Victor Oddo ~ Ascension Energy Update for 10/23/17 ~ “Something Big Is Coming”

 

Certainly experiencing some things in my life not flowing and I am more than willing to just let all of that stuff go to allow for N E W.  I also appreciate how he speaks of the inner child needing comfort ~ re-experiencing old habits and patterns.  Being in that loop again.  Ugh! Yes ditto!  I am totally fed up with myself over certain patterns and especially thought bubbles of fear.  Got into that again today and stopped myself. No. That is NOT Who I Am.  I will not succumb to being afraid of what’s “out there” any longer.  Strong desire to revolt.  Become free again.  Yes yes yes.  !!  Breaking free of the chains ~ I feel that energy.  It is very palpable.  Also of interest in how he speaks of opening to a new way of healing ~ which I recently dove into with working with a Shaman ~ an experience I will be having again this weekend.  Until then purifying is in store ~ and Gaia is cooperating with a full week of sun and warmth.  Anyway…good information in this one.  

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Ascension Energy Update – (Week Of October 23rd)

Published on Oct 23, 2017

Something huge is about to happen in the Cosmos

 

Short and simple piece.  What are your thoughts?  I feel the “something huge is about to happen” part just need to tune in to the “cosmos” part.  

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Something big is coming. I’m feeling it in the flow. Never felt anything this strong before.

Unlike most of the energies since 2014 this energy feels masculine in nature and will cause changes in everything. It will not stop until it’s complete.

It’s movement within the ALL.

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Energy Report Update by Tiffany Stiles

Yesterday we had a major shift come in. In the afternoon many may have felt shakey, confused, off balance. In the evening the shift swooped in so quickly it could not be ignored. It may have stopped you in your tracks to take notice of your “reality.” There was a massive increase in vibrational frequency that swept through the collective consciousness. Did you feel it?
I purposely did not post this Energy Update last night, and instead did a little test. I posted a simple message that said: “How many Beautiful Souls are in my reality right now vibrating at the same frequency? If you can see this, that’s you!”
I purposely didn’t say what frequency I was speaking of because I wanted to see who “Felt The Shift” sweep in like a wave of a massive unloading of toxic energy all at once! WHOOSH!  CLEAR! And this could have affected each in their own way:
You may have felt love exploding from your heart center and the utmost gratitude.
You may have felt the unwavering need to forgive yourself, or someone else.
You may have had some major Ah Ha moments that changed your perception about everything you thought you knew.

Continue reading here.

 

The Council Via Ron Head ~ October 21, 2017

 

This one had me in tears over the magic of Life…

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The Council – Now You See It. Now You Don’t.

Let us, once again, revisit one of our favorite topics, and look at it from yet another perspective. We are going on a short journey in your imagination, your imagination being able to take us anywhere in creation.

Look at something in front of you. Get a good mental picture of it. Now close your mental eyes. Don’t close your physical eyes. You will need them open to keep reading.

Now, as you observe the mental picture of your object, get closer and closer to it. Keep going until you are almost touching it. Pick a spot and focus on it. Now make yourself smaller and watch the spot grow as you do. Keep getting smaller until you begin to see the molecules that make up the surface of the object. Keep going until you can see the spaces between the molecules. Good.

Now, pick a molecule, just one. And watch it as you get close enough and small enough to see the atoms that it is made of. Can you see that there is an unbelievable amount of space between the atoms? Can you see that they aren’t even standing still? Pick one. Pick an atom. It doesn’t matter what kind. And get so small that the atom grows until you can see what it is made of.

There are lots of teensy little bits that scientists have told you are “ons”- protons, neutrons, electrons, photons – there are all kinds. And these little bits – they look big from this angle – are whizzing around like crazy. Let’s do it again. Pick one of these little bits, chase it down and get close to it. Watch it closely and think of what you have been told about it.

They said that it is only material because we want to see it that way, right? If we want it to be a wave, it will be. Okay. So now we want it to be a wave. And as a wave this little guy is oscillating at a frequency. So, its energy, right? It’s energy because we want it to be. We wanted to see it that way.

