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Reflections….Finds….

 

Ok this one went out – accidentally – wrong title – and unfinished.  Mama brain.  Ascension brain.  Menopausal brain.  3D brain.  etc. etc…….

I had a sudden, strange experience about 30 minutes after I showered:  I could suddenly smell things in an intense manner.  Normally I have sinuses that don’t allow me to smell things normally (deviated septum).  And who knows what else is behind this issue.  Grief.  Trauma.  etc.  Anyway, its essentially been life long and I am used to it.  Today though suddenly what I could smell was so powerful – it was like smelling in a new way.  I thought perhaps it was just me but my child had the same experience.  It was weird and I wasn’t sure I liked it – it was as though I was pulled out and something else inserted.  Perhaps one of those “I am here then I’m not now I am returned again.”

The merge.  The purge.  I engaged in both today.

I have read and heard from several who are also talking about this neck issue I began working with about 2-3 weeks ago.  I’m pretty sure I mentioned it here.  I began feeling the need to “unplug” that piece of me – that reptilian brain stem.  As I have mentioned, for over 20 years, when I have been in the presence of a counselor/healer I have consistently said whatever it causing trauma-like symptoms comes from the back of my neck.  And regardless of the methods I have tried:  EMDR, RET, Holographic Repatterning, Tapping, Hypnosis, cognitive behavioral, exposure therapy – nothing has removed that core trauma/feeling of being trapped nor have these methods removed that tension in the brain stem.  Now that I see people are now talking about having issues with their neck, I am seeing something collective is happening.  There are a variety of opinions – my feel is this has to do with that brainstem.  Getting unplugged.  Getting that coding removed (as I type those words that area of my neck is buzzing). Yellow Rose mentioned once we’re out, that part of us doesn’t go with us.

I do THIS gesture upon reading, feeling and knowing those words:

I am “seeing” – sensing- knowing – more and more what is not natural about this experience.  I had moments today where I could feel the matrix dying – whatever it is that created this realm/experience.  I am also seeing that when I try to figure things out mentally – my brain does not provide me any answers.  Going within takes on a new purpose now – for me.

Here are some finds:

 

LOVE this:

 

we were talking about this last night – how the elite and rich haven’t been impacted by these lockdowns the way the poor and middle class have.  their money can buy them all they need – private flights, food delivery galore, likely even the best defense and protection if they violated a mask order or social gathering (they can fly in the entire family to some exotic island).  the rest have lost income.  businesses.  children have had activities cancelled.  the rise in stress and anxiety have been met by counseling clinics and healing clinics who have had to close down thus services – those much needed services – just aren’t there for all who need – certainly not in the manner we are accustomed.  enough of this b.s.  regardless of what people think about the mask crap and the forced separation and the “doing it for the common good” – most everyone i speak to is DONE with this agenda.  DONE with the trauma of this year and want healing and lives returned.

 

Simple words – but I’ve been feeeeeeeeling “early christmas” for a few weeks now.

 

And interesting – this is said to have come from a Team Trump text/message:

 

 

Much more UGH than I thought….

 

Developing: Ukrainian Lawmaker Says Government Has Seized Second Laptop Belonging to Hunter Biden’s Business Contacts

Facebook’s Lead Executive on Election Policy Is Former Joe Biden Advisor on Ukraine — This Helps Explain Their Censorship of Hunter’s Emails …Update: Makanju Pictured with Biden and Ciaramella!

Bags Full Of Stolen Ballots Found In Seattle Suburb

 

“The Gateway Pundit could not independently verify the claims, as that would be voter fraud. We have reached out to the Oregon State Elections Office for more information and will update this story if a response is provided.

Obviously, if someone can in fact cancel out ballots that have already been sent in, the potential for voter fraud with the vulnerability 4chan users may have exposed is jaw-droppingly massive. 

We will be continuing to provide updates as the story unfolds.”

4Chan Users Claim to Have Found Way to Easily Change People’s Voter Registration and Cancel Ballots Online in Oregon and Washington

I gotta tell ya – this would not surprise me.  I can see the truth in this:

 

here’s the Q drop:

Q !!Hs1Jq13jV6 ID: 0a3163 No.11130733 📁
How do you inform your target(s) [‘business partners’] what you have?
Why would H. Biden have such material on his laptop?
How was the content *originally* received?
Email?
Why would H. Biden risk turning over such material to a computer repair shop? [contents unrestricted?]
On purpose [years of being treated poorly by ‘Pop’] or simple negligence?
If such information existed on laptop why wouldn’t contents be claimed?
Several attempts made to contact to claim?
Messages left?
Why wouldn’t H. Biden want to reclaim *knowing* the contents on the drive could bury *Pops* & family.
A troubled life?
A troubled family?
Looks can be deceiving.
Q

 

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Last night’s dream

 

I forgot to share this.

