Tonight’s reflections on The Event/Shift & Where we are. We Are Jedi’s!

 

I am re-listening to Laura Whitworth’s video from last month “The Shift”. I was guided to do this – and reflect on her words.  As I listen, I could sense/see the entire world watching to see the result of the U.S. Election – just 10 days away.

Dayem – just 10 days?

Surprised little girl in front of white wooden background ...

 

The countdown is on.  10, 9, 8…….

Anyway – this is far more than just some election.  Far more than politics. There has been a building up of energies – two polarities.  I sense it and I have seen it result in my life with those who support the left agenda (evil, deception, enslavement) and those who support truth and freedom.  Those who support the left agenda, whether knowingly or from a deeply programmed space – have literally been pulled away from my life experience.  Those who align with freedom and love – have been pulled together towards my experience.  As Laura says, if you are familiar with energy from a scientific perspective, opposing energies (which is what is happening now) build up and can only be in the same “space” for so long before they totally repel one another – each going off in their own physical space for their own experience.

I see that the entire world is “voting” in this election simply by making the choice:  Enslavement or Freedom. Or good vs. evil.

Most if not all have already made that choice – everywhere.  But the election is, as I feel/see it to be, that moment (keystone) where the world can collectively say “YES FREEDOM HAS WON” (those who voted for or supported Trump) or “NOOOO THE WORLD IS ENDING” (Biden vote/supporter).  The choice will have been made and again – the energies will be well defined/seen/felt.  So perhaps Lisa Harrison and Laura and others (myself included) are correct in feeling and seeing that the election is the catalyst for The Shift.

Once those results are in – what may play out?  Those who make the choice (either through literally voting or simply focusing on/intending – or both) for Freedom split in one direction (Home…..East….5D……New Earth….many terms to use for what I feel are the same experience/frequency)…..Those who make the choice for more enslavement/control will have that.  Is that time period of the election the marker for the emit?  Is there time between the shift and the emit?  Do they occur together?

I don’t know.

And as I tune into this and have for some time – the idea of Freedom can be a little dubious.  Remember what it is to have Total Freedom.  Feeeeel into that (talking to myself here as well!).  We are fully responsible for our own experience because no one else is powering over us – taking away our right to choose.  That means no more blaming anyone else.  I absolutely positively want that – i feel that longing in my heart/center as I type it – but I also feel that little bit of apprehension I feel before trying something new – or relearning what I once had/knew.  It feels like it’s been a looooong time – but I also feel I will flow right into it as even though I am the type to resist change, once I jump in and it is positive, I adapt pretty much immediately.   So…….It is perhaps then true that not all are ready for that kind of experience.  I had an experience (that I call a marker – those little moments that allow me to have clarification at a later point in my journey) about 15 years ago with a friend.  I was telling her about the idea of a world without money.  I was excited as I shared with her my thoughts.  She simply could not grasp it – no matter what I said.  It’s as though her program wouldn’t allow for it.  I remember she said “but what if someone doesn’t WANT to live in a world without money.  Why should they be forced to?”  And I said “well, others are telling us we have to be in a world WITH money right now, right?”  She couldn’t argue with that – but still could not go further with it. She loved money.  Sadly, she became an extreme leftist and an avid Trump hater and is no longer in my life.

Moving on to the next reflection….

It is possible after the hijack we actually had an entire Universe in this honeypot (tear-drop shape) – really shrunken in size compared to our Original experience before the hijack.  Horton Hears a Who always comes to mind – there is still an entire Universe inside the world of the Who’s.  We see images like this below that show the size comparison – outside as compared to inside.

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Yes, kind of creepy isn’t it…..

