got no shares today as i ain’t caring about a thing playing out.

aside from my tribe here and a few in which i comm w/regularly (who feel the same):  humanity by and large disgusts me now.

i see so many who think they’re awake but they talk about god and resurrection and lessons and are enjoying all of this.

my family and i are suffering here.  BIG TIME.

we have NO connections.

no friends.

we lost all of that – slow drip – over the past few years.

those god believing types can answer me this:  isn’t god supposed to open a window when a door (or doors) are shut?

hmmm??

we are alone.

completely and utterly alone.

and anyone saying “you’re never alone” don’t and won’t understand that physical isolation is painful and no amount of prayers or blah blah help.

provides NO comfort for me in the way i need.

other than for one damn brief moment.

but then the convo is over or exchange is over and i’m back to the same damn space:  trapped in my home having to navigate life much differently now because vaxxed assholes are being allowed to roam wherever they want shedding their toxic “field” all over the place.

What About US?!

seriously – what about us?  is my family not important?  what about my child?  this is about the children?  like fuch it is.  my child lost her friends due to this bullshit that is STILL BEING PUSHED.  (oooh but people are waking up.  riiiiiight. and i got a chunk of lush land in siberia to sell ya).  she lost her favorite activity for the same damn reason.

what is it i need?

FRIENDS FOR MY GIRL.

FRIENDS FOR MYSELF.

FRIENDS FOR MY MATE.

FREEDOM.

A NEW  HOME.

A MORE RURAL COMMUNITY WITH LIKE MINDED UNJABBED PEOPLE.

AND THE MONEY TO MAKE IT HAPPEN.

i intend this DAILY.

NIGHTLY.

IN THE MORNING.

ALL THROUGHOUT THE DAY.

i try and connect w/others who want/need the same.

NOTHING HAPPENS.

NOTHING MOVES.

i let it go – then start it back up again.

i feel forgotten.

i see my family and feeeeeeeeeel they too have been forgotten.

we are nobody here in the area in which i live.

so why do we have to stick around and be forced to be a part of this damn “movie” or whatever it actually is – i have no explanation for it.

and WHY OUR DESIRED EXPERIENCE HAS NOT YET BEEN SHOWN –

no. explanation.

where the fuch is this god and jesus person?  hmm??  anyone??

anyone who tells me to be patient these days – i let them know they can share that “unwanted advice” (which is thoughtless and fatuous) with my child.  look her in the eye and tell her that and see how it works out for ya.  she’s quite adept at telling us and others “how it is”.

as is her mama.

Feeling this……………Too much…………Just too much going on for me to carry………

How are we awake to be well and feel well now?  I’m tired of trying to figure things out.  I am tired of feeling like so much I do alone – at least without real support of others who at least try to see things from my perspective – or others who when I say hey this is what I need to do will support and help me.  I have had several people promise to help me with marketing this site – but each person flakes out – likely a bot or not who they say they are.  One person who bragged about being head of $18 million marketing campaigns said it was up to ME to do the work – after offering to help me.

Nothing makes sense to me now and this reality becomes more foreign to me by the day.

My girl has seen too much of “their” sick perversions.  I/we have done all we can to 1) keep her from it and 2) talk about it when necessary.  I will say this:  CHILDREN/KIDS TODAY SHOULD NEVER BE ALLOWED TO HAVE UNLIMITED ONLINE ACTIVITY THAT IS NOT MONITORED/AND OR TALKED ABOUT.  This mama is f’ing worn to the bone having to explain yet another thing to her – having to deal with yet another issue that was not asked for or wanted.  And I am worn to the bone comforting her when she sees a former friend (whose parents, well, you know………..).

Any plan that is allowing this much suffering is not a plan worth supporting.  It is a plan that needs to be QUESTIONED.   And it is time now to COMMAND answers and to KNOW exactly WHAT is coming and WHEN.

My life.

My experience.

MY RIGHT TO KNOW.

Anyone not supporting that, well let me quote T:

YOU’RE FIRED.

UPDATE:  I.  JUST.  SAW.  THIS.  Check it out: (read below to find out the significance in this)………

It’s the dawning Of A New Age, so I phoned HOME.

