starting out ~ thinking about and feeling this out ~ what is Original.  our girl just informed me she killed a hornet ~ those nasty parasitic entities that are NOT original.

neither are blood sucking entities like (certain) spiders, tics, mosquitoes nor are poisonous snakes.  anything that causes unnecessary harm on another is not Original.

which leads me to my next thought ~ and i say this as a meat eater ~ and that is we are not meant to kill to survive.  but that is how we were designed, these dumbed-down versions of our Original bodies.  (can you tell i am diving into this issue and feeling it out ~ my Essense is fully awakening, being liberated and she is sharing these words via feelings.)

while i become highly irritated by the vegan nazi’s, i understand where they are coming from.  however, until our bodies return to Original, many of us need this type of protein/enzymes.  it was put into us so i wish they would stop blaming the victim and see this from a broader perspective.

i am also processing the concept that many people i have interacted with, given my energy via love, sharing, etc. have not been Original.  soulless. bots.  this explains why today, as my awareness has grown (which is often labeled “sensitivity”), i cannot “do” conversations with these actors. cannot be around them without feeling something immediate.  i also know when i have “felt” something but ignore it – i go numb.

moving on….today i have had more experiences of my hands not working.  i dropped my glass deodorant spray bottle (i make my own).  i swear i had it firmly in my hands and it was as though the glass turned to water.  smashed all over the bathroom floor.  last night my mate had the same experience ~ he dropped a glass.  had it in his hand ~ and it just fell out, smashing all over the kitchen floor.

feeling strangeness in my throat (mate as well).  fuzzy at times vision which thankfully is temporary and fleeting.  head pressure (mate).  and irritability is off.  the.  charts.  

i did have another trump dream (again not requested) ~ this time melania was in it.  she is serving more of a leadership role than we realize.  quietly but powerful.  and contrary to what the media has shown at times, trump submits to that authority in her.  they really do feel, to me, to be a team.  i then saw trump as a young man ~ early 40’s.  he’s pretty much the same person today. same values.  ideas.

and lastly, i awoke with some moody blues words going through my mind (eye in the sky):

as we are (being told we are – and feeling we are) wrapping up this experience, i am pondering “what is real?”

i have been feeling out – a lot – the last few days on people – who is real and who isn’t.  who are the walk-ins, the soulless ones, the bots.  about an hour ago i had the thought “well they sure do seem to have the best jobs out there.  the most success.”  not a 100% solid, all-the-time statement, but that is my experience.  certainly these playing the walk-in role in this game have, as one of their roles, the “job” of keeping the truthseekers as silent and alone as possible.

my own experience has netted me this experience.  today i no longer care. well it isn’t that i don’t care ~ what’s a better way of describing ~ hmmmm…..i have more respect for Who I Am than i do with what any of the actors think/speak of me.  today i sent a friend to the lisa harrison youtube channel and told her to watch the latest video.  i have shared w/her information on the schumann and that’s about as deep as i have gone w/her.  but today i threw it all to the wind – thought “ok if she decides i’m total nuts so be it” – and sent her past the political and dark ick satanic rabbit holes and tossed her straight on down into the hole that says “all of this is fake.  it is ending. here’s the date.”

not saying she is an actor.  she is a beautiful soul – i see it.  open.  and i see in her a new awakening.

there have been actors though in my life ~ a lot i am now seeing.  and the “real” ones.  i had a real person once tell me i would never be allowed into the world of government social services (one of many dead-end pursuits “out there”).  why?  i was TOO REAL.  lol  i asked her to expand on that.  she said i was too passionate.  too open.  government agencies don’t want people like that, she said.

why not?  i inquired.  i didn’t get that.

because they don’t want to change things.  they don’t really want to help people the way people truly need.  she spoke of experience and said if it weren’t for her grant funded position, she would have been kicked out of that world (she ended up leaving, moving to europe and became a yoga teacher).

wow.

well obviously she was right.

today i see so much that no longer feels real.  the other night i was speaking with someone in the neighborhood.  this person has long felt “non-human” to me.  i find it sad.  i don’t want to hold that thought or the feel.  but i do. the other night i thought to give it another chance.  i greeted this person with a smile and a sincere desire to connect.  wow.  what i got in return as far as look AND energy was one that repelled me completely.  and i knew – within – knew, felt, you name it.  this being is one of the background, soulless ones.  serving a purpose of the matrix.

damn we see a lot of it now.  i am feeling it quicker than ever.  a recent video i watched spoke of this “lack of life” many of us are seeing.

and i know now – it is POINTLESS to share ANY of our truths with them. they will not snap out of their programming because they can’t.

this numbes of 10% being “real” as in heart-centered w/a soul – really bothers me.  i automatically go to the thought of “what happens to them once this is all over?  once we transition to real worlds, real experiences, freedom?”  do they cease to exist?

i want to know.  i feel ALL beings have the same right to freedom as i do. perhaps i am being naive.  probably an old program ~ the one that wants to “save/help” every being.  it has, as its companion, the program that has said “when i am kind, generous, honest to and with people, i will be treated the same in return.”  i am giggling a bit at that one ~ that last one has gotten me into trouble and caused far too much heart-hurts.

cancel clear them both.

so…….what is real?

what i come to – continue to come to – now – is consciousness.

feelings.

it is a heavy concept to process ~ that so much of what we experience is fake.  not just illusion but downright, absolutely fake.  lie to the nth degree.

but what IS real is what’s right here (putting my hand on my heart/chest and patting it).  and what i intuit here (putting my hand on my core).  and those knowings and visions we get here (putting my hand between my eyes/on my lower forehead).

the gateways to consciousness.

for now, ya’ll probably have noticed i don’t post much spiritual stuff anymore.  i am feeling the need to just find and share personal stories and experiences.  experiences and insights from small channels.  i also know the political stuff, while playing a necessary role right now (a purging out of lower energies so ALL can be revealed), feels like a temporary distraction.  maybe even just another program.

i am laughing now.  i ponder “if this simulation is ending in a few weeks, what is going to happen to these things like the arrests, the new tech, financial prosperity packages, etc. etc.?”  seriously – would any of that really matter?

and if upon this transition we see that the vast majority are not “real”, again, how would that look w/all of the above changes going on in the now?

will it matter?

not if it isn’t real.

ok ~ ending this stream of consciousness.  time to rest the mind and body.

please share your thoughts if you feel the desire.

love,

victoria

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