So today was indeed one of those days to talk about the energies. Something came in today and impacted all members of the house. I already mentioned the energy this morning was irritating and I woke up shaking (anxiety). Later in the day, the anxiety lifted and all I/We felt was inner shaking. It felt like my cells were vibrating at an intense speed, which lead to feeling almost over-heated. I also had an intense amount of energy, which I channeled by doing some work outside. My mate had the exact same experience. Our girl remarked at how shaky she felt inside – but she did not feel extra warm. Her cells are far more “youthful” than her parents.
Around 5pm the energy left – leaving me with a sore, achy body and feeling physically depleted. By 6pm, we all crashed hard. It was a quiet dinner with all of us remarking how sleepy we were. I crawled into bed around 7pm and fell asleep for a couple of hours.
I saw a couple of people on twitter talk of how they have been having experiences where they feel they are leaving their bodies. More prep work? I’m almost embarrassed to talk about this process now – embarrassed because I have been speaking of this transition for over 4 years and shared the ongoing physical experiences I have had and I’m quite done with hearing about “the energies” and suddenly feeling the need to sleep NOW at 7pm (it’s always at 7pm w/me). Is this body going with or is there a Me outside in which to merge? Or is the only thing that’s going to change is this “new world” c u e speaks of and I “live forever” (ala George Magazine 2/97) because I have had access to those med beds?
I really don’t know. I just don’t know. I would like to know to prepare myself. I would like to be able to get some glimpses of what’s coming so I can best prepare and plan my life – not just now but for the future. I’ve been asking – commanding – at times demanding such information/feels for a couple of weeks now. I’ve asked for “intel from Home”.
NOTHING has come to me. (is there a lull in the Force, luke?)
So at this moment I’m sitting on the fence – needing a little respite from the insanity. My mate began to read headlines to me today (oh god my least favorite behavior) and I put up my hand and did my “STOP” look/motion. So for now I may dive back into some movie watching. I’m also reading The Bridge to Terabithia. I know it’s a sad book – but I am feeling the need to cry (and recapture the spirit of my youth) as there was also an energetic heaviness in my heart area today and last night I had an ungodly amount of heartburn which even for me and my tummy sensitivities is very rare. Perhaps I will find and watch the movie as well. The focus – atm – is to go within.
Love,
V.
