Go-To Song: To Us From Source And All We Are


Feeling the energy through the words of this song.  Needing a little loving “push” today…


10/22/17 Energy Update: “Growing Pains”


Wormhole, Time Travel, Portal, Vortex

I just had the thought that there needs to be a website for all Ascension-type folks to go to to share their personal experiences.  Sometimes when I go to someone’s site and they share their current experiences/symptoms, I find I either relate or can’t relate at all.  Or there is the occasion where I where read of someone speaking in very technical terms, highly tuned-in to the exact energies incoming and the exact symptoms they induce.

How do they know these things?

All I can do is share my own experiences so I hope any of you reading this, if you can’t relate to my experience don’t think “wow, am I doing it wrong?  Am I missing something?”  I say that because until this year, I would hold the same thought.

So without further ado, here is what I am going through in the past 24 hours…

Going to sleep last night I felt this growing tight ball inside of me, in great need of expanding.  I stretched the parts of my body where I felt this energy ~ trying to make room.  As I did this, I felt my cells vibrating.  This stretching/expanding/cells vibing experience continued until I fell asleep.

I awoke early this morning, thinking about the experience I had had before going to sleep.  I felt my Highest Self guide me into letting go, allowing this process for She is who is in “control” of this process.  She has already made the choice to do this experience.  Let go and trust, I felt. I also heard (again) all parts of Who I am are returning as One in this body.

I again felt that energy needing to expand so I stretched for a bit then drifted off to sleep.

Then had a uh, “experience”.

Out in front of our house there is something special energetically.  I have had numerous experiences (waking visions and sleeping dreams) where I have “seen” a portal, an energy vortex.  I have seen the physical environment change.  I have seen people suddenly begin to fade away.  I have been able to transport myself out of this realm and into the realm of my choice (did that one in a waking vision/meditation).  And early this morning, I witnessed a first:  a friend of mine from the past suddenly “popped” through it ~ seemingly coming out of nowhere.  He looked very bewildered and it surprised my human self but my Soul was expecting the experience (or else just going with the flow and allowing it to happen).  He was lying in the street and He started to get up, then got noticeably dizzy so I walked over and said “go slow you’ve just passed through a portal” then I helped him up.  He seemed to be totally surrendering to me in his trust although his confusion and bewilderment remained so I decided to change the scene and put me back to a place I once worked when I knew him as a teenager.  He sat in the background, watching me, still looking confused but nonetheless trusting me.  I said I would be with him “soon”. Then the dream ended.

The dream wasn’t so significant (to me) as was the fact that I had another “far out” experience in that area near our house.

Waking up, I felt called to stretch more.  I was again having that desire to expand my body to “make room” for what is within wanting/needing more physical “room”.  This time I could see and feel my feet wanted to expand as did my chest.

After a couple of minutes of stretching, I walked out into the kitchen and started putting away dishes from the dish rack.  I grabbed some fruit bowls I used last night and as I reached up to the top shelf, I noticed I didn’t have to stretch like I normally do.  The night before when I got them down, I chose to stand on a chair to reach them comfortably as stretching for them had me concerned I may drop them.  This morning, I was able to just put them away with a little bit of a stretch.  At first I thought I was standing on our floor mat, but nope, I was on the floor.  Slippers?  Nope.  (Yes I had to look on both counts.  I am not a morning person so it takes me awhile to become fully aware/awake.

I called over my mate.  When both of us are in our stocking feet I can fit under his chin pretty comfortably.  Today?  Nope.  He had to bend his head back more than normal and it was too uncomfortable for him.

Did I actually physically grow?  Who knows.  I decided to just let it be.

When I shared my dream with my mate he said “that’s it!  You HAVE to show me exactly where this spot is and we will mark it!”  Ok then we can do that.  I remember before we moved to this street, I made my mate drive up and down it frequently.  Something in me said I HAD to live on this street.  When we weren’t finding anything available, I remember saying “Universe ~ WHY aren’t we finding a home to live in on this street?”  I didn’t get it.  I let it go.

6 months later, it worked out.

