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That interesting wave pattern on the Schumann I shared late last night continued for awhile.  After I linked that and went to bed, I had the most bizarre experience within my body (mind included).  I’ve never had anything like it and it went on for about 30 minutes (until I finally fell asleep).  As I lay down, I began to feel something pulling on and within and around me.  I have tried to come up with words and all I can say to describe it is it felt as though parts of me were merging together.  I say that because I had a growing sense of “EVERYTHING feels foreign to me”.  I have had those moments here and there but NOTHING like this.  It was intense – borderline overwhelming.  The human me now – with memories of this experience in this dimension – knew who I was and who my family/friends are – so THAT didn’t feel foreign.  However, another version of me came through and THAT is the element of me that felt the “this feels very foreign” experience.  I hope that makes sense.  It was beyond bizarre and I lay there trying to figure out just what the “f” was happening to me.  I knew enough to just allow it but I gotta say the anxiety I felt was powerful.  It felt like it was a part OF me but also separate.

So I lay there and shook for what felt like a very long time – unable to fall asleep – wondering if I would wake up feeling the same.  I am relieved to say I feel “normal”.

So something indeed happened and as I said my best guess is more fractalized me’s merged.  And it is no coincidence this happened during that strange wave pattern on the schumann (see below).

I then went on to have a very long dream about Trump and Melania.  I was first speaking with Trump – he was visiting some school.  I spoke with him about the tech.  I was pleading with him in a way – speaking purely from my heart.  He listened and exhibited both deep compassion/understanding but also reservation.  The feeling I received from him was more than anything else he wants us all liberated and there was timing involved in order to do so.  In short – he understood and validated my desire and had to also remain grounded/firm in sticking with the plan as to not ruin the roll out/release.  I thanked him then walked around some more, stopping at a table where Melania was sitting.

Her energy was amazing – A M A Z I N G.  Pure.  Grace.  Powerful in a very non-threatening/non-intimating way.  The epitomy of the goddess energy. She invited me to sit down and asked to see my hand.  She smiled the whole time – gently and just as gently she took my hand and palm up, analyzed it. She pointed to my life line and said this:  “See that life line?  Very long and very powerful.  You are a very powerful Being.  Embrace that.”  I thanked her and knew it was time to leave – even though I could have been around her energy forever.  I woke up and could feel the experience.  I felt into my own longing to be around other women who carry that same energy as well as my own deep longing to have that unconditionally loving mother/goddess energy for that little girl within.

I’ve got the power – a phrase that began going through my mind in recent days.  I do.  And I long to share it and have the experience shared back. Mutually wonderful.

I am still waiting on this promised bottle of CBD oil.  The woman did not write back and I have contacted her again to see what’s up with no response. I am out of the bottle I purchased back in early February and this month am not able to afford to buy another.  If you wish to help contribute to that, please follow the paypal link below.  Or if you are interested in one of the Triskelion necklaces, let me know.  I am also including a few sample photos. The metals used are silver, brass and copper – the necklace mediums are chain, cording, fabric tubing and ribbon.  Sizes range from 16-24″ with the average being 18″.  Pricing is $30 for the chains, $25 for the rest.  I was gifted over 50 so there is a very good selection/variety.

Much love to you all.

Victoria

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i thought i would start this piece while i am on hold with my insurance provider.  of course they spoke of the importance of getting the flu shot so you can protect yourself.  oh stfu, i responded to obviously blank air.

system insanity.  that has been allowed to exist in this free will realm.

i had a hugely challenging night last night energetically.  i didn’t think it possible that i could go to another level of inner frustration – the inner ME screaming to get out of this realm and the frequencies that support it.  my dream experiences last night – frustration.  closed doors.  turned backs.  it didn’t take me long to say “i’m out” and i left the experience.  at one point i awoke releasing a low, moaning guttural type of sound/feeling.  my child climbed into bed with me earlier and she too was having similar experiences in dream state.  my mate awoke with the same feeling.  new level of frustration.  and checking my e-mail and phone i happened to hear from several of you who were expressing the same/similar experience.

