Been thinking a lot about karma today.  I believe I shared my bank card info was stolen.  Or maybe I didn’t share that here.  I am so mentally crumbled at the moment, I don’t know what I have done or where or how or with who. The phone calls this has entailed has overwhelmed my circuits…

This fucker who decided to steal from me, I am learning (to no surprise) will likely never be caught, thereby allowing them to continue their “anything goes” choices in this “anything goes” realm for years, decades.

Where is the karma, I ask.

The only answer I feel within is that karma is simply one of those programs put into the most honest, kindest of people.  If the energy of karma applied to all, then the pedophiles, rapists, thieves, cabal cattle and their ilk would have been rounded up and disposed of by now.

But nope.  They continue with their ugly freedom taking dark shit because this realm, the energy of this realm, supports that.

Certainly explains why the most innocent, sensitive, kindest of Souls experience the most assault.  Struggle.  Sickness.  etc. etc.  I have this nagging feeling that this sick realm hears just one little low vibe thought and tosses back to these Souls (souls like us) what they put out.  But those who vibe low and relish in harmful, destructive behaviors are immune.

We can’t have TRUE karmic experiences here until we have TRUE energies of freedom.  So until then, we have controlled, manipulated experiences.

And I am starting to let myself “go there”, after 52 years, that there is little we can do about it.

New age communities throw the karma mantra in our face when we experience an attack or harm.  They claim to suddenly know your entire thought train that lead to the attack, putting the entire experience upon you.  Blame the victim.  That’s a lot easier than going down the rabbit hole of karma and, goddess forbid, help the victim. Yeah, victim.  I said VICTIM.

I don’t want to be a victim.  I want to be fully FREE to live and be as I WISH. I want to be FREE OF POWER OVER games.

PERIOD.

UGH!!!  (punch punch punch on the punching bag)

This whole criminal system, which IS set up to enable the criminals, essentially told ME, the VICTIM ~ “not much you can do about it.”

How is any of this ok?

I’m supposed to be ok with this, right?

Well, I’m NOT ok with it.

I feel violated.  (how often does that happen?  walk outside, breath the chemtrail air, drink the polluted waters and eat the polluted foods ~ we get violated constantly here)

In the meantime, we await for some magical energy wave.  Oooh, but we are supposed to vibe high enough to feel that.

Rolling my eyes.  Shaking my head.  And holding my heart.

Meltdown today.  I am tired of speaking my truth.  Tired of holding the hope for this event.  Tired of visualizing what I want and desire.  Tired of letting go, allowing only to rinse and repeat.

I have no answers in terms of what to do different.  Next.  New.  I have engaged in that approach so many times throughout my life.  And yet here I still am.  In this moment.  Feeling just plum worn out and not seeing the point of all of these “things” I have done.  Created.

Some say the journey is what matters ~ not the end result.

Yeah, well, not for me.  That’s as ridiculous as saying “is your cup half empty or half full.”

I say the journey AND end result “matter”.

And I say if my cup isn’t full, what needs to happen to fill it up.

Popular sayings ~ just more matrix programming.

Every bit as much for this thing called karma.

A weary ending and a weak offering of love~

Victoria