Category: Daily Notes

 

First I woke up with a song playing in my mind.  It’s some song from the 70’s – from a movie.  I just don’t know the name of the song or what movie it belongs to.  I’ve looked – came up empty handed so I am letting it go.  The name can find me.

I feel I am filtering out my life – finding those moments that created an inner experience I want to keep.  Take with me.  ??  As I have shared here, I have been watching a lot of movies lately.  Given I pretty much stopped watching movies several years ago, this is very “unusual” behavior for me.  Watching each movie, I scour the lines and experiences of the characters to help me “recapture” some part of my “lost” self.  It’s been intense and the feeling to do this has been strong.  I’ve tried watching a couple of movies the rest of the family wanted to watch.  There was nothing to see for me and so I could not get into the movie.  And even watching these movies I feel guided to watch, I am often fast forwarding scenes or rewinding to find the “right” moment to capture.  It’s rather bizarre, but I’m going with it.

And what IS “normal” about any of this experience at this point.

So if that isn’t interesting enough, my child, whom I have not told her anything about why I am suddenly watching movies again, told me she’s been having memories come back from her life so far here – good and bad. She said she feels like she’s being called to remember the good and leave the bad behind.  I looked at her – eyes wide – when she said this and she just gave me her sweet little smile and shrugged.  I told her she is brilliant and very tuned in – and to give attention to those prompts and memories.

One last share…..only just 15 minutes ago, I sat down, alone, to have a small bite to eat.  Appetite continues to be down, so at first I was just going to eat in silence but then something prompted me to turn on the radio.  So I turn on our little transistor (I love those – we have a few) and let myself be guided to go to a particular channel.  “Give A Little Bit” by Supertramp is on. A nice song – not a favorite – and after a few moments I thought “eh maybe I will turn the station” but something said to stick with it.  I thought of Grandpa Don – he popped into my mind.  And then, for the very first time, I actually hear the following lyrics:

Now’s the time that we need to share
So, find yourself, we’re on our way back home

Going home
Don’t you need, don’t you need to feel at home?
Oh, yeah, we gotta see

You gotta get a feeling
You come along too

W O W.

I looked out the window – tears came – I went into the whole experience.

I feel I am picking up pieces of myself – taking those things I want to keep with me.  As I type those words, I feel a warmth spread over me – those tears in my throat – and a smile on my face.  Just W O W.

Earlier today I did some tai chi (re-learning what I once used to practice 22 years ago – yes – 22 years).  As I did I could “see” and “feel” how this really is an individual experience now.  So go with whatever comes your way. Follow those quiet, gentle (but persistent) prompts.

That guiding Force is there when we go slow and start from Within.  We’re goin’ Home.  (was just guided to add those last 3 words)

Love,

Victoria

 

Earlier today, while I was in the bathroom getting ready, my kiddo was lying on the floor in the hallway next to the bathroom door, feet on the wall, spinning and moving the way young bodies do (and are allowed to do)…I smiled as I watched and listened to her.

She was asking all sorts of questions.

One question was about me.

“Mama, when you were a little girl, what did you want to be when you grew up?”

I reflected on this rather than give her a “rushed mama” response.

“I wanted to be like Under Dog.  I wanted to be a writer, journalist and a Hero who exposed evil and helped remove it.”

She smiled and said “Kinda like you’re doing now, huh?”

Bingo.

I guess in a way I am living that life I saw of myself when I was 7.  (Although I wanted the super powers of Mighty Mouse too – who at the time – according to a booklet I made about myself in first grade – was my Hero.)

Just wanted to share something sweet tonight.  Off to watch another movie. Last night we watched “Rear Window” with Jimmy Stewart and Grace Kelly. A good pick.

Love,

Victoria

 

Once again, when I hear of others experiences, I will often think “oh yeah – I remember thinking that” or “feeling that”.  It’s like most of these moments of clarity are so subtle and arrive quickly – I struggle to remember them and share them here.  It’s the big KAPOW moments I can remember – like the two huge purges I had yesterday and again today where I felt I was purging ancient deep trauma’s that, at the time, fractured my mind. Perhaps my mind is unfracturing.  If that is possible.

