Category: Daily Notes

I’ve spoken with several of you wonderful Souls today and the feelings we are experiencing are indeed collective.  The angst.  The frustration.  The inner that is screaming for Freedom now.  The need for transparency.  The “I AM DONE” with deception.  And the feeling of not knowing what to do as well as feeling like a big ‘ole thumb is telling us to stay put.

Ditto on it all.

Last night I stayed outside until about 1:30am.  It was dry and partly cloudy. I thought of people in my life from years and decades ago.  I cried as I had one-way comms w/them.  (or were they really one-way?  hmmm)  I just cried and cried and cried away the angst and jitters.  It was then that I felt that energy – that massive energy quietly guiding me to STAY PUT/STAY STILL.

I gotta say – I am feeling a new type of surrender.  I’ve done quite enough of “letting it all go to let it flow” but this time I feel the need to keep my eyes open.  I feel it is the old original trauma’s of whatever happened – whatever we experienced to get us into this prison created by the “invisible enemy” – so trusting ANYTHING ANYBODY ANY MESSAGE etc. etc. 100% w/o question is not in my “game plan”.  I am, however, not pushing back against this ongoing inner experience to stay put.

The image I have had for the last couple of weeks is the scene below from Contact – which is a movie I have wanted to watch again.  Interestingly enough my girl brought it to me last night and said “mama I’ve been wanting to watch this movie”.  And speaking with Sister D today – she said she watched it recently – felt guided to.  I feel I need to “get out of the 3D seat” and trust.  Float.  I know the more I CLING to anything the more distressed I feel.  And that ain’t no fun.

That being said – I still seek reassurance.  Answers.  Support.  Far too often, as I have said here and elsewhere, we are told to just “trust the plan” – whatever that plan is.  The Q team.  Ascension.  Home.  East/West. Awakening.

Enough of that nonsense – this “don’t ask just trust”.  My inner Truth says LET NO ONE DRIVE ME.  Ask questions.  And if you see others asking honest questions, if you can answer, then respond.  If not – be kind.  Don’t be one of those types who gaslight by dismissing, discounting with that ego dick-hat. The awakening is a process and far too many think they have it all figured out and when questioned, the inner a-hole comes out.  I feeeel I won’t know EVERYTHING while I am still here.  There is still deception playing out – on both sides of this insane war (reflection on that at the end).  For me to KNOW something fully, and I mean F U L L Y, at times I have to SEE with the human eyes.  Perhaps that’s not the way it is on the outside – again – I don’t know.  But that’s how things operate inside here and we are still inside this pit.

Doing the best we can.

So I will do my best to be supportive of every one of you regardless of your narrative.  Like that line from the U2 song “One” – we’re One but we’re not the same.  We’ve got to carry each other….carry each other….

So – brief insight on this war:  My mate said it feels like this see-saw.  Up and down.  I agreed and said to think of it like a movie.  What happens near the end?  Does the scene intensify until BAM it’s over?  Yeah.  And yes I absolutely have noooooo energy w/in me supporting the concept that we are watching a movie.  Q says this isn’t a game – but it is a movie.  Perhaps that is as Rose has said – this is an illusion in here and that bus you see, while it is an illusion, can still hurt you when inside this matrix.

Anyway…….what gives me reassurance w/this “stay put” is the experience we had moving into this house almost 9 years ago.  Everything in me for many years (that just grew with time) KNEW we had to be on this street. When the “time” arrived, we were quietly but forcefully guided to this house through a series of events (yeah that weren’t pleasant) – much like the feeling and experience I am having now.  In fact I can honestly say the energy THEN matches exactly to the energy I am feeling now.  So…..That guidance served me well then – and I feeeeeeeel it is serving me well now.

Love,

Victoria

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*Let me clarify – when I say “this will be it” I was referring to tonight – not for good.  I apologize for not clarifying that and thank those of you who have written me.

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This will be it – unless I feel some inspiration or receive some insight.  I am at a new level of fatigue – body struggling on down to the ability to talk.

