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I feel I am energetically holding my breath until this holiday and the election are over.  And then there’s that full (blue) moon thing too.

I remember the first October 31st when I went out candy collecting with neighbor kids.  I was about 4.  My mom had made me a bunny costume.  I loved that costume – that is until the evening arrived when it was time for me to put it on in order to go collect candy.  I think I lost the concept of those two going together.  I refused to put it on.  I pitched such a fit my mom finally just let it go and allowed me to go out with the neighbor kids to get that candy – totally content in my winter coat over my regular play clothes.

Tonight I reflected on that and felt old emotion arise – which surprised me. While not consciously being awake as to the history of this holiday and what it is actually focused on, somewhere deep within that Wisdom of Me knew.  I also knew being forced to put on dress up clothes just to get candy was something I was not going to do.

That same will kept me alive back then.  It was that will that pitched major meltdowns when I would visit the doctor.  I knew what those shots (vaccines) were doing to my body and I was not going to go along quietly.  I also knew what that barbiturate I was put on was doing to my mind (I began having seizures – today it’s obvious they were vaccine related and so the nazi doctors prescribed anti-seizure medication.  I was just 2 at the time). One dose went into me and after that, not even the physical strength of both of my parents holding me down worked.  I was fighting for my life to keep that pill from entering my body.  The doctor was surprised two adults could not get that much-needed medication into me and was rather condescending talking with my mother at the time.  Thank god my parents finally just gave up and took a chance I would have no more seizures.  I didn’t.

Tonight I also felt the heavy of the horror shows here.  I recall trying to suck it up and be brave – be cool – in celebrating October 31st at times when I was young. My parents took my brother and I to a haunted house one year.  I was around 9 or 10.  I was so scared, at one point I hit some guy who jumped out at me then whacked the hand of some unknown person as it grabbed at me from behind a blanket.

Seriously – who the bloody hell comes up with ideas like this as entertainment?  Fear = Fun.  Yeah, not in my heart and certainly not in my REAL experiences before all of their stuff got inserted into us and here.

As I got older, I became more brave (controlled/wanting to fit in) and began to not only enjoy October 31st, but to label it my favorite holiday.  I figured life would be easier if I just went along and celebrated these days the way everyone else around me did.  My dad used to like to scare – for fun as the saying goes.  One year he sat in back of our gliding chair on the front porch – making it move slowly while he groaned.  I handed out the candy and would let him know when someone was coming so he could get into position.  I remember feeling a mix of emotions:  fun at seeing kids (even a couple of parents) frightened but also guilt.  I knew it wasn’t really ok to scare kids like that.  Looking back now – was that fun authentic?  Or was it the matrix version of fun?

Yeah, I know the answer to that.

This year – we won’t be handing out candy.  A first. It isn’t due to the covid (my god people are actually sterilizing the wrappers here) – it’s because I don’t have the emotional ability to support it now.  I am taking my girl on a couple of benign adventures – only because I want her to have a good time. This year has sucked enough for her.  I am thankful she has never wanted one of those blood and gore type costumes.  I don’t think I could handle that.  I see enough of that around our neighborhood.  It is unreal to me the level of pure evil I see in my own neighborhood.  The decorations show images of killings, dead babies, zombies hanging from trees in a noose, horror scenes with caution tape – all very life-like.  I have been startled more than once on my walks this past month.  I now know which homes not to walk in front of – or if I do – I know not to look.  These aren’t college kids doing these decorations:  these are middle aged and older adults. Programmed democrat speak:  Trump sign on your front lawn I melt down. But hacked up body on the front lawn – that’s ok.  Add in the plethora of biden/harris signs and you have a true Satan’s paradise here.

Then there’s the full moon and aye aye aye

I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO done with all of their crap.  Every.  Bit.  Of.  It.

As my friend Sister Jules said:  We better be partying it up next week (in one of those good, pure ways because we will have REAL REASON to engage in an authentic celebration).

And so it is.

Love,

Victoria

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Energies are intense.  As KP said he feels something is about to pop.  I am feeling the same.  Something is about ready to give.  Obviously all eyes are on the upcoming U.S. election – just 4 days away – but I feel this is about something else.  Energetically a profound “statement” is about to be made and solidified.  The split?  Yes – perhaps that is it.