So……After the hijack and the toss into the honeypot, family/friends who survived/escaped (they didn’t capture us all – my feeeeeel) on the outside began working to free us in a way so that as many as possible survive.  Going with that, what may have been tens if not hundreds of thousands of years here to us in this energy of “time” and their reincarnation game and looping games – is far less on the outside – perhaps as few as 10, 20 years. Maybe 100.  I don’t know – no one here (likely) does.  But we will know. There is a time dilation obviously.  Anyway – so over this period of time here – they’ve been working on getting us out all this “time” which means removing (freeing/liberating) one planet at a time and projecting a simulation inside here (and replacing it with something w/a mass – ships perhaps).  We have heard from both Lisa and Rose that “we are last” of the clean-up.  Heather Ann I believe has said the same. Earth is the last to go. And I also realize that the clean-up happened inside this realm and outside – this realm here is the last of course.  Something like this has never been done before – likely because there was no NEED.  (I certainly don’t align with this endless war and harvest every so many thousands or millions of years just because it’s some damn “law”.  The Source in me says “UH NO” to that theory.  That’s just another groundhog day experience and only evil does that and as such is THEIR law – which is why I don’t align fully with some of the main “home/event” accounts I listen to.)

So – to quote the matrix:

Morpheus to Neo:  This has never been done before.

Neo:  That’s why it’s going to work.

Yes it is.  And it is possible they used looking glass/similar tech to project out a variety of scenarios before initiating the end game sequence.

I still feel we get pulled out (as I had that experience a couple of years ago and actually felt that process) – right before the gate that held us in gets blown and this realm goes POOF – like a thief in the night.

HOW we get out – via the help of all of the ships around us….who then zap out via portal(s).  I don’t know…..

So many synchs tonight.  We watched Star Wars – The Last Jedi (hint:  it ain’t the last Jedi so the title is misleading as we are ALL Jedi’s)….2nd time this week.  Watching it, I pulled up a crossword book, opened up to a random page, picked a random clue – guess what it said?  “Princess from Star Wars”.  Then watching Blue Koolaid tonight – he shows the image of Yoda.

As I watched the movie, I kept getting up and walking around in some angst. I kept mumbling to myself “I should be out there kicking some ass too like Rey.  I shouldn’t be here in this house just watching it play out – playing the role of keyboard warrior now and then.”  It bothered me – until my mate said “we’re ALL part of the plan.”

Humbling reflective moment #17,633.  (although I still align with doing what Rey does – I’ve been playing around with my walking stick lately – and while I am still here I may learn some Staff work – as it feels very natural to me)

Our Jedi powers were stunted by the dark (evil) and it is Love that is freeing us.  And as Luke says – it is our Feelings within our Heart that hold our Jedi powers.

The Jedi in Me honors and sees the Jedi in You.

Love,

Victoria

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10/23/2020 Reflection and some unique finds

 

So after yesterday’s feeling of being in, to quote Anne of Green Gables, “the depths of despair”, today I feel a lift – after doing some more of that ancient purging.  My mind cleared, my heart peeked out from behind the darkness letting me know she was still there – and still knowing to Trust Myself.  I know what’s coming.  They can inject doubt here – I’m not buying it.  I KNOW WHAT IS COMING.  And NOTHING can stop this.

We spent the afternoon yesterday with a wonderful friend who used to live on our street.  She mentioned that she feels a divide taking place and something is coming.  She and her boyfriend will be leaving the state the week following the election and she said whatever she feels is coming she has continued to hope it happens while she’s still here in this state.

Interesting wow, huh?  She is very intuitive and open ~ a very Bright Light very much like my girl but I still found it really interesting that she just happened to bring this perception of hers up.

So the portal reference I spoke of in my last share (Project Veritas).  A few hours ago I saw the tweet below (LASCO image) and my first thought was “portal out”.  Just as I had that thought, a video that was playing had the narrator say “portal to the omega tunnel”.  Not only that, he said these words at the 17 minute mark.  My mate was also pulling up healing HZ music last night that had giant purple portal images.  Then Brother Rick shared a dream with me a few days ago where he was walking and jumping through portals and how things felt complete.

So the portals are present for us…..

Yeah.

Here are those two fun synchs/finds.

Love,

Victoria

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Here is the video.  It’s a really fun channel too, btw – this young man bought a ghost town and is living there full time, reviving it.

395K subscribers

“Saving Israel for last.”  THE END.

Here’s the latest CATS update.  Really aligning with this one (although I do appreciate a comment by a woman named Gina who speaks of the STO/STS – service to others/service to self – she speaks of the balance for when you are solely focused on STO you drain yourself.  The heart guides us to simply Serve FROM the Heart – ourselves and others.)

https://schrodingersothercat.blog/2020/10/23/the-symbol/#more-13925

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Quick update

 

My evening has been focused on going through every. single. post. on my patreon page – removing all 17th letter c u e related posts.  Why?

