Last night I had what could be called the strangest/longest night I can recall having.

First I went to bed early – crashed hard too.  But then woke up an hour later and I was wide awake.  W I D E   A W A K E.  I don’t like that.  lol

I also realized I was shaking all over.  I had already taken CBD oil.  Why was I shaking?  I didn’t feel afraid or particularly anxious – but there I was – shaking like a fall leaf on a tree.  So I climb out of bed, go into the kitchen, notice the clock says 1:11.  “Very funny,” I grumbled.  I took some magnesium/trace mineral concentrate, put it in water, drank it and returned to bed.

I waited for sleep to come.  While I did, I felt an inner nudge – Big Me (my best feel/guess) ask “what is your best trait?  What about you do you like best?”  I remained quiet within – felt – reflected – and felt this was another ongoing experience where I was tuning in and Remember Who I Really Am – and sifting out those parts I’m not.

My humor.  I suddenly just knew – my humor is my favorite quality of myself.  I then began going through other traits in my mind but within felt no need to do that.  Just needed the “more favorite” piece.

I noticed the shaking had subsided, so at last I was able to drift off to sleep.

Then came the dreams.

First I feel I tapped into someone who just allegedly committed suicide.  There was a middle aged man in my dream named Steve (Steven) and there was a young girl there who was fighting with him in some way.  The names got confusing as did the rest of the experience but I walked away from it – thinking “not my monkey” – just knowing I didn’t need to take on this experience.  When I shared this with my mate, he told me about Steve (Bing) and his suicide and how his children esp. his daughter are fighting over his estate.  

I am not venturing further down that rabbit hole so I will just leave the link for anyone interesting in learning more.

Then I was in an old childhood home – searching for my own space – which I finally found.  I was able to turn on the lights I wanted and the music I wanted.  The song?  Boston – Gonna Hitch a Ride.  Check out the lyrics.  The chorus is particular interesting for what I have already been experiencing…feeling….wanting:

Day is night in New York City
Smoke, like water, runs inside
Steel idle trees to pity
Every living things that’s died

Gonna hitch a ride
Head for the other side
Leave it all behind
Never change my mind
Gonna sail away
Sun lights another day
Freedom on my mind
Carry me away for the last time
Oh yeah

Life is like the coldest winter
People freeze the tears I cry
Words of hail their minds are into
I’ve got to crack this ice and fly

Gonna hitch a ride
Head for the other side
Leave it all behind
Never change my mind
Gonna sail away
Sun lights another day
Freedom on my mind
Carry me away for the last time

Gonna hitch a ride
Head for the other side
Leave it all behind
Never change my mind
Gonna sail away
Sun lights another day
Freedom on my mind
Carry me away for the last time.

Yeah…..  Love it.  Thank you.

Then a bit ago, as I am prepping dinner, I wanted to hear some music so I turn on that little transistor and hear – AGAIN – Tears for Fears singing “nothing ever lasts forever” and “so glad we’ve almost made it”…..

And when I woke up the songs on the music channel soundscape were messages from Home and Almost Home.

And THEN (talking like my daughter – lol)…..last night when I arrived home and was sharing my songs-in-the-car experience with my mate, and how I recalled once Brother Rick passing along a message from Clair saying my freedom would come with my music.  For some reason last night that popped into my mind.  In a totally Divine Synch, moments later, Brother Rick texts me telling me Clair had just popped in to say the wheel was about to switch (or something like that) – as in all that has been going one way is about to switch to the New.

So I wrote back saying WOWSER – and told him what had just popped into my mind and the music experience and he texts back later and says how funny that was as when Clair came through he heard music playing and that never happens.

So…..Oh yes one last thing….Last night while I lay wide awake shaking and tuning in, I also heard/felt the desire to Remember how we communicate.  Original communications.  Do you think we really spoke in words the way we do now?  I don’t know, I thought – laughing to myself.  But I do – in some small way I do know communication is different.  We use the term telepathic and that holds truth.  It also involves the heart and energy and sensing and feeling.  Eye contact is used too.  Touch.

So perhaps there is verbal in the new – I feel that – but also most is non-verbal and this time we all REMEMBER and Know how to utilize the non-verbal unlike today which as we know with any relationship leads to frustration when we don’t pick up on the non-verbal stuff – which is the majority of our communications.

Just as we are ALWAYS creating – we are ALWAYS communicating.

Off to enjoy my version of a traditional spaghetti factory dinner – homemade and with some quiet as our little chatter box is enjoying dinner with her bff at their house.

Let me know what experiences you are having now.

Love to you all,

Victoria

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First I woke up with a song playing in my mind.  It’s some song from the 70’s – from a movie.  I just don’t know the name of the song or what movie it belongs to.  I’ve looked – came up empty handed so I am letting it go.  The name can find me.

