Category: Daily Notes

The energy is strange today.  The image I have in my mind is once again a sieve that is shaking off all that is either not needed and/or all that has been repressed/held within – allowing it to BE released and reformulated.  After a day of more or less experiences I felt I was being pushed into or even called into – feeling the pressure to provide an answer right there and then – when I was not in the position to PROVIDE an answer in truth at that moment – by days end I felt a combination of frustrated apathy.  I knew what was needed:  A hard bike ride.  So I set off – alone – in the cool evening and rode hard and fast. Released frustration – well most of it.

Some remains.

We are having to use a pick up service at one of the local stores as they no longer allow for the “mask exemption”.  We have used this service a few times and each time it has turned into a mini disaster.  Items charged that we did not receive.  Receipts not being provided.  Unusually long wait times (as in almost 30 minutes – and this is for items that were already shopped for and are waiting inside the store in some cool location).  Tonight I was the only person in the pick up lot and yet I waited and waited and waited.  Another customer pulls up – on bikes – and their order comes out – an entire pallet of bags.  Me?  Just 2 bags – which finally came a bit after theirs did.  I had items missing – which prompted the clerk to return to the store and pull some off the shelf.  I had a substitute item I did not request (the original substitute item that had been added to my bag just 45 minutes prior was mysteriously missing).  I was told “someone” took one of my bags so items had to retrieved again.  So I wrote corporate, shared my experiences and said I would be shopping inside their stores from now on without a mask as their “accommodations” aren’t working for me.

This is all so ridiculous.

As I told the clerk tonight who brought me my groceries – I am so ready for this nonsense to be over.  The response was “well be thankful we finally have an awesome female running for vice president.”

Uhhh….

Well, let’s just say my censor button was full on broken at that point and I asserted who I supported and why I do not support those entities – male and female.  Kind of felt good.  Usually in person, around these parts, I keep it to myself who I support politically – especially among those I don’t know. Tonight?  I just no longer cared.

I no longer cared what people think.  I no longer cared to keep my opinion to myself.  I no longer cared to support nazi policies that tell me I cannot shop inside one of my normal go-to stores unless I mask up.  I no longer cared.  If I am not harming anyone with my choice, I WILL be living as the Free Being I Am.

Perhaps it’s because of this dream I had last night – we are that close and are making choices – redefining ourselves as we go and arrive closer to that turning point….

I feel this dream has some significance to it…

I was approaching a plane that was getting ready for take-off.  It was not the plane I had bought tickets for but I was contemplating on getting on this particular plane so I could “get home early”.  The attendant said that would probably not be an issue.  However, something about that plane I couldn’t get past.  I felt that this was not how I wanted to “get home” and that I could wait just a bit longer.  So I took my belongings and left the boarding area.

Interestingly enough, there was someone – an unknown male (to the me here now) – had been sitting in a chair waiting to see what I would do.  When I got up to walk away, he followed.

I feel I had this experience because I was reflecting (after listening to Lisa Harrison’s latest last night) on those who are choosing to exit at this time.  The experience showed me – I can and will wait.

Love,

Victoria

listening to lisa’s latest DTC….it is bringing up experiences i have been having that are so brief and in the moment i forget to share them here.  here is what i have been experiencing lately:

little pokes around my ankles – especially this past week.  both my child and my mate are having the experience too.  i look down and nothing is there.  i feeeeel it is my body on the outside being worked on.  i mentioned this in the live chat on lisa’s video and many others are having the same – so it isn’t just the members in this household.

an increase in sleepiness.  almost 3 years ago i heard “the closer i get to the end, the more i will need to sleep”.  that experience has of course waxed and waned but for the past couple of weeks it is D A I L Y now.  i can sleep 10-12 hours and still need more.  some days it is very difficult to fully wake up and engage.

i’m also seeing more things – flashes – movement and images out of my periphery – and i look full on and i see nothing.  at times i hear a voice that sounds far away and again – no one is there in my visual perception.  my feel is we are seeing what is already there – the New.  as lisa said – she too felt the same – and shared it is our mind that is still plugged in – virus still has our mind.  she gave some wonderful suggestions for unplugging:  humor.  creativity.  love.  forgiveness.  her livestream just ended, btw (9:45pm PST).  anyone on twitter looking to be a part of this end process of unplugging, Lisa and team have a twitter page – very appropriately titled:  Unplug2BFree I am following along.