This:

Patreon Joins Other Platforms In Banning Q-Anon

I was notified this morning that unless I bring my page “up to community standards” (i.e. CENSOR myself), my page will be removed.  Several big accounts were already terminated by these twats – without notice.  So given I am nobody “special” in this c u e movement (and thus wouldn’t have a herd of people storming patreon demanding they let my content be nor do I have access to anyone w/in the plan to assist), have a very small following and cannot afford to lose what little amount I make on the page, I felt I had no other choice but to remove.

I am obviously in good company as, given the server is unbelievably slow atm and is lagging a lot, there seem to be tens of thousands of us creator’s doing the same tonight.

Going through all of the posts I made at that page the last few years – seeing the on-going theme of “awakening” and “it’s happening” and “the energies” and “kapow I am getting hit HARD” and “ascension” and whatever else you wish to put into the blank we have been filling in for yearSSS – it just made me reflect if this sharing of the truth has been worth it.  At this moment – I feel perhaps my time would have been much better utilized in just being a normie.  And while that world pushed me out years ago (thus I launched this site and my patreon account), perhaps I needed to push back harder to do the normal life here as this one hasn’t changed as I had thought and felt.  I have had so many feeeeeeels that haven’t manifested…..and I have read sooooo many similar feels and read so many similar words from others who keep thinking and saying and feeling “SOON” and yet here we are.  And after watching tonight’s debate, I reflect and wonder exactly what the truth is. And lordie lordie lordie knows I KNOW I look like an idiot by now to those “normies” in my life with whom I have been sharing my predictions (new tech, new $$ system, healing, etc.).  It’s coming.  Oh yes it’s coming.  No really, it is coming.

And I don’t cast judgment on them at all if they were to hold that feel.

I would too if I were them.

And yet of course there is the narrative that this whatever it is ending and birthing isn’t for us – the debates – the movie – all for the “normies” because the divide is happening and they will have their experience and we’re getting outta here.

At the moment here is what I have to say to THAT one:

I would rather focus on uniting with a group of others and create something new together.  Here.  Now.

We gonna do this or just keep at these ongoing narratives?

Love,

Victoria

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10/20/2020 Reflection and Finds

 

I purged a lot today – old stuff.  My feel is old trauma from the hijack are coming up.  I had the desire to play Edelweiss on the piano and as I played and heard the line “bless my homeland forever” I broke down in tears and pulled up ancient emotions.  I was also feeling Lemuria around me today – felt very familiar and close.

I also had the thought flow come to me that as I purge now, I remember more of Who I Really Am.

On another insight from today: I felt our original trauma’s were “stuck” inside the dna code of their reptilian brain stem.  How this was passed down throughout each life time, I am not sure – however if there is any truth to it, it was done in a technically controlled manner (certainly not organic/natural) to ensure my trauma stayed with me, yours with you, etc.

Sick sick sick stuff.

I also had that inner energy/knowing – memories you can call it – that I am used to creating realms.  Traveling wherever I want.  Adventures – some planned, some at whim.  New.  Groundhog day is the spell I was under – we were under.  We know that is FALSE.  I mean imagine – you being this amazing spark of Source would intend: “ok i want an experience where i have to pay to live and clean up filth constantly and prepare meals and spending the majority of my time doing things I disdain (or at the least don’t enjoy)”….

NEVER.

Lastly, after I released some tears, I had this thought as I was cleaning off the washing machine’s agitator with some vinegar (removing dirt/grime build up – something I’ve done countless times):  Grime and dirt and filth is theirs.  It isn’t natural to me.  That’s probably why sometimes I have felt critical of myself when I will take extra time to really keep things clean.  I have always had a sense of disgust over filth and feel energetically repelled whenever I’ve been around others who don’t bathe regularly or whose homes are filthy.  I feel much better when my surroundings and self are clean.  Period.  And that is just part of Who I Am.

Same for smells.  I also thought of mold and mildew – not my monkey.  Not my creation.  That is theirs and they can have it and keep it.