we had snow last night – not much – but enough that perhaps there could be some sledding on some of the nearby hills.  so my mate took our girl and her friend and headed out.  they couldn’t find anything suitable and each new road or direction LITERALLY ended in a dead end.  i intended for them to have a wonderful time and visualized my girl and her friend sledding down a hill.  while they were gone i did a few chores and some energy clearing – making the space nice energetically.

and then learned the entire trip was essentially a waste of gas and the ensuing frustration came.

if our experience here is UP then LET.  US.  LEAVE.  i don’t consent to this crap for one more second.

i know many of you are fed up and DONE as well.  we know what freedom is.  we KNOW we desire to create FREELY.  we KNOW we wish to be the one operating the vehicle – us (us/US – human us and higher self US) and NO ONE ELSE.  religions and new age types tell us to surrender to God/Higher Power to soothe us in those moments.  we hear the blah blah blah “you have control of your life.  take control!” but then moments later we hear the blah blah blah of “the only thing you can control is your reaction.”  we have blah blah blah of “there is no right or wrong.  all just IS.”  UGH!

who is steering these vessels here?

the truth of that is withheld here to keep the experience of free will going. and free will is literally allowing ALL experiences to be brought forth.  that’s why we have power over games and manipulations and deception.  we have enslavement.  we have pay to live.  we have transhumanism.  we have this insane speak and pressure to ALLOW for ALL to exist ~ even if that ALL happens to be harming and abusing and destroying others.

Freedom however is the right to create as one wishes.  and when we are in that space we don’t seek to take that right away from another.  that means no more power over games.  i’ve said this all before.  perhaps i keep saying it because i WANT THAT EXPERIENCE AGAIN.  i don’t consent to this one. why i chose to come here i am yet to be fully clear on that – if i even did make the fully conscious choice to do so i have decided different – and even at that, i have doubt.  i likely got trapped here after the takeover.   nowhere does free will align with me.  freedom?  in every cell of my being.

i’m beginning to feel as well that i am part of the original Human species experience.  i’m feeling many of us were – those who long for home.  new subscribers don’t know this but you will never hear me say you chose this experience – suck it up.  you’re here to do the work now get busy.  this is all about YOU and your perception.  what i do say is how do you feel and what aligns with you and what do YOU wish to experience?  in other words – i support YOUR right to FREEDOM.  i do my best to keep all power-over games away from this space.

for now – while i am in this space – i have reached out to a new healer (trauma focused) to see if she can provide me some relief from this panic/claustrophobic experience.  i’ve been at this (finding relief/healing) with this one experience for 25 years.  i recently went on some homeopathic pills and CBD oil for relief.  nope.  the whole tapping and exposing myself works – temporarily.  i don’t get it other than deep within i KNOW i am trapped here and HAVE been and the entire experience won’t leave until i am free.  and i don’t like that one bit – so i continue to make new roads when i can to create a NEW experience – right within here (touching my heart) utilizing tools of within and “out there”.

for now i am roaring like a caged lion wanting OUT.  NEW.  NOW.  intending. letting go.  allowing.  it simply feels like N O T H I N G is helping/working right now – but i continue on seeking and trying new avenues in whatever way i can given the limitations of here.

oh did i mention the boredom experience?  yeah that too.  but i will talk about that later – unless i don’t – which i probably won’t because what purpose does it serve?

this is just day of UGH so ending here…

love,

victoria

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It’s 4:44pm as I begin this one…  Today as I have gone about my stuff (or doing’s as I sometimes say) – I have wondered “what now”?  What do I do now?  From here until that moment we feel/see coming, what do I do?

Going onward, I am also pondering how this will transpire.  Many questions I am exploring.  Do we stay in these vessels?  Do some stay in their current vessel while some go on to new (REAL) human vessels?

Does it happen in an instant?

How much of our memory of this do we retain?  I would think that would be a choice given the whole freedom thing.

And what about those around us?  I don’t “see” most people around me staying in my experience.  Do they forget about us?  If not, they would question “hey where did these people go?”

