Category: Daily Notes

This one may be rather rambling.  I was clear 8 hours ago – but didn’t have the chance to sit down and write it all up until now – and now, well, it doesn’t feel as clear to me.  A day with a child will do that to the mind.  lol

I was reflecting on something I had seen take place in a twitter conversation – someone quite focused on making sure others had their “facts straight” according to this persons own perception.  I thought on this concept – how we each have our own reflection – our own perception of this reality and our experience in it.

Each of our perceptions contains truth – and falsehoods – falsehoods as we have had pretty much everything taken and hidden from us.  While the truth is there to be found – as we know it takes a lot of dedication and time to explore the truth and feeeel into it.  And even at that – it won’t be until the programs of control end will we see.

So I wondered today:  how can we have moments where our perceptions are so vastly different?

I have one theory.

There are a lot of us inside this realm.  It is my feel none of us are from here.  As I share here at this site, I align with the theory that this is a simulation of original experiences.  And as such, we don’t all come from the same place – but we’re still all “trapped” in here together.

So – I feel a large part of the problem I was seeing playing out on twitter is that given we’re not all from here – we each have our own “memory” (sense) of our Original Homes and therefore, what happens after the experience here ends, we will each be going to our own experience – and that experience will look different.

I was thinking of Rose’s latest.  I haven’t commented about that yet but I have taken some time to tune in and go with how I felt.  Overall I aligned but there was one part in particular that simply did not and does not resonate with me:  this idea of an after-life judgment.

Who is doing the judging?

Judging is a power over move.  It is someone telling you what is right and what is not about you and your choices.  And why would we even have such an experience after living here in this prison where we are limited due to the controls placed into and upon us?

Perhaps it is the word that triggers me – perhaps what is referred to is a post-life reflection.  That – I can see/feel into.

But if it is the “religious” form of judging – that could be an experience some have chosen to have prior to the hijack.  Simply because it doesn’t align with me doesn’t indicate others would feel the same or want the same. Perhaps some feel they need the experience.

I also don’t align with the sense of division in the sense that some of that feels punitive to me.  Again, it could be my own triggers.  All I have to go by is how I feel for now.  I look at this “ending” pretty simply:  I want the consciousness/creation of evil removed from ALL of creation.  I want to see every one of us purely Free to Choose our own experience without impingement.  There are many who are still more or less fully plugged in and simply because they have chosen not to (or not been able) to “wake up” – they still deserve that chance.  I don’t align with this feeling of “you must choose and you must choose NOW or else you will go west and stay put for the rest of your experience”.  I align with the idea that even if they go to this space some call “west” – they still get the chance to SEE everything – at their own pace – and then when ready, they can choose to stay in that experience or “go Home” to whatever original experience they had prior to the hijack.

That is what Love does.  Source.

And hey – isn’t it possible each of us will need a little reprieve/rest after what we have been through here – no matter where we are in the awakening?

So I do as I always do – take what feeeeels like a connection and toss what doesn’t – while at the same time realizing it is also possible what I have “tossed” may one day become a Truth for me.

So……I also wanted to share current physical experiences:  I have had recent days of being absolutely full on ravenously hungry.  And I have had moments where I go sit down to eat when I am not feeling particular hungry but discover I can eat – and eat – and eat without getting “full”.  Am I feeling more and more the idea that this body is just a biological projection of my REAL body – and as such – I can have such experiences.  I also felt light/dreamy/rather blissful today.  I spent yesterday and last night dancing too.  I felt young – someplace within I felt that vitality of when I was 20 something.  Ok – 22.  lol

So I feel this shifting back and forth going on – merging back and forth – one day feels new and then the next more “normal” – even though NOTHING is normal now.

And that is fine with me as I never did normal.

I wanted to share one last little tidbit that clicked with me after having a conversation with Sister D.  We were talking about trauma and the reptilian brain.  She mentioned the scene from the (first) Matrix when Neo pulls out that plug in the back of his neck – right where that reptilian brain stem is. One that thing is removed, all other connections are released and he is freed from the matrix.

Powerful.

Love,

Victoria

Thunderstorms are rare here – certainly on the west side of the state.  They began about 4 hours ago.  I have lived here my entire life and I have NEVER seen back to back storms – especially on the west side.  Thunderstorm cells forming on the west side and staying on the west side are just unheard of.

And back to back?

We have also seen mostly horizontal lightening.  A lot of rain.

But no wind – also unheard of.

Is the spiritual war over oregon now clearing out all of the demonic parasites who have wrecked havoc here all year?

God of All I hope so!

Interesting this is taking place on the 17th too…

We also had a very bizarre symptom in this house when this all began:  every member of the family had to pee a lot – off and on for an hour.

