Category: Daily Notes

Hello from the Future.  lol  (we don’t turn our clocks back)

So…..I had an experience last night – much more than just a dream.  I felt I was outside – observing things play out.  I saw swirls of white all around as well as Donald Trump’s face –  mostly his side profile.  I sensed things happening quickly – like REALLY quickly.  Energy was all around.  It was intense but not at all overwhelming.  And I just observed it all.  Then it faded away and I don’t remember if I woke up or continued on sleeping.  I just felt like I wasn’t “here” but somewhere else watching.

I sensed that perhaps part of this was this speeding up – snowball effect – I have been sensing would happen for months now (and wondering my GOD will it EVER finally go POOF as I sense??!!).  Sister D is sensing the splitting of the worlds at a very intense level now and got chills sharing that.  I read of a dream someone had where they saw blue lights copying this realm.  My intial thought was so those not yet awake and going in their earth-like version until they DO awake will still see this reality play out – just a better version of it.  The one sharing the dream had the same sense.  What’s interesting is MrMbb333 and another channel have been reporting blue lights around the realm recently.  So hmmm…..

I see this process we are in – this splitting process – as back and forth.  Back and forth.  Each time we go through that process, more of our “crap” gets filtered out (certainly comes up for release).  We remember more as we release (at least we step more into our REAL selves more).  And as this happens, those invisible f’ers who attached themselves to our trauma energies, they get removed – at least pulled further away – which is why we feel these build-ups and then release.  At least that’s how I am seeing/sensing it now.  What do I really know FOR CERTAIN.  Until….

So………apparently many of us have felt that over-powering anger the last several days.  I know I have.  As I think I shared here recently, I felt like my mind was going to crack – mentally just not feeling like I could take it anymore.  I’ve been easily triggered – and yet I also part of that as me just knowing who I am – but the rest are old wounds – abandonment, betrayal, etc.  This entire EXPERIENCE here is one of betrayal for deception always leads to betrayal at some point.  Over and over again.  

Waking up is painful as fuch.  Even if you already sensed deep within something was off about this place – realizing that pretty much everything here has been one giant lie – and that it isn’t YOU or ME creating this but others outside of us – many of them hidden (and non-human) – and knowing what they have done – especially to the children – is f’ing traumatizing.  TRUE creating is fully transparent – nothing hidden – so when I read we are co-creating this evil I call it out as the b.s. it is.  It’s the same as having a group of kids gather and trash a house.  Are the neighbors a mile away responsible?  Heck no.  All we have been able to do is follow those inner “this ain’t right” prompts to seek the truth of who we are, where we are and who created this mess – and take a stand against it however we can.  And even when we have had to go along with it to survive (the whole pay-to-live) – that still does not make us responsible for the initial hijack and systems put into place to keep us in slumberland and enslaved.  Those who intentionally sold out – those who KNEW (and shown) who were here and what they did and still agreed to sign away all that is good in them in order to have success – THOSE hold the bulk of the responsibility for this mess.  Love doesn’t punish the POW’s.  E V E R.  As I say – speaking as a mama – if you make a mess, clean it up but don’t blame others who weren’t involved.

So….that lowest common denominator has reached a level I didn’t think would be necessary – but apparently it had to be this way to reach as many people as possible.  Again – that is what Love would do – even though it grates on my nerves and kinda does this to me now:

And speaking of, it is rest time again.

Let me know how you’re all doing and if any of this aligns.

Love, as always,

Victoria

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How did you all sleep last night?  I continue to wake up – although not as often and not as fully.  I have a vague memory of drinking some OJ last night – glancing out the kitchen window (usually to see if the sky has opened and we see ReaLity)…

We have that daylight savings time here which tells us to turn back our clocks (but celebrate and be grateful because you gain an extra hour of sleep).  We don’t participate and haven’t for many years.  I would say if you have no kids or homeschool them or don’t have a regular/daily job – don’t participate.

So speaking of being grateful – today I thought perhaps it is a better use of our – of my time and energy to focus on bringing in what we/I DESIRE instead of focusing so much on being grateful for 1/10th (a pittance) of what we all deserve and could have if it weren’t hidden and controlled.  Thank you for what I have (list it off) and then put the rest of that energy and focus on F R E E D O M.  Return of ALL that is hidden.  I’ll tell you what – that focus is much more authentic for me than giving thanks for say, my warm bed and food in my belly.  Not that those are not important – of course they are.  But when you give thanks for that every day and have 3/4 of your Spiritual and Human needs going unmet, well, you know….