The trolls keep on a’trollin….I don’t even know if they are anything more than AI at this point.  There was one who did the usual low-vibe/fear-based attack towards something I said on a forum.  Completely unnecessary. Completely unhelpful.  At first I thought hey, not cool.  Why you doing that?  Then I saw them saying the same words to others who hold the same or similar mind-set as do I.

They do because they can.  Here that is.

I was feeling that one heavily last night.  I was lamenting to my mate and giving him a visual.  I have seen myself as this Being who just wants to play in my sandbox – make whatever creations I want in that box – and be left alone to Be.  If someone else is nearby doing the same, have at it.  Have fun.  Just stay OUT of my box, you know?  And my experience in this particular cycle has been full of big ‘ole poops who come into my box without asking and throw their sand in my space, on my body, etc. (metaphorically speaking here of course)

Who does that?

As I lamented to brother Rick awhile ago (I’m into using this term today apparently), “robots, robots everywhere.”  My girl and I were out on a walk. Most everyone around here knows my girl has dog trauma after the numerous attacks she and I went through all last year.  It was unreal.  So today, being it’s a beautiful day, we went for a walk around the ‘hood.  We arrive at a housing area where there were 3 people we knew – and all 3 had dogs.  Two of the dogs were getting out of control.  As I approached the group of people to say “hello” one of the dogs went full on nutso – lunging towards one of the other dogs (who was more or less sitting there observing).  I was suddenly in between these two dogs – and not one of the adults seemed to notice what was going on for they let the dogs continue w/their posturing while they gabbed away.  My girl had by now taken off, understandably, so I announced I was “out of this land of insane stupidity” and walked away. Not very loving but in that moment I wasn’t feeling the “love for all” but instead the “you all know my girl has dog issues and you let this situation happen?  DO YOU NOT THINK?”  I located my girl and we headed home.  She even commented on how “invisible” we seemed to be.

Invisible, yes.  A life long experience for me – one that has indeed grown the more I awaken and question.

We also heard of a situation here with the local school.  Apparently there was a mix-up with a bus or some such thing and frightened children came home quite late – no word from the school.  My girl witnessed one of her friends get off the school bus, in tears.

We see the breaking down of ALL continue.  And yet I wonder – if there IS going to be some split – will the ALL really break down?  The questions of what’s going on and how it will all manifest continue….

Aside from my little girl here inside these walls, my saving grace is music. Home continues to speak to me through music.  As I drove home I suddenly recalled the dream I had of Michael Jackson 2 nights ago.  As I thought that I turn on the radio and there’s a Michael Jackson song on the radio.  Not one of my favorites so I turn to another station.  Yep.  Another MJ song was playing.  My mate gets into the car an hour later, turns on the radio and there’s another MJ song playing.  Earlier today I was drawn again to look at the television music station.  Below are the captures.

Physically, I continue to have facial tics.  The fatigue from yesterday is gone. I have been awakening with left foot pain.  Just the left.  Mate too.  No explanation (for me that is).  For him –  he broke his left foot so that could explain the experience from his perspective.  It COULD be the “empathic illness” experience that I realize I may very well allow myself to experience. I cancel that program!

One last insight.  I awoke with the thought “50 ways to leave the matrix” (parody of “50 ways to leave your lover”).

Awaken your brain, Jane.

Question the game, Blaine.

ou don’t need to be in fear, Dear….just get yourself free.

Step on the Q train….you don’t need to explain yourself…

Just go in your heart space and get yourself Free.

And so it is.

