More Questions Than Answers

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I’m having a hard time at the moment.

Finding something to Believe in ~ other than my own abilities ~ is a challenge.

What do I give faith in?

Do I continue to put my faith in this Ascension process?

Do I continue to put faith in the idea that dark is falling, arrests are being made and Paradise is slowly (behind the scenes maybe?) manifesting?

Days like today make this faith difficult and my desire is to just stay in bed until the Event.  Or until “it’s” all over.

I read those words and shake my head because today I don’t even know what the Event is, what I want it to be or what I mean by “it” being all over.

We could have had a beautiful, blue sky today but the chemtrail criminals were at it, turning our sky into a haze, chilling the air.  That and smelling round-up and who knows what other chemicals neighbors are spraying on their yards around us brought us inside.

Taking a nap didn’t help.  Stretching.  Nada.

I feel like shit.

I feel lost.

I don’t want to be here in this reality any longer.  (Repeat that 1,000 times).

We are told we must release the need to go home and yet this is what I want!

How can I possibly enjoy states of bliss when my skies are artificial chemical concoctions of toxic filth and when my neighbors seem to think they have the right to add to that toxic soup by spraying round-up because they are too lazy to pull some weeds and too lazy to do their own research to see if what they are spraying is hazardous?  THEIR ACTIONS PUT ME AND MY CHILD INSIDE!  THIS IS WRONG – on so many levels.

WHERE IS MY HOME??!!

This is not a Spiritual Crisis as some would claim.

This is a crisis of ANGER.

Righteous Anger.

Rightfully Anger my rights and freedoms continue to be stripped away from me due to the ignorant and criminal actions of others.

I try to tread lightly.

I consider other people before I undertake certain actions.

Heck, I even consider you my readers when writing pieces like this because I don’t want to cause any of you distress.

And yet such thoughtfulness, my god, where is it today??

In 24 hours we have had two dogs lunge at my child, both owners dismissing the behavior of said dogs, one going so far as saying “oh she just likes you.”  WTF??  (Yes I challenged both situations going so far as growling back at one of the dogs.  The other was a still more or less a puppy, untrained but the owner still thought it would be fun for my child to play w/her 50 lb. puppy even though the dog may knock her down. Both of these dogs are untrained, owned by women in their 60’s so NO EXCUSES!)

We have had on-going spraying of crap by neighbors around us the past three days.

We have had dogs pooping in our yard because we removed the tape we had placed around the grass because we seeded it last fall.

Do we REALLY have to put up signs asking people to be considerate before they spray, let their dogs poop and/or jump up on my child?

SERIOUSLY??!!

I wrote a piece recently on this topic of zombified states within the masses.

I didn’t go far enough.

Most people are mindless dolts.  Robots.  Or “bots” as someone recently said.

And I have the right to wish for a totally different reality where I live with people who are more in-tune with my behavior, thoughts, vibes.

A reality FREE OF THE BOTS.  They can have their land of “huh??”.  (And Hillary can rule over them all.)

For why I am still here in this land of “huh??!!”, is beyond me.

I really thought I would have transitioned out and away from this prison already.

When others are engaging in behavior that drives myself and my family indoors, I am No Longer The Rightful Owner Of My Destiny.

I have the RIGHT to determine the Destiny of My Day.  Every single day.

Period.

Even though I am not a fan of duality, it is time to draw the line in the sand.  I can’t believe I am saying this, but this is where I am, where I have arrived on this 3rd Day of April, 2017.

Those who wish to remain in a reality where chemtrails are status quo, where glysophate is part of nature and the environment, where dogs are allowed to frighten children and poop wherever they wish, where the “Free market” rules, and where the same status quo, the lies and politics-as-usual deception plays out.

Here’s the line in the sand.  They can have that side.

I am choosing THIS side.

Freedom.

Pristine air, water and food.

Free energy.

No money necessary.

No politics.

Thoughtfulness and consideration reigns.

Truth is an honored virtue.

The well-being of ALL are more than words but a way of Being/Living.

Where Love In Action Now is not just a pretty name for a website.

But a way of Being.  (And that way I will no longer even have any need to run this site.  I will be too busy BEING with my family and all of you beautiful souls!)