I feel I am filtering out my life – finding those moments that created an inner experience I want to keep.  Take with me.  ??  As I have shared here, I have been watching a lot of movies lately.  Given I pretty much stopped watching movies several years ago, this is very “unusual” behavior for me.  Watching each movie, I scour the lines and experiences of the characters to help me “recapture” some part of my “lost” self.  It’s been intense and the feeling to do this has been strong.  I’ve tried watching a couple of movies the rest of the family wanted to watch.  There was nothing to see for me and so I could not get into the movie.  And even watching these movies I feel guided to watch, I am often fast forwarding scenes or rewinding to find the “right” moment to capture.  It’s rather bizarre, but I’m going with it.

And what IS “normal” about any of this experience at this point.

So if that isn’t interesting enough, my child, whom I have not told her anything about why I am suddenly watching movies again, told me she’s been having memories come back from her life so far here – good and bad. She said she feels like she’s being called to remember the good and leave the bad behind.  I looked at her – eyes wide – when she said this and she just gave me her sweet little smile and shrugged.  I told her she is brilliant and very tuned in – and to give attention to those prompts and memories.

One last share…..only just 15 minutes ago, I sat down, alone, to have a small bite to eat.  Appetite continues to be down, so at first I was just going to eat in silence but then something prompted me to turn on the radio.  So I turn on our little transistor (I love those – we have a few) and let myself be guided to go to a particular channel.  “Give A Little Bit” by Supertramp is on. A nice song – not a favorite – and after a few moments I thought “eh maybe I will turn the station” but something said to stick with it.  I thought of Grandpa Don – he popped into my mind.  And then, for the very first time, I actually hear the following lyrics:

Now’s the time that we need to share
So, find yourself, we’re on our way back home

Going home
Don’t you need, don’t you need to feel at home?
Oh, yeah, we gotta see

You gotta get a feeling
You come along too

W O W.

I looked out the window – tears came – I went into the whole experience.

I feel I am picking up pieces of myself – taking those things I want to keep with me.  As I type those words, I feel a warmth spread over me – those tears in my throat – and a smile on my face.  Just W O W.

Earlier today I did some tai chi (re-learning what I once used to practice 22 years ago – yes – 22 years).  As I did I could “see” and “feel” how this really is an individual experience now.  So go with whatever comes your way. Follow those quiet, gentle (but persistent) prompts.

That guiding Force is there when we go slow and start from Within.  We’re goin’ Home.  (was just guided to add those last 3 words)

Love,

Victoria

Earlier today, while I was in the bathroom getting ready, my kiddo was lying on the floor in the hallway next to the bathroom door, feet on the wall, spinning and moving the way young bodies do (and are allowed to do)…I smiled as I watched and listened to her.

She was asking all sorts of questions.

One question was about me.

“Mama, when you were a little girl, what did you want to be when you grew up?”

I reflected on this rather than give her a “rushed mama” response.

“I wanted to be like Under Dog.  I wanted to be a writer, journalist and a Hero who exposed evil and helped remove it.”

She smiled and said “Kinda like you’re doing now, huh?”

Bingo.

I guess in a way I am living that life I saw of myself when I was 7.  (Although I wanted the super powers of Mighty Mouse too – who at the time – according to a booklet I made about myself in first grade – was my Hero.)

Just wanted to share something sweet tonight.  Off to watch another movie. Last night we watched “Rear Window” with Jimmy Stewart and Grace Kelly. A good pick.

Love,

Victoria

Once again, when I hear of others experiences, I will often think “oh yeah – I remember thinking that” or “feeling that”.  It’s like most of these moments of clarity are so subtle and arrive quickly – I struggle to remember them and share them here.  It’s the big KAPOW moments I can remember – like the two huge purges I had yesterday and again today where I felt I was purging ancient deep trauma’s that, at the time, fractured my mind. Perhaps my mind is unfracturing.  If that is possible.

Lisa shares she does not feel/see the election happening.  Ditto that.  I continue to feel NOTHING “normal” about that time frame.  The visual I get when I can tune into that time period is nothing here is the same.  Nothing.  Every thing has changed.  It’s like after a massive explosion and all has changed – there is this silence that lingers as people adjust to the new way of being for the old is gone.  And as she says – when that moment comes – no matter how much we have HAD IT with this place – our minds are still going to be blown.  I have felt that too.  That W O W moment.  Oh yes – a part of me is feeling to “get prepared” for that moment.  Part of that, for me, has been to tune into me on the outside – ask for help – doing a virtual “reaching out” of my hands.  Tonight I reflected on these energies coming in – esp. those moments where I – we – feel suddenly very hot – that feeeels like high frequency from our real bodies streaming here to prepare for the final Merge.

