our city is declining – quickly.  anyone else noticing the breakdown of society resulting from pay to live is accelerating?  it’s almost epidemic-like now.  exploding.  homeless are literally showing up everywhere around town.  campers along the side of the roads.  tents in parking lots.  drug camps are mixed in with this population leaving needles, garbage and a lot of human waste behind in the alley ways, all along the rivers, streams, woods and public parks.

it is beyond disheartening.  emotions range from sadness to fear to anger and disgust. people forgotten – lost – no longer care.  i understand that feeling experience.

city government has allowed this to happen.  police do the best they can but are stymied by elected officials and their policies.  we have social media pages now of private citizens addressing this issue.  there was a public meeting on this last night and our elected officials simply opted to create an oversight committee to look at addressing the problem.  a laughable joke as the awakened locals know our government is brilliant at spending millions on coming up with solutions on paper but those solutions DO NOT MANIFEST.  it was actually a campaign slogan of one of the people who ran for mayor last year.  we have a friend who is a city employee and even though he isn’t a fan of Trump, he admitted in a moment of passion as he expressed his outrage with the city, “I understand why the people elected Trump.  They were sick of the lies and wanted change!”

Many of the homeless are mentally ill.  You could say we are like other sanctuary cities – scattered “skid rows” throughout.

If this plan and cleaning up is going to continue on into the upcoming months and even year – we won’t have much of a city much less country left.  Certainly not the west coast and other sanctuary states.

It is mind boggling – the evil of the swamp creatures who would not only allow for this to happen but to create policies that enabled it.  These beings aren’t human.  No heart.  Purely robotic at this point.

Part of me wants to stay here and help.  And yet I know how exhausted I am. I don’t have it in me to fight much – not like I did in the past.  So most of me wants to come up with the funds somehow to pack up and move away so I can find and live in a peaceful, supportive community.  Bury my head in the sand?  Perhaps, yes.  Just like one can only take so much stress from the system, one can also take in so much sadness and disgust.

I pause – ponder – reflect.  About 15 years ago I had the desire to create a trust fund and when I would see someone in need of help in any way that required money, I would write them a check.  Naive?  Perhaps for I know some say you can’t fix a problem with money.

And yet, quite often, it is money that creates the conditions that lead people into homelessness.

What else is there to say.  Witnessing this breakdown is an unnecessary horror show.  There is no purpose.  No point.  Allowed to happen.  If ever there were a “point” when the program needs to end, it is indeed now.  Snap ALL awake and flood the skies with the frequency of Love.

That is all.

V.

today i am feeling in the exact same space as i was 10 years ago – at a standstill as to what to do next with my life.  10 years ago this time also happens to be when i had that “close encounter” with what felt like, at the time, to be a visit from family from Home.  i had no words for it – and no conscious knowledge of new earth, the event, etc.  just an experience where i was told “see you soon”.

soon.  …..  deep breath…..

i made a couple of new choices today.  try try again, right?  i had this thought that if i came out (around here that is) and said i am a non-binary, gender neutral unicorn identifying immigrant from guatemala i would have a plethora of help and assistance.  not really exaggerating either.  where help and compassion is tossed these days by the general public – system included – is disheartening.

so a lot of deep breathing mixed with crying today.  i’ve asked a local massage therapist if she would be willing to let me make payments or engage in barter.  my body is really screaming at me now to get this taken care of.  and the list of medical needs my mate needs addressed is just overwhelming at this point.  his eye surgery alone only pays 80% (cataract removal).  i just, you know?  feel trapped in a cage.

onward i go – as always….and some day, as i continue to say, i will no longer need to address this.

love,

victoria

This is getting old.  Energetically – old.

The divide.

I get the idea of the plan.  I see the purpose of exposing ALL and holding those who controlled and deceived accountable.

What I don’t support are these huge ego’s on both sides who think they are right and the other side – wrong.

For example – I regularly see many who do support Trump think every word muttered by the left has absolutely no value or merit.

Take the topic of free college.  What’s the problem with that?  Or free health care?  I don’t want socialism because I don’t want government telling me what to do and how to live.  However the concepts of free – can’t we discuss this?  Can’t it be time to dive into the concept that pay to live at any level is enslavement and denies one the Freedom to BE and DO.

Religion and abortion are still creating divides.  Want to practice your religion?  Fine.  Just don’t push it on others.  Against abortion?  Don’t have one and be willing to SEE how compromised we have been here.  Birth control is pathetic and with these compromised/altered bodies, we have lost the ability to control our own fertility.

Then there’s the gay/lesbian/transgender dialogue.  I don’t care what people do with their bodies.  I don’t care who you or anyone else chooses to love or with whom you have sex (in so long as it’s consensual and of an adult age).  Yes, I know there’s an agenda.  I know about the human and animal DNA put into vaccines.  I know about the hormones in the water.  I know the push to “accept all without question”.  I know the horrid push to sexualize our children and expose them to situations that were once for adults only.  It’s sick.

We are all still PEOPLE – regardless of what gender we identify with.  We have all been victimized here and for many it’s just plain luck and divine grace they have not fallen victim to this whole trans-humanism agenda. Imagine the horror at really not feeling right in your own body?  Almost as challenging as not feeling right about existing in this realm.

Compassion is the only way to relish in the freedom coming.  Judging others isn’t fun – certainly not for the long term.  When we discount anyone simply because they are different – we close our hearts and remain in anger.

I’ve been as guilty as anyone else in all of this.  I am feeling more of a draw now to understand.  To see and listen.  And hear.  I am feeling the desire to see how every one of us has been victimized here – our perception of truth hijacked.  We have been programmed not to just be “sheep” but blind sheep.

All is being seen.  That’s creating a lot of chaos – in ourselves and being projected “out there”.  Our programs and the judgments in them – all being exposed.

Will the divide fade at some point?  I don’t know.  Both sides of (take your pick topic) are so busy shouting and pushing their perspective, they can’t hear the other side.  Today my girl and I watched a little house on the prairie episode.  The community was torn over the installation of a church bell.  The Oleson’s wanted to donate the bell and have a plaque erected in their honor. Some were for that idea – others adamantly opposed.  The refusal to listen or come up with a compromise kept the divide going for weeks.  It then took one man – a craftsman – and the towns children to come up with an idea – make their own bell.  The children gathered up tin and other metals while the craftsman melted it down, poured it into a mold and installed it.  That act of kindness softened the hearts of the fighting adults – and all was healed.

Reading to her later from a Berenstein Bears book.  A feud took place between the bears and grizzlies.  Another example of us vs. them.  So I saw how this divide/us vs. them theme was in the air today.

We need to expose all that has been hidden, yes.  Isn’t part of the nightmare of this experience, beyond the deception, is the power-over crap?  The programmed belief that MY way is better than YOUR way?

If no one is getting harmed or being controlled – WHO CARES HOW ONE CHOOSES TO LIVE HIS/HER LIFE?

Live and let live.

This divide – has morsels of truth from all sides.

We’ve engaged in enough shouting.

Perhaps it’s time now to listen…..and hear.

Love,

Victoria

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