

May 2024: Loureiro becomes MIT PSFC Director.

June 2025: TAE raises $150M at $1.8B valuation.

Nov 2025: DOE creates Office of Fusion.

Nov 2025: Valente rents storage unit.

Nov 24: Unusual DJT call option activity.

Dec 1: Valente starts stalking Brown.

Dec 9-10: FPA Conference — Binderbauer and Loureiro both present.

Dec 13: Brown shooting.

Dec 15: Loureiro murdered.

Dec 18: Merger announced. Valente found dead. —

**UNANSWERED**

Why was Valente terminated from IST in February 2000?

What was his specific relationship with Loureiro?

What was he doing July 2003 – January 2005?

What was he doing September 2010 – April 2017?

How did he fund the attacks with no credit cards?

What triggered action after 25 years?

Why target Brown students who had no connection to him?

Was Valente in Washington DC December 9-10?

When did merger negotiations actually begin?

Who initiated — Trump Media or TAE?

What did TAE’s DOE meetings in early December cover?

What’s in the Salem storage unit beyond weapons?

What was on the burner phones? —

The Stella lead and the Wayback Machine on http://claudiovalenteinc.com are immediately actionable.

What do you see when you look at this?

now some diving on cloning:

What did Silver do today? What if it goes to 88?

OUR RADIO SIGNALS WERE DETECTED BY 3I/ATLAS!

AVI LOEB FINALLY ADMITTED!

Sometimes, yes……

Strange day. Strange energies. One of those “what time is it what day is it where am I” experiences.

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Further Reflecting on December.

I read something this morning that was like a warm blanket to my nervous system: Don’t let others have access to you just because it’s December.

As I reflected yesterday, the holidays can bring with it years or decades of bodily held pain. Memories pleasant and unpleasant. Confusion coming from a dysregulated nervous system.

Celebrating can feel like we are both revisiting and soothing an old wound.

How many of us look at the month of December with dread? I do.

The expectations.

The longing for something I don’t have and the pressure TO have it. Options offered but knowing those options are also not what I really need or want.

What would your holiday season look like if you were to get completely clear on what you want it to be about?

Push past the expectations, the pressures, see what comes up within the body, the sensations.

Notice.

Observe.

Offer up some gentle somatic movements, breathing (longer out than in).

Bi-lateral tapping.

Butterfly hug.

Write down the inner story. Sometimes that choice alone is enough to get your nervous system back online. And if you are able to or want to, give yourself a little bit of what that inner You needed all along.

Calendar systems don’t need to dictate our life. It is just another program/spell of illusion to break.

Then create new through healing those illusions.

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Victoria

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Christmas Reflecting.

Feliz Navidad greets me on the radio as I sit down to write this. No joke.

This morning, an email newsletter from a nervous system healing group in which I belong greeted me as did another money manifesting newsletter in which I belong.

All of this sits in my mind and body, calling me to write about it.

The song. Who didn’t grow up hearing that song this time of year? A simple little tune, happy, upbeat. I used to sing along with it as I bopped around town in my little car. Visiting friends. Visiting family. Sucking on those 1″ thick candy canes from my youth.

The newsletter from the money manifesting started off by talking about the massive holiday preparations she was undertaking, getting ready to cozy on up with her spouse and children. Perhaps a getaway to the mountains to rent a nice cabin. (to which my teenage self muttered “well goodie for you”)

Today neither of these two above resonated with me. All they served was to trigger me, which is why I really appreciated the nervous system newsletter, which talked about the masks we wear during the holidays, especially at Christmas. Christmas brings up the best and saddest/most pained of what’s inside. All of those unhealed parts stored in our nervous systems, showing up in each of us, coming out in a myriad of ways we often don’t even notice. Checking our watch to see how much longer until we get to leave. Deep sighs coming from mom’s smiling face. Chugging down a glass of wine to “relax”.

Who hasn’t experienced this?

It seems this year in particular is hitting extra hard. The fatigue. Fog of war (is it any wonder there’s been an unusual amount OF fog this year – let alone the last few years?). The cost of E V E R Y T H I N G. The overspending. The fear TO spend. The pressure to put on a smile and “be grateful” when that’s the last thing your body needs much less wants TO do.

Can’t we all just remove our damn masks and let out how we REALLY feel?

This year I put up a tree. Hung lights. Put out more decorations than usual. Bought gifts. Sent out cards. What is it I am trying to hide FROM? Why do I cave to the pressure? Do I really even want to celebrate?

I do. I want to celebrate. But I also want to be left the hell alone until I want to reconnect again. I want sad memories gone. I want the happy memories gone because they only make me feel sad over a life that feels like it happened a million years ago in a different timeline and at that, it feels like it was an illusion. A lie. Like I was living in a cloud I didn’t even know existed. Today, I am a completely different person. Still me but HUGELY different.

Awakening has a dark side. It exposes all that is fake.

So then….

What FEELS real now?

What am I really connected to?

Pray to Jesus.

Jesus is the reason for the season.

Why do I feel NOTHING when I focus on those?

I LONG for what feels real but don’t know what that is much less what it even looks like. I can’t even frigging VISUALIZE my life now. I try and I try and I try and come up blank. Empty. Literally – like there’s nothing there inside left to offer up. I may get an idea but there’s just like no lasting feeling. Even though I have a new direction in this 3D matrix and an appointment early next year to get going on it, fresh road kill has more life to it than does this new direction.

It’s like my nervous system is telling me to just STOP.

And something deep within is saying the same.

JUST. STOP.

Stare at the damn sky even if it’s a mess with fog.

Look at pictures even if they don’t inspire me to feeeeeeeeel.

Play my piano even if I feel robotic doing so.

It’s like I’m digging SO DEEP now. A new layer that I haven’t touched but I still feel like it’s there. A distant far off memory. A remembrance.

Of what was before all of this matrix shit consumed my experience.

Of who I was IN it.

Whatever it is you are doing this week with whomever or even alone (remote cabin in the woods by a lake sounds quite appealing now doesn’t it?), know you aren’t alone if any of this resonates with you. There can be no lonelier feeling than to be alone and feel you need TO be with others just as there is no lonelier feeling than being WITH family/friends and feeling totally disconnected.

Maybe the best gift we can give ourselves is just to let ourselves sit with however it is we do feel inside. Let that part of us speak. It has a story. A story that deserves to be seen, allowed to exist and told instead of drowning it with a glass of wine, a forced smile or a glance at our watch.

💖

Victoria

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