I was in a new place – new scene – which was not familiar to me.  There were homes scattered across an otherwise beautiful landscape.  It felt very rural – farmland type landscape.  There was a bunch of people in water.  The water kept rising and most kept wading out into the deeper water – willingly.  I felt some wanted me to go with them – and I had the brief desire to help them – but I knew they really weren’t “seeing” me.  I also knew this was NOT a journey for me.  So I said my “nope not my monkey” and walked out of the water – headed towards this beautiful sunset off in the distance. Reds.  Oranges.  Purples.  The sky was brilliant where I was headed and the light of the sun felt like it was exactly where I wanted to go.

The experience ended.

I’m tired, boss.  Can we just go Home now?  (I tried watching The Trump Card documentary – I couldn’t get into it.  I appreciate the work shown – but it simply doesn’t feel like my experience or anything in which I align.)

Love,

Victoria

 

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10/16/20 Reflection & Finds

 

I am laughing as I write this:  My ability to add and subtract in my checkbook is just not happening.  I used to have an accountant brain.  I loved numbers.  I actually enjoyed balancing my checkbook.  I would curl up on the couch with a cup of tea, calculator, checkbook and statement and get busy.  Today?  I struggle to use the calculator – hands are floppy weird some days which ends up with me pressing buttons I didn’t intend.  And then there are the moments when I rely on my brain power alone to add and subtract.

Tonight I had to order some shoes for my girl.  Her feet have grown rapidly over the summer and we realized what she has doesn’t fit – other than her sandals and she can’t wear those during the colder weather.  The challenge I had placing the order then figuring out the numbers in my checkbook left me scattered.

3D matrix doings becoming even more challenging.  This frigging better have either a shift or some much needed healing tech.  My brain functioning with such tedious tasks is no longer symbiotic.  Somewhere in the cosmos I am composing amazing music and having fantastic adventures.  That’s what I tell myself when I find myself really struggling with certain cognitive tasks.

I noticed today when I had a couple of “me and only me” moments –  outside – when I had nothing but silence.  It was like a breath of new life flowed into me and I could think straight.  So part of it is that – needing many more of those moments where I only have one thing in which to focus on.  I could write a comical piece on tonight’s adventure in shoe ordering. My child was next to me on the bed with nothing but a tape measurer at her disposal – and an active mind and tons of energy.  I kept having to ask her to hush so I could F O C U S.

When I begin to lament on the possibility these brain issues are all due to the mama brain and aging brain issues – I think to others with whom I speak having the same challenges who are either not parents or if they are they are 20 plus years younger than I am and are perplexed at how they are so absolutely scattered these days – unable to be anywhere except in the full moment – forgetting what they ate for lunch that day or what they just said 10 minutes ago.

I tried to do more today but still had the feeling to just SIT and LET GO. However, waiting isn’t aligning so I’ve made a couple of new steps to do NEW – here –  now.  I will see how that plays out.

I want to share a very serene moment I had this morning.  Yesterday as I (think) I shared her last night was a challenging day for a few reasons.  I went to bed earlier than usual and slept hard for about 7 hours straight.  I woke up early morning, heated up my warming buddies and as I returned to sleep, I tuned in and worked with my energy and inner dialogue.  At the moment I am drawing a blank on what I said to assist myself – but I do remember the feeling was wonderful.  I was able to lift myself up and out of the murk/energy of trauma.  I felt, well, ME – the ME I know I am and the ME I am becoming.  As I shared with one of you recently, it has been my feeeeeel lately that the energy of trauma was designed to “stick” – using that reptilian brain code of theirs – which is why it is so challenging to totally and I mean TOTALLY heal from trauma.  I don’t know of anyone who has had a traumatic experience and the energy around it completely removed – as in no more issues with it – no more triggers – nothing.  It’s like there are layers of energy – depending upon the trauma.  And that, IMHO, ain’t part of our Original Design/experience.

Donations have dropped off quite a bit in the last several months – which I understand.  This “lockdown” has impacted us all – some far more than others – especially economically.  I still ask though if any of you can afford a few dollars, please consider donating for the work I do.  All go to living expenses.  (although I’d love to have extra for that 2 week beach vacation I continue to envision – not that anything is open in our area – at least not without having to wear a mask and that ain’t happening)

So…..for now, I leave you with some finds of interest.