So – overall some movement today in the energetics – for me after a very rough time the past few days.  Well ok this entire experience has been rough with enough beauty/fun manifesting to keep me asleep to their agenda – but I have had the concern my mind is breaking in recent days.  Just a tired brain trying to deal with old energies coming up and out being guided by my Higher Self who wants to have a clean merge/emit.

Another dry, sunny warm day that allowed for another bike ride.  We continue to intend AND create sunny warm days.

Here are some finds….Love to you all.  Victoria

 

ok this first one just popped up on my twitter feed.  portal.  incoming from off-world.  disclosure, anyone?  (and does it fly?)  regardless if this is on or off world intel, I WANT ONE!

 

ok this one is creepy weird – “evergreen news and commentary”….evergreen?  and “launching soon”….biden will be gone – 2 weeks to go – who else would they throw in but a clinton…eyes open (and i’m sure there are some patriot anon hackers on this one):

https://clinton-harris2020.com/

 

i heard we are (allegedly) in the debris trail of haley’s comet now…cover-story for these “end times” rocks?

this one is a “HOLY SHEOT” capture:

interesting William Moon photo of a frog (KEK):

 

yes!

ok, that’s it – we’re outta here….(seriously this is my favorite holiday special ever):  (here’s a link to watch it – not the best quality)

BREAKING: Giuliani Gives Hunter Biden’s Hard Drive to Delaware State Police Over Photos of Underage Girls, Inappropriate Texts

oh dear…..well just to give a heads up to anyone in the states – there is talk now of others rioting if Trump refuses to concede….(insurrection act will be used if necessary)….

 

Oh Boy: Rudy Giuliani Reads Text Message from Hunter Biden to Joe Biden talking about FaceTiming 14-Year-Old Girl Naked While Smoking Crack (VIDEO)

Project Veritas Strikes Again: Google Ad Manager Caught on Camera Admitting They Can Offer FREE Advertising Credits to Democrats, Censor Republicans

Trump Admin Announces First Govt Center for Countering Human Trafficking – Reporters Ask ZERO Questions (VIDEO)

DOJ to File Landmark Antitrust Case Against Google for Abusing Its Online Dominance and Stifling Viewpoints

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10/19/2020 Reflection and Finds

 

I feel I am being squeezed – all that isn’t Source Me – GET IT OUT.  On a walk alone today, I just observed the mental dialogue playing out in my frazzled, pained mind.  With each and every thought of judgment about others and about myself (which not surprisingly there are far more judgments about myself), I said a mantra:  I bless this thought with Love.  I bless myself with Love.  I will have to do that one a lot in order to break through to the heart and authentically feeeeeeeeeeel the truth of the words.

This feels like one of the final squeezes.  I feel movement – anything physical – to move this energy is something I need to do.  Wild dance time.

Crazy Dancing What are these people doing? ... GloZell ...

This morning, I awoke and lay in bed – feeling I still needed sleep but not quite at that moment – felt the need to just go within.  As I did, I was guided to connect with Source – but in a different way.  I felt a new term come to me:  Original Source – from which I originated.  Pre-hijack connection.  Original Source.  As I did, a smile came over my body.  I did some stuff w/that – mostly asking for healing.  Given the energies and emotions that came out of me today, I will say I got just that.  I will also remember to ask for assistance with that AND the ability to take in only what I am able – I felt myself going too intense today.

I am remembering.  I feel we all are.

For some shares – first of the cosmic/spiritual type:

I decided to check on the cats – see what they have to say.  Here’s a link to their latest along with a phrase or two I see/am in alignment with.

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  • “We are literally in the homestretch of The Event. We can’t comment any more than that.
  • And it’s Monday. Expect things to get even weirder.”

It feels weirder than sheot for sure.  Here’s one from Sophia Love talking about the med bed availability that I am feeling in alignment with as well.

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“As the med beds have now become part of the broader discussion here, success is assured. It is seen however that they will more than likely not be delivered until after the event, or after some event. I am not clear on exactly what event, only that it will push our unity consciousness over the top and then they will arrive, be put to use, and help our race as they have always intended. They assured me that they are ready and also that they expect this to occur before the end of 2020. I pushed a bit for this confirmation, yet it was repeated to me.”