What happens if we want to see it as a particle again? Does it stop being energy? Interesting thought. So, now it’s a particle, and with our magic it has become so big we can stand on it. Look around. What do we know about this place? Well, those scientists have said that the next particle is so far away we can’t see it from here.

But we cheated and brought our hobby telescope with us. And with this we can see other particles whizzing all about us. It looks like the night sky looks up where we live.

Now we will do what we came here to do. I want you to pick a particle that is part of that thing you looked at in front of you. And I want you to pick a particle that is not. Do you see the problem? First, they are all pretty much alike, at least all of the electrons look like electrons, etc. And besides, everything is so big, and there is so much space, that you can’t tell where one ‘thing’ starts and where it stops. From here, you can’t even tell what is it and what is you, can you?

Now notice something else that you can see from here that you cannot see from where you usually are. These little teensy guys are winking in and out of existence. They are all doing it. “I mean, hey! Stop that! You’re supposed to be part of my table.” This sort of upsets the apple cart, doesn’t it?

So let us summarize this little experiment in a new way. Reality, as you observe it, does not exist. The key here is the phrase ‘as you observe it’. Your observation of the energies around you are organized by you into a representation of your world. And we mean your world, not Jack’s world and not Susan’s world. And it is not solid nor in any way permanent. And this brings about a problem. It means that everything is changing, every moment, always. And we do not like that, do we?

Humans do not like that because we want things to remain as they are. If they don’t, if they can’t, then humans can’t either, can they? And that means that the fact that you can’t puts your own impermanence front and center. Forget that your favorite toy is not really yours, nor will it last forever.

But there is good news. You just saw that you are exactly the same as everything else. Right? Same particles. Same waves. Same energy. No difference. Period.

In fact, that same ‘stuff’ has been zipping along for billions of years. Sometimes it zips as part of a chair. Sometimes it zips as part of you. And you are you, regardless. Enough for now. Think on that. Thanks for going with us.

 

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The Starseed Mission Is Almost Complete

 

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October 21, 2017
Via Michelle Walling

“The Starseed Mission Is Almost Complete!”

Starseeds are beings who “heard the call” from Earth and the council that oversees Earth to come help a lower consciousness stop from destroying itself and all of it’s unique creations. This consciousness was created by power, greed, lust, and control. Many lessons will have been learned and much experience and wisdom will have been accumulated by the close of this level of consciousness.

Starseeds inserted themselves into the timelines of the great stories we have been told of the gods. They became family members to those who carried the so-called psychopathic and self centered behaviors. Since this is a free willed universe, anything was allowed to happen as long as a few creational “laws’ were not broken that would end up affecting the rest of the Universe.

Earth as we know it is not what we think it is. It is a construct that is a mirror image of the actual consciousness. When that consciousness fell in vibration, it morphed into a mirror of itself so that those who created the fall could learn why creational laws cannot be broken. This construct what I call “the matrix”. It is a copy in a way of the original, and is a failsafe way to fix something that is not in balance. Transmutation and balance was needed in order for the consciousness to join its original self again, although it would not just be the same but expanded with experience. Since time is an illusion, it could be done in one cycle or many cycles (the easy way or the hard way), however there was always an end to all of the cycles. We now find ourselves at the end of all of the cycles and can see that humanity chose the hard way.

As Starseeds incarnated into this lower construct consciousness with all of the beings and thought forms that were created, their job was to dive in from the lowest realms to the highest realms and to spread love and to mirror back to the unaware what they were creating. By being who they are as already “ascended masters”, they would show others compassion, empathy, forgiveness, sovereignty, and unconditional love. Although some still exhibited the traits of the lower consciousness by being a part of it, they still held their experience and vibration of who they really were within. It was not an easy job, especially for those who dove into the very depths of hell. Each time a difficult situation was presented to them, they weathered the storm and eventually took the high road.

