Category: Daily Notes

Today has a twilight zone feeling to it.  Maybe it’s just the smoke from the fires up and down the west coast.  That creates an energy of its own for sure. But this feels like it goes beyond just my area.  Things just feel surreal.

I’ve been feeling for days now another Trump card is coming – and not just any card but like THE card of all cards.  We need that BAM TURN THE LIGHT on the stage moment.  I know I have been saying this all year but good god at this point how much more can this trauma/harm experience keep on? EVERYONE has had enough.  Most people I talk to lately are experiencing not just the lockdown crap, but personal stuff.  From the fires to family issues to loss – depression, anxiety, money challenges.  The collective is saying fully now WE ARE DONE.  Today we were notified by mail my mate’s biological mother (whom he has not had contact with in years – by choice – a lot of trauma/abuse with that relationship) is on life support so the children are being contacted.  We were already at our “enough is enough” from the lockdown and this week the fires.  I could only shake my head as he of course felt that moment of sudden sorrow.

A lot of souls are leaving now.  It’s ominous – troubling in a way.

This experience now feels like a water balloon that is at full capacity.  No more water can be fit inside the collective or individual.  It’s gotta burst.  It is bursting.  Period.  No other option on the table.  I woke up either yesterday morning or today thinking “would someone on stage turn on the damn light already?!”  We are told, after all, this is a movie and I feel there is a lot of truth in that – metaphorically and literally.  Interesting to note VK had this yesterday as his new background image on twitter:

We have all had it.  And I say that in the way that the line has been drawn. The days of crossing it are over.

Tonight Yellow Rose said the time is “nigh”.

I don’t want all of this to be yet another temporary moment of synchronicity where I think “oh this is it” and months later I’m saying the same thing then months later, the same, infinity b.s. looping on and on.

NO.

NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO!

I would rather not have any further such synchs if this is as far as they go and don’t actually MANIFEST into the end result I want – the result we all want.

Well, most of it.  There are still some who think we can create the new world right here and now just by having positive thoughts.  In these current vessels.  Facing the onslaught of evil being played out by those who are well backed and well funded and well organized – and yet we “light workers” around the globe can end it all.  I would think we would have done that already with all of the intending and mass meditations we have been doing – many for decades.

I really feel Rose is right.  This is hell.  We are POW’s of War – a war over and for us.  For our energy.  For our consciousness.  If you cannot see that by now, you are not fully awake and I say that as a loving bitch slap in your beautiful face.  (Sometimes you gotta be blunt if you really care about someone.)

Action is what is needed.  You see an act of evil such as someone setting a fire do you meditate their behavior away or do you walk over and shoot their ass?

And yet – what action do we take?  Any of you feeling called to get out there and engage in the physical battle?  Any of you even able to do that?

Or do we trust in a divine plan – forces beyond this realm – working with humans inside?  That’s what I continue to return to even when I question and pitch a fit and claim “i’m walking away from this ephemeral crap!”  All I know is holding the light and thinking happy thoughts is NOT how you remove entities and other beings intent on creating harm.  Someone enters your property threatening harm, what do you do?  Call the people who have guns and weapons.

These entities…..They are not heart-based humans. Perhaps they once were – some that is – but they sold out and their Soul is out (just had the thought there may be more to the term “sold out” – the Soul is literally removed out of the body for some – many – maybe all??) allowing the “invisible enemy” to enter and take control.  The rest – bots, programs, holograms.  And I have no need nor use for any of them – any of that – in my experience.

I was very angry the first day of these fire – and I still am.  I was calling out the President wondering where in the F he was.  I wasn’t interested in protocol, procedures or even the constitution.  I know what Love is and what Love does and if people are in danger you DO SOMETHING if you have the ability to do so.  Send in those large planes w/the tankers (they are doing that in Southern Oregon).   Send in the military and find these thugs creating the fires.  Arrest the officials who allowed this shit to begin with.

I was angry over how governors let these fires flourish (and of course they’re putting the blame on their fake climate change narrative) – angry over the fact that the biggest and most destructive one in Oregon is being investigated as an arson.  Anyway – I was angry and some new ager thinking they are in the heart but are just running another bot program told me how to feel by saying not to feel hate and then tossed in my trigger phrase:  hold positive thoughts for the reality you want.

Well intentioned?  Who cares at this point.  It’s ignorant and does nothing to lift me up or help.  Sister Linea stepped up and had these beautiful words to say:

“This is the new cage false light crap. It doesn’t comfort and strengthen to be told to focus on the positive. It only makes one feel more alone and isolated. 
To verbally reflect true empathy and compassion takes a heartsourced human being and not a hivemind bot running the programs.
When you communicate with a human who has an open and loving heart its felt deep inside on a cellular level and you always feel comforted and better after. You feel stronger.”