I decided to do a gematria on the “password” 2 of the cats received during a dream they each had (same dream):  Bristol Peril.

Enter The Dragon

Impeachment Hoax

Singularity

I am getting a feeeeeel as I do these gematria’s over time:  The duality playing out – each “side” fighting to have THEIR ending be THE ending.  I see the phrases showing up in the gematria’s each time I plug in a term/phrase.

We know what “wins” – what survives and sustains:  Truth.  Love.  Freedom. And I feeeeeeeeeeeel the energies of truth/love/freedom are smooth and consistent – unwaivering – unstoppable – while the fear energies (rage, panic, etc.) are jagged and frantic and unpredictable (and as such can seem to be “winning” some days and moments – but those energies of Truth are always there – always – found within in that subtle but unwaivering energy).  Yeah, so being in the Heart – is key now for our/my own sanity.

TRUTH energies are squeezing every one of us to release ANYTHING that isn’t Authentic Us.  Authentic Original Source.

DEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP breath.  Smell the symphony of nature.

We got this.

Here are some other finds from the 3d world…

Love,

Victoria

BREAKING NEWS: Here’s Why the Mayor of Moscow’s Wife Paid Hunter Biden $3.5 Million… And Likely More!

The divide needs some healing – some full on Truth reveal – like a Trump card – a John Kennedy reveal.  I go from feeling anger over this to just sadness….I do know though that not all who are exhibiting this behavior are human so there’s that…..it isn’t always pain lashing out needing healing – sometimes it is pure evil.

Biden Supporter Arrested For Firing Shotgun at 2 Trump Supporters Who Honked at Him While Driving by His Property

This is what “the invisible enemy” does:

UPDATE: Proof That Michigan Governor Whitmer Deliberately Displayed ‘Kill Trump’ Symbolism in Background During Sunday Interview

 

He’ll still rock it:

Debate Commission Changes Rules Again, Will Cut Mics for Two Minute Responses by Trump and Biden

 

I saw this video – it’s very telling:

O’Keefe Strikes Again! Google Program Manager Confirms Election Interference in Favor of Joe Biden (VIDEO)

John Roberts Sides with Liberal Justices – Allows Pennsylvania to Count Non-Postmarked Ballots Three Days After Election Day

MUST READ: Today’s FBI Announcement on Russia Hacking Proves the FBI Is Trying to Influence the 2020 Election — The Charges Follow Long History of FBI Deceit

Trump Campaign Manager Fires Off Letter to Debate Commission After they Change Third Debate Topics to Rescue Joe Biden and Ignore President Trump’s Historic Foreign Policy Successes

 

Our ballot boxes here are outside – instead of being inside as they always were in the location we use.  We are videoing and photographing and are part of a group that provides links to ensure your ballot was collected and correctly counted…

Up to 100 Ballots Damaged When Someone Started a Fire Inside Official Drop Box in Los Angeles County (VIDEO)

No idea why – maybe they want to include Google in that after today’s PV drop?

Gloves are off…

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Reflections….Finds….

 

Ok this one went out – accidentally – wrong title – and unfinished.  Mama brain.  Ascension brain.  Menopausal brain.  3D brain.  etc. etc…….

I had a sudden, strange experience about 30 minutes after I showered:  I could suddenly smell things in an intense manner.  Normally I have sinuses that don’t allow me to smell things normally (deviated septum).  And who knows what else is behind this issue.  Grief.  Trauma.  etc.  Anyway, its essentially been life long and I am used to it.  Today though suddenly what I could smell was so powerful – it was like smelling in a new way.  I thought perhaps it was just me but my child had the same experience.  It was weird and I wasn’t sure I liked it – it was as though I was pulled out and something else inserted.  Perhaps one of those “I am here then I’m not now I am returned again.”

The merge.  The purge.  I engaged in both today.