Lisa shares she does not feel/see the election happening.  Ditto that.  I continue to feel NOTHING “normal” about that time frame.  The visual I get when I can tune into that time period is nothing here is the same.  Nothing.  Every thing has changed.  It’s like after a massive explosion and all has changed – there is this silence that lingers as people adjust to the new way of being for the old is gone.  And as she says – when that moment comes – no matter how much we have HAD IT with this place – our minds are still going to be blown.  I have felt that too.  That W O W moment.  Oh yes – a part of me is feeling to “get prepared” for that moment.  Part of that, for me, has been to tune into me on the outside – ask for help – doing a virtual “reaching out” of my hands.  Tonight I reflected on these energies coming in – esp. those moments where I – we – feel suddenly very hot – that feeeels like high frequency from our real bodies streaming here to prepare for the final Merge.

Today – I sat in the bathroom – looking at myself and saying out loud:  “I don’t really know who I really am.  I am just a character inside this place.  A personality created inside this construct.”  That is when I felt – when it happens – I am going to be like W O W.  There was a sense of acceptance and readiness with that – like a prepping that was sent to me.  Lisa speaks about this at the 55:00 mark.  Two days my mate said to me “I don’t even know who I am anymore.”

How can we?  How can we really know who we really are here inside this construct – and when not all of us is even within these bodies?

She speaks of some big Reveal – something huge – that ALL will see. Nibiru?  What Rose says – asteroids and space rocks?  Could it be the 3 Gorges Dam that bursts?  (I still feel some sense of protection around that….although Q has said 4-6% lost forever and it’s going to be Biblical.)

And yet – is that a scene ALL will see?   I don’t know.

She speaks of three levels (layers) – 1-3:

1. National Politics w/the focus on the US – dem vs. repub which morphed into good vs. evil
2. Global – China vs. US
3. Wuhan Asteroid and Trump Asteroid

That last one was a WTF REALLY??!! moment for me.  Yes, Victoria we are not in Kansas anymore and  There is a Wuhan Asteroid.  “My friend and colleague Brenda Wilson alerted me to the movement of the asteroid Wuhan and its synchronicity with timing of the current pandemic. I am sharing her insightful article below.  In brief, the asteroid Wuhan (discovered in 1980 at the Purple Mountain Observatory) entered into Capricorn in early January shortly before the Saturn Pluto conjunction.”

Wow.  More “proof” of this experience being a scripted movie.

The Trump Asteroid I haven’t found but it could be what they are naming the one set to literally impact “earth” the day before the Presidential Election.

I look at how Trump has spoken of his presidency and the election….Past tense when speaking of “have had been their President”….and how the election results may never be concluded or how we may not have an election….and it just adds to the storyline of where I feeeeeel this is going…..everything changes here….and all go to where they align/want/need to go to Create again in that Original State….which can be a process….quickly or otherwise….

She speaks of being squeezed…..Y E S although for me that squeezing went to “ok we got this bundle pulled up let’s PUSH it out now”….

Also….being prepped…..yes….feeling that….prepped for some role, she said….hmmmm…..I have had dreams of meetings where I am getting information….where is it going?  What is the info?  What is my role (other than the one I am “playing” now)?  I don’t know at the moment.

Drinking more water – yes.  Yes, definitely.  Some times it is intense as though I am pregnant and you absolutely MUST drink NOW.  Of course this experience is similar to birth as we are birthing a new Us again.  My appetite is down too – quite noticeably in the last 2-3 weeks.  In fact I have moments where I will eat simply because the clock says so even though I don’t feel hungry.  At times the food is needed – other times, not really.  Eating a lot of fruit atm.

I am feeling I can feel myself more on the outside.  Sometimes I wonder – if I tune in enough – I can unplug myself.  It’s like the veil between us outside and us inside is very very thin now.

As she said about their plans – they are being seen.  The visual I had several days ago was someone (deep stater 1) picking up a pile of dirt – tossing it to another deep stater (#2) while saying “here throw this at ’em see what happens”.  Dirt is tossed – it scatters in the wind.  Deep stater 2 says back to Deep Stater 1 “quick give me another one”.  More dirt is tossed – same thing happens.  Although I will say – this mask wearing crap has continued far longer than I thought and I question – do I just want to avoid the drama and get food delivered or do I want to fight this nonsense and walk in sans mask. That will just be based on how I feel, again, atm.

