— Victoria, Certified Pattern Recognition Specialist (@nina_leone11) February 27, 2026
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Sitting With It. Early AM Focus. Today’s Headlines: Some finds including manifestation technique. 2.26.28
Embrace it like a Boss.
I know the date’s wrong – leaving it as is – given I have no idea what the date is, and it seems, the year. 😂 The mechanical clock is being slowed waaaaaaaaaaay ass down again as well.
This morning, I was awakened in another heightened state of angst. After some time, I decided to refocus. I didn’t know on what, when suddenly I knew. It was as though my higher mind stepped in. I began to state that I was activating my Original DNA and remembering who I really am. Over and over I did this until I returned to sleep. I saw another person received a similar experience earlier today, only this time it was in her shower (portal). Just as I was suddenly guided above, she too was guided to receive DNA activation messages. I went to comment and saw she blocked me. I don’t recall ever seeing her, so who knows. She’s a big account (huge follower account, follows a little over 300), so whatever. Anyway, I thought it was interesting – the synch.
I am feeling this fuzziness of mental cobwebs clear from my mind – higher mind – right behind my eyebrows. Getting clearer on where the fuck we really are. REALLY are. Inside a game. What does that look like exactly? Is there ANYTHING truly real here, or is it all a simulated illusion? I am leaning towards that last part as it is what I keep returning to.
💖
Victoria
I will say this – my ears have been ringing like crazy the last few weeks at times. Still not sure what it is. Have had the experience on and off for well over 10 years. Some years it has been pretty much non-existent. But recently returned.
Some big FUCH NO’s on the next few:
I verified. It’s true:
bizarre – could be people simply won’t need them given what’s coming – instant healing and manifestation. pure creation was my first thought until inner critic that scrutinizes EVERYTHING kicked in.
I never. did. like. diamonds:
Remember I said I’ve been having the nudge to watch War Games? What if, like in the movie, the “AI” program that is neutral in the end – learns to benefit humans – is like Grok here? Why didn’t they test Grok?
Kenneth Payne, a professor of strategy at King’s College London who specializes in studying the role of AI in national security, revealed last week that he pitted Anthropic’s Claude, OpenAI’s ChatGPT, and Google’s Gemini against one another in an armed conflict simulation to get a better understanding of how they would navigate the strategic escalation ladder.
either coming from President Trump himself or the Q team, and a strong message it is…🐸💪
Q 55
Look to Twitter:
Exactly this: “My fellow Americans, the Storm is upon us…….”
God bless.
Interesting Dan uses a black and white video leaving the Capital which looks very ominous and dark, almost like they are leaving as a storm is coming..😉🌧️
“I can feel it coming in the air tonight, oh, lord”
Look to Twitter: “My fellow Americans, the Storm is upon us…….”
Let’s Go #DoItQ, Do it! 🙏
ZERO desire to “vote” remains solid.
They’re something alright – seeing it happen ATM with people trying to stop me from sharing my personal writings and essays locally – my coffee page. “That’s fundraising!” they whine and ignore those who actually come online weekly and ask for money without offering anything in return. THAT is fundraising, but for some reason, there are people I rub the wrong way, and they don’t want me sharing my writings, which aren’t even political. lol I’m like, “Dudes, you think THIS upsets you? Go to my news site. That will really fire you up!” 😂 It’s all good – I am blessed with protection and the words of others who are saying to back off and let me write.
LIKE:
yup:
Laik
@AwakenedCosmos
You’re starting to feel what this system was designed to hide.. that your emotions are sacred.
That your inner chaos is not failure.
It’s feedback.
You were taught to silence your feelings.
To brush off your pain.
To label your intuition as overthinking.
But..
The heaviness you carry isn’t weakness my friends..
It’s the weight of the false self fading..
And that’s sacred.
You’re living in a realm that is dense by design.
Where distractions come faster than stillness.
Where illusions are marketed better than truth.
Where being numb is praised.. and feeling deeply is seen as broken.
What feels like confusion is your soul rebooting.
What feels like anxiety is your frequency rejecting false timelines.
What feels like depression is your system trying to leave the loop.
That’s not dysfunction.
That’s awakening.
You’re reaching a point called the soul crossroad..
where the old story dies, and the real you begins to remember.
and.. it’s hard.
It’s meant to be..
