Seems depression is “in the air”. Seeing many in our movement talking about this year is it for them in terms of support for the plan. Many talking about feeling a heaviness – depression – wearing on them. Too long. Many saying we need to SEE something beautiful for this holiday season to celebrate it. Something positive and beautiful and NEW and something to give us some real Hope. Grain of a mustard seed is a nice sentiment – but it isn’t enough really, is it, when we’re really honest with ourselves. It’s all there is atm – but it isn’t enough.
Those of us who know can’t sleep.
That is us.
I can’t remember the last time I slept really well.
I am waking up pounding the bed or thrashing under the sheets.
I’m so tired my eyes are fuzzy.
When I talk the words trail off.
2:22 the clock tells me.
And?
Some saying too much of this movement is like a high school clique. You’re either in the cool club or you aren’t. Too many big accounts who don’t do a thing to help promote the smaller accounts. That is why you don’t see most of the big accounts here. Those I do share – they have helped and shown support to the individuals doing the work/sharing.
Among us all is ample resources and love to help out one another more than what is being done. This doesn’t have to be a solo or lonely journey. Not if we stay connected – regularly.
I dunno.
I don’t know where I fit in.
Where I belong.
I don’t know what to do different.
Done with being a prisoner of money.
Done with going to stores and seeing a price increase.
Done with having utility bills arrive and being told I have to pay their price increase and new tax they create out of thin air – and get away with it.
Done seeing everyone I know who is not seeing carry on without a care in the world.
There are enough of us to make our own plan and live our own way – maybe not the way we want exactly – but hey together is a lot better than this going it (more or less) alone isn’t it?
Anyway, that continues to be my heart focus – to build community – with regular ongoing REAL connecting. I need it in person.
And I know ya’ll do as well.
So let’s do what I’m seeing others say – this year is it. After that – tapping out.
Let’s put that energy into one another instead and into the visions we hold for ourselves.
And L
And let’s create that. Together.
A got me a lifelong vision of a small community in a beautiful valley by an ocean – 400/500 people. A variety of ages (none of this “you gotta be under 35 and fit/healthy to live here” blah blah nonsense).
There HAS to be property – somewhere – with some neglected structures.
COME ON! WE CAN FRIGGING DO THIS!!!!
Bat sheot crazy and serious at the same time here – which is an amazingly dangerous combination for one who will achieve what she is focused on.
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V.