This consciousness needed to be raised from the bottom up, until all of it was cleaned up and packaged neatly enough to fit back through the “eye of the needle”. I suppose you could also call Starseeds janitors, and the worst part of their job was toilet cleaning, when many of the ones they were helping could care less if the toilet was clean or not.

There was much help given to the Starseeds to “wake up” from the amnesia of who they were, however that did not happen for some so that they could keep falling deeper and deeper in order to bring the base up. Some Starseeds waited until the last minute to trigger their awakening. They felt as if they weren’t good enough for awakening sooner, and that just isn’t the case. Some that had awakened since birth or had been awakened for over 20 years at the time of the shifts had a really, really long wait. All had a specific mission.

Volunteers happened in waves. Awakening happened in waves. The last codes of the DNA are being activated in three waves. Since time does not exist, the “when” of the “exit of the matrix” construct has not been relevant. Most people have no clue (even the Starseeds) about how many times Starseeds jumped to the future to the highest and best outcome and pulled everything and everyone back in time to the present. The actual viewing of what occurred will be available once they are on the other side and will be absolutely fascinating.

The EVENTS are the best indication of how soon things are occurring as well as when this will come to a close (vs. dates). The prophecies about this time were written by adepts who volunteered to dive in, look into the future, and document what they saw so that the awakened in our time would know when to choose something different that would lead to a less desirable timeline. Certain events that lay on “node points” of the overall timeline that would always serve as markers and would not be changed. These markers were deliberately shared in many gnostic texts so that Starseeds would know when the time was near.

Many Starseeds time traveled at night to collapse their own probabilities and possibilities that they had created by unconscious thoughts, words, and actions. They also helped earthbound souls raise their vibration to a higher place where they could peacefully await their exit from the construct. This transformation in the fourth dimensional astral realms involved schools, healing centers, and boarding houses. Other Starseeds worked on collapsing matrix grids and connecting new consciousness grids to the human and nature collectives. Many Starseeds attended council meetings inside of the Earth or off planet to discuss the difficulties as well as the successes. The reincarnation machine was destroyed and many Starseeds know they will never return here again.

The event markers have been unfolding in sheer numbers faster than ever before. Many adverse probabilities and possible timelines that were unconsciously created were compacted and layered began to collapse at a rapid rate. As the Starseeds helped raise the collective consciousness and vibration of the construct, the ones that they came here to help also learned many lessons and began to be more responsible for their conscious creation. The more this happened, the faster the collective traveled to the end of the game.

Humanity now finds itself at the extreme separation of those who are service to self and those who are service to others. Both are having a hard time existing together. Some Starseeds have found the “void” or zero point where they can raise their frequency to a point of being able to see but not be seen. This has certainly helped the empaths and compassionate beings who have had enough of feeling for the collective and feeling the suffering. In fact, the more that they are at this zero point, the more their individual reality around them changes into something positive, which affects the whole as well.

In the moment or event timeline that we are in right now, we are experiencing the last of the “show me” experience. Those who are experiencing “bad” things are being shown what they are creating by their actions, thoughts, and words. It’s like a final wave of mirroring so that they can see what created the construct in the first place. As the Starseeds are “in the world but not of it”, they continue to feel and transmute the consciousness that they are in, but they know they did not create that consciousness. However, as being creators themselves, they have been guiding people how to create their own bubble of reality that feels like exiting the matrix until the final exit from this consciousness occurs.

The sign posts are pointing to a new definition of “soon”. A huge setback occurred in 2011-2012 because of CERN. When Starseeds traveled to the future, they eventually worked their way back to that time before CERN set humanity off on a parallel reality. At the same time, within that parallel reality, Starseeds and humanity worked side by side to raise each other’s consciounsess to a level that would unlock the latent DNA codes.