Exactly.  When you are in the presence of someone who is open and who gets it – you FEEL again that inner You.  You feel uplifted.  Even if you are still in that stage of processing a trauma and difficult emotions, YOU KNOW YOU HAVE BEEN HEARD AND SEEN.  

For now, for whatever the F reason, evil is amping up their game.  WHY? Why is this being allowed?  I don’t want to hear 6 more weeks of intensified chaos.  NO FUCKING WAY.

Yes, this is about an election – but it is also much more than that after all this entire experience is not just focused on Trump and the United States.  I’m personally continuing to feel detached from the election.  Do I trust in that feeling?  The challenge – do I go by what I see or go by what I Feel which right now is at conflict.  Perhaps a little of “go with how you feel but keep an eye on what you see just in case” is the agenda for now.

What are all of you feeling?  Any of you feeling like DOING something action-oriented to help take out these evil doers and bring their game to an end?

In the interim, please continue to visualize and intend for cool pacific air to burst forth throughout the west coast of the states – Oregon, Washington and California.  Rain.  High humidity.  Cool temps.  Put an end to hell.

Something we ALL need.

Love,

Victoria

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My focus on “the plan” and the awakening and the event is pretty much non-existent right now.  I have been watching areas in my state burn.  I have read stories of friends and (so far just 1 family member) being forced to evacuate.  There are literally entire small towns gone.  

So I am in no energetic space to read about the plan or how all is being revealed.  This is evil at work.  PERIOD.

There are new Q drops but I just can’t muster the desire to share them here, especially given one is speaking of CALI burning, hinting at dew weapons and seeking emergency funds.  That feels like we are being told “see how it happens?” while the burning and suffering and loss of property and life continues.

The more I go within on this the more questions I have – and all lead down to one single word:  WHY?

Anyone who is in a safe place – would they be willing to lose everything or lose a family member or friend for some “plan”?

Oh they’re waiting at Home we are told.

And yet – how do we know that for certain?

We don’t.

Allegedly there is big news from “upstairs” and “new energetic developments” – but those are the only words I am reading and not one of these sources are expanding or sharing.

And I DO NOT GET THAT.  If you have something that could help us – then for the love of us All…. SHARE IT.  Waving a carrot in front of a hungry, tired rabbit without actually giving the bunny a bite is deceptive and cruel.

The past several days have had me reflecting in a new way and focused on what’s most important – safety.  Life.  Regardless of political “beliefs”, I care about everyone in my state – my area – my home.  Everything else at this time is just a distraction.

It is 3/4 of the way through 2020.  We are told to be prepared for the november election by those allegedly in the know.  How the f do we do that? How do you prepare for something you hold no truth or intel on?  I am finished with trying to guess my way through this experience or following anyone who claims to be in the know and they don’t give you the “know”.  And I am also finished with reading about raising ones vibes in order to exit, etc.  How is that possible when the very “energy” experience in which you are trying to crawl out of continues to traumatize and harm?

So – not much makes sense to my Heart.  And that is all I have to go on.

For now, I am rethinking my life once again – and as I requested a couple of weeks back – if any of you are skilled at running a go fund me type campaign to raise funds to help me and my family, please let me know.

Love,

Victoria

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Smoke came in from the east very quickly around dinner time.  It’s almost midnight and the air is horrible outside.  There is a layer of debris/smoke on everything outside – shining a flashlight around you see the particles.  So we’re hunkered down inside.

SO…..enough of how it is the focus now is how we want it to be.  N O W

Please join in with me and visualize/intend/call forth cool moist air from the Pacific Ocean.  Last week the air flow suddenly switched – we can do it again.

Thank you!

Love,

Victoria

The sun….it continues to be so bright I cannot glance at it for a moment even with polarized sunglasses on.  Or whatever that object is up there in the wherever it is we are.  lol

I was going to link Gina Marie’s latest on strange energy coming from the sun until I realized it was images from 20 frigging 14 – not even included in the title.  Click bait as I said is deception and I do NOT give that my attention in my personal space nor on this site.  So let’s see what I CAN find in terms of current (and relevant) solar stuff….

Wildfires continue in CALI.

