Today’s Experience…..10/5

 

Did anyone sleep last night?  It was a long night here of attacks.  From body pain to attack dreams of “them” – all night long.  Felt them – child saw them.  We did the intentions and prayers –  nothing seemed to work.  Or if it did – it worked as well as it could given the situation – which has me questioning the whole armor of god concept.  So we all woke up at a new level of exhaustion and set out to create a better day.  But THEN our washing machine broke.  And we don’t know what this will cost – repair tech can’t get here until next week.

All of this triggers the fear of money and will I have enough not to mention having another expense on our hands when we have had the goal all year of SAVING.  It also brings up the stress of living at the poverty income and me not feeling like I am contributing enough or doing enough – not to mention feeling absolutely trapped in this reality of pure unadulturated evil and knowing that within since I was a child and the neeeeeeeeeeeed to be liberated FROM it and to have the g.d. experience I want and desire and deserve.

So yeah – lots there coming up from this body that was already struggling and starting to feel stronger today after weeks of fighting off a variety of matrix sheot.

Waiting.

Waiting on the world to change.

Literally.

“Be the change you wish to see in the world.”  Considering most of us here are kind, heart-centered humans at our core, that phrase alone would have changed this paradigm by now.

So many nice phrases and spiritual practices that – at this point in all of this war craziness – just ain’t cutting it.  It’s adding a few drops in a well that needed filling long ago.

It’s so overwhelmingly sad atm – wanting to do things that I have to protect myself and child from – speaking mostly of those who took the jab.  Does it have “it” in it or doesn’t it?  Placebo or real thing received?  Will this person make me or my mate fill run down – get sick?  Will I feel that pain in my sacral place?  Will my mate develop blisters?  Will they make my child develop a headache?

I JUST WANT TO LIVE AGAIN.  You know?

As I said yesterday we’re in the thick of it – Lin Wood same the same last night.  But it remains – are they really getting removed or are they just destroying as many as people possible?  The people are fighting back – but I look at Australia which appears to be a slaughter-fest.  Parents taking on school boards while the AG in DC has ordered the FBI to go after these folks.  What is it they want, exactly?  A civil war in the streets?  Where in the F is the good military?  Where in the F is GOOD for these people?  And where is Jesus?  Or even God?  Is that too a narrative?  So……Evil is everywhere atm and they do seem to want attention now.  They can f’ing piss on themselves and implode in a massive fireball – but not before feeling every ounce of fear, trauma and pain they have caused every one of us.

Not that I hold any disgust towards them.  ha

Anyway…………so I am struggling today – well that was already the situation for me as of early september – but lack of sleep, demonic attack, body issues and getting smacked with a financial hit is making mama V. a bit unbalanced atm.

But I will overcome and continue on.  It’s what I do.

Lastly – I am also g.d. tired of overcoming and just want to live Freely.

Love,

Victoria

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