We are now set for the final waves of light to transform our DNA which will allow the exit through the “eye of the needle”. The codes are here, all of the players have been present, and the door is ready to be opened.

http://howtoexitthematrix.com/…/starseed-mission-almost-co…/

Schrodinger’s Other Cat: Your Step 5 Countdown (and Step 4 Recap)

 

I read the cats from time to time and often find some resonance in their pieces. I felt inspired to share this one.  I resonated with the comments on the 3rd eye awakening (as I had the same message come to me 2 nights ago), the suggestion to increase greens and spirulina (this week I had the sudden desire to eat more greens and to begin taking my chlorella tablets again – of which both I followed), the nausea on October 16-18 and the experiencing manifestation becoming easier and quicker.  I appreciated the comment on how the energy frequency only goes up from here.  I have felt this as well.  For me, I dismissed the commentary on how anyone who dies in the false flag events agreed to do so prior to coming into this realm and are helping on the “other side”….they may be helping us transition/awaken/break down the old but as most of you know by reading my pieces – such talk about agreements make me scream inside.  Such talk is programming and keeps the programming going.  It also implies everything is pre-planned before our coming here.  If all is pre-planned, where does free will to create something new, create a new, different choice come in? Yeah…well anyway – overall it is a good one.  Enjoy if you feel so inclined to enjoy.

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Well, isn’t this refreshing. The PTW’s dark machinery and “magic words” are now so weak that we can openly predict and advertise upcoming Event Step 5 without worrying about cabal blockage! Welcome to the future. Thus, the new countdown has been posted (which leaked earlier! oops).

It is time for some serious Giving of Thanks. All the False Flags in the world won’t stop The Event energy from flooding in from now on… and note that the insane people doing this (the PTW), while their “power” and money are dwindling, still have mayhem planned. Not sure if it will happen or not. But note that all involved in each fake “terror” event (which sadly have REAL human casualties, not just fake actors) made their plan in their most recent in-between-life to intentionally participate in this, so while you feel for the victims, also know that those who transitioned did so as part of their plan, to help us from the Other Side. And for those not in the know, YES there is most definitely an Other Side. However, those left behind do not know this, obviously, so they need our support.

Step 4 Recap

As for the Step 4 recap… it peaked on 10/16 and 10/17, and was rather painful in chakras 7/6 and 4/3/2. Several of us had head and gut pains this time around, as our chakras were expanded and opened.

Interestingly, the beginnings of Event Step 4 were actually picked up on satellite.

[Oh, and FYI, Frosty rightly guessed the dates, from this below image, so we should give him credit for the catch. We took a page from the cabal’s playbook and “coded” the date into the below image, reversing the numbers for the dates. Kinda childish, but we couldn’t make it that public at the time, to limit interference. Now, it doesn’t matter.]

However, that was then and this is now. The TWBs are GONE (except for one pesky drone ship, arrg). The archons are GONE. And Event Step 4 has now EMBIGGENED your chakras, esp. #6 (third-eye chakra), so let’s activate that newly installed system:

1. Go sit in the sun for 15+ minutes (it may take a few minutes before you can feel it)
2. Note any effects, afterward
3. Drink some water.

Then, buckle up for your next meditation. Our manifestation abilities are 10X faster now, and our power/energy is up 10x. Expect great things, from yourself and your brothers.

10X, baby! Or maybe that’s a touchdown. One of those.

Additionally:

3. Increase your intake of green leafies, and/or spirulina
4. Eliminate meat in your diets (unless your body is craving it; go with food cravings)
5. Note that every alcoholic drink lowers your vibration
6. Drugs/pot smoking are obviously out.

You can’t be high/medicated and raise your vibration (no, really). These are mutually exclusive. If you’re doing these things, then you make your choice of level every time you do what you do. It’s your choice, so choose wisely. The next level is WORTH WORKING FOR, so do it.

In the meantime, things continue to be energetically high…

(BTW, that diagonal line is the gap between activations.)

…and will go up… forever.

Finally, please note to AGAIN be careful in allowing contact with anything but SOURCE. Various ETs from all over the place are actively trolling this planet — from their own planets, mostly — looking for people they can use as footholds for various purposes, pre- and post-Event. We’re not saying that they’re all bad, so stay away. We’re saying BE CAREFUL, at least until The Event… which is a season away. Read that again.