I have read and heard from several who are also talking about this neck issue I began working with about 2-3 weeks ago.  I’m pretty sure I mentioned it here.  I began feeling the need to “unplug” that piece of me – that reptilian brain stem.  As I have mentioned, for over 20 years, when I have been in the presence of a counselor/healer I have consistently said whatever it causing trauma-like symptoms comes from the back of my neck.  And regardless of the methods I have tried:  EMDR, RET, Holographic Repatterning, Tapping, Hypnosis, cognitive behavioral, exposure therapy – nothing has removed that core trauma/feeling of being trapped nor have these methods removed that tension in the brain stem.  Now that I see people are now talking about having issues with their neck, I am seeing something collective is happening.  There are a variety of opinions – my feel is this has to do with that brainstem.  Getting unplugged.  Getting that coding removed (as I type those words that area of my neck is buzzing). Yellow Rose mentioned once we’re out, that part of us doesn’t go with us.

I do THIS gesture upon reading, feeling and knowing those words:

I am “seeing” – sensing- knowing – more and more what is not natural about this experience.  I had moments today where I could feel the matrix dying – whatever it is that created this realm/experience.  I am also seeing that when I try to figure things out mentally – my brain does not provide me any answers.  Going within takes on a new purpose now – for me.

Here are some finds:

 

LOVE this:

 

we were talking about this last night – how the elite and rich haven’t been impacted by these lockdowns the way the poor and middle class have.  their money can buy them all they need – private flights, food delivery galore, likely even the best defense and protection if they violated a mask order or social gathering (they can fly in the entire family to some exotic island).  the rest have lost income.  businesses.  children have had activities cancelled.  the rise in stress and anxiety have been met by counseling clinics and healing clinics who have had to close down thus services – those much needed services – just aren’t there for all who need – certainly not in the manner we are accustomed.  enough of this b.s.  regardless of what people think about the mask crap and the forced separation and the “doing it for the common good” – most everyone i speak to is DONE with this agenda.  DONE with the trauma of this year and want healing and lives returned.

 

Simple words – but I’ve been feeeeeeeeling “early christmas” for a few weeks now.

 

And interesting – this is said to have come from a Team Trump text/message:

 

 

Much more UGH than I thought….

 

Developing: Ukrainian Lawmaker Says Government Has Seized Second Laptop Belonging to Hunter Biden’s Business Contacts

Facebook’s Lead Executive on Election Policy Is Former Joe Biden Advisor on Ukraine — This Helps Explain Their Censorship of Hunter’s Emails …Update: Makanju Pictured with Biden and Ciaramella!

Bags Full Of Stolen Ballots Found In Seattle Suburb

 

“The Gateway Pundit could not independently verify the claims, as that would be voter fraud. We have reached out to the Oregon State Elections Office for more information and will update this story if a response is provided.

Obviously, if someone can in fact cancel out ballots that have already been sent in, the potential for voter fraud with the vulnerability 4chan users may have exposed is jaw-droppingly massive. 

We will be continuing to provide updates as the story unfolds.”

4Chan Users Claim to Have Found Way to Easily Change People’s Voter Registration and Cancel Ballots Online in Oregon and Washington

I gotta tell ya – this would not surprise me.  I can see the truth in this:

 

here’s the Q drop:

Q !!Hs1Jq13jV6 ID: 0a3163 No.11130733 📁
How do you inform your target(s) [‘business partners’] what you have?
Why would H. Biden have such material on his laptop?
How was the content *originally* received?
Email?
Why would H. Biden risk turning over such material to a computer repair shop? [contents unrestricted?]
On purpose [years of being treated poorly by ‘Pop’] or simple negligence?
If such information existed on laptop why wouldn’t contents be claimed?
Several attempts made to contact to claim?
Messages left?
Why wouldn’t H. Biden want to reclaim *knowing* the contents on the drive could bury *Pops* & family.
A troubled life?
A troubled family?
Looks can be deceiving.
Q

 

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Last night’s dream

 

I forgot to share this.

I was in a new place – new scene – which was not familiar to me.  There were homes scattered across an otherwise beautiful landscape.  It felt very rural – farmland type landscape.  There was a bunch of people in water.  The water kept rising and most kept wading out into the deeper water – willingly.  I felt some wanted me to go with them – and I had the brief desire to help them – but I knew they really weren’t “seeing” me.  I also knew this was NOT a journey for me.  So I said my “nope not my monkey” and walked out of the water – headed towards this beautiful sunset off in the distance. Reds.  Oranges.  Purples.  The sky was brilliant where I was headed and the light of the sun felt like it was exactly where I wanted to go.