My child and mate both had strange experiences in the past 24 hours.  Both of them heard something huge fly over last night.  It didn’t sound like a plane to either of them.  I was well on my way to sleep – my mate was still awake (in bed next to me) and our girl was also awake at the time in her room.  I recall him saying “Did you hear that?!”  Nope – although I did “feeeeel” something strange the moment he said it.  We didn’t find out until today our girl had the same experience.

Then this afternoon, while my girl and I were out, my mate said he heard two distinct knocks within a minute or so – one on the door and one on the window.

We all had annoying/challenging dreams last night.  Mine was one long dayem experience of being on different stages – in which I kept walking off. Interesting theme.  I felt like “something” was trying to put me into these scenes and I would find the stairs next to the stage and walk off only to repeat the experience.

No thank you.  Groundhog day is coming to an end at any moment now.

That’s all for now.

Love,

Victoria

I had another one.  Again, it wasn’t asked for and was, as have been the others, surprising and unexpected.  In this experience, he popped into the space I was in and sat down, hands clasped together as we often see him do when sitting:  (which btw, that “upside down” pyramid is how it’s SUPPOSED to be – John Kennedy and Princess Diana also used to put their hands in the same position – it is indeed comms – and it’s interesting as naturally i have noticed at times i will put my hands in the same position when i speak)

He had on a long midnight blue trench coat that billowed around him – almost as though there was a slight breeze.  He was so calm and had no one with him.  I was surprised to see him.  He began to talk but I interjected and said “you know I need to hold your hand first before I talk with you”.  In all of the Trump dreams I can remember, that is what I do – touch his hand.  So he held out his hand and I could not only feel but see the energy exchange take place.  His hand felt as it always has – large and very soft – very comforting too.  I made a comment about the softness – again as I usually do.

So after I felt it was safe for me to trust and felt this was him/the real deal, I said “what are you doing here?  you have a lot of work to be doing.  it’s crazy right now!”  It’s hard to write this in words as the communication was telepathic – very rapid – and was mostly feelings with just a few words.  It’s hard to describe in this limited way.  Anyway, so once I communicated that with him I felt him share back:  “Oh, that’s over on the outside.  The end. It’s a wrap.  We are just seeing it finish playing out here.”  It was as though he was saying his Real Self on the outside and all of that was done.  The work – the job was done.

The experience then ended.

What’s interesting with this experience is how it aligns with something I experienced yesterday (and forgot to mention last night).  I was sitting in the sun – alone – just Being.  Above and slightly off to my left I could hear/sense:  “I am done watching the movie you are participating in.  It’s time for a new scene.”  Victoria here now agrees – so much so that last night I knew I was ready and willing to just walk away into the new and didn’t need to take any of my physical belongings with me.  Now more than ever I feel detached from every single thing here. When I make the attempt to reattach (as in looking for something new in this current matrix), I feel pulled out of it again.

A bit frustrating as I ask:

Where is the new? Here?  Outside of here?  I really don’t know for certain – just what I desire.

N E W.  Now.

I am ready.

Love,

Victoria

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I am sharing this without permission – but it is in the comment section.  I love it so much – I had to pass it along.  SPOT.  ON.  Every.  Word.

(I told my girl tonight that the programs are dying and what happens when something that doesn’t give a hoot about anything other than its own survival do when it is being eliminated?  It fights back.  IGNORE it.  It ain’t us.  It is not OF us.  It tried to “get at me” today – and I felt my inner fight fade – overwhelm kicked in – so I got in the car and took off for a much needed purge and recenter – which I achieved.  I was guided to turn on the radio – when I did the two songs below played – back to back.  The last one was my theme song in my senior year.  That inner Light/Spark/Rebel is still there.  I just had to clear their lies and illusions about me to find her again. ATM it feels like I have to do this throughout the day now – but I know that is only an indication of the finish line – their end and OUR New (REAL) Beginning – without their influence.)  Love,  Victoria

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So, I had another aha moment hit me over the Gollum thing and it gave me chills, so I thought I’d pass this on to y’all, for whatever it’s worth. It was how Gollum calls Smeagol “my love,” “precious,” and claims he “looks after and takes care of him.” And is quick to remind Smeagol that he was abandoned and nobody wants him, except Gollum.