So I read where allegedly President Trump gave some dates  of the Storm – from election day to inauguration day.  That’s when things go b.sheot crazy as indictments will be opened/revealed.

WTF?

Anyone else absolutely not only not consenting to that agenda/calendar but also not seeing it?  Another 3 weeks of this already rabid crap?  Then things go really full on insane?

Who is in charge of this movie?  When do those of us who absolutely don’t want this experience and don’t align with it get some damn freedom to NOT BE HERE IN THIS?  You know – Home.  The Event.  Sky Event.  East.  West.

And the simple concept of being in charge of ones own experience – inside AND out.

The goal post keeps getting moved – dangling the carrot continues.

Days like today I don’t see the purpose and even if explained to me, I am not aligning.  Not my experience.  Not for me.

Much bigger happening.  BRING IT already.  My faith has been wavering – not in my lack of ability to embrace what I desire – but the idea that WE are supposed to be having this grand moment that many of us have not just felt but seen.

WHEN.  

WHEN WHEN WHEN.

Patience is not in my realm of comprehension today.

Love,

Victoria

I am listening again to Lisa’s latest (and last) DTC and WOW….are the synchs popping up.

1. She speaks of The White Dragon – the White Dragon is now here.  Tonight my mate was going through some old shirts.  As I mentioned last night, I have been wanting a big comfy sleep shirt and was not able to order one last night for some “reason”.  ha  So tonight he was showing me some of his I could wear and he pulls out one from well over 10 years ago:  The White Dragon.  It’s a linen shirt given to him from a previous employer who, at the time, told him “this is the White Dragon.”
2. The number 3.  33.  She speaks of the “negative 33”.  It’s been 33 years since the Harmonic Convergence (Aug. 16/17, 1987).  I woke up this morning thinking again of her team member’s collage he created in 2014 (I think that was the year).  I’ve shared it here and mentioned it a few times in recent months.  It had 33 panels.  The last 3 were the most interesting to me and seem to be approximately 3 months apart in their relevance.  The panel of the person sitting in front ot the computer, researching – this is likely showing people at home due to the “virus”.  Then there is the panel of the cities burning – which began about 3 months after the lockdown (here in the states).  The final panel – the person leaving via a portal.  If the 3 is significant or indicative of “timing”, we are in that period now for that last panel.  As Lisa says too – if the final pull began on October 3 and takes up to 4 weeks as Home shared back in February, then that 4 weeks is up October 31st.  And again, how many of us have not been able to energtically see or feel the U.S. election?  Just putting this out there.
3. Continuing w/the number 3, I decided to plug in Harmonic Convergence into the gematrix calc.  Interestingly enough, according to Simple Gematria, it adds up to a 3.  Here is what phrases align:

WILLIAM MOON (what IS it about this name and this person?  WHO is he?  he drops codes and has special access to the WH grounds but as far as his identity, I don’t know.  Given his seemingly nomadic lifestyle, he may be someone from Home)

TRIPLE QUANTUM DOTS  (another 3 reference)

THERE IS NO SPOON (i’ve been saying very similar lately – really drawn since the start of october to saying “this is not real this is just an illusion this is a dream”)

The number “3” has always been a part of this household.  From the 3-6-9 to our birth numbers to our carefully selected last name – all versions/alignments with 3.

Personal “stuff” from today – music continues to speak to me.  I’m seeing myself playing music in front of people.  I’m waking up hearing the Van Halen song “How Do I Know When It’s Love” – the last 2 mornings.  I turned on the radio today and there’s another Van Halen song.

We are all connected now.  The “distance” between Home and here is just really non-existent.  The merging is really speeding up now.  I wanted to say – that it has been such a deeply humbling experience being a part of this process – getting to know and connect with so many of you – my family. We’re not “supposed” to need validation – but this girl has had a lot of healing come about from connecting with all of you who align with the concepts of Home.  And for that – thank you.

So…..that’s what I have tonight.