Because you’re releasing the weight of everything you were never meant to carry..
For some it can carry thoughts like..
Why do I feel like I’m falling apart?
Why does nothing make sense anymore?
That’s what happens before everything clicks.
Before you remember that you’re not here to just survive.
You’re here to transcend.
This world will tell you you’re too emotional.
Too sensitive.
Too much.
But that’s because they’re afraid of people who can feel.
Because people who feel…
Remember.
And people who remember…
Can’t be controlled.
You’re never alone my friends.. 💙
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“WRITE IT AND THEY WILL COME”
That’s what I tell myself.
I was censored – again.
Recent coffee piece.
My short story.
Flagged.
Deleted.
The only thing I can think of? Some still think I am fundraising. And that is not allowed on the platform – however there are locals who come on there every damn week and ask for financial help due to this or that crisis. Those posts never get flagged or deleted.
But mine?
Personal attack? Someone not wanting me on that platform getting support?
I mean WHERE THE FUCK AM I?? WHY does this keep happening to me?
Why is it when I am at my most desperate, I keep coming TO that place more and more – I feel this horrid sense of being alone in a void?
I keep saying this because it is becoming my experience. More and more each day. I see it happening to my child too and THAT is what is making me lose my mind the quickest. My daughter – who doesn’t think anything is going to get better – that she doesn’t have a future – so why bother to plan for one? Even though she is – but I see that other part of her that wants to just give up come in more and more lately.
THIS SHIT is real, and it’s happening to the younger generations. They feel they have no future. Can’t afford to support themselves so why the fuck work? I see parents talk about their 20 something’s, even 30 something’s, living at home, refusing to work, depressed, living in the basement. Zoned out on social media. Up all night. Sleeping during the day. Can we blame them?
Comfy as fuch. Trust the plan.
O M G where is the god damn compassion??!!! Where is this alleged concern for the children???!!!
I need income to support a fucking $2,000 month cost of housing.
Jesus……….!!
Which is why I SCREAM OVER AND OVER for fucking help! Just promote my work, someone. Pay me for what I fucking do. I AM DESPERATE. Help me find a home! Pray for my daughter! HELP. US. SOMEONE SEE ME AND HELP. US.
Write it and they will come.
That is what I build. Try to do. DO do.
Who is “they”?
What is it exactly I am doing now other than losing my mind?
Not sleeping?
Being crushed financially more as time passes.
Seeing my capacity to support myself for the long term slip away.
Carrying around this ungodly pain in my heart and this horrid just GOD AWFUL pain and heaviness of not being able to make things well and right for my own child. Having to tell her “I cannot afford that” far too fucking often.
GOING IT too much alone in isolation because who the hell wants to be friends with me? Who wants to associate with the freak who refused to get the jab and wear the mask? The one who once upon a time voted for Trump?
Inclusive, they chant.
Inclusive, my ass.
Seeing members of my own family doing just fine while I struggle not to drown.
Waking up scratching and itching myself all over – at times I don’t even know I’m doing it, as it must begin in my sleep – and I wake up with rashes and scabs where I am itching myself.
We drown when we’re left to our own pools of unwanted pain.
Drown in the emotions. Emotions that have simply become too heavy to carry.
And the scariest of all?
Losing hope.
Fighting to stay afloat.
The deafening silence of being a mom in this horrid reality, trying to stay positive, telling your child everything is ok. Everything will be ok.
When she can see the fatigue in your eyes.
When looking at your own child in the eyes, you see her fatigue.
From tears.
To numbness.
To teenage angst. “Mom, just stop trying! People don’t care! Don’t you get that?!”
I hear those words often these days.
It’s all – crushing.
This current whatever it is we are in is just as much of an awful hell as this one others say we escaped – the HRC version of all of us being in quarantine camps. Or nuclear war.
Some days, some moments, that sounds better. At least it’s a change. MOVEMENT. SOMETHING different on the world stage. With an end in sight. This slow peeling of the bandage is destroying far too many of us mentally now.
So for now, I write it in hopes they will come.
And rescue all of us who want out of this hellhole. To bring in this god damn shift already. N O W.
💖
V.