Right now, the @CalGuard is airlifting patients trapped by wildfire to a location where they will be met by @AirNatlGuard medics and local first responders. As this situation develops, the National Guard will continue to support our partner agencies and communities. #CreekFire https://t.co/mQBhuS8bnW

— General Daniel Hokanson (@ChiefNGB) September 6, 2020

#ValleyFire 🔥SHELTER IN PLACE per @CalFire if unable to evacuate bc of fire blocking road. #Fire in Carveacre Rd & Japutal Rd in #Alpine area. Call 911 if need emergency #evacuation assistance. Follow @SDSheriff @CalFireSanDiego & @ClevelandNF (thread)

— Dr. V (@ChaliceGarden) September 6, 2020

We are under red flag warning here in my area through next week.  Riding around tonight, I was appalled to see/smell people burning fire pits.  My god – the ground is so dry.  Who would do that in these conditions?   90% of fires are human caused.  Some things, I just don’t understand…

We watched some more videos from 5-6 years ago.  That was challenging tonight – for both my mate and I.  We look at those 2 people and don’t feel much of a connection.  Logically, yes it is “us” but other than the human vessel, I don’t feel a connection nor do I feel a connection to the time period and the doings in which we viewed.  It’s like watching someone who isn’t me PLAY me on a movie screen.  I am counting on this being an indication of the pulling, disconnecting and merging going on because if not, we’re both losing our minds.

I reflected on this one – and did not like what I just typed….something nudged me to check rose’s twitter page….I quietly felt within I would find reassurance/comfort.  Ok.  So I check it out – and this comes up.  W O W

Take a listen.

We can’t all be hallucinating or imagining this inner knowing and feeling and longing that never leaves and is always there no matter what the mind focuses on here.

This is from May 2020.
Now you can all see more clearly, the "Waves".
And, we did indeed with each wave DJTQ used, pull more people up.https://t.co/A3D2ASU2PZ

— Oldsoul (@YellowRoseTx51) September 5, 2020

Love to you all ~

Victoria

Apparently “time” is what I was to focus on and feel into today.

It began in the shower (of course).  I thought of the video the Gunner’s Wife (lip reader extraordinaire) put out several weeks ago showing POTUS speaking to Melania saying (paraphrased) “I cannot believe I am here using your time machine”.   I then thought of the experience I had in July 2009 where that craft literally called my name, guiding me to come outside.  One of the most amazing experiences I have had in this cycle.  The very first thought I had after wondering who is in that thing was “us from the future”.  I had a hard time wrapping my mind.  I can still remember sitting outside, feeling very puzzled about having had that thought.  Since I wasn’t able to understand that concept, I let it go – but it has always remained at the back of my mind.

So, like putting together a puzzle, the thoughts came to me fast.  Potus and Melania (and perhaps others in their family – definitely Barron) aren’t from here.  They’re from Home (meaning outside of this realm).  This was their first experience here in the pit.  They volunteered to come here to fulfill these rolls of exposing the “invisible enemy” that invaded us who knows how long ago and they brought w/them “home-world” tech to do so with flawless precision.  And as such, they were able to bypass or infiltrate the “time” program.

I then realized I was most likely correct in my first guess as to the craft I saw and who it was:  It WAS us “from the future”.  I have wondered if the rest of my consciousness or some part of me was on that craft.  It is possible.  I just know the connection I felt seeing that was unlike ANY experience of connection I have had here.  I simply knew these were my people.

Part of the job to end the game here is returning us to authentic infinity – and not this nonsense they have conditioned us to believe here is infinity: that sideways 8 (as I call it).  That is actually where we have been – repeating, or as we call it in this house “rinse and repeat”.  I have really seen that topic a lot in recent months.  People are feeling into that and seeing that is how their life has been – no matter what their choices have been.  It’s that inner feeling that doesn’t lie.  Our Original experience is more linear – ongoing – expanding and changing.  We don’t “have” to repeat things in order to “learn” or “expand” as we have been conditioned to beLIEve here.

I also thought how difficult it is to break out of old patterns here.  We tend to repeat the same relationships, experiences, etc. – often regardless of what we tell ourselves.  I can tell you I feel I have absolutely wasted a lot of time in “therapy” under the guidance of retraining my brain to break old patterns.  I have had some success and yet have also felt:  “it isn’t supposed to be this difficult!”  Life – experiencing – is supposed to be easy.  (Counselors usually didn’t like that one.)

Is this “challenge” part of their prison?

Sure feels like a strong possibility to me.

