Less of a reflection – more of an opinion piece – even a statement….
You all know I shared the piece by Clif High – a piece I can see logically. And yet, as I say repeatedly: we are not robots. We are humans with real experiences that induce real emotions.
Tonight – my mate was violently ill. Any more ill and I would have had no choice but to bring him to the last place in which he wants to go – the satanic medical practice building on top of the hill that calls itself a hospital. Would he have received any benefit? Other than perhaps giving him fluids via IV, no. They haven’t a clue how to treat him. They have proven themselves in that regard over the years.
As I was scrubbing the shower, disinfecting surfaces and all of that, I was thinking about Clif (and so many others) analogy how we are in war – and we must unite humanity (for some reason in which I continue to struggle to understand exactly WHY we must all unite) – and in order for us to be united AND in order for the “normies” heads not to implode – such awakenings must be done very carefully and to consider what is the least possible harm done to humanity as a whole.
Fuck that.
First – there is nothing “normal” about the normies. They are bizarre and absolutely lacking in any sort of real intellectual dialogue OR critical thought much less curiousity: all of which, in my heart and soul and mind ARE NORMAL. You know – that innate sense of curiousity that comes from BEING human which leads you to organically and naturally QUESTION YOUR REALITY. THAT is normal healthy behavior. To do otherwise is, well honestly, quite frightening to me and is indicative of some sort of a mental schism.
I see the harm being done to those I care about the most – not just inside this house but others I know. I see suicidal thoughts. Isolation. Depression. Financial struggles and outright poverty. Physical illness. Children suffering. Don’t these experiences account for the same level of concern as some “normie”? I simply see this as tossing those of us under the bus to spare some normie’s “mental/emotional experience” in seeing the truth too soon.
Fuck that – again I say – fuck that.
Anyone who wants to throw that analogy or logic my way can go speak to my mate – right now – as he lay in bed moaning, feeling as though he is dying (he’s not – he will come out of it – he always does).
They can also share that logic – that analogy – with our daughter who was plugging her ears tonight – shaking – afraid for her daddy and traumatized from having to hear his physical reactions too many times because he has not received PROPER medical healing/care.
And they can also try to share it with me – the one who was trying to assist my mate – while keeping our daughter occupied with Anne with an E episodes – reassuring her that daddy always gets through these “episodes” and will be fine in the morning. And now – at this moment – when big and little sweeties are in bed – I sit here alone – to process all of this…..To try and make sense of any of this. To reassure myself of the ongoing mental narrative that this is all over soon and my mate will get the real treatment and healing he needs……that he will be able to walk into a doctor’s office and will be SEEN……and he won’t have to have 20 thousand fucking dollars to do it.
And maybe – just maybe – some of these huge accounts with these large followers – maybe – just maybe – ONE of them is the real deal and not just using this awakening to profit and have a podium in which to stroke his/her ego. MAYBE there is just one out there who has affluence and benevolent connections and the means to actually help not just my mate – but myself – and everyone I know who is going through hell right now – who NEED real healing – whether it be physical/emotional/mental. None of us know the real truth of this plan much less when it wraps up NOR what the ending will be and if it is US who is truly going to be liberated from evil. We might all get thrown under the bus. We don’t know. We truthfully honestly don’t know. We can throw our desires and faith into this all we want – but the truth is – while we are in charge of our own process now – we are NOT in charge in what is playing out on the world stage (unless a million vets/well trained men and women organize and take it all down). And so………..if we aren’t truly supporting one another right now in the way we each uniquely need – as I keep saying – there is NO sense in awakening any further. If we can’t support one another – there was no point in which to awaken to begin with.
With love and truth,
Victoria