Interesting about the rabbit holes…..just when you think you HAVE IT – there’s another one to venture into.  Today – I am at the place where I know everything here was a lie so I don’t go down those rabbit holes as I once did. And really – this is really a movie – an illusion – where REAL LIFE is on the outside so in the end, what do any of these rabbit holes really prove OR provide other than to help us SEE the very matrix spell we were under/living in?

Also interesting her perspective on Heather Ann and her filings.   Some are insistent this was and is a very authentic happening.  Some just aren’t into that.  I see what Heather did as exposing how they made $$ off of us.  Will her filings manifest into what we want?  I see that as more of an East/Home experience in that we have our abundance returned/restored without money.  Money has been of course the tool of enslavement so nesara/gesara or releasing of trust funds, etc. has never aligned with me.

So the message remains…..follow your own Heart….your own callings and nudges and Let Go of anything and all that does not align with your Heart.

And now, I am off to watch another movie.  HA!  A movie within a movie.  Interesting though how I watch them so much differently than I did in the “past”….

Good evening ya’ll.  As always, I love to hear from you and thank you all for your support.

Love,

Victoria

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Today was hard.  Really hard.  I lost it to the point where I felt my mind was splitting apart.  I couldn’t contain myself.  I had to release.

The usual deep breathing and other techniques continue to not work as they once did.  The ability to deal with any situation that wishes to control me is impossible.  I won’t contain myself.  I won’t be bullied or pushed around.

Why this is all being allowed to “play out” continues to be disturbing to me. What is this?  Version number 2 of hell?  Have we been set up for yet another trap?  Why aren’t we seeing mass lawsuits against these nazi politicians and governors w/their mask mandates?  And where is President Trump with all of this?  I tag him daily calling on an E/O.  Tens of thousands of us signed a petition commanding one.  I see more people than ever in my area masking up – including outside.  Kids too.

What is really going on with all of this on-going programming?  I thought we were supposed to be getting DE-programmed.

I honestly don’t know.  I don’t feel “right” about what I see.  I have been trying to tune in and I am finding that sense of inner peace and truth right now just ain’t happening.  Last night I put out – yet again – the strong desire to get some Truth as to what’s going on.  I don’t need updates of pacification.  I don’t need to hear another stinking word about “the energies”.  I need cold hard truth and facts that I can see, read, hear and verify.

I ditched social media for the most part today.  Too many people speaking a language I can’t relate to.  There is the republican convention that began today.  And you know what?  In all honesty, I don’t give a flying freak about it.  I keep feeling this pushing away and out of that world while I wait….for what?  The doors I continue to visualize smashing open to actually open…?

I began a mental dialogue with myself earlier today while at the park about the energies and what they are doing and stopped myself.  The feeling within – I don’t give a flying freak about that either.

I did manage to glean some free wood while out and about.  So that was something answered to an intent I put out.  I am expecting the same results for the desire to know for certain exactly what is going on on all fronts.

Certainty.  That is what I continue to command for myself.

For now, I am off to take a long hot shower (well meaning people tell me to take a bath – I would if we had a bath tub)…..and watch a movie.  Again. Alone.

Love,

Victoria

 

I saw our experience here as being inside of a car.

Sometimes we are driving the car.

Most of the time – we’re just the passenger with occasional controls.

If you attempt to steer the car when it goes against the matrix, it will throw a boulder in front of you.  And when you speak out about it, the new age and religious folks will tell you “you must need that boulder so you can learn a lesson”.

There is a difference between a nudge and a poke.

Nudges are gentle and flowing and persistent.  Those nudges lead you to a better place.

Pokes just f’ing hurt and harm.

Today’s news about blood-related plasma treatment triggered me.

And I rather don’t care any more if I do get triggered.

I CARE about truth and freedom and I care about having all of that now.

I certainly don’t align with those who are saying “we have to wake up the normies gently”.

I don’t care about the normies at this point in respect to conversing with them in creating an experience of Freedom.  Most of them are fine with the systems of education, religion, pay to live and the like.  When I have mentioned those things I see and desire, I get “the look”.

What I DO care about and who I DO care about are friends and loved ones and ALL who are suffering and in need of healing technologies and restorative modalities that cure.  C U R E.