Heather Ann Tucci-Jarraf: Court Wrap Up and The Big Picture Unfolding For ALL 10.18.17

 

Editor’s note:  As I have mentioned before, I was introduced to the One People’s Public Trust earlier this year.  I went into it with an open but cautious mind.  In my heart, this resonated with me.  The mind/ego however at times said “too good to be true.  Never gonna happen.”  Then I heard the thoughts of those who cried “foul” and “she’s just another puppet for the system”.  There are those who say “I didn’t ask her to do this for me!”  Well ok then ~ you do not have to participate.  (Personally I appreciate someone working on my behalf given the enslavement that has been going on.  When the “slave” is being set free do they sit in their little prison cell and say “HEY I didn’t ask you to show up and help me claim my freedom!”  Hell no ~ you say THANK YOU as you walk out, embrace your fullness and go live FREELY as the awesome Source Being you are!)

Then there are the Anna Von Reitz (type) folks who say “don’t follow her follow ME I have already done all of this work for YOU” ~ and yet there is absolutely NO evidence that her (supposed) people are actually doing anything.  Too much “lookit me!  lookit me!”  Very little transparency.  

Lots of ego in this prosperity/abundance community – except from Heather.  She just DOES without fanfare.  And being I appreciated her total transparency, I grew to trust her.  At this point, after listening to her speak numerous times, I have realized you cannot just use the rational mind to understand her.  You have to have that heart open and feeeeel your way. Feel her, feel her energy.  As she says “innerstand”.  I used to see that term or hear it and frown while thinking “WTF?”  Now I get it.  (And it took months to “get it”).  Anyway, here is the conversation she had with BZ Riger after yesterday’s hearing.  

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#HATJ- Court Wrap Up and The Big Picture Unfolding For ALL 10.18.17

Published on Oct 19, 2017

Sandra Walter: Light Tribe Action Request ~ Assisting The Collective Timelines

 

Editor’s note:  Ask and ye shall receive.  In these times, almost instantaneous.  Earlier, prior to reading this beautiful piece by Sandra Walter I received in my e-mail box, I was having a little bedtime chat/snuggle with my girl.  We were setting our minds and hearts to create those things we want.  For her it was getting some stuff from the American Girl Doll catalog.  For me, it was knowing I had the means to buy her anything she wanted in the catalog.  I also went on to speak more about this sudden desire the past several days to be a Healer. (something seems to have been released and opened during my shamanic healing session last weekend) I set some feeling thoughts around that, what I would begin doing now, then asked the Universe to give me a message that this is something that is in my Highest and Best interest.  In other words, girl don’t wanna waste any more time on pursuits that do not go as I desire.  It must ALL come from the Highest parts of Me and the All for me to follow a new direction.  So as I tuck her in bed, giving her one last of a million little kisses and snuggles, listening to the profound wisdom that she shares (she really humbles me at times – she is so tuned in!), I wipe my eyes and walk out to my computer, open up my e-mail to read the message below.  There was my message from the Universe: Right now, this week, this Gateway, take as many steps as possible (please, just one will assist) in moving forward with your creative expression, new service work, anything that you have been procrastinating. …  New Service Work.  Ok then. Let it flow…  That part aside, I love this piece ~ in particular the talk about using the energies of the New Moon and this week’s gateway to END any time delays around the crumbling of the old systems.  As I released tonight in my body this sole/soul and collective energy that said “THE OLD ENDS NOW!”  We can do this.  It is done!  

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Blessings Beloved Light Tribe ~

Our next acceleration and collective timeline choice-point arrives October 21-25. Gatekeepers opened yesterday for the influx (very strong on Mount Shasta last evening), and this morning the SUN began to get active, right on schedule.