♥♥♥

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22 thoughts on “More Questions Than Answers”

  1. I took a ride on this crazy train… ( I can’t remember when or why ).
    Now, it’s almost 64 years later and I can’t stop it nor can I get off of this
    insane carnival ride called Earth. I ask myself every day ” Did I really sign
    up for this?” Some people tell me Yes, I did choose to have this experience….
    Maybe true, but the older I get, the more that sounds like a damn lie!
    Please, somebody stop the world… I want to get off!

    1. i hear you robert. i had an experience where i went back to my birth in this particular incarnation – and i knew i was choosing in some way to come here. however i believe reincarnation is a trap and was created after the fall of our civilizations (after we were conquered) – and so our “choice” has been controlled. so i believe you are right when you say choosing this experience is a damn lie. i feel we have gone along w/these incarnations in this particular however-long-it-is cycle in order to ascend back to where we once belonged. if that makes sense. it’s late!

  2. Hi Beloveds,
    I am experiencing the same with such an intensity that is impossible to handle. All events of my life in March and April are extreme and life on Earth feels like a prison.

    There is one hope a I have. I hope this is done for a reason, just another Matrix for us to Master in order to move to a higher reality.

    Back in 2015 many Lightworkers were asked to leave the 3D reality=our corporate jobs and serve the Light full time. Now, we are being pushed to the 3D reality again, after Mastering Multidimensions and the Highest Consciousness, beyond Dimensions. It is impossible for us to go there and handle these dark energies again and again.

    I truly hope that these challenges and dark energies we are going through will eventually pull us out of the 3D Earth prison-train as promised.

    It is all very extreme, dark and impossible to handle. Life on Earth feels like a dark prison. I no longer want to be part of the Game, of the Earth experience, Lightworker experiance, Human experience, etc. It is just too much to handle for a Divine, Fully Conscious Human Beings who we are.

    BELOVED DIVINE I AM PRESENCE, BELOVED SOURCE OF ALL THAT IS,

    WHEN CAN WE RETURN HOME? HOW MANY TASKS, IMPOSSIBLE PROJECTS , IMPOSSIBLE MISSIONS DO WE NEED TO HANDLE? HOW MANY TESTS DO WE NEED TO TAKE?

    CAN YOU JUST TAKE US HOME? WE WANT TO END THIS MISSION AND RETURN HOME AS WE HAVE ACCOMPLISHED EVERYTHING WE HAVE SIGNED IP FOR. AND IF THERE IS SOMETHING ELSE AND MORE, THEN WE NO LONGER WANT TO DO THIS HERCULEAN PROJECT.

    WHEN CAN YOU OPEN THE DOOR AND TAKE US HOME TO THE REALMS
    WHERE WE BELONG? CAN YOU LOVE US AND TAKE US THERE NOW? DIDNT WE MEET ALL THE REQUIREMENTS????

    PLEASE OPEN THE DOOR AND TAKE US HOME. PLEASE BE LIKE A LOVING PARENT AND LOVE US AND TAKE US TO THE PARADISE, TO THE LOVING LAND OF UNCONDITIONAL LOVE AND PRISTINE BEAUTY AS PROMISED.

    WE HAVE DONE OUR WORK. IT IS TIME TO GO HOME. PLEASE TAKE US OUT OF THE 3D PRISON.

    THANK YOU.

    ALL LIGHTWORKERS, ASCENDED MASTERS, ENLIGHTENED HUMANS, STARSEEDS AND DIVINE HUMAN BEINGS.

  3. Hi Beloveds,
    I am experiencing the same with such an intensity that is impossible to handle. All events of my life in March and April are extreme and life on Earth feels like a prison.

    There is one hope a I have. I hope this is done for a reason, just another Matrix for us to Master in order to move to a higher reality.

    Back in 2015 many Lightworkers were asked to leave the 3D reality=our corporate jobs and serve the Light full time. Now, we are being pushed to the 3D reality again, after Mastering Multidimensions and the Highest Consciousness, beyond Dimensions. It is impossible for us to go there and handle these dark energies again and again.

    I truly hope that these challenges and dark energies we are going through will eventually pull us out of the 3D Earth prison-train as promised.

    It is all very extreme, dark and impossible to handle. Life on Earth feels like a dark prison. I no longer want to be part of the Game, of the Earth experience, Lightworker experiance, Human experience, etc. It is just too much to handle for a Divine, Fully Conscious Human Beings who we are.