Love to you all ~

Victoria

Every member in this house had attack dreams last night.  My mate had one he said was so horrifying he refuses to share it.  My dream had some evil little parasite disguised as someone in my life – driving me where I did not want to go.  First I used my words – when those didn’t work I thought “ok time to use physical force” and just as I began doing that, I was pulled out of the dream.  Kicked out actually.

I woke up – angry – very angry – pounding my pillow.  Usually I would say “ok – just let it go”.  But not this time.  This time around I was determined to return to that matrix scene and kick the living sheot out of that entity.  So I focused but simply was not able – no – I was not allowed – to return to that space and take care of business.

Today the energy is so heavy.  Body moved slowly and there was some aches.  I feel overwhelmed – unable to know if I will want to do x y or z later today.  I can go about 30-60 minutes into the “future”.  So making plans or promises just aren’t normal for me now – or anyone I know for that matter.  This is collective now.  Earlier in the day my sweet girl was asking me about making cupcakes for a possible social gathering.  Today – I just couldn’t take that in.  With schooling and household chores, my brain said “NO” and I put my body down on the ground – right where I was – put my hands over my head and cried.  Why the sensitivities increased to where they are, I don’t know.  The only conclusion that feels “ok” with me is “ok if we are gonna emit, and to make that as easy as possible I have to have such total disdain for this realm, then so be it.” For if this is the new “norm”, I don’t know how I will function in the foreseeable future.

Whatever THAT is.  Seeing the “future” – is something I simply cannot do now.

The cures for disease are in my space today.  Allegedly this anti-viral Trump took is derived in part by mice.  Last night his daughter Ivanka was encouraging everyone to get their flu shots and if they had questions to go to the CDC site.

What?

Is this movie the awakening or the zombie apocalypse?

Some days I do see the two narratives.  The question is – which one has the final ending?

Yug.  Enough.  Movies by their nature are deceptive so aligning w/what is being shown to us – all of these “bad” and “good” “actors” – I just am not into.  Yes I post and yes it has some excitement but when I am absolutely honest with myself – which usually arrives after I’ve done some good purging and I find that Solid Me again – I know I am done with the nonsensical crap we see.  The drama. Not only do I long for Freedom and Home, I want an experience where there is no deception – for there is no need for it.

Love,

Victoria

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Well I certainly had a lot more energy yesterday.  Today I am back to feeling drained of everything – including motivation.  I am fully in the moment now – when I look to the future of something I “plan” to do – I know I cannot schedule things for it really now depends on how I am doing/feeling that day and in that moment.  Likely explains my desire to be finished with calendars and clocks and I emphasis FINISHED.

Speaking with others in my neighborhood and all are saying the same:  anxiety elevated.  Foggy brain – totally in the moment – unable to recall what was done or said in previous hours or even minutes.

I tuned in to the election – and again – I just don’t feel it.  Today I felt there is no energy to support it – certainly not the way we have done “elections” in the past here.  I tuned in to 2016 – completely different energetic space.  It is all so clear to many now that we are watching a movie – combining comedy and outrageous behavior along with off-the-chart drama (that is quite comical in certain scenes).

I was also drawn to re-read The Last President – the ending.  The speak of the house is calling for the President to relieve himself of his duties for the survival of the republic.  However, the capitol dome is blown up.  There is truth in that book indeed.  That “explosion” is a metaphor for things that are ending and perhaps even the solar flash.

People are leaving.  Eddie Van Halen left us today as did Johnny Nash (singer of “I can see clearly now” – a favorite).  What’s interesting along that thought is the dream I had last night.  I was surrounded by guitarists – including Stevie Ray Vaughan – who I noticed was singing one of the songs I composed over 20 years ago.  An arranger stepped in and added some guitar riffs and a rhythm guitar and I was blown away how awesome the song suddenly sounded.  As I was leaving the experience, some young guy walked by me off to the right – long, brown feathered hair that he tossed back.

Amazing.

I feel I have been tuning in to what I want to do next.  Prepping myself.  I know music is at the top of the list.  That world would not have had room for someone like myself or anyone who would not be willing to sell out no matter how big or small.

How are all of you feeling/doing and what are you experiencing?

Love,

Victoria

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