Love to you all ~

Victoria

So….first of all I forgot I wanted to share this one.  The other night my girl and I watched Contact.  I mentioned here a few others were also drawn this week to do the same.  There is one image that literally flashes on the screen – so quickly you essentially miss it.  It occurs once Ellie is off on her travels in the craft and we see the image below flash right before she gets drawn back into another wormhole.  So we paused it (took several times to do that) and I took a photo.  Very interesting.  It’s a series of panels – stacked upon one another.  It is perhaps a disclosure of the construct here.  Anyway, sharing it as well as offering up an interesting comparison someone captured on one of the NASA cams this week:

CLIP FROM MOVIE:

 

NASA CAM CAPTURE:

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Things to make ya go hmmm….

And here’s another thing to make ya reflect – a sun/sky capture I was suddenly guided to take as I enjoyed another beautiful day outside.  It is possible this is some sort of a lens smudge – but that object above the sun is very circular…..

 

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breaking it down:

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movie humor:

more movie humor:

Hunter and Joe Biden Scandal Takes a Dark Turn — FBI’s Top Lawyer on Child Porn Involved in Case

CONFIRMED: FBI Chief Chris Wray Hid Information from the Public, Congress and Executive Branch that Absolved President Trump During Impeachment (VIDEO)

REPORT: Hunter Biden’s former Business Partner Bevan Cooney Has Flipped – Is Working with Reporters Peter Schweizer and Matthew Tyrmand

This is a first:

WATCH: President Trump Tells Crowd He 100% Agrees With ‘Lock Her Up Chant’

BREAKING: RNC Files FEC Complaint Against Big Tech Oligarchs for Censorship of the Hunter Biden Emails Reports

 

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Some finds

 

an energetically challenging day.  today is a crawling day.  dealing with trauma and asserting boundaries.  honestly this girl is done with being an experience that allows for trauma and boundaries to be violated.  my desire atm is simple:  freedom, peace and to be left be.  i see evil doesn’t listen.  doesn’t respect.  and won’t change.  and i see it clearly now.

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for several hours, many of us on twitter weren’t able to comment or share/retweet….interesting this comes on the day that Senator’s Ted Cruz and Lindsay Graham (Senate Judiciary Committee) subpoenaed J Dorsey.

 

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Today’s Reflection ~ new level of bored. Where am I exactly?

 

I just came inside after spending time enjoying the warm sun.  As I began to walk through the door I paused and told my mate what I had planned for dinner.  He gave me the thumbs up and I said “I don’t know who will be making it but that’s my idea.”  We both laughed.  Making meals has become further challenging.  E V E R Y T H I N G literally has become a challenge.

One of the outside activities we did today was biking.  My girl and I rode up to one of our favorite places.  I stopped to take pictures of the Fall foliage.  I made an attempt to appreciate the colors.  They were beautiful – reaching a peak.  But I’ve seen it all before.

Boredom has taken on a new intensity.  I feel called to give it a new name.  Or phrase.  Something like mind-numbing activity on repeat or “if i have to see that scene again i am going to turn into that little guy from The Incredibles”…..

Last night was intense.  I was very sleepy around 7:30pm so I rested for an hour or so then was pretty awake until well after midnight.  My mate and I were still awake at 2am – trying to fall asleep – when suddenly we began to vibrate inside at that cellular level.  He felt it first and commented and just as I said “nope, not feeling it”, I rolled over on my side and began to feel the surge.  I suddenly felt 16 and had the desire to go for a 2 mile run.  As it was dark, cold and I have the knees of a, well, someone of “my age”, that wasn’t an option, so I got up, walked around the house and breathed through the experience.

No idea what time I actually fell asleep.  I just know I woke up around 4:30am and slept in fits after that.  I’m conserving my CBD oil until I feel comfortable enough spending the money for a new bottle.

I am also having those “where am I?” experiences – little piece of me here with another piece of me elsewhere.  Or the rest of me.  Whatever that is ain’t exactly clear.  I feel I am just used to the experience – something that has been gradually happening and is now pretty much continuous.

Today as I swept off the front porch, I thought how many times I’ve done that.  Yeah, you get the picture.  I know it is collective now – we are bored. We are done.  We are ready for New.  And we ARE on that verge for unlike having these experiences in the past few years, which were fleeting, this energy is a constant.  For those in this house that is the experience and for some of you I speak with.