2.25.26 ~ The SOTU and other shares
Feeeeeeeeeeeeels
About the only thing of real significance I could see was Trump walking out at 9:11pm, EST. Other than that, what little I did hear/see so far was congressional monkeys in masks and more gaslighting and pandering. There was some interesting talk about Iran. Seems the left wants war. He blathered about Charlie Kirk and his “wife” Erika (who was there – 🤮). Gushed over his mossad Kushner the son-in-law and made no mention of the tens of thousands on the streets, living in their cars and RVs or the moms needing housing. Nothing like that. That would make him look too, what, human?
I will be fully invested in all of this once someone shows some concern for my daughter and others like her. These kids fully believe they have no future and are frightened. No ability to buy a home or have kids, much less afford a place to rent. Burdened with thoughts NO CHILD should have to fucking carry. How will I eat? Support myself?
It doesn’t matter what I tell her. She goes by what she sees. I talk with her regularly – stay up and comfort her when anxiety kicks in over her future. This is the plan? This is about the children? I don’t take kindly when anyone tells me to trust the plan or be patient. That is not helpful. It’s dismissive and toxic. All I allow into my space is comfort and support. That is proof that someone is truly compassionate and SEES. I value those of you who show up with that for me. You truly keep. me. going.
My income is set to drop by $400 in another couple of months. No biggie, right? I should easily be able to make up for that. The problem is, I don’t know how. I’m working with another person in an agency that I thought was dropping me. Nope. Just the idiot I was working with was trying to push me out. I have a new person. A male. Funny it is for me, as when I first went out into this whole world of systems, I wanted to work with women. Felt safer. Felt they would understand my situation. Fellow sister.
WRONG.
I found them to be petty, fake, judgmental, and utterly lacking in communication AND compassion.
Those who have stepped up recently? Said, “This is your life, we are here to support you”. Offered me ideas and services that the WOMEN failed to tell me were available.
Men.
And let me tell you – this is very healing for someone like me.
Anyway, this new person has offered me a couple of service programs. Unfortunately, one is in such high demand for people my age, it’s about 6 months out, but he said I was not to quote him on that. It might be longer. I need more income yesterday.
I lose sleep over this.
Have I said this before?
I heard of another food delivery service. Spike. Or was it Spark? Don’t remember. 😅 It began with an S, and after yet another piece of advice was given to check them out, I immediately learned it wasn’t available in my city. Which is why I usually tell anyone who offers advice, “Check it out for me, please. If it’s a go, let me know.” After 2 years of slammed doors and go-nowhere’s, I ain’t in the mood for ANY FURTHER ROADBLOCKS.
I have plenty of family who could be promoting my other writing work. They love to read it. But promoting it? Not so much.
I feel alone most days. Out of place. No tribe and no clue where I belong. Seems there are a few categories of people. Those of us deep in the struggle, often with kids, and facing the need to do new better different and bring in more fucking money, being the loudest on stage, usually getting ignored or silenced or judged by those who are comfy. Then there are those with higher audience numbers who all they have to say is “help me” and hundreds rally about them. Promote. Share.
I don’t get it.
I don’t get how anyone with a heart can come here and read what I offer every day and not offer something for me. For my kiddo.
I.
Don’t.
Get.
It.
If I knew how to turn this site into a paid subscriber-only service or had the mental means to figure that out, I would. I looked into it – it’s over my head. PSTD has seriously compromised my cognitive abilities. I’m just good at sucking it up and pretending.
For now, I question the whole unity of humanity. My heart is f’ing broken over how long I’ve invested in trying to create just that, both online and in my personal life. Rather feel like Molly Ringwald’s character in Pretty in Pink.
Here’s what I’m seeing atm.
💖
Victoria
Scavino better not be f’ing with us with this one. We ain’t in the mood for any further COMMS that go nowhere.
HEROES. When far too many turn their backs to this, now and then we have a Hero step up. If you’re in AZ and needing to move, give them your business.
Suicides on the table today:
https://www.tmz.com/2026/02/24/martin-short-daughter-katherine-dead
WTF are these people in need of $$? And who would be stupid enough TO donate when we have tens of thousands on the streets?
I’ve tried bringing up this topic – finding no one cares – enough that is. When people say “we gotta hit ’em in the pocket book” I’m like “NO!!! I CANNOT TAKE ANYMORE HITS!!!!”
He sure as fuch was. Saw/felt it all. along.