So….this is a quick one as another storm is headed north although these looks to be more west of it so these may bypass us.  Just wanted to share something of a “biblical” nature is happening here in Oregon and it has cleared the air enough for us to open up the windows and breathe in fresh air, oxygen and ozone.

What a movie!

Love,

Victoria

So….today began with dense fog and smoke.

Then, around mid afternoon, as I ventured outside to do a quick water, I realized I couldn’t look at the sun (first time in a week). It was too bright. And not only that, the sun wasn’t red – it was yellow.  YELLOW!  And then I realized I could see clouds.  REAL CLOUDS!!  Seeing just those few clouds showing through the smoke-filled skies brought me to tears.  I was totally overcome with gratitude in seeing those clouds.

Later in the day as I was making dinner, I noticed sunshine on the counter. Actual SUNLIGHT – shining through the window.  I looked west and see this:

I gave a little squeal and cried some tears.  At that moment I said “Source YOU know best how to clear the skies.  So that is all I ask:  please clear the skies!  Thank you!”

Then after dinner, I ventured outside again and noticed the smell had changed.  The smell of beautiful coastal salty air!  This is what I saw:

!!!!!!!

Well, I began jumping up and down, crying, running around like a kid.  My girl came outside and danced with me – running around the yard like she hasn’t been able to do in a week.  I went inside, grabbed my mate’s hand and insisted he come outside.

We all did a happy dance.

In and out of the house we were until the sun had long past set – seeing first one star, then two and then three.  I cry now as I type these words.

Let me tell you, I know I gripe about this realm and the matrix simulation, but never have I been so grateful to see not just clouds and the sun and blue sky, but the stars as well.  “Real” or not – who cares.  They’re still beautiful – especially now.

The fog has since returned bringing with it residual smoke still in the air and the air quality still isn’t healthy enough to keep the windows open – yet. But we’re getting there.  

My heart still continues to hurt and mourn the loss of so many towns – actual towns.  The loss of life.  Seeing places from my childhood burn.  The cause of many of these fires done with deliberate intent.  The pure evil of this part of the war.

But interwoven into all of that, I see the amazing, enduring dedication of the men and women fighting the fires.  Seeing people stand guard and on alert looking for and dealing with anyone attempting to loot/steal or light another fire.  Seeing communities come together, including many people who lost everything put their own loss aside to help out others in need. Yeah – that is such a humbling example to me of the best of humanity.

This past week it has been the little things, for me, in which to find gratitude.

Seeing fire fighter’s begin to contain ravaging fires.

Seeing people begin to return to their homes.

Being able to put away bug-out bags.

The absolute relief in seeing those raging east winds come to a stop.

Seeing RAIN in the forecast!

Seeing evacuation orders be removed or reduced.

Talking with family knowing they are safe.

Seeing friends from childhood return to their homes after being evacuated.

Handing off bags of donations to the local farmers who are passing them along to evacuees.

And tonight, seeing stars in the sky and smelling fresh ocean air.

The Human Spirit – that is NEVER a match for evil in the end.

Love,

Victoria

I apologize for the repeated e-mails on my last post.  I checked my email plugin this morning and there was a message saying the latest update resulted in repeated sending of posts so hopefully it is fixed now.

This past week has been a huge PITA.  Fires.  Stuck inside continues.  Mate’s mother passing.  I am grateful and pissed/distressed at the same time.

Here is to LOVE FOR ALL NOW!

Love,

Victoria

Hi everyone ~

I updated my hosting plan so the issue some of you saw earlier today has been fixed.  I opted for the pro plan which will let me post as many images as I want here without clogging up the server.

So….our air quality continues to be unhealthy.  Forecast models are saying conditions should improve starting Monday or late next week.  Things are changing constantly.  I don’t want to go into detail on that as it is giving me some anxiety.

We have one air purifier but I need to get another one so I can make sure most of the air in the house is getting purified.  I have damp towels stuffed around windows, under doors and a blanket on one door that tends to “leak” around the edges.  I am very ready for this experience to end (talking about the air quality).  So if you all could donate a few dollars each I could get another one.   Thank you!

Still having the urge to go back in time to my childhood and younger years to recapture the Me I was before the challenges of the experience here created.  Me pre-trauma.  Best way I can put it.

There was a Trump rally today.  Other than that, my mind is challenged to keep up with what’s going on – political, spiritual, awakening, etc.  If I find anything that feels BIG and in alignment, I will share.  For now, I’m focused on staying centered and safe.

Love,

Victoria

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Thank you all for your prayers for Oregon.  The weather is now perfect for fighting and containing fires and the biggest area outside of Portland – officials said today they will not have to expand current evacuation orders. Some are actually returning to their homes (including someone I know).  I read where the NG is coming and there are planes flying in and out of the nearby county’s airport to drop retardant on the two biggest fires.  Seeing the communities pull together is beautiful.  We have people taking donations – private people, local farmers, businesses, etc.  It is showing the Beauty of Humanity.  The Beauty of the Human.  It is showing how powerful we are United once we put aside our politics and religions and other little labels we wear here.

