well after telling one of you today that my shower messages had run dry lately, i had another one today. i’ve been feeling into all of the crap that i have been experiencing the past 7-10 days, bringing up a couple of core issues – as in THE MAIN issues. i thought i had dealt with those as best as i could until today. i had read earlier of a way to clear trauma now – not anything magical or complicated – but sending the trauma into the love (light). kinda like a final touch i had not done.
so as i thought hey, that could actually work, i got this image again of the matrix. trauma is one of the programs of this matrix energy system. likely the main one. going further into this experience i saw how trauma affects us is based on our light. our awareness (when we enter this realm). yes we have our minds wiped, but we all know some people are far more awakened than others are. for myself my earliest memory is knowing how f’d up this realm is as well as knowing i wasn’t from here and i was here to be a part of something huge. in short – the matrix knows who we are. and it targets the most awakened, aware and determined of us. fuckers.
so…..depending upon how strong our light force is when we enter – according to what i received today – largely determines how much of an impact trauma will have on us which leads to “splintering” of our energy bodies. i felt it as a sick, horribly vile program. i also saw it as each of us being a car (having a soul) and yet each car being different- model, size, etc.
so perhaps it can be helpful to see these trauma’s i am facing now once again – and to send love to those parts of me that have been splintered as a result- even those parts of me that are pure program. release them to Be – either to unite back with myself or be free elsewhere. still processing this and i have not taken time yet to do that today.
i hope this makes sense of some sort. it is evening and it has been a long day after a very long night prior so my cognitive self isn’t functioning at its best capacity – and there’s that cold virus thing i have had (which is improving). t/y to sister deborah for the foot soak idea. i know to do this. i have the tub, the epson salts, the essential oil’s. i just plum forgot to incorporate this into my routine this past week. aye aye aye….
i also had a quiet thought that perhaps in order to get free from this system, it will take another program to do that. one that is beneficial of course. programs are benign – just like energy – until intention and action are applied. create or destroy. freedom or control. etc. etc.
one last little tidbit ~ something i have begun doing. last night “something” wished to communicate with me. i said “if you wish to do so, you must let me ask any question i want and you must also be supportive”. i heard nothing after that. as i tell myself – do not walk blindly into the world of all that is beyond this realm. i also realized that is why i typically don’t like channeling. quite often these experiences aren’t a conversation. it’s some being(s) sharing their information on our experience (while being free of this one – “higher” up – and saying the “almost there. gotta keep doing the work”). period. and i am not into that kind of conversing.
that is all for now. going to take a listen to the lisa harrison video now then slip into lala land.
love,
victoria