The experience ended.

I’m tired, boss.  Can we just go Home now?  (I tried watching The Trump Card documentary – I couldn’t get into it.  I appreciate the work shown – but it simply doesn’t feel like my experience or anything in which I align.)

Love,

Victoria

 

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10/16/20 Reflection & Finds

 

I am laughing as I write this:  My ability to add and subtract in my checkbook is just not happening.  I used to have an accountant brain.  I loved numbers.  I actually enjoyed balancing my checkbook.  I would curl up on the couch with a cup of tea, calculator, checkbook and statement and get busy.  Today?  I struggle to use the calculator – hands are floppy weird some days which ends up with me pressing buttons I didn’t intend.  And then there are the moments when I rely on my brain power alone to add and subtract.

Tonight I had to order some shoes for my girl.  Her feet have grown rapidly over the summer and we realized what she has doesn’t fit – other than her sandals and she can’t wear those during the colder weather.  The challenge I had placing the order then figuring out the numbers in my checkbook left me scattered.

3D matrix doings becoming even more challenging.  This frigging better have either a shift or some much needed healing tech.  My brain functioning with such tedious tasks is no longer symbiotic.  Somewhere in the cosmos I am composing amazing music and having fantastic adventures.  That’s what I tell myself when I find myself really struggling with certain cognitive tasks.

I noticed today when I had a couple of “me and only me” moments –  outside – when I had nothing but silence.  It was like a breath of new life flowed into me and I could think straight.  So part of it is that – needing many more of those moments where I only have one thing in which to focus on.  I could write a comical piece on tonight’s adventure in shoe ordering. My child was next to me on the bed with nothing but a tape measurer at her disposal – and an active mind and tons of energy.  I kept having to ask her to hush so I could F O C U S.

When I begin to lament on the possibility these brain issues are all due to the mama brain and aging brain issues – I think to others with whom I speak having the same challenges who are either not parents or if they are they are 20 plus years younger than I am and are perplexed at how they are so absolutely scattered these days – unable to be anywhere except in the full moment – forgetting what they ate for lunch that day or what they just said 10 minutes ago.

I tried to do more today but still had the feeling to just SIT and LET GO. However, waiting isn’t aligning so I’ve made a couple of new steps to do NEW – here –  now.  I will see how that plays out.

I want to share a very serene moment I had this morning.  Yesterday as I (think) I shared her last night was a challenging day for a few reasons.  I went to bed earlier than usual and slept hard for about 7 hours straight.  I woke up early morning, heated up my warming buddies and as I returned to sleep, I tuned in and worked with my energy and inner dialogue.  At the moment I am drawing a blank on what I said to assist myself – but I do remember the feeling was wonderful.  I was able to lift myself up and out of the murk/energy of trauma.  I felt, well, ME – the ME I know I am and the ME I am becoming.  As I shared with one of you recently, it has been my feeeeeel lately that the energy of trauma was designed to “stick” – using that reptilian brain code of theirs – which is why it is so challenging to totally and I mean TOTALLY heal from trauma.  I don’t know of anyone who has had a traumatic experience and the energy around it completely removed – as in no more issues with it – no more triggers – nothing.  It’s like there are layers of energy – depending upon the trauma.  And that, IMHO, ain’t part of our Original Design/experience.

Donations have dropped off quite a bit in the last several months – which I understand.  This “lockdown” has impacted us all – some far more than others – especially economically.  I still ask though if any of you can afford a few dollars, please consider donating for the work I do.  All go to living expenses.  (although I’d love to have extra for that 2 week beach vacation I continue to envision – not that anything is open in our area – at least not without having to wear a mask and that ain’t happening)

So…..for now, I leave you with some finds of interest.

Love to you all ~

Victoria

So….first of all I forgot I wanted to share this one.  The other night my girl and I watched Contact.  I mentioned here a few others were also drawn this week to do the same.  There is one image that literally flashes on the screen – so quickly you essentially miss it.  It occurs once Ellie is off on her travels in the craft and we see the image below flash right before she gets drawn back into another wormhole.  So we paused it (took several times to do that) and I took a photo.  Very interesting.  It’s a series of panels – stacked upon one another.  It is perhaps a disclosure of the construct here.  Anyway, sharing it as well as offering up an interesting comparison someone captured on one of the NASA cams this week:

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NASA CAM CAPTURE:

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Things to make ya go hmmm….

