Perpetual exhaustion – with brief interludes of bursts of energy to get the basics done – continues.  I woke up early morning with a very heavy heart – a longing – a deep lonliness.  Social deprivation has gone on far too long.  I feel like we’re prisoners in our home.  Unable to find real connection – and apprehensive to be around anyone who partook of the juice (had another experience last night which simply pissed me off as I had done my protocols and intended protection and felt 100% safe & fine – until it happened – I’m ok today).  It’s a challenge to keep sane now – especially with this one issue alone as many if not most seem to have no issue with this – making us once again misfits here.  There are a couple of groups I have found of people who experience the same sensitivity.  It’s sad to see how many even in this “awakening” movement dismiss this issue.  I could sure use a miracle right about now to bring us a new place and new tribe – real friends.  Doing the best we can for as long as we have doesn’t have the power it once did.  This family has been slowly starving for too long.  I don’t even feel putting myself out there the way I have is worth my time – certainly not when I do and nothing comes back to me.  You know the whole put out what you want and a door or window opens.  I get silence and “wait”.  Neither is ok with me now.  Neither.

Sorry folks for the downer but that’s how I feel now.  There could have been much more done to create real support networks for people like us.

Will share some interesting finds later.  Some gave me hope – but I need a lot more than hope now.  I need that miracle.  Or two.  Or more.

Love,

V.

Starting off on a positive.  I can feel it.  Can you?  In the background – right there – and for now…………..

WOW.

W O W WOW WOW.

&

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

If dinner would make itself and the laundry wash itself, I’d be in the recliner, watching the beautiful “virtual reality” scene of the type of house I want with the purple skies and huge rock wall fireplace, beamed wooden ceilings surrounded by gorgeous pine forests.  Well no – I’d project myself there – in so long as it’s in real space and real home and real. Real. Real.

So speaking of “real” – and what is clearly NOT real here………….Sister Jules reminded me of an experience I had in the last week or two and had forgotten.  She shared with me today how she is seeing a ridiculous number of white cars – just a few basic styles too – but all white.  So a week or so ago I was driving around and suddenly that nudge – that inner Seeing Me let the simulated me see how many white cars there are and it was so noticable in that moment that I actually commented out loud to my girl “Why are there so many white cars?!”  Then as quick as it came, the experience left.  Then today my mate tells me he was noticing the same this week – where are all of these white cars coming from and why so many?  He and I spoke of it and at the same damn time said ‘FILLER’ – which is theh word I used to Jules – how the matrix puts in fillers.

Interesting too friends is that I woke up this morning thinking about our vision and how little we see of our reality.  WHO did this and WHY?  (we know – just asking one of those rhetorical questions)  As I share here – if it’s to HIDE and DECEIVE it’s evil.  We’re SUPPOSED to see EVERYTHING.  That’s certainly our Right.  The God/Universe eternal within me wants to See and Know ALL.  No deception.  Nothing hidden.  If it is it is matrix/control/evil/parasitic.  P E R I O D.

So anyways – interesting as I woke up w/this on my mind and then spent some time thinking of all that is out there in this fake reality – and well, it’s, fake.  We know it.  We feel it.  We sense it.  And that knowing is growing, isn’t it?

Another interesting matrix experience to share.  LH shared this past week she was in a restaurant when the EBS went off – without the message – just the sounds.  (did I already share this??  oh well – if i did – sorry for the repeat)  She said everyone but a few people literally froze – as in didn’t move – like they shut down.  The few who “saw” looked around – made eye contact.  Then when the normal whatever was playing on the radio came back on, the people (fillers??) came back to life and continued on as though nothing had happened.

I’ve seen that happen – just once – person froze for a few moments, then blinked, shook her head and was back in the game.

We ain’t in the kansas we thought.

Not even CLOSE.

Where we are and who is here with us and WHAT is here with us – again we don’t always see (obviously starting to more and more) – but we know it.  We sense it.  And perhaps that intel we’ve heard that many have already left and been replaced by programs, etc. – I’m leaning pretty strongly towards that being truth.

For now – here’s an update from Rose.  WE ARE READY.  Thanks also to LH for sharing this one.  Some of us are quite thirsty for info to comfort and keep us going.  Some days that thirst is intense.

YellowRoseforTexas

5 hours ago

They said last night, Prepare for the Big End. Doing my best to put out a vid inbetween all the other stuff going on. We’re all so exhausted. When the schumann is up, I can sleep because bad guys have a harder time doing things with the freq. that high. Street word is the money is failing, so its a sign of how close the financial collapse is.