A Request To My Readers…

I have an issue I don’t talk about much.  Call it embarrassment, call it shame, I just don’t share it much with others.

And yet it plagues me every day and has, off and on, since I was in my early 20’s.

My issue is agoraphobia.  A term that still seems vague to me as my issue with it is complex.  In a nutshell, I get feelings of panic and claustrophobia in certain situations.  In crowds.  Driving too far from my home.  Driving in traffic.  Freeways.  Being in the car even as a frickin’ passenger now has become a huge challenge.  Basically in ANY situation where I suddenly feel trapped and not in control (possibilities include: in line, other people’s houses, stores – anyplace outside of my home – i say “possibilities” because this is not a CONSTANT thing – it varies, depending upon time of day, how i am feeling – and yet even if I can partake of such normal activities without panic, it is always in the back of my mind “you may have a panic episode”).  Throw in all of the extra stimulation’s of noise and light and too many people and activity, that just adds to the claustrophobic/GET ME THE FUCK OUT OF HERE feeling.

It feels like I have this unwanted energy ball attached to me.  And I want is GONE.  Here is what I have tried to alleviate me of this issue:

  1. EMDR
  2. Rapid eye therapy
  3. Holographic repatterning
  4. Hypnosis
  5. Cognitive behavior therapy
  6. Subliminal’s
  7. Binaural’s
  8. Energy/reiki
  9. Homeopathy
  10. Somatic Therapy
  11. Exposure therapy
  12. Pleading praying and more pleading and praying

You get the picture.  I have tried it.  And I don’t know what else to do for it at this point.  I had it under control – in remission you could say – about 20 years ago.  At the time I used exposure therapy and pure will power. Lasted for several years.  Without going into detail, stress and trauma’s and general feelings of unhappiness/lack of purpose lead to it to flare up where it has remained.  The fact that the issue reappeared showed I never had it fully healed to begin with (when I thought I did).

Is past-life experiences a part of this?  Likely, yes.

I realize self-talk is important.  I realize good nutrition, exercise and the like – equally important.  Sense of purpose.  Love and Support (I have needed much more of that).

So I am asking you – my readers – for ideas.  For help.  Suggestions. Support. Please private message me here.

I am so ready to shine “out there” and not just through a computer screen from the comfort of my home.  I am so ready to share All Of ME and my gifts with the world.  I know I have much to offer.  It is time.  And I need help getting there.

Thank you and much love and blessings.  

Victoria

 

March 20, 2017: James Gilliland Newsletter

Transdimensional War, White Hats, Underground Bases

by James Gilliland

March 20, 2017

There is so much going on I don’t know where to start. The Republic was restored March 15th – the Globalists finally let USA Inc die – it was totally bankrupt. The G8 meetings keep getting sabotaged by globalist moles that want America to collapse and go into total chaos. They are being dealt with. The global currency reevaluation and the new currencies backed by gold have to come forward and they will.

The white hats and generals who are honoring their oaths and maintaining their integrity are no longer playing games. Guns are being drawn. There is a grand house cleaning occurring between those loyal to the cabal: the Satanic, blood sacrificing pedophiles, and those who are loyal to God and Country. Be very clear and do not be misled as to which side of the fence you are on. Many have been part of a global psyops program and are unwittingly doing the bidding of the cabal. Do not forget they own the mainstream media. Many within that media will soon find themselves in very serious trouble.

Be very clear and do not be misled as to which side of the fence you are on.

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Amazing Light Beams At Sunset – Coming From The EAST!

Editor’s note:  This is amazing!  Check out his other videos.  Always an interesting watch.

Planet reflects *HUGE LIGHT BEAMS* from the East as sun sets in WEST | *Mind Blowing Footage*

March 2017 James Gilliland: Underground Base Wars

Underground Base Wars March 2017 James Gilliland, Solreta, Pete Slattery

The Arcturians ~ We Have Begun The Unfolding of The New Earth

Editor’s note:  I am sharing this channeling as the messages resonate with what I experienced today.  My ego is fighting like mad right now – not really comfortable with my Higher desire to be free of my past, free of my pain, free of my need to experience the energies/emotions, which includes freeing myself from the need to blame.  My ego wants to play judge, jury and executioner.  Over and over again.  Today I asked, for how long? Seriously ego – how long do you want to play this pointless game?  What purpose does this serve me?  I like what this piece says about all of this pain and the darkness of my ego is being left behind in old 3d matrix energies.  YES!  I am so much more than that, so much more than my ego. So….What is it I want?  I want to align with 5D earth.  I have seen it.  I have seen myself and my family.  I have seen my house, seen parts of the community I live in.  The mountains.  The trees. I have been there in my dreams going back over 10 years. Today I visualized all of this energy as a layer that I saw myself shedding. It is time to just walk away.  Let go.  And remind myself this can be with EASE.  It is time.  It is time…