Good reveal – but we don’t need another go-nowhere “task force” of Zionist AIPAC paid shills doing nothing but blathering without action:
We saw PA flip live:
Could’ve been that little remark he made about his inability to read and black people……..😅🙄🤡
Yeah that is not the plan:
So part of the plan then? Keep allowing good people to get thrown under the bus while evil flourishes?
I know I’m in the wrong reality. Not much I can do about that. But I CAN do something about being in the wrong country.
A lot of truth seeing, truth telling Angels out there in the streets – kicked out of society for being different. I’m ready to see them unite and revolt. LIONS ARE DONE.
This. In. Spades.
TheDebriefing17
@TheDebriefing17
🤔Moving forward, I’m done obsessing over the bad people. If they’re getting handled, they’re getting handled. Cool.
What I care about now is who’s leading us into what comes next and whether it’s built on something real.
Because a good future doesn’t start with slogans… it starts with truth.
👉Not “trust the plan.” Not “just wait.” Truth.
If we’re entering a new era, then show the public the foundation: who’s in charge, what was done, what was seized, what was covered up, and what’s being rebuilt.
here are 10 high-octane, no-ducking questions that hit like a hammer:
- Who was in command really from 2020 to now? Name the chain. Show the authorities.
- What was the operation’s actual mission set? Trafficking? Cartels? Banking? Intel cleanout? Pick the targets and prove it.
- Where’s the ledger? What assets were seized, frozen, forfeited and where did they go? (Banks, crypto, property, NGOs.)
- Who flipped? Which “bad guys” became cooperating witnesses, and what did they trade for that deal?
- What did you know, when did you know it and who suppressed it? Media, platforms, agencies: names + dates.
- Which institutions were compromised end-to-end? DOJ/FBI/CIA/IRS/CDC/State… and what’s the evidence trail?
- What’s the blackmail map? Who was controlled by money, sex, recordings, or foreign leverage and who cleaned it?
- What was the price of peace? What deals were cut with foreign powers, cartels, or intel services to avoid wider war?
- What is the replacement system? If you’re tearing down legacy finance/media/intel, what’s the new architecture and who governs it?
- When does the public get proof? Not vibes. Declass drops, trials, audits, commissions, arrests give dates and milestones.
The cleanup matters but the rebuild matters more. Tell us the truth, show the framework, and earn public trust the right way.
Like-minded speak:
Black line right at the 17 hour:
Well that’s a nice triple “2”:
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2.23.26 ~ Market “loses” 7 BILLION. UAP File Release Updates. Donating Plasma? You may want to think again.
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US Blows Up Another Drug Boat in the Caribbean, Killing Three Narco-Terrorists (VIDEO)
He shared this one again today – 3 hours ago:
There are comms in this one. Civil War is standing out the most.
This is the main reason I don’t do videos:
THE YOUNG ARE SPEAKING:
B for BILLION
And how many of these “agencies” are just a (silent) arm for the trafficking?
searching for the rarest:
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2.22.26 ~ Additional Finds. IS RA EL for Last. GOLDEN KEY. THE CALM BEFORE THE STORM.
You know how many say they are “CAF” (comfy as fuch). I’m TAF (tired as fuch) which is giving me a sense of observational neutrality.
A few things. Rigged. “GAME” (GAME THEORY) – we forgot how to play. BTW I have been having the nudge to watch War Games.
Nothing screams “FOREIGN OWNED” like giving your master the key to the WH. Just another confirm that T will have to exit the stage and is not the real president, which I am wondering with time travel and age regression therapy, what if JFK SR is the Real President?
Oh yeah – there’s a partial shutdown going on. I honestly forgot.
Interesting stuff – not feeling the whole WW3 thing. Melania also wore V for Vendetta at the inauguration. Still some interesting things around 3.3 eclipse (33):
Mar A Lago – Donnie & Barron – 3 March 2026 – I Pet Goat 2
Deep Earthquakes Have Begun Battering Earth 💥 This Could Be Our Final Warning…
I think I already shared this. Very interesting. John Barron.
