I Am A Highly Sensitive Being

i thought i would share how i experience this world – not just as me but as a highly sensitive being.

to begin i have likely pushed aside this part of me for too long. i have known of my sensitivities for 20 years. i remember taking a quiz in the book “The Highly Sensitive Person” and answering “yes” to every question that helped you determine if you were highly sensitive. what a relief – i had a label – something to understand. and to know i wasn’t alone. however – i haven’t done as “good” of a job taking care of myself in this regard. i either push myself too much – or simply hide from the world.

i pause as i type those words. i know i need balance -a keyword i once read people with my numerology often struggle to achieve.

sometimes i feel diving down all of these rabbit holes in my quest for truth has actually caused me some harm – more trauma – more overwhelm than my brain can take in. even though i’m quite good at “sucking it up” and doing when i need to – that still doesn’t negate the fact that while i’m engaged in this behavior, a piece of my brain is suffering. and i also know that today – i’m not as adept at this as i once was. age. hormonal changes.and just general life fatigue caused by far too much chronic stress.

as i have shared here in recent days – sharing all of the chaos – the headlines going on now – just getting to be too much for me most days. not all – but most.

being highly sensitive means i need a lot of time alone.

it means that when i am with a group of people and while others are talking loudly or engaged in long conversations, i am the one who will stop and notice the sky and be far more interested in that.

it means sudden, loud noises can put me into a tailspin. if i am well rested, i can process. if i am tired or otherwise not up to par, that loud noise can bring out the desire to scream.

same for hearing yelling…..or incessant whining……..being exposed to bright lights or loud music (that i have not turned on or selected)…….one of our local box stores has one wall along all of the checkout lines lined with televisions. always on. annoys the F out of me. most of the time i can block it out – but there are times when i literally have to shield my eyes.

and the most difficult for me – the visual stimulation of traffic. lots of it – coming and going – honking – and being stuck in it. that can push me over the edge even on my best days now.

for me it also means struggling with impatience….never understanding why the wait for what i feel is rightfully mine….and yours….i have said more than once my awakening has been amazing and deeply frustrating at the same time….i often say “ok i’m awake and awakening – NOW WHAT?” what do i DO with this knowledge? i haven’t figured out how to take it and GO where i see and feel.

for me being highly sensitive also means a strong disdain for things like conflict and unasked for advice (BIG ONE)………and not being heard.

what does help soothe me?

QUIET.

as mentioned above – time alone.

playing music.

riding my bike – especially in the evening when the wind is blowing and the air is cool. fast. up the hills and down the hills. stopping to take pictures along the way. (i embarrassed my daughter recently when, while riding one evening and it was quite windy, i began singing “ride like the wind” – christopher cross – loudly – as we rode.)

yoga.

staying up late listening to music – tuning out with ear buds. (doing that now as i type this) i know the “advice” is go to bed early blah blah – but for me – for my entire life here – i have loved the evening hours. all is quiet. the masses are sleeping. and i have the energy space all to my own. as i used to say when i was much younger – that’s the time i most feel the Universe and have it all to myself. : )

journaling…….writing……..beading………crafts of all types……

walks alone……..

sky gazing………

being highly sensitive means one small word of kindness sent my way – especially unexpectedly – brings out the intense feeling of gratitude. or an offer of help – without strings.

or knowing i have really been heard.

for me – love – love in action – from myself that i give to myself and receive from others – is my manna.

love,

victoria

Tonight’s Sky Captures ~ 8/28/19

i had a feeling around dinner time that we were going to have an amazing sunset. we did. below are some of the captures taken by both myself and my mate. i was out on a bike ride with our girl taking pics and he was at home doing the same. riding around i noticed a lot of people out doing the same. the sky was glowing for quite a long time too. one thing we noticed – the sun is setting much farther north than it should be. the first picture i share – that is the position the sun was in back in june.

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Strange Jet-like Sky Sounds, But No Planes?

we have had this experience numerous times – we hear what is obviously a jet-ending sound but looking up and all around we see nothing.

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“I took my high power laser pointer and shot it up in the direction of the unexplained loud jet sound. … On two separate occasions, I have seen the beam interrupted momentarily — It seems to me there is a real physical object moving through the air that is simply not visible.”

— Scientist in San Diego, California, who has heard loud jet noises in clear sky and two times flashed a powerful laser in direction of unexplained jet noise and saw the beam interrupted by something invisible

August 16, 2019 Albuquerque, New Mexico – On my Wednesday, August 15, 2019, Earthfiles YouTube Channel broadcast, I reported the following high strangeness from a current Boeing Company Production Facility employee in Everett, Washington. In the map immediately below, Boeing centers stretch over some 65 miles from Everett going south to Seattle and Bellevue’s Boeing Field operations. Then further south to the Auburn and Tacoma region’s Boeing Company Fabrication Division.

