Today’s Reflections

 

i guess it’s been a few days since i posted my own stuff.  yesterday i awoke with my entire body trembling.  previous days i had been experience intense itching in the usual places including the area on my arm i also recalled having itched last summer (this time it was just a 2 day experience).

i lay in bed yesterday moaning “my god how much longer do i have to do this?  i can’t take it anymore!”  but of course i can and did.

i had some purging stuff – physical releases.  i now really tune in to get a real feel of what this really means.  i have begun to feel, hear AND see “burning off old programs”.  i can do that.  my liberation of all that is not ME is energetic aim #1.

for a few days i smelled sulfur.  that cannot be Original.  happy that passed. interesting too that as i was having the experience (as was my mate as well), a social media friend, who speaks often of ascension codes and what not, said we were burning off old DNA programs which would come out of us as sulfur.  ok then ~ wasn’t just us stinkin’ up the place.

another experience i continue to have is this desire to DO something NEW and yet also to do NOTHING while still HERE ~ at the same time.  that holding pattern is palpable.

i am also noticing the ever difficult experience of being around those who are so not awake.  the bots.  unawakened ones.  etc.  it isn’t getting easier to feel like “staying” here – it is getting more difficult.  today i heard/felt that there was a very wise meaning for me choosing the parents i did, in particular my mom.  i needed to be taught how to be around ALL people and remain pleasant, kind.  of course that left some harmful stuff i have had to work through (allowing myself to take abuse quietly) ~ but it HAS made it “easier” for me to put on the smile of kindness when i DO have to go out there.  and yet deep within i know ~ i KNOW ~ this is not home for me. home is elsewhere ~ another planetary system altogether.  and for that i will never feel this realm as home.  i let that one go awhile ago.

that being said ~ i still appreciate validation now and then.  i know – part of this is the program of “neeeeeeed” – but it is also an experiencing of feeling connection when you i hear of another who is feeling the same.  today it was Kauilapele (i will link that one next) who spoke of the same experience.  he even said he felt he may be going to another planet altogether.

yes we are.

at least we are being given the freedom TO do just that.  everything in my body aligns with that.  and my body is what speaks truth to me ~ even when my ego and stuff “out there” says “wtf are you talking about???”

one last night:  i am finalizing up my version – my script – of what i wish to see play out upon the transition.  felt called to do that, so that is what i have been doing.  playing around with it.  ultimately surrendering to my grandest consciousness ~ that quiet voice that will become easy to hear at any moment.  the way it once was.

much love, insight and freedom to you all~

victoria

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