GEMATRIA: John Barron
Passover (which begins on April 1st this year – interesting)
Law and Order
April Three
Returns
Human trafficking – Off World.
https://www.aljazeera.com/news/2026/2/22/mexico-announces-killing-of-drug-cartel-kingpin-el-mencho
THE CALM BEFORE THE STORM. We got it:
35 million people:
https://thehill.com/homenews/state-watch/5750249-winter-storm-mid-atlantic-northeast
And Northern Cali:
Public Humiliation:
The Collective Nervous System is struggling big time now. Feeling anxiety, panic, depression, and a level of mental fatigue I have no words for. If I don’t hear back from this book editor, I’ll just put up my book as is. $4.99. No clue how I will take money for it without putting it on some platform. Just feeling people kind of need the help. Yesterday.
💖
Victoria
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2.22.26 ~ Finds, Checking in, COMMS, EBS, Cartel Leader Killed in Mexico, Shooting at MAR-A-LAGO
Ya’ll still with me? Drop me a note!
This first one is resonating with me more than any other find, goodie, sleuthing, sky image, etc. that I am seeing. I was taking notes to prepare for (another) agency phone call appt, writing down the courses I am interested in taking. But it’s all a lie. Fake to my body. I don’t want to study ANY of it. While still in this matrix, I want to write. And I want to get paid well to do just that. Newspaper. Magazine. Online. Handheld. Small business. Someone who has like a horse ranch or healing arts or similar beautiful business who needs someone writing about the business. Storytelling. Whimsical. Creative. Serious. Heart-focused to help bring in business and $$ support. THIS aligns with my Soul. While still in this frequency space, that is my Soul Goal. If any of you know of someone like this, please let me know ASAP. For now any donations for food for the rest of the month are appreciated. Income from my other site is down $100/month – been doing things a bit different there to change that up. Tired of the hustle, you know?
💖
Victoria
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When not in that mindset, this below. Said as such last night with a friend – feeling pulled in two different directions. So – acceptance for the experience and allowing it to happen. Walking both because it is as it is until it isn’t, and who knows when this event happens.
yes
Some comms below – and distractions, but still distractions are markers on the timeline location for me.
There’s that THREE NAME again:
https://www.opb.org/article/2026/02/22/armed-man-shot-and-killed-mar-a-lago
The man, who was in his early 20s and from North Carolina, had a gas can and a shotgun, according to Anthony Guglielmi, the spokesman. He had been reported missing by his family a few days ago, and investigators believe he headed south and picked up the shotgun along the way.
Guglielmi said a box for the weapon was discovered in the man’s vehicle after the incident, which took place around 1:30 a.m.
The man killed was identified by investigators as 21-year-old Austin Tucker Martin, according to a person familiar with the matter. The person spoke on the condition of anonymity because they were not authorized to publicly discuss details of the investigation.
hmmm…
OR is it due to RED CROSS (MERCY SHIP with the RED CROSS on it AND IRAN)?
https://www.icrc.org/en/article/icrc-appeals-operations-2026
Ties in to OBAMA as well (11 Q drops).
Did someone say 17?
Budget Cuts: The ICRC is cutting its 2026 budget by 17%, bringing it down to 1.8 billion Swiss francs ($2.23 billion).
HTML coming in at 88. Total truth in one question:
Release the cures and patents!
Showing up daily now:
One method. Done quickly. NO DEALS.
JOHN BARRON (I see John Barron Trump show up on Gematria often) (Google this to see the speculations lol):
Original Harry on the right…
This:
Larry Cook
@stopvaccinating
·
20h
NAILED IT.
Now you understand the secrecy behind past civilizations, manipulated history, fallen angels, satanic rituals, rape, torture, cannibalism, monetary ownership, censorship, assassinations, false flags, control of governments, fluoridated water, VACCINES, and everything else the RULERS use to maintain control of entire populations.
Specifically, these fallen angels have been cut off from the Light of God for their misuse of God’s Light, their time is up, their Second Death is near (Book of Revelation), and the only way to extend their life and their cycles of life is to STEAL THE LIGHT OF GOD from others, otherwise known as Satanic Rituals. Usually children (pure soul energy).
And since they know their time is up, they couldn’t care less if they blow up this planet. And will do so if backed into a corner.
You think Trump doesn’t know this?
Of course he does. That’s why this is an extremely delicate operation to dismantle this Ruling Class that’s been around for tens of thousands of years.
Everything – EVERYTHING – is at stake. This is not a game. One wrong move and billions die.
Think about it.
YOU are fighting a NETWORK with advanced technology, weapons, control, WORLDWIDE, would you even know where to begin? Full release of Epstein files? Something else?