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By Jennifer Neel, 03/17/2017

Written Channeling: 

Understanding your worth, dear ones, may seem light years ahead of you during these times, but let us remind you the abundance you are seeking of love and acceptance ARE available to you as we HAVE begun the unfolding of the New Earth at this time. Seek not for love and affection from your ‘common’ human being, but from your fellow guides as you ARE ascending into the light and need to collaborate, communicate and FEEL INTO the abundance of love, light and joy that IS your star seed galactic family transmuting to you here on Earth at this time. Yes, many of us beings ARE entering the Earth grid field at this time and transforming onto the Earth planet and will receive visitations and awareness of us soon.

This is necessary as the ‘veil’, so you call it, lifts off of your entire Beings (individually and collectively) to activate your awareness of the New Earth you are entering. Many of you are receiving visitations at nights, out of body experiences, strange awakenings during your dreams, light body activations, communications from other realms – open up to us dear ones, even those of you who consider yourselves awake need to be reminded of this too, for there are ALWAYS new shifts, light beings and upgrades you are going through. Do not let your ego precede you during this times, for the ego truly is being left behind. The ego’s job is something else now at this time and you must consciously rid yourself of any last remnants of fight/flight/survival mode.

This may be scary for some and ‘hard’ for others as many of you multidimensional beings when you DO shift back down to the physical realm that is how you enter – and you must no longer resonate with that/in that manner. Even if you work out to encourage tapping into this fight or flight realm, even if you still remain in a ‘stressful job’ on the 3D plane, even if there’s some bad habits you are currently purging away that are attached to this ‘lizard brain’ if you’d like to call it that, that doesn’t mean you need to tread lightly! SHED FEARLESSLY AND INTO THE LIGHT NOW! LET GO OF THE OLD IT IS DONE NOW! We cannot stress that enough as the veils have lifted and the other worlds, your ‘spiritual masters’ some of you call them, your different realities, timelines, all of it is SO close to your light being now that you must tap in, tune in and tune up your connection as fast as we speak. For the veils will expand yet again in some due time and it’s up to you which ‘world’ you’d like to perceive yourself in.

Fear not, gentle ones, for leaning into this light is NOT a journey to unfold that needs to be difficult, harsh, filled with any sort of brutality – the more you perceive this as such, the more you remain in THAT ‘society’. Change has come, recognize this, feel it into all of the areas of your body that hold onto pain – do not give meaning for the pain for it is not necessary to recognize where the wound came from at this time, it is necessary to feel into the healing of that ‘wound’ for you are already healed in our light. The sooner you come to recognize that the sooner your ‘worlds will become one’. Recognize that. Let us remind you too, of the abundance talks we’ve had, as you shift into the light you will no longer resonate with the ‘abundance’ you once had! Meaning the thoughts, feelings, desires, impressions and physical reality experience that were once ‘abundant’ to you and you ‘chased after’ no longer will mean the same thing – recognize that, let go of that so abundance can swiftly take place in your current reality.

Do not be surprised if your entire 3rd dimensional IDENTITY shifts for your IDENTITY is the EXPERIENCE of YOU in your REALITY and if your REALITY is to shift so is your identity as well. Also, this is because you are becoming SO SOLELY connected with your SOUL CORE ‘body’ that anything unrelated will shift into the ‘disaster’ earth has been having. Let it go like a snake losing it’s old skin dear child, take lots of showers when you are processing these emotions and makes ure you let them go the minute they come up no matter where they are to make your shift into this abundance that much ‘easier’ for you. The sooner you let go, the sooner you LIGHT UP, dear child, and EXPAND into the Universal light core energy which you truly already embody NOW. Flow into the light and all will be well.

We ask that you remain calm and present in your body through the rest of this week as we prepare energetic shifts for you and Earth prepares for this latest upcoming Solar Eclipse. Realize the potentiality for your reality during this shift and take into proper consideration the timelines you are about to shift. This is why the shedding of the old is so important to you, and we mean ALL OF IT – the memories, the ways of being, the feelings, the MEANINGS of practically everything MUST shift if you are to EMBODY the 5D abundance which you are incurring now in your light energetic bodies. The shift may be ‘harsh’ on your ‘bodies’, but only as much as you let your ego perceive it to be for YOU already have shifted dear ones, your physical be-ing ness has yet not. Fear not the letting go, and lean into the VOID with love, for when you close one time space reality gap there is a presence to remain in in order to open up the ‘walls’ of the new ones.