    BELOVED DIVINE I AM PRESENCE, BELOVED SOURCE OF ALL THAT IS,

    WHEN CAN WE RETURN HOME? HOW MANY TASKS, IMPOSSIBLE PROJECTS , IMPOSSIBLE MISSIONS DO WE NEED TO HANDLE? HOW MANY MORE TESTS DO WE NEED TO TAKE?

    CAN YOU JUST TAKE US HOME? WE WANT TO END THIS MISSION AND RETURN HOME AS WE HAVE ACCOMPLISHED EVERYTHING WE HAVE SIGNED IP FOR. AND IF THERE IS SOMETHING ELSE AND MORE, THEN WE NO LONGER WANT TO DO THIS HERCULEAN PROJECT.

    WHEN CAN YOU OPEN THE DOOR AND TAKE US HOME TO THE HIGHER REALMS WHERE WE BELONG? CAN YOU LOVE US AND TAKE US THERE NOW? DIDNT WE MEET ALL THE REQUIREMENTS????

    PLEASE OPEN THE DOOR AND TAKE US HOME. PLEASE BE LIKE A LOVING PARENT AND LOVE US AND TAKE US TO THE PARADISE, TO THE LOVING LAND OF UNCONDITIONAL LOVE AND PRISTINE BEAUTY AS PROMISED.

    WE HAVE DONE OUR WORK. IT IS TIME TO GO HOME. PLEASE TAKE US OUT OF THE 3D PRISON.

    THANK YOU.

    ALL LIGHTWORKERS, ASCENDED MASTERS, ENLIGHTENED HUMANS, STARSEEDS AND DIVINE HUMAN BEINGS.

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    Good morning dear light workers …
    I understand your moment, I fully understand the anger and the desire to leave … .because I had and I also sometimes returns.
    You have to understand one thing my brothers, every scene, every situation against you have created it yourself, because you know very well that not even look into yourself but outside.
    It ‘hard to do that with everything going on I agree, but if you are here is because you had wanted to come, and because you have a mission, your mission.
    Do not think about what and how the event will take … or what will happen, because you do hurt yourself.
    Know that in any case, at the appropriate time, all this will have a twist.
    We came here to learn patience, perseverance, compassion in showing the right way to others that right now, the way they behave, they are like children.
    Remember that nothing as it seems and most of the time the external storage information is only for those who are still asleep, you should not even consider them.

    Have faith and above all, trust in yourself … it’s a job we have to do and you know my dear brothers.

    Good day … and smile, because an important part of the divine is to have the IRONY.

    Salut.

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    Good morning dear light workers …
    I understand your moment, I fully understand the anger and the desire to leave … .because I had and I also sometimes returns.
    You have to understand one thing my brothers, every scene, every situation against you have created it yourself, because you know very well that not even look into yourself but outside.
    It ‘hard to do that with everything going on I agree, but if you are here is because you had wanted to come, and because you have a mission, your mission.
    Do not think about what and how the event will take … or what will happen, because you do hurt yourself.
    Know that in any case, at the appropriate time, all this will have a twist.
    We came here to learn patience, perseverance, compassion in showing the right way to others that right now, the way they behave, they are like children.
    Remember that nothing as it seems and most of the time the external storage information is only for those who are still asleep, you should not even consider them.

    Have faith and above all, trust in yourself … it’s a job we have to do and you know my dear brothers.

    Good day … and smile, because an important part of the divine is to have the IRONY.

    Salut.

  6. Beloveds,
    The book “Secrets of Amenti” written in 1998 gives a very detail description of the Ascension Process and Light Activation dates. If nothing has changed, then according to “Secrets of Amenti” the Earth should merge will Terra and Gaia between 05/05/2017 and 06/30/2017 and all Humans who fully activated all 5DNA strands or more should Ascend to Terra, Gaia or Agarta (4DNA strands). I hope this is still valid and true. I hope that our “Earth Mission Impossible but Successfully Completed” will end in the coming months and we will Ascend to the Higher Realms where we belong and where we came from.

    Love,
    Bozena

  7. I very much resonate with the all the frustration, anger and anguish expressed here. There is no point to suffering as there is no point to darkness. It should have never happened in the first place. We can actually look to the Bible to support that fact as we see the original intention was for Adam & Eve to live in perfection for eternity.