Moving on, speaking of time, my daughter and I watched some older dvd’s of her as a small child.  We went back to 2014 – just 6 years ago.  Seeing myself – wow.  It’s like seeing a totally different person.  My mate watched for a bit too and later told me he had the exact same experience.  Our conclusion?  We were much more plugged in then.  Today?  We’re as unplugged as we feel we can be.  Much more authentic.  Physical bodies different too.  Part could be age for there are body changes that go with that as well as grace.  However, most of it is simply this detaching and merging process that has been going on – obviously longer than I have realized.  It is something neither of us can put into words.  It is, again, an inner feeling/knowing.

We both thought – while that time was beautiful – no way would we return to that “time”.  In fact – energetically – I simply wouldn’t “fit” into that time period.

Anyway….very interesting inner journeying today.  As far as physical sensations – something I haven’t shared much of lately – here is what I have been noticing:

Vision changes/issues

Either light/interrupted sleep or sleeping like a baby

Dizziness and a sense of not being fully here

Little to no appetite to needing to eat like a growing child (the favorite remains fruit – that is a staple)

Moments of intense fatigue (extra tired lately no matter how much sleep i have)

Sometimes my manifestation skills are sharp – other times I feel I can’t create sheot.  We have had a lot of heat lately and the forecast had called for mid to upper 90’s all week long.  No.  Not in my experience.  So I tuned in as I have done before with weather.  I told my family if we can weaken and move hurricanes, we can lower temperatures.  So I spent time a few days ago calling forth the cool ocean air from the west.  I welcomed it.  Just did what came natural.  As I watched the forecast,  I saw one of the meterologists say the weather seemed to be shifting and they would watch it.  Did I do that?  Hmmm.  I kept at it.

And guess what?  We had 78 today and an ocean breeze (we were supposed to be mid 90’s).  Tomorrow – similar forecast (when just 3 days ago they said we would be upper 90’s).  The heat keeps getting pushed ahead.  I continue to focus on cooler temperatures.  I will see what happens.

We are in a simulation.  And there has been a war going on.  As their programs weaken, ours strengthen.  I am thinking this may be one of mine. It is not the first time I have been able to influence the weather.  Just kind of surprised me to see this change – especially so dramatically.

Cool.  Cool.  Coooooooooooooool.

Let me know how you’re all doing.

Love,

Victoria

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Thank you all for your love, friendship and support!

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The matrix is breaking down, people are saying.  Yeah, I get that.  But I don’t want to be forced to deal with it – especially from other people.  Today was NUTS.

Because of this mask wearing mandate b.s., I decided to give delivery a try (after pick up turned into a fiasco).  I placed my order with a local store.  I had assumed they did the delivery as their site said nothing to the contrary. Turns out, insta-cart workers do the shopping and delivery.  Ok, I thought. No big deal.

HA!

I get a text this morning at 11:30am saying the shopper’s name and they are beginning to shop.  Over the next 30 minutes I receive several texts saying “this item isn’t available would you like a substitute?”  Then all goes quiet. I was beginning to wonder where my food was about 40 minutes later when I receive a text:  We’re sorry.  Your delivery is being delayed by 1 hour.  Well naturally I wonder – where is my food going to sit?  I had perishable items, so I rang the store’s customer service line and was told there was nothing they could do about it and to phone insta-cart, which I did.  The woman on the phone was very patient and kept calling me “Miss Victoria”.  She told me on her end she was seeing I had a new shopper and the shopping was starting all over again.

What?

So naturally (duh) I ask “Uh, what happened to the previous shopper?  And what about all of the food they shopped for?”

“Well I don’t know,” I was told.

“So can you look into that?  Can you call them?  What if they just left the store with my food?” I asked.

“I don’t know,” is what I was told.  Again.

So as I am talking to this woman, I receive another text – from the new shopper.  In the background my mate is saying to cancel the order and request the shopper be fired.  Quite loudly (as I was ignoring him – ha!).

The new shopper breezed through the store – was able to find some of the items I had been told by the previous shopper weren’t available.  45 minutes later, I had my food.  No receipt (I was told they don’t provide them – not allowed to. ???)  While this went on, I called the store and told them what happened.  The clerk said “yeah the food could just be sitting in a cart somewhere” as though this happens all the time.  “That’s a waste,” I said.  “Maybe you should go take a look and see if that’s what happened.”  “Nah, I don’t think so.  He probably just put it back on the shelf.”

To that I said “but once food is touched in your store it is not to be placed back on the shelf and you can’t return food either because of the covid” I said making my voice sound like a ghost when I said “covid”.  Yeah, the clerk continued to be of no help.  Just another zombie.

I hung up.

Not doing that again.  Scratch off another store in which to shop.

