right before dinner, i suddenly, absolutely, HAD to sleep.  my mate as well.  so keeping dinner on warm, we both went to take a snooze.  i woke up to check on dinner and upon returning to the bedroom, as i glanced at him, i suddenly saw him as he would likely be at Home.  he was a good 25 years younger, hair shorter and feathered with a fairly thick, dark mustache (he currently wears his hair long and maintains a very short mustache).  the vision was there and gone in an instant and i shook my head while wondering “huh what was that?!”

after dinner, i was sitting at the table talking with our girl.  suddenly i heard quite loudly in my mind to turn on the radio as there was a message for me.  i hesitated then felt this inner prod to turn it on – as in now.  so i turn it on and i heard “we’re ready now.  oooooh we’re ready now.  we’re ready now, oooohhhh…”  very old song by Boston i had not heard in many years.  i caught it at the very end – those were the only words i heard (in quotes).

synch!

love,

victoria

 

i don’t know what to post today.  there’s an executive order on patient care on improving price and transparency which doesn’t resonate much as i don’t align with modern medicine or insurance.  unless it’s releasing the tech, i’m not interested.

ben fulford and luke rudkowski (we are change) are saying trump’s taking us to war and is just another khazarian puppet.  one is controlled op – the other – just not able to see what’s behind being shared.  been encountering many like that lately wanting to engage in conversation.  i had shared a recent study showing 30% of the migrants showing up at the border in texas lied about the children being theirs – according to DNA tests.  i was told this just shows how desperate these poor people are.  please.  who kidnaps children who aren’t theirs just to get into another country?  where did those children come from?  imagine how traumatizing it is for them.

i had to end that conversation.  just not interested.  it is so late in this “game” – i see what i see.  i feel what i feel.  i know what i know.  and i don’t have time to engage in dialogue with someone who is in a completely different reality (in terms of perception).  i wish them well.  i am on my own path.

my mate is saying there’s  “a lot” going on.  perhaps there is.  i resonate w/what kp says at times – today – just not into any of it so far today.  if that changes or if i find something that resonates, i’ll post.

i did have a new experience earlier – just remembered.  i was vacuuming – reflecting on what i wanted to do different.  i had this sudden feeling come through me that there was nothing i could think of to try new that would align with me – here and now.  wow.  that felt very big – and bit scary.  was this the next step in letting all go here?  another poke?  i’m not sure.  just another day of feeling very weird.  the “not all here” experience very present – as is the “not aligning energetically need to go now” experience.  a strange experience – wanting to be alone but not wanting to be alone.  wanting to connect with others but not wanting to when there’s an obvious disconnect.

argh!  lol

well enough rambling.

love,

v.

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so the past week or so i have really been feeling quite low at times – feeling how much i think i failed here with my life – my choices.  feeling like i missed the boat on all of the “stuff” and doing’s of 3d living – career success, financial success, lots of friends and family and travel and stuff, etc. etc.

mate’s been feeling the same.

and as i am seeing in some of my social media circles – others too are experiencing this at the moment.

so tonight i was nudged to visit the comment section of yellow rose’s last video from several weeks ago.  i had been listening to another channel speak of the event and the rv and NONE of it was resonating with me.

zero.  zip.  nada.  so i followed my inner nudge.

good thing i listened.  here’s what she had to say 4 days ago about all of this self-worth talk:

“Everyone has already gone through judgement. It was the main players, that they held responsible. You’ll remember it all very soon, so no worries. Its the Els that push “you’re not worthy” kind of feelings as they are very ticked off humans are leaving their control. The fact that you’re getting that sort of message, is rather telling – it tells you that you are in fact leaving them.”

my feel?  they’re indeed pissed – and they’re poking.  i had an image of this this morning.  neo – in the matrix – dodging bullets until he realized – the bullets were an illusion.  so he no longer HAD to dodge bullets.

that is where we are.  NONE OF THIS IS REAL.  we really are in a dream – and we are going to be fully waking very very soon.  (yeah there’s that dang word again – soon – but it’s all i have.)

interesting as well to me – someone in rose’s comment section shared a dream that was very similar to what i dreamed earlier this year – seeing myself in stasis.  in this particular person’s dream they’re in a medical bed – other’s around them (who they sensed they knew)- and they are waking up – feeling a lot of relief from leaving this experience here.  in my dream i saw myself and wanted to scream ‘WAKE UP!!”  anyway here’s the person’s dream:

“YellowRoseforTexas sneak me in the back door if im not redeemable k rose lol🌹…. u bout ready for this to end? Rose i had a dream.. . (i was on a medical bed and there were two people near me helping me wake up(felt like they knew me) in the dream it felt like i was waking up from this life im living… in the dream i felt very emotional, feelings of relief from leaving that place(real life here).. the place i was in looked like a medical facility … this dream came to me mid 2018 .. i wonder if this was a glimpse of whats to come...”

here’s something i recently said to a friend of mine who lives in australia: what if we wake up and realize we’re really in the same room together?

i haven’t heard back on that one.  lol

one last recent comment from Rose, which i found just beautiful – and gives me an inner relief as i have struggled with ptsd and panic throughout most of this life cycle – and everything i have explored and tried has not healed it.  in a recent day i again thought of this struggle/challenge of mine – and something stopped me and i heard and then knew – i will be healed.  may her words provide some comfort:

“She is saying – to the victims, ‘you wont suffer PTSD, you will be healed and your lives will once again be abundant with love. We are leaving & its time to let go of the fighting, anger and emotions that no longer serve you.’ And to the perpetrators – ‘you are held accountable for your actions and crimes – especially those that led to true Eternal death for so many souls here.’ She wants people who are on the exit, to understand its time to stop and let go. Justice will be served. And like Trump said..NONE of these criminals gets a free pass.”

keep holding the faith…i was wondering how to end this piece as i paused and contemplated what i’ve shared tonight and the “pokes” going on – and heard “keep holding the faith” on a video playing………so that is what i do – because it’s also Who I Am.

please share any feels, comments, stories you feel inclined to.

love to you all,

victoria

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