This is not what you’re A-B linear thinking perceives as being patient, lack of time, holding back, being held back, taking too long, etc… don’t let yourself play into that. This is a transmuting of energy and an EMBRACING the void so you become READY to enhance change and EXPAND into love. Recognize that. We love you all, with the same love light and abundance you wish to create. You have created it already dear ones, tap into that, and let ‘everything’ be at stake as you continue to NOT hold ANYTHING back. NAMASTE.

– Channeling from the Arcturian Galactic Council of Source

Sourced from here.   

Gary Larrabee ~ Kent Dunn Update ~ 3/18/2017

Kent Dunn Reveals Very Important Information Regarding Present EVents Happening on Earth NOW !

Unknown Rogue Planet More Massive Than Jupiter Discovered…

Editor’s note:  I imagine this planet saying “Oh yeah, I’m big, I’m bad, I’m ROGUE! Figure that one out you earthly scientists.”  

Milky Way, Rocks, Night, Landscape

Almost all planets have a regular orbit around a sun or host star. However, a rogue planet is one that has either left its regular orbit or never had a regular orbit to begin with and is now orbiting the galaxy itself.

In 2012 astronomers thought they had found one of the closest rogue planets ever to be discovered, but there were things that didn’t quite add up about the giant object roughly four to seven times bigger than Jupiter. It was located a mere 100 light years away, which sounds like a long way to the average person, but to astronomers, this makes the rogue planet extremely close. The object was determined to be a candidate for “rogue planet” classification after it was proven that it was smaller than the classification of brown dwarfs which are more than 13 times larger than Jupiter.

It was also discovered that it was moving with a larger group which was orbiting our galaxy together.

Based on this information it was determined that the group of objects were approximately 50 to 120 million years old, which in the grand scheme of things is relatively young.

The scientific community was not in full agreement of the object’s classification as a rogue planet, however. There were two main problems that hadn’t been addressed.

First, was the fact that there was no evidence that it had ever been a part of any solar system.

Second, it was later proven that based on the object’s movement it was not a part of the larger group, and either had very low gravity or extremely high metal content, which makes it harder to determine the object’s mass. Thus it could be considered a brown dwarf with a higher mass.

Based on these findings there are two possible outcomes, either it is a young rogue planet less than 13 times the mass of Jupiter, or a much older (2 to 3 billion years) brown dwarf up to 40 times the mass of Jupiter.

There is also a third possibility, perhaps the most interesting, that the object cannot be classified as either and is a combination of both that needs an entirely new classification. Luckily, because it is so close it can be continually observed, and with a little more study a determination can be reached.

Read the full paper: https://arxiv.org/abs/1703.00843

READ MORE: http://www.disclose.tv/news/astronomers_discovered_an_unknown_high_metallic_object_more_massive_than_jupiter/138173

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Dancing on the 5D Tight Rope – Swirling Equinox Energies

Dancing on the 5D Tight Rope – Swirling Equinox Energies

by | Mar 17, 2017

After a couple of energetically a bit quieter days, where we had time to process stuff and feel into ourselves what still serves us for our journey ahead, the energies are really building up again now. The freak show continues… This can feel super draining and intensifies the feeling of not being able to make any decisions (I had already mentioned in my last blog). Not only the physical body is overreacting and coming up with all kinds of ascension symptoms and old chronic stuff to let go of. No, in addition, we are challenged to get out of the head and into the heart. And with the energies right now, that is not so easy and can feel like walking on a tight rope

The tight rope in this analogy is representing the 5D timeline and to the left and to the right down on the ground are the 3D/4D timelines that are trying to suck us back in and throw us out of the flow again, while we are learning to take our first steps in the new 5D reality. We are shifting between trust and mistrust, light and darkness, overthinking and overemotional reactions to no-mind states and deep inner peace. Depending on where you are at in your journey, the portions of these two extremes can differ.

“Many are now realizing and clearly feeling that the old way of living is not working anymore and are pushed to move on and to jump into the unknown.”

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Something A Little Different…

...for the music lovers out there.  this girl is a true prodigy.  she covers eddie van halen, steve vai, beethoven (!!) and other masters.  check out her youtube channel, subscribe and be blown away.  

Pink Floyd – Comfortably Numb Solo Cover

Lemuria And The Lemurians

Editor’s note:  At around the 34 minute mark, she says are bodies are preparing for 100% of our Soul to enter, which is the message I received earlier tonight before I wrote my piece Merging Timelines, Merging Selves, where I reference what I feel is happening now is a return of all of those fragmented pieces of our Higher Self into our bodies at this time. Hearing that put me into tears.  Earlier tonight, I saw the number 7:11pm. When I see that, I know I am going to encounter a powerful moment of synchronicity.