So what else am I feeling today?  Oh yes…I am feeling achy ~ all over.  “Growing pains” as I am calling it.  The strong desire to expand and stretch continues.  That ball of energy within simply needs more room (much like this house has been feeling too small lately).  I used to think the moments of intensity I feel were about my ego.  Nope.  My energy itself is what is intense…. and vibrant.  It takes me back to the first time someone read my energy on a whim.  I wasn’t sure what it meant but something within me was fascinated and very open to the concept.  She was a gypsy-type – someone my mother worked with – and I loved being around her.  She said I had one of the biggest brightest energy fields she had ever seen on a person.  I was only 20 at the time but those words have stayed with me ever since.

So back to the achy all over thing.  Also very tired, wanting desperately to just be alone so I can focus on what I want… and interestingly enough, I am also highly intolerant of noise, interruption and downright ignorant stupid behavior.  Not that I enjoy any of such things but my tolerance for these things just isn’t happening.

So for now I am off to take a much needed nap.  I hope this piece makes sense.  I feel I am in another zone, another reality typing this one.  The line “ET Phone Home” is what I am hearing as I end this so I will leave it at that.

Much love,



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Trump To Allow Release Of 3,000 Never Before Seen Documents On JFK Assassination


Get out the popcorn…


Following years of delays, President Trump announced on Twitter on Saturday morning that he will allow the release of more than 3,000 of classified documents from the FBI, CIA, and Justice Department on the assassination of John F. Kennedy. The unexpected announcement means that a trove of previously unseen documents will be released by the National Archives by October 26.

“Subject to the receipt of further information, I will be allowing, as President, the long blocked and classified JFK FILES to be opened,” Trump tweeted.

Subject to the receipt of further information, I will be allowing, as President, the long blocked and classified JFK FILES to be opened.

In 1992, Congress mandated that all assassination documents be released within 25 years, unless the president asserts that doing so would harm intelligence, law enforcement, military operations or foreign relations. The still-secret documents include more than 3,000 that have never been seen by the public and more than 30,000 that have been released previously, but with redactions, according to CBS. Trump’s decision means that thousands of formerly classified documents related to Kennedy’s assassination will be unveiled next week in compliance with the President John F. Kennedy Assassination Records Collection Act of 1992, which states that the federal government must release them by Oct. 26, 2017.

    • Continue reading here: http://www.zerohedge.com/news/2017-10-21/trump-allow-release-3000-never-seen-documents-jfk-assassination

A Reminder From The Universe To Let Things Unfold


Solar System, Emergence

I’m sure I could save myself some unnecessary anger, frustration and toddler-induced tantrums by learning to Trust in the flow and let things unfold as they need to, even if nothing makes sense in the moment of angst.

As I shared last night, yesterday’s meeting did not go as I had hoped for. I was really feeling the brunt of that this morning.  The years of disappointment.  The honest efforts I have made over the years to share my talents with the world and be successful with it only to experience this sense of “the world doesn’t want me”.  This morphed into “maybe the Universe doesn’t want me either.”

That pain of not being seen nor wanted.  Oh wow ~ that is a deep one, isn’t it?  Not being wanted.  The orphaned one.

Another life long wound that came festering up to the surface.  I don’t believe I have dealt with this one before.  Certainly not fully.

So here I was, in my state of angst and despair, feeling absolutely unwanted.  I just let myself be with it.

Later on, I went to the store where I ran into one of the coolest couples around.  They are retired farmers, still active in the local organic food community.  I have mentioned them before on this site.  They are open with their minds and hearts and I love them both.  The female half is a Capricorn, just like myself, so I have always felt a special connection with her.  It isn’t often I meet another Capricorn and when I do, I feel “home”. It’s a feeling of “you get me!”  At least those parts of me that tend to annoy others.  :::ahem:::

I ask how they’re doing.  They ask how I’m doing.  With her arm around me, I started to cry.  I cannot contain my emotions any longer.  It is quite liberating.  I used to be the exact opposite.  Ask me how I am in the past and regardless of how I was feeling, I would smile and say “fine”.

I was a seriously simple unfettered person on the outside.  Like all the time.

Now?  Not at all.  Ask how I am and I will tell you the truth.  (And I deeply value that when others do that with me.)