Love,

Victoria

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i am reflecting on the programming i continue to see.  it is so intentional and as i keep seeing, effective.  i feel those who are so deep in it really haven’t a conscious concept of the program.  i have seen far too many people in my life whom i care about all but come unglued – and quickly – at the mention of the word “trump”.  the programming is so deep they aren’t even conscious of their sudden outburst – of their trigger.  is he in the room?  has he done anything to them personally?  i can understand having dislike for a political figure.  but what we see today is over the top.

i have made the choice that i will no longer engage in any political speak with one who holds the “disdain” energy.  i will no longer attempt to share sources of mine – even if asked.  i have done that numerous times and have yet had someone actually take appropriate time to do effective reading/researching.  so….the hand-holding is over.  i had no one hold my hand.  i simply searched because within my inner self guided me to do so.

i came into this realm questioning everything i was told and experienced. some people don’t.  i ask “why?”  what makes it possible for some to question and others either have no interest at all in knowing the truth (i have people in my life like that) or will be open to exploring only a little bit here and there – just not too far outside of the main narratives.  it has to be programming.  expand too far and the programming pulls one back to the story of lies – just like a rubber-band.  unless you have the tenacity and the drive and come from your heart and care MORE for the Truth than you do about what others think of you – you remain stuck in the program(s).  today as i reflect on this i also am feeling some sadness as well as a knowing that to expand the grand awakening, at this point, for the masses, it is going to take a HUGE event that they both experience within and that they SEE – an experience that is UNDENIABLE and over-rides ANY and ALL programs.

The Solar Flash Event.  that is what is going to “save” every one of us in its own way.  accompanied by the truth of ALL that has been hidden to be felt and SEEN.

people i read in certain groups are afraid the truth will get squashed – but i know there is sooooo much more going on than we see.  it is truly a multi-level/cosmic/dimensional exposure and cleaning up.  ALL WILL SEE.  here in this realm or outside.

moving on….lol

i just learned the schumann spiked for 24 hours total.  no coincidence there. a sneak preview of what’s to come?  i would love to fly in more of those bubbles of bliss.  never seen anything like what i saw yesterday – and would love to have more of the same.

i was also contemplating mental “illness” today.  i remember reading in my 20’s one of M. Scott Peck’s books – pretty sure it was in The Road Less Traveled (my first awakening book) – where he said addictions were a spiritual crisis.  connection with Source was not being felt/experienced so the person substitutes that connection with drugs, alcohol, sex, gambling, etc.  spiritual crisis.  i feel spiritual crisis is also behind most of these mental “illnesses” psychiatrists, psychologists and others in the field like to label.  the majority of us have some sort of mental angst – depression, anxiety, panic, disassociation, etc.  pretty guaranteed – comes w/the experience of being in this experience.

how can we define illness?  for me any illness is something out of alignment.  and we know this entire realm was designed to keep us out of alignment – with Source.  with our True Selves.  with Love.  Truth.

and now i pause – i don’t feel i need to go further with this.  this is matrix 101 stuff.  the basics.  we may not know exactly (yet) where we are – but we know what we are experiencing here – what we have been experiencing.  we know the agenda.

and we know the agenda is crumbling.  it is ending.

we are awakening.  and we are exiting.

the solar flash is what fully awakens every one of us.  awakens as in we get released from all controls.  what else will do it?  the programming as i said above is so locked in with some it is going to take that something HUGE to pull all up and out.  ascension = release from bondage.  and i feel – this time i am feeling at a deeper level than i have in the past – i feel it is coming.  very very soon.  very very very soon.

i did forget to mention physical symptoms i’ve been having lately in lisa harrison’s outline last night…..hands not working so well…..cells shaking especially in my legs – then my legs getting really tight – the muscles (that happens after i’ve gone to bed)…..feeling unbelievably COLD as in BONE cold to then really warm (within maybe an hour or less)….i have literally stood in the shower a few times with the water blasted on hot – shivering……unable to heat up my body……lately it’s been my eyes – sudden blurry vision like something is in them but i don’t feel anything so i rub my eyes and blink a few times….and the sleep patterns…..and the heart blips….and this feeling like i’m frigging autistic – overwhelmed so easily….thriving in quiet environments….and this growing energy within feeling like i could run for miles – that restlessness feeling that has returned…..i read some say they are feeling a bit manic – good word lately….appetite?  it waxes and wanes in some extremes now….eating much more fruit and am into eating a lot of greens now too (after having no interest in greens for a time)….not so much meat as in previous days….smoothies….kambucha has become a staple…dark chocolate and an occasional sweet treat like a cookie or donut….so you can see some supposed “taboo’s” but i put more trust in my body speak than i do in the food nazi’s.

i will close this one up by saying i feel each of us are rather pulling back in our shells now….not to hide but to reflect – rest – perhaps even prepare….just a feeling i am having about the collective experience.  of course this could also be my own projecting – but i am both sensing and seeing this in others who are anticipating our full awakening and exit.

love,

victoria

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After yesterday’s noticeable shift “up” – expansive feelings – I went to bed last night feeling well.  But then I felt something – felt pulled back and old stuff began to come up.  Not doing this, I thought as I did deep breathing and went to sleep.