Few people have the capacity to even remotely know where to begin.
Pray
This is Spiritual Warfare, after all.
They need adrenochrome for SPIRITUAL reasons. Don’t forget this.
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Parade of Planets. Eclipse. Today’s Finds. 2.21.26
On February 28, we have a Parade of Planets. Mercury, Venus, Jupiter, Saturn, Neptune, Mars and Uranus will align. 7. That number – seven. Since this place appears to be a mechanically created simulation, those “planets” can be used as locking and unlocking mechanisms. Three days after this event, we have the Total Lunar Eclipse in North America, which will be visible in the Pacific and East Asia as the Moon sets. 3.3. Could this be a 33 mirror effect? Or just another one of “their” sky events to get some ooooh’s and aaaaah’s? Others are talking about these upcoming sky events. We’ll see.
This one has interesting content, although I don’t feel the whole WW3 event. Perhaps a scare event of one, but nothing like some are saying.
Moon & Mercury – Donnie & Barron – 2026 – I Pet Goat 2
Demonic. This practice and day was never written in the bible as we know it.
Speaking of the Bible, I had a thought this morning after I opened my eyes from sleep. Jesus being the original NEO – code breaker. The Avatar Jesus. Brought in the second timeline. The Old Testament was of the first timeline (that would have led to another reset of humanity). The New Testament broke that timeline, bringing in New Energy. Of course, religion continued to build the narratives of worship and sacrifice and used Jesus as a tool of control. Q speaks about GOD WINS = which could indicate the Jesus Code in each of us – as we awaken, we all win in the end. Win as in freedom. Liberation. The return to the innate, Divine, Original ability to create as we want without controls – controls that come from those with nefarious, evil, deceptive intent with their rules and laws that only serve them while harming the rest.
Makes me think of that metal scraping sound in the skies I heard here over 10 years ago, which, interestingly enough, we heard that rapid-fire gunfire and return fire (military OP) at 3am one summer evening in 2018 in that same area (to the east). No sirens. Police obviously told to stand down.
Just like they did in NY and West Coast. It’s For The Children. The Mercy.
What’s up with the Great Salt Lake?
Utah Lake’s Hidden Creature Found Nowhere Else on Earth | WION Podcast
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2.20.26 ~ Finds. (FOREIGN OWNED) SCOTUS RULE on Tariffs. A Personal Synch. Whatev’s.
Like Wendy said in St. Elmo’s Fire, sometimes there’s nothing like a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. Well, that’s more or less what she said. Been years since I partook.
Anyone noticing being out in public has become more painful? The lights, especially? I may need to wear sunglasses. And anyone in my personal space these days feels like a huge violation. Tonight I was so grumpy and exhausted at the store, some guy came right up behind me, something around him smelled like onions that made my head and stomach swirl, so I gave him a frown and said, “Jesus, can you just back away, thank you”. I’m like HELLO PERSONAL SPACE.
I’m also in no space to recycle anymore. I used to clean things out, separate, blah blah blah. Today? It goes in the trash. I also have no desire to keep things neat and tidy and organized in my cupboards. For example, it was pointed out to me that there are 3 jars of nuts and who knows how many mason jars of round crackers. I know I have several bags of tummy soothers in the cupboard, opened, thrown in there haphazardly. I know my vitamin/homeopathic remedy cabinet is a MESS. I. do. not. care. I will, however, clean/disinfect my refrigerator on the inside, clean/sterilize the bathroom, including the floor, vacuum, and keep my plants watered. Spray my homemade peppermint room spray throughout the house. But everything else? Do not care. I threw out what was once grapes. I think. Nowhere does this “do not care” show up more than inside my closet. 😳😂
An interesting end-game marker for me. My store receipt. The 7/11 has been a reminder for me over the last few years – and it has returned again. My total (outrageous amount as always) was 117. Even. Then I return home, see a video below that happens to be 1:17. You know, these things don’t do what they once did. I’m kind of like “whatev’s” on it all. You know?
Yeah, I know most of you do.
Here are today’s “whatev’s”.
💖
Victoria
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It’s about fucking time. This should be in every country.
Calls grow for suicides linked to domestic abuse to be treated as potential homicides
Earlier this week, the Guardian revealed it was likely that the number of suicides linked to domestic abuse were being vastly underreported in England and Wales, with up to 1,500 victims each year.