OMG. That’s it. That’s how it works. Just like a narcissist goes after an empath, except it’s in your HEAD. So you think it’s “you.” 🤯 That’s what the inner Gollum (reptilian brain?) is doing.

* Step 1: Make you feel isolated, ostracized, totally alone. (Look how the Rona and division is making this worse even than it was – living alone in a dark “cave,” hid away from everyone, barely making ends meet, when you do encounter somebody they often reject you.) Then once you’re down…

* Step 2: Love-bomb like a narcissist during the honeymoon phase. Have you noticed all those channelings tend to start with “beloved” and “dear ones,” “we’re here to take care of you,” “just be patient, my loves” (straight up what Gollum’s script is in Two Towers and Return of the King! I just rewatched) – and of course we’re so lonely and starved for word from actual Home, and actual LOVE, it almost feels comforting to hear. Even with their endless delays and then guilt trips or misdirection when people wise up and ask tough questions. But it’s not REAL! So of course, when something REAL does show up we can get behind (like all our FEELS about going Home and the split and multiple confirmations/Frodo)…

*Step 3: Attack mode. The Gollum gaslights you, makes you doubt yourself and your real FEEL-ings, and hits you with the wound that got them in the door to start with: “You’re alone. Nobody wants you. Nobody cares about you. Nobody is coming to help you. Just give up.” To lower your vibration. To make you hopeless.

So, how do we win against Gollum? When Smeagol overcame Gollum for a while, is when he trusted Frodo. That someone did care and was there to help. He saw that he wasn’t alone, and started to see and choose the good in himself. So maybe that’s it? Trust in what we feel is REAL, and self-love? 🤷 And of course, telling Gollum to shut up and get lost. 😆

I am re-listening to Laura Whitworth’s video from last month “The Shift”. I was guided to do this – and reflect on her words.  As I listen, I could sense/see the entire world watching to see the result of the U.S. Election – just 10 days away.

Dayem – just 10 days?

The countdown is on.  10, 9, 8…….

Anyway – this is far more than just some election.  Far more than politics. There has been a building up of energies – two polarities.  I sense it and I have seen it result in my life with those who support the left agenda (evil, deception, enslavement) and those who support truth and freedom.  Those who support the left agenda, whether knowingly or from a deeply programmed space – have literally been pulled away from my life experience.  Those who align with freedom and love – have been pulled together towards my experience.  As Laura says, if you are familiar with energy from a scientific perspective, opposing energies (which is what is happening now) build up and can only be in the same “space” for so long before they totally repel one another – each going off in their own physical space for their own experience.

I see that the entire world is “voting” in this election simply by making the choice:  Enslavement or Freedom. Or good vs. evil.

Most if not all have already made that choice – everywhere.  But the election is, as I feel/see it to be, that moment (keystone) where the world can collectively say “YES FREEDOM HAS WON” (those who voted for or supported Trump) or “NOOOO THE WORLD IS ENDING” (Biden vote/supporter).  The choice will have been made and again – the energies will be well defined/seen/felt.  So perhaps Lisa Harrison and Laura and others (myself included) are correct in feeling and seeing that the election is the catalyst for The Shift.

Once those results are in – what may play out?  Those who make the choice (either through literally voting or simply focusing on/intending – or both) for Freedom split in one direction (Home…..East….5D……New Earth….many terms to use for what I feel are the same experience/frequency)…..Those who make the choice for more enslavement/control will have that.  Is that time period of the election the marker for the emit?  Is there time between the shift and the emit?  Do they occur together?

I don’t know.