    My spirit tells me all this darkness is crumbling down now before our eyes. I feel all the nonsense is going to end very soon.

    However, if for some awful reason the darkness does not end, then at the very least it makes one look forward to death, as it is the one escape route that cannot be denied.

    In the meantime, we must all go on living in the bad dream and hold onto the light, love and beauty inside. May we all keep our courage.

  8. Hi everybody, same here, very tired of all the bad emotions, got my heart broken again, tired of chemical clouds and rainy cold days, no friends , 7.5 billion people on this planet and i still feel alone. Things need to change or i need to change how my brain thinks to change my reality because its getting really boring and unpleasant. I will Sent love to the people who are with the same feelings. Good luck to everybody i really hope are mission will be won and will end up being a great one.

  9. I cannot say that I am glad to learn that others feel this way because it feels absolutely horrible !!! But I AM glad that I am not the only one. I feel like I am going crazy. I feel like I am coming apart at the seams. The governments are corrupt. The corporations are corrupt. The court/legal system is corrupt. The shadow ruling elite are corrupt. People seem like they are zombies and cannot see how horrible everything is. So I guess people have become/learned to be narcissistic, rude, thoughtless and greedy to survive. That seems to be the name of the game. I have been continuously hurt and taken advantage of because I am heart-centered and my natural reaction is to trust. In this world I would be considered stupid because I did not act out of suspicious and a self-serving manner. And if I want to fare better than I have been, well then I should just be “smarter”. Well if “smarter” means acting like a selfish, rude, heartless, ladder-climbing asshole, then no thanks. So I suffer. I too want to get off of this planet. I too keep saying to my husband that if I signed up for this mission I want to be DONE, NOW !!! Either the ascension (and RV/GCR) is real or a whole lot of us have been scammed for quite awhile now. I have run out of the ability to keep going. I’m hurt, I’m tired, I’m have lost faith and I am lonesome for home.

  10. I cannot say that I am glad to learn that others feel this way because it feels absolutely horrible !!! But I AM glad that I am not the only one. I feel like I am going crazy. I feel like I am coming apart at the seams. The governments are corrupt. The corporations are corrupt. The court/legal system is corrupt. The shadow ruling elite are corrupt. People seem like they are zombies and cannot see how horrible everything is. So I guess people have become/learned to be narcissistic, rude, thoughtless and greedy to survive. That seems to be the name of the game. I have been continuously hurt and taken advantage of because I am heart-centered and my natural reaction is to trust. In this world I would be considered stupid because I did not act out of suspicious and a self-serving manner. And if I want to fare better than I have been, well then I should just be “smarter”. Well if “smarter” means acting like a selfish, rude, heartless, ladder-climbing asshole, then no thanks. So I suffer. I too want to get off of this planet. I too keep saying to my husband that if I signed up for this mission I want to be DONE, NOW !!! Either the ascension (and RV/GCR) is real or a whole lot of us have been scammed for quite awhile now. I have run out of the ability to keep going. I’m hurt, I’m tired, I’m have lost faith and I am lonesome for home.

    1. joanne~ i hear you. you are not alone. many of us want off this ride. i admire you for staying heart-centered. i am working on keeping mine open – the way it once was. i have had to detach from the fray and go within. i purge. and intend the reality i want for myself – both within and without. love and peace to you…

  11. Hello a chacun de vous du Quebec, Canada.
    Je resents les memes emotions que chacun de vous ressentent.
    Il y a déjà quelques annees que je ne me sens plus a ma place dans ce monde.
    Depuis plus d une annee j ai vecu beaucoup de douleurs et j espere que ca me permet de me liberer plus rapidement des scories qui restent.
    Pour moi egalement c est le temps de retourner a la MAISON.
    Je vous accompagne avec tout mon coeur et mon amour.

  12. I’m so with you on this one. The dumbed down people who with straight face respond with incredulous answers (which are just plain nuts) have me shaking my head. I feel like you.. get me outta here!

    Chemtrails have been spraying for years yet when I point out the spraying they just look and go “what is that”?… like they have never seen them before. How could they not?? Don’t they ever look at the sky? How can anyone get around this planet and not see what is being sprayed in our skies? The other day I watched local county workers drive along the roads with spray booms killing off the weeds not for one minute thinking that the weed killer is going to wash into the waterways the next time it rains (and it’s been raining here for 5 weeks with only a couple of days of no rain). Are they that stupid? Or is this “just doing my job”?