Hidden = deception.  

I know ya’ll know that.

I took a peek “out there”.  More of the same just amped up.  I tell myself “girl you know and have known they are revealing themselves fully the closer we arrive to IT”.  Still – doesn’t make it easier to, uh, digest.  According to a poll, allegedly 30% of our younger generation identifies as one of the LBGTQ etc.  Up from 9%.  Well – they created the perfect evil formula for that.  Make a concoction in a lab with human and animal dna in it, call it a ‘vaccine’ – then add in indoctrination/programming via schools and you have Frankenstein Formula for our babies.

If you can’t see this at this point, you’re batsheot blind.  SOMETHING in everyone, at this point, who is truly human, asleep or not, has to have SOME little sense within that says there is something not right about this place.  Just like something in me – a voice – is growing – more powerful.  I am DONE done done donedonedonedone in seeing any messages from the outside who claim to know what we need.

W R O N G.  All of “that” is nothing more than matrix-speak and matrix programs.  It’s manipulation.  What do I always say here?  Want to know what I need?

ASK.

A S K.

So easy.  So simple.

So loving.

Seems those of us who align with that are out-smarting entities here, there and everywhere – real or not.

Keep it up!

Love,

Victoria

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I’ll know we’re out of this frequency/energy when deception is not allowed.  I don’t like deception.  I don’t like it when I see people listening to disinfo channels – knowingly – but doing so to get some truth.  I don’t like it when I do it either.  At this place in the game, there is so little I trust.  I trust myself – what I desire.  What I want.  And that’s it because there is a lot of myself I can’t trust because I CAN NEVER TRULY KNOW MYSELF IN ANY EXPERIENCE OF DECEPTION – where knowledge is withheld, controlled, etc.

I have questions.  I want to know where I was before I entered this realm.  I want to know where I’ve been.  Who I’ve been.  I want to know exactly where I am.  I want to know what is outside of this realm.  I want to know how to teleport – how to fully manifest.  I want to know what trauma’s are still buried in my “reptilian brain”.  I want to know how to f’ing release them.  I HAVE THE RIGHT TO KNOW ALL OF THAT and more.  

Not liking today – the closer it got to be the end of today that is.  I am seeing the matrix trying to manipulate the children now with their false narratives – they were already doing that to the adults.  Seen it several times – and saw it with an experience my girl had.  Until they are out of our consciousness,  NOTHING will change.  Truth will remain buried and difficult to fully see/know/experience.  This is nothing but a giant convulated deceptive realm and the next time someone makes some lame ass comment here about this being a divine realm but it sucks because we have lessons to learn is going to get permanently blocked.  I don’t have time nor wish to waste my energy on engaging in that type of conversation.  And why people come here when they obviously don’t align with what I feel and know and perceive – T R O L L S.  Passive aggressive b.s.  Matrix poking.

Oh and btw – who the “f” is this queen of canada – queen dromala or whoever she is?  How did she get to be in charge?  Even if the military installs – that’s a f’ing coup.  If the people don’t get to choose, it is just another dictator.  And NESARA/GESARA – so over that too.  The fancy currencies.  The crypto.  The 800 numbers (I walked away from that crap a few years ago when I heard this:  “when you visit with your financial planner at the bank, you have to prove to them you will do good with your money.  you will help humanity.  this isn’t about you – this is about humanity.”).  I finally said “ef it” to that scam.  If it’s MY money – no one has the authority to tell me what to do with it.  I don’t need to jump through someone else’s hoops.  Wealth is abundance and that is a Divine Right.  Anyone attempting to power over you with that – with YOUR abundance – is not your friend.

And there’s talk about the CEO of Pfizer being arrested.  Not saying he isn’t a royal scumbag who doesn’t have it coming – just had pause at what I read.  The red flag for me was reading the police ordered a media blackout.  lol  Really??!  The police have that power to over-ride the constitution?  Also seeing articles of chelsea and cuomo – all at gitmo.  Again – zero proof.  I am not saying the originals aren’t gone and we are seeing actors – I am pretty confident that is the case for most of the big evil players.  Discernment is a pretty necessary tool.