Tweets by unplug2bfree

i have been wanting to be my silly self off and on for several months.  in my heart i am still a 22 year old with a 5 year old sense of adventure and enthusiasm and humor.  (yes, i laugh at the jokes often deemed “inappropriate”.)  so this was a good reminder for me to UNPLUG from the matrix.  i have been saying “WAKE UP LET GO” as a mantra lately.

as lisa was talking about the color pink from Home i was reminded of a dream i had late last week.  i was in a bathroom trying to find a clean, private toilet space (i hate those dang dreams – the matrix has really fed that image to me over my adult years).  the only clean space had a gap in the door and so i did not have the privacy i wanted.  i felt naked and exposed. suddenly though a beautiful lush, soft pink towel appeared for me and “someone” behind me placed it on my shoulders and i thus wrapped myself up in it.  it felt perfect.  earlier today i was folding a pink soft blanket with hearts on it that my girl uses and i was prompted to fold it slowly and take in the texture and color.

me thinks i may be buying myself a special pink soft towel this week…

as always, please share your current experiences, insights, etc.  i appreciate hearing your words.

Love,

Victoria

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After engaging in some rest, reflection and release/energy work, I had the desire to do a couple of Gematria’s.  Today there was a photo of the White House with green curtains.  “GREEN CASTLE”

I also had the desire to gematria one of yellow rose’s latest shares which was “LAST GREEN LIGHT”.

Here are the corresponding tweets:

GREEN CASTLE … pic.twitter.com/n8kyxxRAOS

— 72 SECONDS (@55true4u) August 8, 2020

@adamlforeman "Last Green Light."

— Oldsoul (@YellowRoseTx51) August 1, 2020

GREEN CASTLE

The fall of the cabal

Seventeen

Nesara Gesara

Phase Four (my feel – Q has spoken of 5:5 – 5 phases perhaps and this is the 4th phase)

Air Force One

Hello George

Red Pill

Its Coming

LAST GREEN LIGHT

Go to hell satan

Eastbound

Tesla Time machine

This is good bye

Finished for all time

Come Fly With Me

Quantum Access

I also wanted to share that the song “everybody wants to rule the world” is on my mind daily for over a week.  Here are the lyrics that I feel are significant for this moment:

There’s a room where the light won’t find you
Holding hands while the walls come tumbling down
When they do I’ll be right behind you

So glad we’ve almost made it
So sad they had to fade it
Everybody wants to rule the world

My feel on these words:  Higher Self – Full Self – on the outside guiding us – helping us as we, well, transition.  We have almost made it – and there is some sadness there as this “movie” fades away.  We don’t want to rule the world – we just want to be in control of our own Unique Experience – from within AND manifesting on the outside.  That’s what this is all about, for me.

Love,

Victoria

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I don’t remember much of this dream I had – only that I was “pulling out” my mate and a friend.  We were trapped inside of some building – I knew the way out – and told them to “trust me and follow me and don’t ask questions”.  It was chaotic – people were trying to stop me – but at the last moment I broke free and as I did I heard the number “629” in my mind.

I felt the number had a message – had some significance to it.  My mate said “gematria it”.  I didn’t know I could do that with numbers but I decided to do it anyway.  I was wrong – numbers do show gematria alignments.  So here’s what comes up with the number 629 (which adds up to 17, btw):

EARTH SPLITTING

PURPLE SKIES

STARGATE OPENS

PRESIDENTIAL ALERT

CROSS THAT BRIDGE

I am listening to Lisa’s latest DTC (from last night).  She speaks of these 3 different layers being played out.  The deep state (w/the virus working through them) and the “good guys” and then we have the “this game here is ending” that, I feel, is “on top” of the other two.  This is my perspective of the 3 layers.

I also feel and see too that whatever the parasites throw just isn’t sticking – at least for long. It has no weight for it does not hold Truth.  As Lisa says – the wall they are throwing their agendas at is made of teflon.  What we are seeing is pretty much out of the book – The Art of War.  You mirror your enemy.  You “strike” when least expected.  And you let your enemy expend their ammunition (energy) until you strike back and knock them down.  It is like a dance.

I like how Lisa says this is being done in such a way as to not “break the mind”.  For me, seeing the chaos in the world is making it easy for me to let go of the game/experience here.  I am quite literally having things disappear that I normally use in my daily life and today as I was getting upset over what I could not find I heard “Let it go.  This is something you don’t want to be doing anyway.”  And yet….some things still need to continue for I am still here….so I am sitting on the fence you could say – doing what I know still needs to take place here while also quite ready to drop it immediately upon the end.  So…..making the experience – for me – feel so awful – would indeed make it far easier for me to bust out of here in a moment than if I were in bliss or having a very enjoyable experience.  As Lisa said – I just want to wake up someplace else.  For me that is Home.  My personal narrative says I get pulled up and out and BOOM – I am there.  IF there is some big sky event for all prior, so be it.  I am neutral on that as far as needing to see it.  As long as my family – especially my girl – goes with me – that is all my heart longs for at this time.

