I have to say I cannot recall having such a strange day. Certainly 24 hours.
At this moment I am not sure where I am. Not fully present as I sit here.
It began last night. Before going to bed, I was doing some meditating when I had a very similar experience as to the one I had last fall where I was sitting at the kitchen table and suddenly I felt buzzing going up my back out my head and I felt myself being lifted up. I braced myself on the table and heard “this is how it will happen” then the experience was over.
Last night I felt something literally pulling on me – off to the left and I felt I could go. Or that I was being prepared. Kinda like the astronauts undergo simulations prior to the actual flight. There was a bit of anxiety. I was not expecting this to happen!
Before I had the experience, prior to going to bed, I suddenly began itching all over my chest. It was intense. I walked into the kitchen to tell my mate. We both start talking at the same time – both of us were saying the SAME THING. lol He too suddenly began to itch on his chest.
Today every plan to interact w/the outside world fell apart. Had some sort of a block.
I am ok with that.
I want to be left alone. It is an intense desire. INTENSE.
About 20 minutes ago a friend of our daughter’s came over with her mom for a scheduled play date. Just as the doorbell rang (which surprised me as it is broken)…my phone dinged and I saw a text from my mom that did not make sense. I go answer the door – feeling VERY ungrounded suddenly. I did not feel fully present. The mom tells me her daughter’s friend just got diagnosed with pink eye and perhaps we should cancel the play date. I immediately agreed.
Still feeling as though I was literally in two worlds, with another calling me backwards, for lack of a better word, I went to check my phone for that text from my mom.
It was no longer there. I could not find it on my phone.
I text my mom and ask her “did you text me?”
Her response: No I did not.
WTH?!
I began to feel even wonkier.
So we went on to have a brief text convo ~ and she asked the question I had seen earlier on that strange text, only it was worded differently.
WTH?!
Where am I??
I checked the Schumann. Here is the latest read.
I am now sitting, quietly, heat on my body. Breathing deeply.
No appetite today compared to recent days where I have been ravenous.
Seeing others show no signs of this process, it was a comfort to me, in some small way, to read last night that not everyone had this experience encoded into their DNA.
Is that possible? Don’t we all deserve to undergo this experience?
Yes of course.
But now? At this time?
And as I always do I look around me and I know most people would laugh at the concept of ascension. DNA changes. All of it. I cannot “see” it in their journey at this “time”. From conversations I have had, I don’t “see” it in their eyes or “feel” it coming from them. Zero. Zip. Nada.
Or I could be wrong.
But the feeling within says otherwise.
I trust this ongoing feel that I have ~ and I would say most of humanity is not going to experience this ~ at least the way we are.
Not right now.
Just like the astronauts.
Not everyone gets prepped to go to the moon.
Because not all go. (at the same time perhaps)
I feel this out ~ and the idea that all go ~ who can say that with any truth?
I don’t know what anyone else came here to experience.
None of us can say that about another.
It is just a feeling.
Not all are undergoing this experience.
For now, I am, well, I don’t know ~ going to go within and integrate and just BE and FEEL.
For I am not able to do much else.
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Victoria
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