And here’s another thing to make ya reflect – a sun/sky capture I was suddenly guided to take as I enjoyed another beautiful day outside.  It is possible this is some sort of a lens smudge – but that object above the sun is very circular…..

 

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breaking it down:

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movie humor:

more movie humor:

Hunter and Joe Biden Scandal Takes a Dark Turn — FBI’s Top Lawyer on Child Porn Involved in Case

CONFIRMED: FBI Chief Chris Wray Hid Information from the Public, Congress and Executive Branch that Absolved President Trump During Impeachment (VIDEO)

REPORT: Hunter Biden’s former Business Partner Bevan Cooney Has Flipped – Is Working with Reporters Peter Schweizer and Matthew Tyrmand

This is a first:

WATCH: President Trump Tells Crowd He 100% Agrees With ‘Lock Her Up Chant’

BREAKING: RNC Files FEC Complaint Against Big Tech Oligarchs for Censorship of the Hunter Biden Emails Reports

 

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Some finds

 

an energetically challenging day.  today is a crawling day.  dealing with trauma and asserting boundaries.  honestly this girl is done with being an experience that allows for trauma and boundaries to be violated.  my desire atm is simple:  freedom, peace and to be left be.  i see evil doesn’t listen.  doesn’t respect.  and won’t change.  and i see it clearly now.

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for several hours, many of us on twitter weren’t able to comment or share/retweet….interesting this comes on the day that Senator’s Ted Cruz and Lindsay Graham (Senate Judiciary Committee) subpoenaed J Dorsey.

 

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Today’s Reflection ~ new level of bored. Where am I exactly?

 

I just came inside after spending time enjoying the warm sun.  As I began to walk through the door I paused and told my mate what I had planned for dinner.  He gave me the thumbs up and I said “I don’t know who will be making it but that’s my idea.”  We both laughed.  Making meals has become further challenging.  E V E R Y T H I N G literally has become a challenge.

One of the outside activities we did today was biking.  My girl and I rode up to one of our favorite places.  I stopped to take pictures of the Fall foliage.  I made an attempt to appreciate the colors.  They were beautiful – reaching a peak.  But I’ve seen it all before.

Boredom has taken on a new intensity.  I feel called to give it a new name.  Or phrase.  Something like mind-numbing activity on repeat or “if i have to see that scene again i am going to turn into that little guy from The Incredibles”…..

Last night was intense.  I was very sleepy around 7:30pm so I rested for an hour or so then was pretty awake until well after midnight.  My mate and I were still awake at 2am – trying to fall asleep – when suddenly we began to vibrate inside at that cellular level.  He felt it first and commented and just as I said “nope, not feeling it”, I rolled over on my side and began to feel the surge.  I suddenly felt 16 and had the desire to go for a 2 mile run.  As it was dark, cold and I have the knees of a, well, someone of “my age”, that wasn’t an option, so I got up, walked around the house and breathed through the experience.

No idea what time I actually fell asleep.  I just know I woke up around 4:30am and slept in fits after that.  I’m conserving my CBD oil until I feel comfortable enough spending the money for a new bottle.

I am also having those “where am I?” experiences – little piece of me here with another piece of me elsewhere.  Or the rest of me.  Whatever that is ain’t exactly clear.  I feel I am just used to the experience – something that has been gradually happening and is now pretty much continuous.

Today as I swept off the front porch, I thought how many times I’ve done that.  Yeah, you get the picture.  I know it is collective now – we are bored. We are done.  We are ready for New.  And we ARE on that verge for unlike having these experiences in the past few years, which were fleeting, this energy is a constant.  For those in this house that is the experience and for some of you I speak with.

I also noticed my girl and I aren’t the only ones having the need to watch Contact.  Another friend from Home expressed the same.  Today my girl, out of the blue, said “Mom, I think Contact will be the last movie we watch.”

We are watching it tonight.  lol

Love to you all ~

Victoria “I’m ok to go” Sistar

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