me and this journey
well considering i had to pause for a bit to determine the date, i would say the energies are doing their thing to cause my brain to discombobulate.
appetite continues fluctuate from non-existent to food NOW! Â although the food NOW state is lessening. Â my child is even having the “not really hungry, mama” issue.
my vision? Â wow. Â i literally had a moment in the car where this whiteness appeared in front of my eyes and i thought i was going to go blind. Â it’s a difficult thing to explain. Â it was more of an energy experience than a physical experience. Â something outside of myself. Â or perhaps the ability to SEE/DO here was challenged – perhaps pulling me away in preparation of REAL. Â Real realm. Â Real experiences.
my ability to talk – same struggle. Â difficulty finding words only continues so i end up speaking some other language – kinda chanting combined w/pointing. Â i know what i mean. Â the english language – most languages i would say here in this realm are harsh and often just don’t do the “job” of clearly stating our needs/wishes/wants. Â and hearing it from other’s is quite jarring to me.
my ability to be around others – even the quietest of environment’s – places i normally go – a huge challenge. Â sensitivities are off the chart’s today. Â and this week. Â fatigue and lack of sleep only amplify of course so i know some of this is due to my own personal “stuff” and not all due to “it’s the energies!”
that’s it – fading away. Â that is the feeling i am having most of all. Â fading away. Â that just came to me. Â a real struggle fitting in. Â growing desire TO withdraw.
letting go of connections and attachments. Â just in this holding pattern – ongoing – really wanting NEW.
7777 now please.
love,
Victoria