And as I tune into this and have for some time – the idea of Freedom can be a little dubious.  Remember what it is to have Total Freedom.  Feeeeel into that (talking to myself here as well!).  We are fully responsible for our own experience because no one else is powering over us – taking away our right to choose.  That means no more blaming anyone else.  I absolutely positively want that – i feel that longing in my heart/center as I type it – but I also feel that little bit of apprehension I feel before trying something new – or relearning what I once had/knew.  It feels like it’s been a looooong time – but I also feel I will flow right into it as even though I am the type to resist change, once I jump in and it is positive, I adapt pretty much immediately.   So…….It is perhaps then true that not all are ready for that kind of experience.  I had an experience (that I call a marker – those little moments that allow me to have clarification at a later point in my journey) about 15 years ago with a friend.  I was telling her about the idea of a world without money.  I was excited as I shared with her my thoughts.  She simply could not grasp it – no matter what I said.  It’s as though her program wouldn’t allow for it.  I remember she said “but what if someone doesn’t WANT to live in a world without money.  Why should they be forced to?”  And I said “well, others are telling us we have to be in a world WITH money right now, right?”  She couldn’t argue with that – but still could not go further with it. She loved money.  Sadly, she became an extreme leftist and an avid Trump hater and is no longer in my life.

Moving on to the next reflection….

It is possible after the hijack we actually had an entire Universe in this honeypot (tear-drop shape) – really shrunken in size compared to our Original experience before the hijack.  Horton Hears a Who always comes to mind – there is still an entire Universe inside the world of the Who’s.  We see images like this below that show the size comparison – outside as compared to inside.

Yes, kind of creepy isn’t it…..

So……After the hijack and the toss into the honeypot, family/friends who survived/escaped (they didn’t capture us all – my feeeeeel) on the outside began working to free us in a way so that as many as possible survive.  Going with that, what may have been tens if not hundreds of thousands of years here to us in this energy of “time” and their reincarnation game and looping games – is far less on the outside – perhaps as few as 10, 20 years. Maybe 100.  I don’t know – no one here (likely) does.  But we will know. There is a time dilation obviously.  Anyway – so over this period of time here – they’ve been working on getting us out all this “time” which means removing (freeing/liberating) one planet at a time and projecting a simulation inside here (and replacing it with something w/a mass – ships perhaps).  We have heard from both Lisa and Rose that “we are last” of the clean-up.  Heather Ann I believe has said the same. Earth is the last to go. And I also realize that the clean-up happened inside this realm and outside – this realm here is the last of course.  Something like this has never been done before – likely because there was no NEED.  (I certainly don’t align with this endless war and harvest every so many thousands or millions of years just because it’s some damn “law”.  The Source in me says “UH NO” to that theory.  That’s just another groundhog day experience and only evil does that and as such is THEIR law – which is why I don’t align fully with some of the main “home/event” accounts I listen to.)

So – to quote the matrix:

Morpheus to Neo:  This has never been done before.

Neo:  That’s why it’s going to work.

Yes it is.  And it is possible they used looking glass/similar tech to project out a variety of scenarios before initiating the end game sequence.

I still feel we get pulled out (as I had that experience a couple of years ago and actually felt that process) – right before the gate that held us in gets blown and this realm goes POOF – like a thief in the night.

HOW we get out – via the help of all of the ships around us….who then zap out via portal(s).  I don’t know…..

So many synchs tonight.  We watched Star Wars – The Last Jedi (hint:  it ain’t the last Jedi so the title is misleading as we are ALL Jedi’s)….2nd time this week.  Watching it, I pulled up a crossword book, opened up to a random page, picked a random clue – guess what it said?  “Princess from Star Wars”.  Then watching Blue Koolaid tonight – he shows the image of Yoda.

As I watched the movie, I kept getting up and walking around in some angst. I kept mumbling to myself “I should be out there kicking some ass too like Rey.  I shouldn’t be here in this house just watching it play out – playing the role of keyboard warrior now and then.”  It bothered me – until my mate said “we’re ALL part of the plan.”

Humbling reflective moment #17,633.  (although I still align with doing what Rey does – I’ve been playing around with my walking stick lately – and while I am still here I may learn some Staff work – as it feels very natural to me)

Our Jedi powers were stunted by the dark (evil) and it is Love that is freeing us.  And as Luke says – it is our Feelings within our Heart that hold our Jedi powers.

The Jedi in Me honors and sees the Jedi in You.

Love,

Victoria

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