I care about people who have cancer – like a dear friend of mine who has a rare form of brain cancer.  While he is using an alternative treatment (cannabis oil) and it is keeping the cancer from spreading, he still seeks a cure.  I’ve been telling him for 3 years now “the cure is coming.  The cure is coming.”

I care about my mate and others who have chronic health issues such as lyme and lupus and god knows what other bioweaponized infections/bacterium they suffer from.

I care about all of us who have traumas that have affected our cognitive functioning.

I care about all who have been harmed by vaccines.

I care about all who have struggled with the pay to live enslavement and the myriad of hurdles put in place that curtail or stop us from having the Fully Free Experience of Pure Creation.

Three years – I keep saying – the cures are coming.  The cures are coming.

For over 15 years I have been saying “the new world is coming”.

I sometimes wonder now if I am looking like a fool.

Nope.

It is not I who looks like the fool.

It is those who support this frigging god damn slow as molasses revealing of all that was hidden.  And it is most especially those who are allowing this process to happen as slow as it is who, imho, are looking like the fool.

Evil operates quickly.  Have you noticed that?

And yet…..Love – Truth – operates immediately – even faster than evil. Right?

So where is Love and Truth?  Where is our Freedom?

That’s what I want to know.

That is the question I am screaming inside out to the Cosmos….to Home….

So today is another challenging day.  My brain is flat out exhausted.  Days like today I pause and reflect how much longer I can continue to do this daily life here in this matrix with all of its challenges and now – due to this covid mask wearing crap – restrictions.  Just today I had to find yet another new place to buy my chicken.  I used to buy it at the co-op.  I then began buying it at Natural Grocers, who use a local source and yet – three times now – the chicken has smelled and tasted like fish.  Something they are adding – fish meal or fish oil.  Whatever – it tastes awful – for allegedly organic, sustainable chicken, and gave all of us GI distress.  So I have had to spend time searching online.

And you know what?

I don’t like utilizing my time like that.

I am so ready for easy flow and for the dayem blocks and hurdles to *POOF* disappear – just like that.

I simply KNOW within how I am supposed to create.  As I began saying several years ago – just out of the blue:  “Where I come from we don’t do that.”

So on I go.

On we all go.

Money is tight as we approach the end of the month so if anyone can donate just a couple of dollars, as always, it is appreciated.  I was able to receive some energy assistance funds that I didn’t know were available to anyone of a certain income level due to the first stimulus package.  If you are in need, check with your local energy assistance program.

Let me know how you are all doing.

Love,

Victoria

 

 

Upon leaving the grocery store tonight, I walked into the parking lot and felt magic in the air.  The sky was A M A Z I N G.  The energy felt super-charged and the clouds were so unbelievably huge and low I felt I could jump up and touch them.  Once I got home, the sky took on even more beautiful shapes and images as you will see below.  Even my neighbor next door, after I stepped out of the car, said “things feel really interesting right now.”

Absolutely they did.

You will see an amazing image/cloud absolutely lit up.  It looked like a phoenix – rising.  It was really powerful.

You will also see the rainbow(s) below.  They lasted for almost 30 minutes and would come and go.  Yeah, that felt magic.  And they were over Grandpa Don’s house – at least they started there.  I felt him around – felt he was helping us – at least giving us the only gift he could give right now.  Perfect timing as yesterday and today I cried over how much I am missing him now. As I played the piano tonight, I kept hearing his words:  “Whenever you play the piano, if my windows are closed, I throw them open and listen to you play.  I enjoy your playing so much.”

Tonight, I felt how much I miss playing music with him.  He singing, playing the guitar and me, trying to harmonize with him (trying lol), backing him up on the guitar or piano.

He was one of my biggest fans.  I hope he still is.  I hope he is still throwing open his windows wherever he is –  listening to me play – often songs just for him.

Lastly, I hope these images bring you some peace – if that is what you seek. Given the happenings and energies that have left me feeling like an emotional wreck, having more meltdowns lately, I needed to see these sky paintings tonight.

Love,

Victoria

 

 

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It turns out  my mate and I had the same dream.

We were both in a large room – sitting at a big long round table – in a meeting.  We both felt ourselves to be bigger.  The meeting was busy and important – the energy of all there was that of absolute seriousness.  (of note:  my mate and i do not recall seeing one another there)

I saw Lisa Harrison there as well and felt LeeLoo’s presence – felt her voice coming through – somewhere.  Was she there as an actual being or just a voice?  I don’t know.  I just know I woke up utterly exhausted and it took me quite a long time to full bring myself “here”.

