Author: Victoria1111

It’s 4:44pm as I begin this one…  Today as I have gone about my stuff (or doing’s as I sometimes say) – I have wondered “what now”?  What do I do now?  From here until that moment we feel/see coming, what do I do?

Going onward, I am also pondering how this will transpire.  Many questions I am exploring.  Do we stay in these vessels?  Do some stay in their current vessel while some go on to new (REAL) human vessels?

Does it happen in an instant?

How much of our memory of this do we retain?  I would think that would be a choice given the whole freedom thing.

And what about those around us?  I don’t “see” most people around me staying in my experience.  Do they forget about us?  If not, they would question “hey where did these people go?”

The trolls keep on a’trollin….I don’t even know if they are anything more than AI at this point.  There was one who did the usual low-vibe/fear-based attack towards something I said on a forum.  Completely unnecessary. Completely unhelpful.  At first I thought hey, not cool.  Why you doing that?  Then I saw them saying the same words to others who hold the same or similar mind-set as do I.

They do because they can.  Here that is.

I was feeling that one heavily last night.  I was lamenting to my mate and giving him a visual.  I have seen myself as this Being who just wants to play in my sandbox – make whatever creations I want in that box – and be left alone to Be.  If someone else is nearby doing the same, have at it.  Have fun.  Just stay OUT of my box, you know?  And my experience in this particular cycle has been full of big ‘ole poops who come into my box without asking and throw their sand in my space, on my body, etc. (metaphorically speaking here of course)

Who does that?

As I lamented to brother Rick awhile ago (I’m into using this term today apparently), “robots, robots everywhere.”  My girl and I were out on a walk. Most everyone around here knows my girl has dog trauma after the numerous attacks she and I went through all last year.  It was unreal.  So today, being it’s a beautiful day, we went for a walk around the ‘hood.  We arrive at a housing area where there were 3 people we knew – and all 3 had dogs.  Two of the dogs were getting out of control.  As I approached the group of people to say “hello” one of the dogs went full on nutso – lunging towards one of the other dogs (who was more or less sitting there observing).  I was suddenly in between these two dogs – and not one of the adults seemed to notice what was going on for they let the dogs continue w/their posturing while they gabbed away.  My girl had by now taken off, understandably, so I announced I was “out of this land of insane stupidity” and walked away. Not very loving but in that moment I wasn’t feeling the “love for all” but instead the “you all know my girl has dog issues and you let this situation happen?  DO YOU NOT THINK?”  I located my girl and we headed home.  She even commented on how “invisible” we seemed to be.

Invisible, yes.  A life long experience for me – one that has indeed grown the more I awaken and question.

We also heard of a situation here with the local school.  Apparently there was a mix-up with a bus or some such thing and frightened children came home quite late – no word from the school.  My girl witnessed one of her friends get off the school bus, in tears.

We see the breaking down of ALL continue.  And yet I wonder – if there IS going to be some split – will the ALL really break down?  The questions of what’s going on and how it will all manifest continue….

Aside from my little girl here inside these walls, my saving grace is music. Home continues to speak to me through music.  As I drove home I suddenly recalled the dream I had of Michael Jackson 2 nights ago.  As I thought that I turn on the radio and there’s a Michael Jackson song on the radio.  Not one of my favorites so I turn to another station.  Yep.  Another MJ song was playing.  My mate gets into the car an hour later, turns on the radio and there’s another MJ song playing.  Earlier today I was drawn again to look at the television music station.  Below are the captures.

Physically, I continue to have facial tics.  The fatigue from yesterday is gone. I have been awakening with left foot pain.  Just the left.  Mate too.  No explanation (for me that is).  For him –  he broke his left foot so that could explain the experience from his perspective.  It COULD be the “empathic illness” experience that I realize I may very well allow myself to experience. I cancel that program!

One last insight.  I awoke with the thought “50 ways to leave the matrix” (parody of “50 ways to leave your lover”).

Awaken your brain, Jane.

Question the game, Blaine.

ou don’t need to be in fear, Dear….just get yourself free.

Step on the Q train….you don’t need to explain yourself…

Just go in your heart space and get yourself Free.

And so it is.

Love,

Victoria

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