As mentioned in last week’s article, these incoming amplifications hit much higher levels during the 21-25 in both October and November. Last week’s Divine Feminine influx provided a strong geomagnetic storms, prompting a strong release of Divine Feminine expression in the external (the Me too revelations and disclosure dynamics increased). Notice how quickly magnetic field stimulation causes polarity releases in the collective. This sets us up for the second half of October’s shifts; let us actively participate in this unfoldment.

We, as the High-Vibe Tribe, hold tremendous vibrational influence in the collective choice because of our activated Hearts and highest intent. Remember the quantum effect of raising our vibration; it pulls many others up. Highest trajectories are being attained by many; the Primary Christed Timeline has us locked into the experience of pure Presence. Our intent to lift as many with us into this new experience – right now – can assist the Secondary timeline tipping points. In brief, we can end the delay tactics by utilizing our pure intent through grounded activity.

Assisting the Collective Timelines

Let us use this New Moon (Thursday, 12:11pmPT) and the Gateway (October 21-25) to assist in OVERIDING and OVERWRITING the programs used to stretch time dynamics to delay the inevitable fall of old systems and the full experience of Ascension for all concerned. This is part of completing our Ascension; learning to use our collective consciousness to create what we desire in the Now.

Right now, this week, this Gateway, take as many steps as possible (please, just one will assist) in moving forward with your creative expression, new service work, anything that you have been procrastinating. One small energetic shift from each of us pushes the envelope to break through any remaining blockages to the highest timelines and outcomes – in the NOW.

Let us end the old waiting game through our collective action. Just one grounded, physical action in this reality to override the procrastination programming will help. Whatever it is for you: a conversation you put off, a new creation you’ve been desiring, an action to move forward, a Unity Meditation you’ve intended to participate in, a change you have delayed, something you always wanted to create … anything shifting the personal reality assists the global shift-point. It doesn’t have to be huge (although that is appreciated), just forward momentum in the Now.

Changes in the SUN

We continue to go deeper into this highly-charged area. I AM sure you have noticed the different quality of SUNlight as Solaris receives this consciousness-shifting energy. Gatekeepers ask if we can collectively call forth the flashing activity we have seen in our visions into the Now. Events are quickening – even with the manipulation – for the Secondary timelines. Our collective nudge will greatly assist this unfoldment of needed events. Certain things must occur to tidy up the lower experiences, and it can be quickened by benevolent action.

With the bifurcation in progress, many of us are beginning to experience the intended consciousness shifts which the Solar flashing activity will create on a global level. Many have seen the SUN flashing this year, both in vision and external reality, and this activity is opening our Hearts to the more palpable, consistent Now Presence. We are receiving the encodements and reality-shifting frequencies already. We are anchoring this, through embodiment, into the HUman heart collective to make it easier for all when the brilliant moment arrives. In this Now, that series of flashes already exists.

Global Unity Meditations on SUNday

It is our 18 month anniversary of this weekly activity! Let us utilize our collective empowered BEingness to co-create the return of peace and the Christ consciousness, shift the timelines into high gear, and assist this influx of Divine Light. The energy field during these meditations is palpable, healing, and activating. Add your light, every Heart is witnessed. Join us on SUNday at 8:11am11:11am and 5:11pmPT. Details via the banner below.

We Love You, We Bless You, We Thank You for your service and dedication to HUmanity, Gaia and Source.

Read the Full Article HERE

In Love, Light and Service,
Sandra

A Vision for Asking and Giving

 

I love this one…

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The Vision Alignment Project

A Vision for Asking and Giving

As the new paradigm opens up before us, we see a world where people realize that everyone needs help on occasion, and that asking for it is one of the best ways for us to receive the things we want and need in our lives. Not only do we ask for help from our fellow travelers, but we also have learned that it is wise for us to ask Great Oneness / God / The Holy Spirit / for help and direction when we feel lost or confused or unsettled.