I forgot to say that I had also scheduled a chicken delivery from a local farm. I had filled out the order form online and received an e-mail 3 days ago saying she would drop it off early this morning.  I said I wasn’t sure that would work and asked what time and if I could pay ahead of time and just leave a cooler outside. We do that with our ground beef – no problem. Two days go by I haven’t heard from her so I wrote her again yesterday as there was still no response by the end of the day yesterday.

So early this morning (for me) there’s a knock on the door.  It’s her asking if I got her phone message from 7am this morning.  lolol  Really?  So I said no – did you get my 2 emails?  Yes, she received them.  That’s why she called this morning.  Wow.  So then I ask “ok do you want my debit card?” and she looks flustered and says “oh yes” – goes to her car and says she didn’t bring her card reader.

Of course.  I’m half awake and I’m more “with it” than she is.

So we got it worked out although she gave me several pounds all frozen in one chunk.  Found that out after I went inside.  Another “really?”

So then tonight around 9pm I decided to take a drive with my girl to talk about a couple of things.  As we return home, I notice my neighbor is outside by her car.  I was still talking with my girl and wasn’t in the mood to engage in conversation so the two of us sit in the car and continue to talk, waiting for her to go inside.  Well my neighbor stays by her car for a couple of minutes then begins walking down the sidewalk towards my car, calling my name.

No.  Just no.

She walks over to the passenger side front seat (the windows are up), peers in and begins calling my name again.  I tell her “Not now! I am having a talk with my girl.”

My girl is going over what we had talked about – or is trying to – when neighbor then starts knocking on the passenger door.  That was enough.

So I roll down the window and snap at her:  “I told you I am having a talk with my girl.  This is private.  Where are your boundaries?  Why would you just knock on my door and window like that repeatedly when it is clear I am occupied and not responding to you?”

She says “I just want you to open up my pop for me.”

“Your what?!” I ask thinking she has got to be kidding me.

“My pop can you just open my pop?”

So I said “Oh for the love of god FINE!” – grab the pop from her hand and as I begin to open it she says “careful”.  Well too late – the damn thing sprays all over the place.

I hand it back to her – not even fully opened – and say quietly and slowly “Just go, ok?  Just go.”  So she’s apologizing and saying thank you at the same time and I said “this is just on mark for how today went” got out and went inside and get a hot wet towel to clean up the mess.

I could say I am DONE with all of this crap here – but what would be the point?  I’m still here being forced to deal with the world now and then.  After today, and after the grief I got in my own home how I “created” this mess and “I told you so’s” I am done with ridiculous drama from sleeping idiots and narcissists here there and everywhere who won’t own personal behavior.

So….how was your day today?  lol  I did have some beautiful moments that, now that I’ve vented out the above, I will hold in my heart.  The drive and conversation with my girl was healing and a friend visited this afternoon and brought along his new puppy – a black little cutie part poodle part border collie.  OMG puppy love!  And this little guy loves women.  It took him a bit to warm up to me but once he did, he crawled into my lap and let me snuggle him just like a baby.  Loooooooove!  Oh how I have missed having a dog.  It’s been 10 years.  We aren’t allowed to have one here.  Just another b.s. matrix agenda.  College students that trash a house – that’s ok.  A dog? Noooooooo.

So as I am giving love and receiving love from this little sweetie, I remembered a dream I had a few nights ago – where at the time I was on the outside looking in at myself – and I was sitting cross legged on a floor, hair in a ponytail – just as I was today – holding a small black dog like a baby.  In the dream though I was younger.  Anyway….so in the messy ugh of this realm, I am grateful I had those heart-based moments.  I am quite in need of those now – the more I open up my heart again the more I feel the ache and longing.

I see the schumann is now totally black where we had that repeating pattern.  Speculation abounds.  I ain’t diving into that one until whoever is in the know tells me.

Rose says she sees 2 hearts here.  Not sure about that but hey – here you go. It’s a nice thought (and since seeing this I keep hearing “two hearts…beat as one…” U2):

I don't know if you can see it @TWC_Spin But there are two hearts as the 'holes'. A large one, and on its side, a smaller one. Showed up best on the blue images. pic.twitter.com/8PHqbs2i4p

— Oldsoul (@YellowRoseTx51) September 4, 2020

Now this one I see – as the person sharing says – a person’s face with a hand by their face.  Can’t get clearer than that:

I also see a boy's head lying sideways💗 pic.twitter.com/ptG2oBXGkl

— Hanna Helms (@HannaHelms3) September 4, 2020

Ok….time for meet and greet, don’t you think?

Love,

Victoria

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