I had a feel earlier today about the process of watching this movie while waiting for the Main Event.  Anyone know about The Spaghetti Factory restaurant?  It’s here in the states – at least out west.  Anyway when you walk in, there is this television set that plays black and white silent movies.  They’re fun to watch but what you are REALLY there for is the food.  So while you wait for the food (the main event) you watch the silent movies – either with full focus or here and there as you look around at others, talk with your family or friends who are there with you, etc.  I hope that makes sense.  The silent movie, for me, is old.  I just want my spaghetti!  (and that spumoni ice cream – oh that stuff is sooo good!)

So as I am listening (and typing here) I hear Miss Lisa say my name and read my question.  (I was in and out of her live stream for about an hour and did not stick around to see if she would respond to what I asked).  I had asked her about July 31st (mostly because LeeLoo said the construct begins shutdown mode on that date – she said this in I think 2018) – but I said I also felt something shift on that day.  I also asked if anyone had dragons in their space lately (as I have had all week).  Anyway, that’s at around the one hour mark if anyone wants to hear her both confirm she too felt a shift on that day – mostly on the 1st (of August) as well as what she felt happened – something I feel too and this is the ability to connect “out there” took a bigger disconnect.  I continue to become less able to manifest “out there” as well as my ability to somehow dig my way out of my current experience and create the new I sooooo deeeply my god deeeeeeeeply long for – just ain’t happening.  It is quite frustrating.  I continue to feel this void/”just wait Victoria” pattern.

I appreciate how she says she is always questioning/re-evaluating her narrative – and how those closest to her would say they are probably tired of hearing her question, throwing tantrums, etc.  lol  That had me giggle as I can relate fully.  And yet, as she said, there will be something that draws her back in.  An experience that brings a Knowing.  Yes…..

I’ve continued to watch movies of my generation – movies that bring up old stuff – that get me in my Heart space.  Movies that inspire me to FEEEEEL again – young and vital and narratives of starting over.  In a movie I watched last night, there was conversation between two lovers and certainty:  Both felt a certainty about one another they had never experienced before.  That, my heart called out – THAT is what I seek.  That certainty.  That is Love.  That is Truth.  For many – ok most – of my choices in this experience, I have carried doubt.  And god – to live a life of Creating Experiences with such certainty – I crave that.  I absolutely crave that.

My heart knows exactly what I need:  LOVE (and for me Love and Freedom are one in the same)

As I heard last night – words speaking to my heart coming from Deep Within – if it isn’t Love, I am letting it go.

So be it.

Love,

Victoria

UPDATE:  I got more “stuff” that came to me in the shower portal (where else?!).  Anyway – I was tuning into this concept of the virus here – not the CHINA virus but the virus that infected us all.  When I make the choice to get angry or judgmental or just nasty with myself or anyone else, I plug myself back in to that very virus program I am trying to UNPLUG from.  HOME is doing all they can to help us unplug and encouraging us to BE from the Heart.  Be from the space of Love (as I mentioned above) – for that is what Home Original Experience is.  I literally saw a cord that would reconnect again when I do get in those moods/spaces/behaviors.  And, for me, it is a choice.  It may not be a choice to have the program narrative suddenly appear in my brain/mind – but it is my choice whether to keep myself plugged into it or not.  That is all I wanted to share.

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i spent some time playing the piano today…diving deep within the complex emotions i am feeling these days.

who isn’t feeling it?

the desire to emerge myself in Love and let it hold me as i scream and cry out all of the rage and pain that i feel for myself and for others.  the choices made by evil.

WHY?  that’s the question i have today.  WHY?  why did you make that choice?  why did you choose to harm?  why do you seek to harm?  and mostly why have you continued?  how can you possibly find joy or pleasure in that?

why create if it doesn’t bring HAPPINESS?

purge the evil.

purge it.  wash it away in water.

wash it away in whatever is pure.

take my pain – all of our pain – our frustration – our angst – and take whatever of them infected us – and wash. it. away.

forever.  for good.

MAKE IT SO!

for the love of Love

for the love of God

make it so NOW!