In between the feeling the moments of connection and inspiration, it still continues to feel surreal.  Traumatizing (anxiety has been through the roof this week).  Heart-wrenching.  Our public forests and state parks are closed and are being heavily patrolled and monitored.  There continues to be proof that arsonists are behind some of this (if not much).  This is just one of many many examples (of which I verified):

It's Not Global Warming–> Oregon Officials Announce Arrest of Two More Alleged Arsonists Including Criminal Transient via @gatewaypundit https://t.co/2gBXsJy3UA

— Jim Hoft (@gatewaypundit) September 12, 2020

The fires in Oregon have been suspiciously close to the highway. pic.twitter.com/lh888tNIpD

— Ian Miles Cheong (@stillgray) September 10, 2020

insightful thread:

Thread: THE OREGON HELLZONE HAS BEEN BROUGHT TO YOU BY AMERICA'S ENEMIES. (Foreign AND Domestic)
Every Influencer in Social Media right now who posts news articles stating or says ANTIFA is starting the Fires gets immediate pushback by Bots & Operatives. pic.twitter.com/CIttMm3ZVV

— #SOULWAR ✝ (@CatesDuane) September 11, 2020

Arsons.  Acts of war.

And there are some who are saying this is conspiracy and to stop spreading rumors that arsonists are behind this.

Ignorance continues to expose itself (as does evil).

Then tonight I read talk about the fires within and without serving a purpose – rebirth.

Who says something like that?  And especially at this time?  

Would they actually say such words to the father who lost his son?

Would they say those words to the residents of the small towns that saw essentially most of their town destroyed?

Would they say that to the people who suffered serious burns and were literally on fire themselves?

THERE IS NO PURPOSE in ANY of this other than pure destruction.

No “higher” purpose.

This isn’t our Source of Soul’s doing this.

This is and are acts of E V I L.

There is NO PURPOSE in ANY experience here that intentionally creates harm and trauma and death and loss.

P E R I O D.

Purpose comes from creating authentically and without compromise from others.

People are free to have whatever narrative they want.  But I no longer follow anyone who supports or spouts the above narrative.  That narrative is not allowed on my page.  It is so absolutely contrary to everything I feel within and know to be True.

This is a war on humanity and as I said last night – if someone cannot see that – they are walking in a state of ignorance.  This is about evil and those engaging a war on us.  And I say this as someone who took awhile to open my mind to this possibility for I was still under the influence that evil was an illusion and we are all One and what you do to me is a reflection of me and how there was only dark and light.  I am SO GRATEFUL my inner Me continued to guide me out of this particular darkness.

I contemplate how many who are victims of these tragic fires are reading this person’s page?  Imagine how that would leave one feeling.

God dayem….

I wonder exactly what programming is keeping these folks spouting this nonsense.  These are otherwise heart based beautiful people who are likely unknowingly letting their minds be scripted by the evil hive mind of this matrix.  We’ve all been victims of it. But it’s time to see it and break free from it and stop trying to put it all together in some love and light basket or some logical puzzle.  The Heart knows.  The Heart understands.

My heart over flows with compassion for all who are suffering in these wildfires.  I have several people from my childhood years including a former best friend who have been displaced/evacuated.  Of what real use or help would it be to give them a little pat and say “this is serving a purpose for your rebirth” while totally ignoring the intentional acts that put them in the situation they are now facing?

Yeah….

I hope those supporting this narrative will pause, expand and at least consider what I am saying.  I had to and did.  As I often say – know different, do different.  I was once a very big follower of the new age narratives.  I spent hundreds of dollars on their books – and countless hours at bookstores sitting on couches, trying to decide which one to buy.  And yet… they never fully aligned with my heart- so slowly I began to question these books I was reading by Chopra and Oprah and Hays and Walsch and Zukav, etc.  Little tidbits of truth while totally missing out on the big one:  this is a matrix simulation run by evil with their war and focus upon US.

Yeah – those big publishing houses, which are part OF it, wouldn’t let that in would they?  Nope.  Say such unpopular things and you get censored by someone, somewhere.

That is why I have long followed this little motto:  follow those who are the most censored, attacked, etc. for they are obviously willing to risk it all to share their perspective.  It’s been a good one for me to go by.

That and remain humble when sitting with someone who is hurting.  Don’t give advice and never assume to know what they need or how they feel.  (which has meant sometimes I take deep breaths and gently bite my tongue)

That is between them and their connection with Source.

Love,

Victoria