Today – I sat in the bathroom – looking at myself and saying out loud:  “I don’t really know who I really am.  I am just a character inside this place.  A personality created inside this construct.”  That is when I felt – when it happens – I am going to be like W O W.  There was a sense of acceptance and readiness with that – like a prepping that was sent to me.  Lisa speaks about this at the 55:00 mark.  Two days my mate said to me “I don’t even know who I am anymore.”

How can we?  How can we really know who we really are here inside this construct – and when not all of us is even within these bodies?

She speaks of some big Reveal – something huge – that ALL will see. Nibiru?  What Rose says – asteroids and space rocks?  Could it be the 3 Gorges Dam that bursts?  (I still feel some sense of protection around that….although Q has said 4-6% lost forever and it’s going to be Biblical.)

And yet – is that a scene ALL will see?   I don’t know.

She speaks of three levels (layers) – 1-3:

1. National Politics w/the focus on the US – dem vs. repub which morphed into good vs. evil
2. Global – China vs. US
3. Wuhan Asteroid and Trump Asteroid

That last one was a WTF REALLY??!! moment for me.  Yes, Victoria we are not in Kansas anymore and  There is a Wuhan Asteroid.  “My friend and colleague Brenda Wilson alerted me to the movement of the asteroid Wuhan and its synchronicity with timing of the current pandemic. I am sharing her insightful article below.  In brief, the asteroid Wuhan (discovered in 1980 at the Purple Mountain Observatory) entered into Capricorn in early January shortly before the Saturn Pluto conjunction.”

Wow.  More “proof” of this experience being a scripted movie.

The Trump Asteroid I haven’t found but it could be what they are naming the one set to literally impact “earth” the day before the Presidential Election.

I look at how Trump has spoken of his presidency and the election….Past tense when speaking of “have had been their President”….and how the election results may never be concluded or how we may not have an election….and it just adds to the storyline of where I feeeeeel this is going…..everything changes here….and all go to where they align/want/need to go to Create again in that Original State….which can be a process….quickly or otherwise….

She speaks of being squeezed…..Y E S although for me that squeezing went to “ok we got this bundle pulled up let’s PUSH it out now”….

Also….being prepped…..yes….feeling that….prepped for some role, she said….hmmmm…..I have had dreams of meetings where I am getting information….where is it going?  What is the info?  What is my role (other than the one I am “playing” now)?  I don’t know at the moment.

Drinking more water – yes.  Yes, definitely.  Some times it is intense as though I am pregnant and you absolutely MUST drink NOW.  Of course this experience is similar to birth as we are birthing a new Us again.  My appetite is down too – quite noticeably in the last 2-3 weeks.  In fact I have moments where I will eat simply because the clock says so even though I don’t feel hungry.  At times the food is needed – other times, not really.  Eating a lot of fruit atm.

I am feeling I can feel myself more on the outside.  Sometimes I wonder – if I tune in enough – I can unplug myself.  It’s like the veil between us outside and us inside is very very thin now.

As she said about their plans – they are being seen.  The visual I had several days ago was someone (deep stater 1) picking up a pile of dirt – tossing it to another deep stater (#2) while saying “here throw this at ’em see what happens”.  Dirt is tossed – it scatters in the wind.  Deep stater 2 says back to Deep Stater 1 “quick give me another one”.  More dirt is tossed – same thing happens.  Although I will say – this mask wearing crap has continued far longer than I thought and I question – do I just want to avoid the drama and get food delivered or do I want to fight this nonsense and walk in sans mask. That will just be based on how I feel, again, atm.

Interesting about the rabbit holes…..just when you think you HAVE IT – there’s another one to venture into.  Today – I am at the place where I know everything here was a lie so I don’t go down those rabbit holes as I once did. And really – this is really a movie – an illusion – where REAL LIFE is on the outside so in the end, what do any of these rabbit holes really prove OR provide other than to help us SEE the very matrix spell we were under/living in?

Also interesting her perspective on Heather Ann and her filings.   Some are insistent this was and is a very authentic happening.  Some just aren’t into that.  I see what Heather did as exposing how they made $$ off of us.  Will her filings manifest into what we want?  I see that as more of an East/Home experience in that we have our abundance returned/restored without money.  Money has been of course the tool of enslavement so nesara/gesara or releasing of trust funds, etc. has never aligned with me.

So the message remains…..follow your own Heart….your own callings and nudges and Let Go of anything and all that does not align with your Heart.

And now, I am off to watch another movie.  HA!  A movie within a movie.  Interesting though how I watch them so much differently than I did in the “past”….

Good evening ya’ll.  As always, I love to hear from you and thank you all for your support.

Love,

Victoria

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