Here is the Boeing employee email to me on August 14, 2019:

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British Government to Suspend Parliament For Five Weeks, Outraging Anti-Brexit Rebels

Boris Johnson’s government is activating the constitutional mechanism to suspend Parliament on Wednesday, a move which has outraged Remainers because it limits the amount of Parliamentary time available to them to sabotage Brexit taking place at the end of October.

The Prime Minister confirmed will take place on Wednesday, and will see what is called in Westminster jargon Prorogation last five weeks between September and mid-October. Parliament will reopen on October 14th with the Queen’s speech, the ceremonial delivery by the monarch of a speech written by the government outlining their political intentions for the coming session.

It is normal for a new government to bring forward a Queen’s speech, and the announcement follows Boris Johnson replacing Theresa May as Prime Minister and building his own government on July 24th, but pro-Remain activists and politicians have reacted to the announcement with undisguised anger. The timing of the announcement severely restricts the amount of Parliamentary time they have to subvert the 2016 referendum, in which the British people said they wanted the country to leave the European Union.

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and in related news:

Pound Tumbles As PM Boris Johnson Asks Queen To Suspend Parliament

Standoff Prompts Evacuations in Fairfield Neighborhood

the obvious question: why the US Secret Service?

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By NBC Bay Area staff

Published 3 hours ago

A neighborhood in Fairfield has been evacuated Wednesday morning while police assist the U.S. Secret Service with a barricaded suspect.

The standoff is reported in the 3300 block of Shenandoah Court, near Oliver Road. Police advise residents to avoid the area and to expect traffic detours.

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Ginger: 10,000x Stronger Than Chemo (Taxol) in Cancer Research Model

we consume ginger daily in this household – either dry or as a tea using the fresh root.

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by Sayer Ji, Green Med Info:

A provocative study reveals ginger contains a pungent compound that could be up to 10,000 times more effective than conventional chemotherapy in targeting the cancer stem cells at the root of cancer malignancy

A study published in PLoS reveals a pungent component within ginger known as 6-shogaol is superior to conventional chemotherapy in targeting the root cause of breast cancer malignancy: namely, the breast cancer stem cells.

As we have discussed in greater detail in a previous article titled, “Cancer Stem Cells: The Key To Curing Cancer,” cancer stem cells are at the root of a wide range of cancers, not just breast cancer, and are sometimes referred to as “mother cells” because they are responsible for producing all the different “daughter” cell types that makeup the tumor colony. While cancer stem cells only constitute between .2 and 1% of the cells within any given tumor, they have the seeming “immortal” ability to self renew, are capable of continuous differentiation, are resistant to conventional chemotherapeutic agents, and are tumorigenic, i.e. are capable of “splitting off” to create new tumor colonies. Clearly, the cancer stem cells within a tumor must be destroyed if cancer treatment is to affect a lasting cure.

The study titled, “6-Shogaol Inhibits Breast Cancer Cells and Stem Cell-Like Spheroids by Modulation of Notch Signaling Pathway and Induction of Autophagic Cell Death,” identified powerful anti-cancer stem cell activity in 6-shogaol, a pungent constituent of ginger produced when the root is either dried or cooked. The study also found that the cancer-destroying effects occurred at concentrations that were non-toxic to non-cancerous cells – a crucial difference from conventional cancer treatments that do not exhibit this kind of selective cytotoxicity and therefore can do great harm to the patient.

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Link to a map showing current indictment list

Here are the numbers:

115,830 SEALED
13,215 UNSEALED
264,471 NON-SEALED

https://qmap.pub/cases

Could this be what Trump meant (and wanted us to look at) when he claimed “I Am The Chosen One”?

for those who don’t know the context of this, President Trump was giving a press report outside the White House recently. as he spoke of China, he talked about how they took advantage of our country economically and how someone needed to stand up to them – how no previous administration did – until he came along. that’s when he did his gesture and said “i am the chosen one”. i found this one tonight. Huawei – huge tech firm out of China – behind the dirty 5G tech. hmmm….

SOURCE.

The "Chosen One"!
Huawei A.I 🧐
Didn't @Potus mention something about a" Chosen One"🤔 https://t.co/iHENlasPmb

— Nasty 1 (@Nasty_1__) August 28, 2019

and then i found this:

Jimmy Carter’s 1977 law gives Trump sweeping powers to block China trade

by Sean Higgins

| August 27, 2019 12:00 AM

Legal scholars and trade policy experts say that President Trump is right to claim broad powers to prohibit companies from trading with foreign countries thanks to a 1977 law that has previously not garnered much attention outside the context of national security.