Now, all shame and guilt is gone as we freely ask for the support we need. All resistance to our receiving has disappeared – and another by-product of our asking has come to the surface: the people who help us are presented with opportunities that they need to further their own growth processes. Indeed, there are many in our world who benefit greatly from being asked for help, because it allows them to practice giving and enjoy all the rewards that their giving brings to them.

Such is the way of the new world. The Love which is born out of the cycle of asking and giving is known to all, accepted by all, and practiced by all. As a result, our selfishness and turned to selflessness, and our feeling of being alone has turned to a feeling of being at One.

 
As you line up with this Vision, it becomes your Vision too! 
You can align with this Vision
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The Invisible Career Of The Lightworker

 

There is a fiery rage burning inside me today. And it is much needed. Because the past few days I have gone down – way down – into a very dark pit of absolute unworthiness, and this rage is lighting the fires of my self worth once again.

 

Let me start from the beginning. I haven’t had a ‘job’ since the end of 2012. Yup, for almost 5 years I have not been doing what I did from age 17 to age 25 – going to work 5+ days a week and receiving a paycheck for it.

 

From the outside it would be easy to assume that I’ve been ‘living the life’. I spent the first several months of my ‘retirement’ travelling, then stayed with my parents for 15 months in beautiful Raglan. I then went on the benefit and lived in amazing New Plymouth for 18 months. And now I am living in a gorgeous home in stunning Whangamata, and my husband works to support us both. He pays ALL the bills and often works big hours to be able to do it. Meanwhile I do the housework, laundry, cooking and cleaning – basically making his working life as comfortable as it can possibly be – but I also spend a lot of my time sleeping, reading, walking on the beach and generally relaxing. On the OUTSIDE.

 

The way that 99% of society views my life and my history for the past 5 years really affects me, and it has been one of the reasons why I have gotten really down in the past few days. I have no idea what people say about me behind my back, but I know that in many circles I am perceived as lazy, selfish, a ‘bludger’ and someone who expects everything to be handed to them on a plate. This idea of me fucking KILLS me inside, and it hurts because it is far too easy to see how people come to these conclusions. In the face of so much conviction in this outward illusion, I find it hard to stand my ground and remember the worth in what I am REALLY doing. I slip so easily into judging myself harshly, feeling that I should be doing more – especially in the times when my husband (who actually LOVES working and would go crazy if he couldn’t do it) gets tired and stressed about money. I try to stop those negative thoughts in their tracks but I inevitably become weighed down with guilt and caught up in the illusion that my life is one long holiday while my husband slaves away every day just to keep us afloat.

 

Let me paint you a different picture from the INSIDE. Since 2012 I have been on an INTENSE path of spiritual awakening and healing. The start of my awakening was euphoric and blissful, but it wasn’t long before I started the process of healing myself and clearing away all that is not in alignment with my higher self. The clearings were periodic at first; maybe once a week or every few days I would have a big emotional outpouring that lead to new revelations about myself. But as I fully woke up and stopped jumping between my old world and the new spiritual world I’d tapped into – I began to spend ALL my time in a state of spiritual awareness, and my spiritual healing became a round-the-clock job. Yes, JOB. I swapped a well paid, society-approved 3D-world position of employment for something that was almost completely invisible – for which I would receive no pay, no thanks, no annual leave and holidays, no awards and accolades; and to top it off, my greatest success would be viewed by almost everyone in my life as a mental breakdown. GREAT.

 

On the other hand, I had finally found what I was put on this planet to do. And it felt SO FUCKING GOOD. It also felt terrible a lot of the time, because the very nature of the work is uncomfortable to say the least. But I THRIVED on it, I was GOOD at it – really good – and I knew that healing myself was not just about myself; I was healing my family, my ancestral line, and the whole collective consciousness too. Every time I made a big shift in myself, I created a pathway for everyone else to shift in the same way. I was transmuting outdated patterns of energy right left and center, I was busting through glass ceilings like a superhero on a mission, and unravelling centuries old programming every damn day. I was lighting up this planet with my blazing soul, and showing EVERYONE that there was another way – a BETTER way.

Continue reading here.