So here my beautiful friend has her arm around me, her compassion authentic and palpable (which only makes the tears flow even more).  As quickly as I could, I told her about my meeting yesterday, how deeply weary I am of trying to find the help I need to make the money I equally need.

Well, as it turns out, they know of a program through the local university run by college kids who have expertise in all things media and website related.  They will be passing along the information to me.

What’s interesting is the one good thing that came out of my meeting yesterday is as we spoke, I suddenly had the idea to contact students at the University.  It was a quiet thought, but enough so that I wrote it down in my notes I took.

We continued our conversation.  We spoke of Shamanism and the local Shamanic community, how they were aware of these people and how I had just very recently been introduced into it.  I shared my desire to study energy healing with them and possibly go on and study Shamanism as well.

My girlfriend has a chronic health condition and she has gone through a huge variety of medical and non-traditional treatments to make herself well.  A very similar experience of my mate.  Putting my hand on my heart I said: “Nothing would give me greater meaning than to be able to put my hands on you and heal you,” I told my friend.  I could barely speak.  I was so full of emotion and a sense of purpose.  My friend’s eyes welled up with tears which triggered mine again as well.  I noticed a couple of other customers glancing our way, smiling, obviously moved by what they were witnessing.  It was a deeply moving, beautiful moment.

There has been far too much suffering of humanity.  Far too many with chronic disease.  We are designed to be whole and healthy.  I am embracing my deepest desire as a Healer.  I have done it in past lives.  And I am doing it again in this one.

So……..deep breath……sometimes when Life opens a door it doesn’t necessarily mean that when you walk through it and it seems to shut that there is just the one door that opened.

Sometimes you have to wait (there’s that patience thing again) and TRUST that the next one will appear.  



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Benjamin Fulford Update: Something Big Is Coming


Posted by benjamin, October 9, 2017

Suddenly all sorts of people who dropped contact after the March 11, 2011 Fukushima terror attack are trying to contact the White Dragon Society (WDS) through this writer. These include a top Yakuza assassin, a senior MI6 operative, an NSA representative, a representative from a new CIA faction, and others.  They, together with our regular contacts, all agree that something big is coming.

The most colourful character to renew contact was a Mr. K, who was introduced to this writer years ago by Japanese military intelligence as the top assassin for the Yamaguchi-gumi mutual protection syndicate (this was before it splintered into three factions).  The diminutive and serene-looking Mr. K says his job consists of chopping peoples’ fingers off, one knuckle at a time, until he extracts the information he needs.  He then wraps the bodies in lead and dumps them in the ocean, something Takamasa Kawase of Japanese military intelligence independently confirmed.  Mr. K also says that he has done work for the Mitsubishi banking conglomerate (presumably helping them locate missing funds).

It was an associate of Mr. K, the daughter of former Yamaguchi No. 2 boss Masaru Takumi, who insisted on meeting this writer on March 10, 2011 to set my mobile alarm to ring at exactly 11:00 AM on March 11, 2011, the day of the nuclear and tsunami terror attack on Japan.

Trucks were also spotted bringing large amounts of emergency relief supplies to the Yagamaguchi-gumi’s headquarters in the days before the January 17, 1995 Kobe earthquake, according to Kobe residents who live near their headquarters.  As a result, their gang was far faster than the central government to provide relief supplies to quake-stricken residents of Kobe.

Now Mr. K says his group has become “spiritual in nature” and that starting in late October…

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Today’s Experiences or “What is happening to me?”


Ok so perhaps I could change up the title.  Call it “what am I going through?!”  “What is happening to me” is a little too disempowering.

I walked around my house today and took in a lot of things.  Early in the year I began to let go of a lot of the normal household stuff.  The dusting. Moving things to clean.  Even the regular cleaning.  It has surprised me how easy this was for me to just relinquish to the Cosmos so that the Universal Cleaners could take over.

Yeah, well there is no such thing as a Universal Cleaner and until I have my new realm with the return of my abilities and means of keeping my personal space clean, it is up to my arms and legs to handle the cleaning.

Of which did I just not say, I haven’t done much of this year?

Poor house was telling me such today.  Normally I have been a very tidy, clean person.  Going back to childhood, that’s just how I roll.  Today I looked around my house and noticed cobwebs and strange looking things on my baker’s rack (wth??!!).