Official figures collated by the National Police Chiefs’ Council put that figure at 98 last year – but it still exceeded the number of intimate partner homicides for the second year running.
The campaigner Karen Ingala Smith said: “That we don’t even know how many women taken their lives because of men’s violence is to our society’s shame and reflects how little women’s lives matter. Every woman who ends her own life will have taken many other steps to try to end the abuse before she reaches that point. We need to stop letting women down and make sure there are adequate routes to safety.”
I saw this – loved it – refined it to make it my own – giving credit to this wonderful woman who is doing so much good for people healing from trauma’s. The top 10 things not to say to the survivors.
You’re stuck in your victim modality. (Dismissing/minimizing the experience)
Was it really as bad as you think? (Gaslighting)
You’re being too sensitive. You need to change your thinking. (Pathologizing normal trauma response)
What did you do to attract this? (Blaming/implying victim responsibility)
Feelings aren’t facts. Let’s reframe the thought. (Over-reliance on cognitive techniques)
Sit with the discomfort. Push through it. (Forcing exposure or emotional overload)
Everything happens for a reason. (Toxic positivity)
Just breathe through it. Have you tried meditation? (Ignoring the Nervous System and Somatic experience)
It is what it is. You have to work with the system as designed. (Dismissing system/institutional harm)
You have trust issues. You need to work on your attachment wounds. (Using therapeutic jargon to avoid accountability)
What to say? Here’s what works for me:
What do you need?
I’m here for you.
I’m so sorry the systems failed you. Can I help you with that?
Sometimes people are just abusive and arrogant. I’m so sorry you had this experience.
yeah we’ll see…….
Forgot to add torus field
This was good news:
Yearsss of this. Energy weapons. Cell towers. These aren’t downloads as we were all led to believe. We should be flying by now, remembering everything and having telepathic conversations if that were the case.
We’re long past ready to “FIND OUT”
This is true. I keep saying that the needs of the nervous system are NOT CONSIDERED ONE BIT in the treatment of most mental health challenges. It’s simple. Safety. Connection. Rest. Stimulation. Done over and over and over until healing happens. This is one part of the plan that makes me cringe – unless it’s to put the psychopaths there.
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Another Sleepless Night
another night here have me waking up in states of panic physical fits pounding the bed talking out loud saying things like I’m not f****** doing this anymore. The word no used a lot.
The system would tell me to go take some pills to calm down. New Age retards would tell me to hold a different thought. The church would tell me to pray to Jesus.
I see very few on stage now talking about the nervous system. I’m grateful for them because they speak my language. We may not agree on politics but we all agree on one thing and that is the needs of the nervous system must be met if we are to be healthy functioning adults here. Humans I should say because the needs of the nervous system are the same whether you are 10 or 110. A baby or an adult.
The nervous system has four basic needs. The need for rest the need for connection the need for stimulation and the need for safety.
When any of those are compromised are missing you’re going to be in a state of dysregulation. This is what is happening for many of us.
I am under constant Financial pressure every moment of every day to come up with some way that I haven’t yet f****** thought of or haven’t yet f****** reached out to get help for to avoid this $400 loss that is pounding on my door.
Well meaning people reach out and ask me what are you going to do you need to make a plan.
Those questions don’t f****** help me they only bring me harm.
Even coming here everyday and doing the work i do and not receiving the monetary compensation or exchange of love for the work that I share for my heart everyday is crushing me.
Every f****** day that I find a place that looks like I could apply for and I do and I don’t hear back or I get told sorry I don’t have quite the skills they are looking for that is crushing me.
Being trapped in a house I don’t want to be in is crushing me.
Trying to get help from agencies around here is crushing me.
I take responsibility by speaking my truth and stating what it is that I need.
I feel like I’m speaking into a vacuum at this point. I’m looking for just like my mom said one good person who sees me for who I am and offers me not an idea because I don’t need another idea but a real legitimate opportunity that I can do that will help heal me and help lift me up and out of this mess that I am in. An idea that comes from somebody who cares who sees who has the means and the desire to help. Because my nervous system is not strong enough right now to take another leap of faith on my own meaning the idea of call this person and check this out I can’t do it anymore I’ve begun telling people explore it for me because my system can’t take another rejection.
A person can only take so many no’s and only so much silence.