    Apparently I am here on some “mission”… piece of cake…done it before… Never in a million years would I have thought to see such a divide amongst the populus when it comes to being “awake”.

    I’m over it, I’m done.. cooked..roasted..fried…steamed…poached..you name it… I’m done with duality.

    The insanity of this place is seriously doing my head in.

  13. I think we are all experiencing the same things right now, because there is some intense energy hitting our planet. I will be going along and feel pretty good and counting my blessings and staying on track, but then something happens and it seems hard to function. I feel better when I am off and away from my job. The weekends are mostly a state of joy and bliss, but the dread creeps in on Sunday night as I have to go to work a job I hate with people who couldn’t be more different from me. I am the odd person. I used to believe I came here for a reason but now I wonder, am I just crazy? Are we all just social outcasts who just can’t make it in the world? Working just keeps me stuck in the same process as everyone, having to spend so much time and energy focusing on the accumulation of money and thinking about what I am going to do when I get old. I live in an apartment, I don’t have retirement or health insurance, I have a small savings. I seen one of my relatives last week and every time I see her she has taken a trip here or there. I don’t have the money to do those things and no one to go with me anymore for that matter. It just makes me feel inadequate as a person. Like a failure because I don’t aspire to the things that most people do. To top it off someone who came into my place of business, went on a facebook site “rants and raves” and wrote ugly things about me because I had to charge them a quarter for a photocopy of a handicap application! My boss makes us charge, I have no choice, unless I pay them all myself. They said I wasn’t a nice person. And I go out of my way to be nice to all people. I just feel like walking away from all this and trying to go back to trying to have some sort of “normal” life. Because it doesn’t seem like disclosure or the ascension is ever going to happen. Every time a date comes an goes, everyone starts putting out other dates that are 3 or 4 years away. I can tell you I don’t have the stamina for that any longer. I’m about ready to check out of the heartbreak hotel.

    1. jayson ~ oh sweet soul there are things you share in which i relate. i too don’t have this “normal” looking life and at times that damn voice in my head will say all sorts of things – the “should” voice. she can stfu. i know too about the stamina issue and i worry about money and wonder what i am going to do when i reach retirement (although i am intending i am living to be 800 or more this time around as i have every intention of ascending and fully healing this vessel). the only thing that keeps me going is knowing i am here for a purpose. you are not inadequate. you are UNIQUE. you are YOU. is there ANY other line of work you could get into? it sounds like your job is far too much of a drain on you. maybe just to give you a little bit of a lift. or find a way to get laid off so you can collect unemployment for awhile – if that would sustain you. seriously – not joking on that one. look into the laws in your state – maybe by being out “sick”. i had that happen (i really was sick though) when i worked in daycare and was able to collect. maybe a low vibe move – but it would set you free of that place and get you some $$ coming in for awhile. i send you peace. <3

  14. It is absolutely time to draw the line in the sand. It is a common theme amongst light workers right now. It is time to choose.
    Our highest thoughts towards self, humanity and Gaia will dimensionally put you right where you need to be. It is a very enlightened thought to refuse the old and embrace the new!
    Many thanks for your pronouncement!
    🙏🌸🌞🌎✌🏼️

  15. WOW, sounds like most Light Workers are feeling the same sadness & frustration. I am grateful that we were able to move back to the country, to be in nature. It helps a lot. As I watch them spray the chemtrails over my “organic” garden, I send those pilots Love & Light & intend them to realize what they are doing & find a new job. Being a few months from retirement, I have nothing saved. Nor will my husband in 3 yrs. There was never any ‘extra’ money. I pretty much keep to myself except for a couple close awakened people. It’s just easier this way. I truly believe we are close to the breakthrough. It took us thousands of years to be so controlled, if it only takes 25 to break free then that’s a job well done. Don’t give up people. Every one of us are needed. We ARE going to make it so think about how it will feel, to put on your next life’s resume, WE WERE A PART OF THIS & WE DID IT!

    1. i feel we are very close lynn, if my inner feelings, guidance i am receiving and dreams i have had recently. t/y for your words of validation. i do not believe any of us will have to worry about this retirement/money thing ~ i have received that message for over 10 years. and yes – we keep to ourselves as well – certainly more so today. <3

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