So the house had a thorough cleaning like it hasn’t seen in months.  At one point I heard a song that reminded me of my “homeland” and I am suddenly in tears, lying down on the floor, wanting out of this prison.

I am becoming clumsy.  My fingers and hands aren’t working like they normally do for the normal 3d things – washing dishes, picking up stuff, brushing my teeth.  Sometimes this makes me laugh ~ only when I can feel this is part of the process of graduating upwards through the layers, getting my beautiful precious physical body used to, once again, being at a higher frequency state.  OH HOW I AM SO NEEDING THIS!!!!  My heart bursts open with a longing I feel for nothing or no one else.  It is that strong of a longing.

When I am honest with myself, NONE of this realm resonates with me. And guess what?  It isn’t supposed to!  It’s all been a lie.  Consumerism. The frequencies coming out of our phones and television’s and microwaves.  The lies we are told about karma and lesson’s and how pain allows us to grow.

If I could wave my magic wand and put an end to the spells of illusion cast upon us by Archons ~ I would.

In fact, I DO have that power!

We ALL do!

Let’s use it!

I no longer agree to wait for the Event.  The Solar Flash.

I want my freedom NOW.

Take time every day, throughout the day, to command this inherent Right of Freedom be returned to us.  NOW.

It does not matter how you do this.  So many of you have written me with your suggestions after my last article (which I have been doing my own creating with daily and hope you are too!), which I asked for ~ and I thank you for this.  I was and am so touched and empowered to see and hear from so many of you as ready and willing as I am to get this illusion ended and our true home returned NOW!

I don’t think it is necessary for us to use the same words.  The same methods.

It is the FEELING experience we are looking to FEEL and send out to the Cosmos.  We are being guided out of here and indeed have amazing awesome help.  And yet we still “wait” on this Pulse of Energy to bring down the last veil.

Let us FEEL that energy.  Welcome it NOW.

Daily.  Throughout the day.

We had our lives stolen eons ago.  We were removed from our direct connection with Source.  We were tossed down here and trapped in lower frequencies.  Heck, this is why I feel SO MUCH LIKE ME when the Schumann spikes – and maintains her spikes.  There is simply no room for fear in those energy frequencies.  It feels like HOME to me now.

THAT experience is the original experience as gifted to – given to – each of us.  Not “earned”.  Just GIVEN.

That is what Love does.

Ascension is not something we earn.

It is our INHERENT WAY OF BEING.  We were ALWAYS “ascended” which to me just says we have a direct, unadulterated connection with Source.

It is, as a human being, our birth right.

If it is not about freedom, it is a lie.

If it contains ANY energies of judgment, it is a lie.

An archonic lie.

Let the beasts be gone.  Source will deal with them.  Not our “job”.

We now welcome in the Frequencies of Love.  The Event.  The Pulse.  The Solar Flash.

Cause girl is tired of having to use ancient tools to keep her space clean.

Much love to us all ~





Feeling the need to go incognito for awhile.  Nothing is happening here for awhile….  Surrendering what I am able…

Schumann Resonance ~ 10/5/2017


a wee bit quieter today.  feel the “break” in my body.  yesterday was a rough one for me physically – slept excellently so feel some restoration.  this month i need to get wood for our family – it is our main source of heat (lousy heating in this house w/the front of the house having none). last year i was able to get it for free through the local university. their supply dried up over the spring so now we have to purchase it.  at $200/cord i do not know yet how this money will manifest but it will – the nights are getting down to 40 now and so gotta get this going.  tried to glean it over the summer but that did manifest.  any help as always is appreciated.  we have to keep ourselves warm!  and remember i can make products too!