I had a dream.  I was leaving a restaurant – a tiny little Italian type – with my mate.  Or what looked like my mate.  I say that because suddenly he began to run and only said “run” to me.  He didn’t stop to see if I was following and he didn’t grab my hand and pull me along – which is what the REAL him would do if faced with any sort of danger.  At first I just observed and almost laughed.  Why was he running?  And in circles too?  There was nothing to fear, I said.  He then pointed at a woman driving a truck – traveling slowly past us – obviously looking for something/someone.  Ah, I thought.  Maybe that’s what he’s running from.  I began to follow him then and hid behind some trash cans.  It was then that I saw another vehicle – a dirty van – pull up, stop and a load of men piled out carrying guns.  Traffickers, I thought – after their food source – humans.  I realized I couldn’t out run them so I decided to confront them.  I stood up and one of them walked over to me holding a gun.  I looked at the gun and realized “that damn thing it just a child’s cap gun”.  I  knew it couldn’t hurt me so I did what NO ONE is supposed to do if faced with having to grab a gun – I grabbed it by the barrel and as I did, the barrel flopped down and I saw nothing but a roll of caps.  I eyed the gun holder who just stood there with a “woops what do I do now” look and behind him, saw other men who had large shot guns.  As I looked at them I said “you’re going to have to kill me then because I am not going with you.”  I then took off running – up a small hill – and into a fairly big street.  I saw cars off to the distance and was able to get them to come my way immediately.  I flagged them down – standing right in the middle of the road.  Several stopped and as I began to explain what had happened, the dream ended.  As it did, I saw one of the males with a gun in the background of the people – trying to blend in.

I woke up and my first thought was DAMN they are at it again with their injection of low vibe crap.  I felt no fear – just anger.  That righteous “NO” kind of anger.  NOT.  ON.  MY.  TIMELINE.  NOT.  IN.  MY.  EXPERIENCE.

Then I saw the schumann and saw that solid black line:

So I explored this one further.  Felt into it.  What can I do to end my participation in such experiences?  KNOW it is ALL AN ILLUSION.  That message was so profound – and deep – and saturated my entire being with this calm absolute knowing.

I don’t need to participate in any such dreams.  It started out with me just observing and knowing there was nothing to fear.  But I let myself get drawn in – a moment of weakness – and they used someone who looked like my mate to get to me.  I let that diversion impact me so that I continued to let myself play in their little movie.

It’s all a movie.  And I do not have to participate in any “role” in which I do not wish.

So as I took on this new approach, I got into my water portal and felt “get ready vicki” and heard the song by Rod Stewart and Jeff Beck (well their version of it): “People Get Ready”…

People get ready
There’s a train a-coming
You don’t need no baggage
You just get on board
All you need is faith
To hear the diesels humming
Don’t need no ticket
You just thank Source of all (I added the source of all)

I then heard “Love Train” where everyone gets on board.  No money needed. Just bring your Love.  It reminded me of the dream I had late last fall where I was standing in front of a seemingly never-ending train – happily – pure contentment.  People were happy.  It was time.  I had chosen that timeline (while I watched a variety of others head downhill into a large library for more 3D like experience and then walked away to board the train).

If this really is a simulation and this really is a movie we DO have power. Feed LOVE to fear.  Object to any and all that seeks to harm.  Remain solid in Who You Are.  Who You KNOW you are.  Until I get access to codes to bring down this low frequency false all grid, that’s all I have to pass along today. I’m getting ready – as I heard and as I feel.

Love,

Victoria

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