The law, the International Emergency Economic Powers Act signed by Democratic President Jimmy Carter, gives the president sweeping powers to restrict trade once a “national emergency” is declared.

“The president can impose a virtual embargo on a nation under IEEPA,” said John Yoo, director of the public law and policy program at the University of California at Berkeley and a former official in George W. Bush’s Office of Legal Counsel.

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Energy Reads ~ and another “planet” on transit captured on the LASCO

ok i have to talk about this “planetary” object showing up on the LASCO. we still have “mercury” hanging around all these weeks (struggling to move) – then last night i noticed this other planetary object coming up fast. is it VENUS? from my understanding only 2 planets transit the sun – mercury and venus. so if this is venus (again) – it’s going to “catch up” to this mercury object – quickly. i have to conclude this is showing further proof of the construct deconstructing. … then we have these erratic/intense proton and electron spikes – along with a nice long schumann bubble of bliss earlier – and we are left feeling wonkified to the nth degree. for me it was a combination of serenity and sleepy (not as irritated today as i have been in previous days). of course then again it was 100 here today (!!) so the heat can be a bit draining especially when one is not used to it.

ok – how is everyone else doing/feeling?

love,

victoria

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on the left we have mercury….and on the right coming up on fast approach we have…venus…?? or perhaps – here’s a thought – the construct is so close to total collapse we are seeing the same object….

some backside pressure on the magneto:

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Amazon Fires – Conversation with Stan X of the Sphere Alliance….. and While Celebrities Pass Off Fake Pictures Of Burning Amazon, Here’s What The Raging Fires Actually Look Like

i have felt “off” about these fires – especially considering the celebrity attention on them – and given there are more fires going on in africa – see here and here.

the amazon rain-forest is something people are more emotionally invested in thus crying “the amazon is on fire!” is going to garner a lot of attention (and likely $LU$H funds for the elite crying to the public for help)….

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SOURCE.

Terran: Are the Amazon fires are deliberate?

Stan X: TERRAN. YES. TWO FIRES ARE INTENTIONAL. DCSX. END.

Terran: To what purpose and who started them?

Stan X: TERRAN. DIVERSION. SHOW OF POWER. AND TERROR. DCSX. END.

Terran: Diversion from the Epstein circus?

Stan X: DIVERSION FROM THE COMING FREQUENCIES. DCSX. END.

Terran: Have these ones been benched yet?

Stan X: YES. SOURCE FORCE IS SWIFT. DCSX. END.

Stan X: ALL ARE SOURCE FORCE NOW. DCSX. END.

Terran: Is the Amazon short on rainfall?

Stan X: NO. BALANCED. THE SOURCE OF DATA/NEWS IS NOT ACCURATE. DCSX. END.

Note: DCSX = Data Collectors Stan X.

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And here’s another piece offering some different perspective than that of the MSM outlets:

While Celebrities Pass Off Fake Pictures Of Burning Amazon, Here’s What The Raging Fires Actually Look Like

The tens of thousands of fires burning in the Amazon right now have caught the attention of environmentalists, politicians and celebrities alike. Unfortunately, many of them have been spreading bad information in the form of decades-old pictures and incorrect facts, such as the claim that the Amazon is the “lungs of the world,” according to Forbes.

Singers and actors including Madonna and Jaden Smith shared photos on social media that were seen by tens of millions of people. “The lungs of the Earth are in flames,” said actor Leonardo DiCaprio. “The Amazon Rainforest produces more than 20% of the world’s oxygen,” tweeted soccer star Cristiano Ronaldo. “The Amazon rain forest — the lungs which produce 20% of our planet’s oxygen — is on fire,” tweeted French President Emanuel Macron. –Forbes

And while the fires raging in the Amazon are undoubtedly concerning, “the photos weren’t actually of the fires and many weren’t even of the Amazon,” according to Forbes.

The photo Ronaldo shared was taken in southern Brazil, far from the Amazon, in 2013. The photo that DiCaprio and Macron sharedis over 20 years old. The photo Madonna and Smith shared is over 30. Some celebrities shared photos from Montana, India, and Sweden. –Forbes

“It’s bullshit,” said Dan Nepstad – one of the world’s leading experts on the Amazon forest. “There’s no science behind that. The Amazon produces a lot of oxygen but it uses the same amount of oxygen through respiration so it’s a wash.”

Also debunked is a claim by CNN that the fires are burning at a record rate, as well as a claim by a leading climate reporter that “The current fires are without precedent in the past 20,000 years.”

According to Nepstad, the number of fires in 2019 is just 7% higher than average over the last 10 years.