Starseed Preparations/Training For Earth


so many things about this one resonate and pack a very strong emotional punch.  to begin with the eye of the tiger has been my “go to” song since i first heard it.  i have also had a strong draw to home “out there”.  i let that go earlier this year, shortly after i started this website actually.  i don’t know why really – i think i got tired of waiting for answers about who i am/where did i really come from.  but those desires came back strongly today.  first with this video and second, we have a little doll house with a doorbell that began going off by itself about 2 years ago – when i began the next step of my awakening journey.  i would walk into the kitchen and it would go off – always late evening – always when i was alone and the house was silent.  at the time something drew me to a video program that spoke of how our star families will find ways to communicate with us – sometimes they will literally knock on the door or ring our doorbell.  ok then.  heavy on my mind today is the experience i had 9 years ago where that beautiful white orb called me outside – greeted me by name.  i saw the being’s on board.  and for the first time since i can remember (likely in most of my lifetimes if past life memory has been accurate) – the feeling of homesickness was completely gone.  completely.  i broke down in tears, begging to go home with them but was left with the message “we will see you soon”.  at the time i was deeply depressed, feeling i had no further purpose (this was before i had my child) and if it was my time, i was willing to move on to my next experience.  that gave me hope to go on.  on my walk today i sent out a message to this family i feel a connection with. when i arrived home, i went to the sink to wash dishes.  the doorbell to the house went off – a first in over a year.

yeah.  deep breath followed that one.

truthful answers.  that’s all i want at the moment. truthful answers.

enjoy the video.  i know it will be powerful for some of you.


The Upcoming Case Against Heather Ann Tucci-Jarraf: This Is OUR Case


Escape, Race, Freedom, Hope

As I have mentioned before, I become aware of the OPPT (One People’s Public Trust) earlier this year.  I have taken a crash course in our strawman accounts (which I was familiar with) and the TDA’s.  I was already fully aware the entire debt system is fraudulent and the banks have been getting away with enslaving the masses all this time.

On October 18, 2017, there is a Jurisdiction Hearing in Knoxville, TN for Heather.  There is also the case, separate from but also a part of the 10/18 hearing with Heather:  The alleged USA vs. the alleged HEATHER ANN TUCCI-JARRAF and the alleged RANDALL KEITH BEANE.

This case is not just about these two Beings.  It is about All Of Us.

This is about ending this financial slavery system.

This is about exposing the fraudulent banking system.

This is about returning Self Governance back to the People.

This is about exposing the accounts that have been created in our names without our permission.

Ultimately this is about taking back our Power and reclaiming Ourselves as Source Beings.  And as such, no other person or PERSON has the right or the authority to tell us what to do, how to live.  No other person or PERSON has the right to forcefully collect or take any thing from any of us.

Freedom.  For All.  Not just a little bit of freedom here and there but total complete freedom.  This is why I came to believe ideas such as the RV and Nesara and Gesara are just other control systems – and as I like to say – with pretty unicorns.  Do we want just a little bit more freedom or Total Freedom?

I opt (via the OPPT – lol) for Total Freedom.

Here are the words of BZ Riger who runs the i-uv.com site and is friends with Heather (about this upcoming jurisdiction hearing):  “Heather is clearly stating what has always been so, by their design. That is, the UCC is the Law of the land on planet and off. And is Noticing them that ALL, now know that. The UCC has been returned to Original with no thing/no entity/no standing between Original Source and each embodyment. As it is written and is standing law, unrebutted/unrebuttable since March of 2013”

There is more I could include I am sure but this is a good overall presentation.

I am asking each of you to get involved in your own way.  At the very least, intend the thoughts and feelings of Self Governance and Freedom For All.  Follow the proceedings.  Share with your friends and family on your social media pages. Contact local media and demand this story be covered.  Contact your government representatives on down to the city level and inform them of this case and remind them you are watching. Remind them you know who you are as a Living Being.  Remind them you will not tolerate their participation in this enslavement system and you are withdrawing yours.  Their time is up.  The time to concede is now.  As Anonymous says:  We forgive but we do not forget.

So while the STATE is claiming to go after these two PEOPLE, in truth this is about All Of Us.  So let us intend a quick end to this entire debacle and visualize and create the outcome we All want, desire and are worthy of as Source Beings:  Freedom.  For all of us.  Even the controllers.

Thank you awesome beings.  We can and will do this!

Much love~


Here is the link showing the documents Heather filed last Friday, September 29th, 2017.  They are really being filed on behalf of us all.


As always, your support of my work is greatly and gratefully appreciated, both emotionally/Spiritually and financially.  (Intending to remove the “f” word soon as we gracefully switch over to a new paradigm for all.)