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driving home today, i was enjoying the solitude of my car.  i had dropped off our child at her activity.  the sun was shining in between rain showers – a song from my past playing on the radio.  the words spoke of enjoying watching the puddles gather rain (fans of 90’s music will probably know that one).  a favorite of mine.  smiling, i glanced over at a large sign advertising “ESTATE SALE”.  i saw it was a local organizing company putting it on – the same company who had recently cleaned out our adopted grandpa’s home in recent days.

i haven’t spoken of that yet.  what is there to say?  the house is empty – in every way imaginable now.

so seeing this sign removed the smile from my face as i reflected on the rather pathetic way in which our lives can be seen at times after we have left these bodies:  stuffed into boxes and at times, placed on display at Estate Sales.

it just felt wrong.  my mood grew somber.

and then something happened.

i thought of it a different way – much the way “the grinch” does in that holiday cartoon.

i could see the humor of all of our “stuff” we gather – being passed on to someone else.  i could hear our grandpa laugh.  his legacy – sitting at some damn estate sale.  he would definitely see the humor in that.

and i did too.

so i laughed – tears in my eyes.  kind of one of those most beautiful moments – the most powerful of emotional states.  missing him as i do, i could feel the laughter in the moment of reflection.  and i could feel how temporary this all is.  and how absolutely ridiculously silly it is as well in the end.

we come and go.  meet and greet – reconnect – only to move on to another experience.

only in this “now” moment – we do so FREELY.  forever more.

love,

victoria

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Greetings everyone ~

I mentioned in a previous daily piece that I have been seeing someone for trauma release.  The real “work” began today and I was able to move some energy through and out my body.  I had a dream last night where I was surrounded in light – bright sunshine – then the next moment I’m in total blackness, driving in the snow – shaky ground but I was able to maintain control of the car I was navigating before I then just as quickly navigated myself back to the light and sunshine.

Talk about metaphors for what I am currently doing w/this healing work.  (and interestingly enough – each visit I have had this year – the sun has peaked through the skies – the sun being a rarity this winter)

As I was able to move and release some much needed-to-be-removed energy, I was able to maintain my heart-centered space a bit easier and longer today.  As such, going through some of the social media stuff, I saw how much of it was off-putting to me.  There seems to me to be an uptake in pride and ego in some in the MAGA movement.  There is a sense of “in your face TOLD YOU SO”.  I even saw a couple of t-shirts w/Trump 2020 on them that spoke of not giving an “f” (spelled out) about other people’s feelings (assuming the reference was aimed at the “snow flake liberals”) as well as one making reference to making Democrat’s cry or something similar.

I can understand these feelings – these experiences.  I can understand the need to say – even scream – “SEE I WAS RIGHT!”.  I’ve had those moments. But to wear a shirt with such words?   Obviously such sentiments aren’t uniting.  Certainly not helpful.  They are cruel and unnecessary.  You don’t unite or create peace by intentionally poking another.

I certainly do part ways – and always have – w/this rugged individualism stance that can be found in the MAGA movement.  Individualism yes.  But rugged?  This “pull yourself up on your own” – this sense of being “untouched” by things like trauma, difficult emotions and painful experiences.  Some are more sensitive than others.  Some have a much harder time in finding building and creating their way – on their own – in this realm.  This is not indication that one is lacking in strength.  

Just like the public school system isn’t cut out for every child, the pay and work-to-live/pay and work-to-survive system isn’t cut out for every adult either.

A few days ago we had company.  Both people are Trump supporters.  (i laughed and said this is the most trump people we’ve had in the house at one time EVER)  There was talk about “those liberals” and I said I know many of such people – and while they may be deeply programmed by the system(s) – they are thoughtful people who are highly conscientious with how they speak to others.  How beautiful it would be, I said, to take some of that and mix it with some of “those conservative behaviors” for the perfect combo.

You know – toss the labels.  See how we’ve all been programmed here. Accept our emotions.  And live/be/do from the Heart.

Just as I was gratefully (and with relief) much more able to do today.

Love,

Victoria

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Thank you to All who support my work!  It is so very appreciated.

I dedicate myself to The Great Awakening for free because I feel so passionate about this process.  This site (and my Patreon site) is my primary source of income.  And as such, there are many ways to support my work.  You can either leave me a donation by following the paypal button, or you can support me by purchasing one of the following:

1. SELECT CBD AFFILIATE

2.VICTORIA’S HOMEMADE FANTABULOUS TOOTH POWDER

3.My inter-active Journal, “Live To Impress Yourself” on sale at LULU.COM.

I am also an affiliate for BlueHost.  If you or someone you know are interested in starting/creating a website and are in need of a hosting company, please consider using BlueHost.  It’s who I use and I have always found them very helpful when I have needed extra assistance.  

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