The finger splits right down the MIDDLE. #HOME
Both “sides” are coming home ! pic.twitter.com/dWQbKBjGEb

— I AM … Shane Browningd G k (@VVission123) August 14, 2022

So earlier today when I was doing my mama stuff, I was in my girl’s bedroom opening curtains, etc.  She has a radio in there and usually has it on a nice classical music station at night.  I turned it off but then thought “hey what was that song?  turn that back on!”  So I did.  It’s the main theme from ET – and it plays at the very end when his family comes and picks him up and takes him Home.  I have never heard that song on the radio.  So putting that out there.

Next up – “the pit” is all over us today in terms of synchs.  First we checked out sol24 and saw it here (the big circular object off to the right)………At least that is what YRFT and others have said it is.

Then just a few moments ago, I receive a text from Brother Rick.  He said he spoke with Clair last night and asked her when all of this bad was going to end.  She said the pit is here now.

Then we see this – around the 40 second mark:  THE PIT.  This is not just a political reference.  It is about trapping the enemy/evil.

Dimitri Anon @spartan

1 hour ago

The Pit! It’s going to burry them!

I don’t know – really – who all comes here and reads my material.  I can see who subscribes – who comments – who reaches out to me personally through email and other social media platforms.  But other than that – I don’t know if I have lurkers who only seek to get “info” on me – the local woo woo one.

Whatever on that…..

Going back to about mid June, things got really f’ing hard for me – for this family.  Nothing tragic – just ongoing pokes and challenges – one would get dealt with then another popped up making processing fully impossible.  Today – dealing with ANYTHING – I just can’t do it.  One new little “thing” and I close up inside like a vault.

I do the intending up and out my @$$ whenever I can think of it.  I reach out.  I ask.  I pray (I do A LOT of that now).

I am surrounded by people with too many degrees and too much money and therefore pretty damn sure they think we’re the stupid ones.  I honestly don’t feel like being the smiling neighbor anymore.  We are the classic “victims” of this system – which if you don’t feed it well – or engage in in the way it dictates – you get tossed out.  In my 30 years of wanting something different I have YET to find just one person in my physical proximity (other than my spouse) who is actually interested and WILLING and able to bust out and create totally new.  And I am weary.  I am just f’ing weary of thinking I will ever create that for myself.  Heck, at this point in my life, my body – and especially my brain – are too tired – traumatized – and compromised to do that in any way successfully on my own.  I’d need to be carried and treated like a 5 year old at this point.  I struggle to enter passwords some moments.

But this is all happening so those I (and some of you) are surrounded by can “see”.

Today – I just can’t.  I am part of the tribe now saying SHOW US.  I NEED to SEE now.  Truly SEE.  Energetically – my ability to carry this hope – this knowing – at this moment today – I simply don’t have it in me.

So may others can carry it for me for awhile.

That’s all I got.

Love,

V.

Yesterday “felt better”.  Lighter.  I think it’s that sky object that they are shining the flashlight on full speed (remember boys and girls the moon is never full or crescent or new or any of that b.s. – it’s ALWAYS THERE – it’s just not always “lit up” for these compromised eyes to see).  U G H.

Anyway – so my mate was reading some headlines to me and said this particular site he was reading from has headlines you won’t see elsewhere – and I felt this moment of NO and frustration.  I thought “why is that important?  why is it THIS or THAT site somehow has more cool stuff to read?”

When is it going to be all about MY experience playing out and YOUR experience playing out?!

Anyway…………there’s that feeeeeel……

Anyone else having needs showing up – the need for comfort – the need for a parent to just take the evil away and make it all better and peaceful and happy again?  That need has popped into my space lately and sometimes it is quite big and leaves me in tears.  Adulting here (the way we’re “supposed” to) has never worked for me no matter what I have told myself.  Not even the “put on the big girl/boy undies” aligns.  Perhaps necessary at times to keep going – but nothing natural about having to do that.  You only do that when evil is dictating how reality is.  WE create that on our own from the place of Love?  Yeah – never a reason to suck it up and be someone else.

The Schumann did its thing again – not quite as intense – but for the same duration.

That’s all I have atm.

Love,

V.