I also noticed my girl and I aren’t the only ones having the need to watch Contact.  Another friend from Home expressed the same.  Today my girl, out of the blue, said “Mom, I think Contact will be the last movie we watch.”

We are watching it tonight.  lol

Love to you all ~

Victoria “I’m ok to go” Sistar

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Today’s Reflection ~ A New type of Surrender

 

I’ve spoken with several of you wonderful Souls today and the feelings we are experiencing are indeed collective.  The angst.  The frustration.  The inner that is screaming for Freedom now.  The need for transparency.  The “I AM DONE” with deception.  And the feeling of not knowing what to do as well as feeling like a big ‘ole thumb is telling us to stay put.

Ditto on it all.

Last night I stayed outside until about 1:30am.  It was dry and partly cloudy. I thought of people in my life from years and decades ago.  I cried as I had one-way comms w/them.  (or were they really one-way?  hmmm)  I just cried and cried and cried away the angst and jitters.  It was then that I felt that energy – that massive energy quietly guiding me to STAY PUT/STAY STILL.

I gotta say – I am feeling a new type of surrender.  I’ve done quite enough of “letting it all go to let it flow” but this time I feel the need to keep my eyes open.  I feel it is the old original trauma’s of whatever happened – whatever we experienced to get us into this prison created by the “invisible enemy” – so trusting ANYTHING ANYBODY ANY MESSAGE etc. etc. 100% w/o question is not in my “game plan”.  I am, however, not pushing back against this ongoing inner experience to stay put.

The image I have had for the last couple of weeks is the scene below from Contact – which is a movie I have wanted to watch again.  Interestingly enough my girl brought it to me last night and said “mama I’ve been wanting to watch this movie”.  And speaking with Sister D today – she said she watched it recently – felt guided to.  I feel I need to “get out of the 3D seat” and trust.  Float.  I know the more I CLING to anything the more distressed I feel.  And that ain’t no fun.

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That being said – I still seek reassurance.  Answers.  Support.  Far too often, as I have said here and elsewhere, we are told to just “trust the plan” – whatever that plan is.  The Q team.  Ascension.  Home.  East/West. Awakening.

Enough of that nonsense – this “don’t ask just trust”.  My inner Truth says LET NO ONE DRIVE ME.  Ask questions.  And if you see others asking honest questions, if you can answer, then respond.  If not – be kind.  Don’t be one of those types who gaslight by dismissing, discounting with that ego dick-hat. The awakening is a process and far too many think they have it all figured out and when questioned, the inner a-hole comes out.  I feeeel I won’t know EVERYTHING while I am still here.  There is still deception playing out – on both sides of this insane war (reflection on that at the end).  For me to KNOW something fully, and I mean F U L L Y, at times I have to SEE with the human eyes.  Perhaps that’s not the way it is on the outside – again – I don’t know.  But that’s how things operate inside here and we are still inside this pit.

Doing the best we can.

So I will do my best to be supportive of every one of you regardless of your narrative.  Like that line from the U2 song “One” – we’re One but we’re not the same.  We’ve got to carry each other….carry each other….

So – brief insight on this war:  My mate said it feels like this see-saw.  Up and down.  I agreed and said to think of it like a movie.  What happens near the end?  Does the scene intensify until BAM it’s over?  Yeah.  And yes I absolutely have noooooo energy w/in me supporting the concept that we are watching a movie.  Q says this isn’t a game – but it is a movie.  Perhaps that is as Rose has said – this is an illusion in here and that bus you see, while it is an illusion, can still hurt you when inside this matrix.

Anyway…….what gives me reassurance w/this “stay put” is the experience we had moving into this house almost 9 years ago.  Everything in me for many years (that just grew with time) KNEW we had to be on this street. When the “time” arrived, we were quietly but forcefully guided to this house through a series of events (yeah that weren’t pleasant) – much like the feeling and experience I am having now.  In fact I can honestly say the energy THEN matches exactly to the energy I am feeling now.  So…..That guidance served me well then – and I feeeeeeeel it is serving me well now.

Love,

Victoria

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Today’s reflection

 

*Let me clarify – when I say “this will be it” I was referring to tonight – not for good.  I apologize for not clarifying that and thank those of you who have written me.

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This will be it – unless I feel some inspiration or receive some insight.  I am at a new level of fatigue – body struggling on down to the ability to talk.

So I read where allegedly President Trump gave some dates  of the Storm – from election day to inauguration day.  That’s when things go b.sheot crazy as indictments will be opened/revealed.

WTF?

Anyone else absolutely not only not consenting to that agenda/calendar but also not seeing it?  Another 3 weeks of this already rabid crap?  Then things go really full on insane?