I think it’s time again to detach and go chill with something more pure – something that doesn’t talk back or attempt to control.  Something like a pastry.  Chocolate ice cream.  Diamonds are a girl’s best friend.  Nonsense.  Diamonds are over-rated, over-priced and the practice of mining them is horrid.  Nope.  A girl’s best friend – this awakened girl – this awkward doesn’t belong here girl – for me, food is my best friend.  It never disappoints.  Unless it contains onions, spicy peppers and anything that creates sulfur.  Those things can stay behind.  I’ll take my fruit, cheese, bread and chocolate Home.  That will be TO GO please.

lol

Love,

V.

I woke up early am after sleeping for maybe an hour – felt amazing – wide awake – like I was 18 again and ready to go out and have some fun.  So – I got up – went into the kitchen – looked at the clock.  2:34 is what the stove clock said – microwave clock said 1:11 (microwave clock ‘sticks’ these days).  Hmmm, I thought – my first two number sequences I began seeing some 30 years ago.

So I got a drink and returned to bed – focusing on quieting my mind so I could return to sleep.  After a few moments, in my mind’s eye I saw myself – and I began to see myself slowly fade away/disappear – starting at the feet.  It left – then returned.  I had no fear.  This continued for about 30 minutes.  The entire experience surprised my human brain – never expected much less had an experience such as that.  I fell asleep – woke up several hours later – feeling amazing again.  Now?  I feel a lift from the ugh I had been feeling in recent days (where I thought I was losing my f’ing mind one evening) – I feel I am….waiting.

We are close.

I check the world happenings at this point only as markers to tell me how close we are to IT.  A note of interest – I received an alert from our local emergency alert system – testing the system.  Hmm….

I had a conversation with Sister D today.  She too is feeling we are all simply WAITING (or as I say – waiting until….).  Others I speak with are having the same experience – even those who are exploring the PMA’s and new ways of forming community.  All feels like a distraction – a positive distraction – until whatever is coming arrives.  Happens.  So the waiting energy is collective now.  Very constant too.

It’s all one giant show – TO show.  Until….

Love,

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Today – I just can’t.  I can’t share what I see.  I can’t speculate.  Yesterday felt better.  Today just sucks.  “Their” day.  Did I already share that earlier?  Short term memory lapse.  Tonight after dinner I was telling my girl what her dad wore on our first 3 dates some 20 plus years ago.  She was amazed I could remember something so specific when I can’t remember what we had for dinner last night.  “Priorities,” I said and kissed the top of her head.

I’ve been contemplating who God really is – to me.  For me.  So many narratives – beliefs.  Lin Wood – who overall I really like – was speaking of the old testament God – the one who judges, casts you into hell for disobeying and not following commandments.  This is the god to fear (and you’re a fool if you don’t).  I just can’t go there.  Speaking as a parent – I want my girl to respect my authority – and I want her to have enough sense to fear a consequence if she does something she knows she isn’t supposed to – especially something that would harm her or another (and it’s a real balance to get that formula down – as a parent).  But to be afraid of me?  To fear my judgment (which is different than guiding her with my perspective and wisdom)?  No.  As I have said to some who believe if they don’t honor god’s word they goin’ to hell – would you ever throw your own child into a burning pit for eternity because they defied your command?

And Rose’s narrative of One – as one of you said (and cracked me up) – “I don’t know who that dude is!”  I don’t either.  I don’t resonate.

I resonate with being a part of something beautiful and divine and free.  Creative Consciousness.  Play.  Create.  Love.  Freedom.  Live and let live.  So I ponder….if perhaps while there is one Source of ALL – there formed a variety of beliefs which includes a god that judges and tells you what to do…..a god that is like a loving parent….or a god that leaves you alone (unless you need some guidance).  Or it’s all just energy and we’re making up all these stories depending on our current experience.

What are you all doing to get through this whatever-it-is.  Period.  Event(s).  War.  Evil doing its thing and spreading their stink and energy everywhere (OMG it is so palpable!).  I did some binge watching of brady bunch – burned out.  Gonna try Laverne and Shirley next.

Other than that – yoga.  Deep breathing.  WOULD REALLY LIKE SOME SUN AND REAL WEATHER which I called for daily for weeks – now I’m just like “whatever”.  Too tired to fight that one atm.  And too mentally spent to see one more iota of evil disclosure.  We don’t need to see this much.  It went on too long.  That, right there, is my truth and remains my truth.

So let’s HURRY UP THIS COLLAPSE!  What say you?