Who is in charge of this movie?  When do those of us who absolutely don’t want this experience and don’t align with it get some damn freedom to NOT BE HERE IN THIS?  You know – Home.  The Event.  Sky Event.  East.  West.

And the simple concept of being in charge of ones own experience – inside AND out.

The goal post keeps getting moved – dangling the carrot continues.

Days like today I don’t see the purpose and even if explained to me, I am not aligning.  Not my experience.  Not for me.

Much bigger happening.  BRING IT already.  My faith has been wavering – not in my lack of ability to embrace what I desire – but the idea that WE are supposed to be having this grand moment that many of us have not just felt but seen.

WHEN.  

WHEN WHEN WHEN.

Patience is not in my realm of comprehension today.

Love,

Victoria

 

 

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the schumann and a gematria and a few finds

 

i had to get this image from a twitter account as i haven’t been able to access the schumann site all week…..the energies today were irritating and they transferred themselves into the members of this house….being’s young and old had meltdowns today…..purging of lingering emotions…..my sensitivities are through.  the.  roof.  i’m detaching for the rest of the day/evening – isolating myself for my sanity.  lol

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i decided to do this gematria after a video from a new youtube channel – the phrase from that mysterious WWE wrestler from several months ago:

THE TRUTH WILL BE HEARD

Elvis Aron Presley

We See You

Victory Of The Light

Bringing Light To The
World

The Trump Loophole

Theres No Place Like Home

Donald Trump Mike Pence

Coding Of The Human
Beings

Biblical The Great
Awakening

Donald Trump Prophet
Recognized

We Will Never Forget

Times Running Out

October Twenty One

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Interesting Military Comms and a Prince Gematria

 

Multiple meanings….?  Purple – their color (my color too but i’ve been working to take it back and restore it) – sign they have surrendered (with force)….and highlighting Prince…i have wondered lately if he’s still w/us….i saw an article from rolling stone yesterday – one of his last interviews and he complained about being “tired lately”….which could have been some clue to let the public know he was “leaving”….the whole idea he was found dead inside an elevator made me think two things at the time (from let’s go crazy for those who don’t know/aren’t familiar w/his music – “are we gonna let the elevator break us down”):  1) he was taken out – a sacrifice or 2) he faked his own death in a humorous way to poke back at the illuminati he spoke of often….anyway beautiful rendition to one of my favorite pieces – which is also a favorite of mine to play on the piano….i remember watching Purple Rain the movie downtown Portland at a theatre on Broadway Street – summer 1984 – and I purposefully watched the scene where he placed his hands on the piano when first writing Purple Rain so I could learn it….

 

And for some extra fun, I found myself drawn into the whole Prince space. In doing so, I wanted to know the biblical interpretation of the color purple. That was ok – I already know the color purple represents royalty (here in this realm that is).  For me it is magical – has a deeper meaning.  It has been my favorite color since childhood and today feels like Home.  His song “Purple Rain” has something magical to it as well.  So I decided to gematria “PURPLE RAIN”.

First – in Jewish Gematria it aligns with 555 – a number sequence I have been seeing a lot the past 2 weeks.

Time To Take America Back

Number Three

East Is Up

From Dark To Light

We Will Win

We The People

In Jesus Name

Voter Fraud

Sealed Indictments

Vesica Piscis (this has come up a lot for me the last month or two – just haven’t shared it.  is it possible – we are in that birthing process from hell/dark to heaven/light.  well yes obviously we are – but i wonder if the VP is a symbol for the process:)

Vesica piscis

 

And for fun I put in “PRINCE”….

Do It Q  (see – he may be part of the plan)

Faked Death (uh huh…..)

Finish

 

And on one last “urge” I decided to search “prince and donald trump” and up came this song Prince wrote (The Time sang it):  Donald Trump (Black Version)….Yeah, no kidding.  lol

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10/10 Finds and a brief reflection

 

Brief:  Purging.  Feeling angst and impatience.

There is something about that number that has followed me for 22 years. Yes seriously – 22 years.  I began seeing it in the fall of 1998.  10:10.  I knew it signified something back then – I just didn’t know what.  I still don’t.  lol But it is back again – not just w/the mickey mouse watch on the Q drops but now w/the w/house press sec. Kayleigh’s page.  Check it out:

Something has stopped.  What, I don’t know.  An agenda.  A “timeline”. Something ALONG a timeline.  I don’t know for sure – but it signifies something ending.  Allegedly.

i agree:

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