Am I seeing something that is really going on?  Is this just another matrix program (given how I felt when I woke up)?  I don’t know – but it does feel different than other “dreams” as in I felt “myself” there.

And given my mate had the same experience, and given what I felt yesterday in the energetics (busy and intense), I lean towards Authentic experience.

Ya’ll know what I always say – we will see.

Love,

Victoria

 

About 2, 2/12 years ago I had a dream.  I was out back with my mate.  The weather felt fall’ish (early fall).  I walked over to him, took his hand and said “We made it.  It only took us about 20 years but we made it.”  And in a moment of ceremony – or perhaps as I now feel was more of a metaphor – we went out front, took down our postal box and tossed it at the side of the house.  The experience then ended.

We know about these 1 & 2 year delta’s that have been playing out.  At the time of this dream I thought the reference was to that particular fall (2018). Ha.  Little did I know this was one long-@ss movie.

I pretty much let that experience/dream go – until this morning.  Upon waking up, it was present in my mind – in particular the mailbox piece.  I felt there was significance to the mailbox.  Then the truth came through me like a cool breeze:  At present there is A LOT of info coming out about the post office, in particular their fraudulent doing’s over the years.  Yesterday and today that has been huge in my face – and I haven’t gone looking for such intel.  It just doesn’t interest me.  And as I get on to type up this piece, in my mailbox is the latest Newsletter from Tom Fitton from Judicial Watch who is focused now on exposing the USPS.  Coincidence?  Yeah, I think not!

I feel all of this aligning with that dream I had some 2 years ago. And while at the time my mate and I were coming up on our 20 year anniversary, we are now approaching year #22:  Our Number.  I shared this with my mate and he is uh quite done speculating, etc. so I am sharing this here to offer up something perhaps for someone.

All that we have been seeing and feeling is presenting itself in these moments.  And I certainly do not see anything further to reveal much past this fall.

Other than that – physical sensations – I AM SO HOT INSIDE!  Yesterday was about 10 degrees warmer and yet I was cooler – even remarking how I feel I am better able to adapt to warmer temps.  I am also feeling that “brick on the chest” sensation.  I took 30 minutes “off” about an hour ago and just sat in the hammock as I heard John Lennon’s song “Wheels Go Round and Round”  – “I just had to let it go.”

Quite happy to do that!

Love,

Victoria

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Quoting from my journal:  “From Heather last night who is in DC and says the green light for our account access without problems or blocks has been given and announcement this week.  Her birthday is July 31st and she intends for this to be in place for all easily and free flowing and flowing freely for her birthday, she quotes as saying ‘end of month'”.

So…..

Three years ago…

Now before I begin my rant, know I am not upset with Heather.

While she may not like to hear these words or care to align with them, she has been victim of this stinking satanic system as much as we all have.

And her beautiful work and paperwork?

What has it done?

Is all of this proof just sitting in some records facility at some satanic courthouse?

The woman is still frigging in jail.

For doing nothing but EXPOSING the corruption.

Other prisoners are getting out of her particular jail of residence.

But Heather?

She remains with an EXTENDED prison sentence.

All of these beautiful uplifting words she shares.

I want to see the woman get royally pissed for once.

I want to see some of that inner anger and rage she HAS to feel at times.

I want to see her USE THAT and form some sort of a group on the outside.

Her supporters – those who know her – wtf are they actually doing now?

Just letting it all be?

Where are those people – mostly men – who spoke out at the time of her arrest saying they would storm the jail and bust her outta there.

Just all talk?

Isn’t that how all of this filth has been allowed to continue as long as it has because those “in the know” have been mostly just all talk?

Then there are the words I read speaking of my physical symptoms – the woozy wobbles and the sudden body aches and the sudden need to sleep NOW and the lost sense of “time” and the inability to know what day of the week it is……

All of these allegedly “ascension” or “awakening” symptoms….or perhaps as we also hear “us on the outside getting moved or work done.”

HOW DO WE KNOW ANY OF THIS FOR CERTAIN??

I am just disgusted – as usual – when I look back and see all I have intended and focused on and worked on – hoped for longed for desired done all I can to create that experience from within and see NO TANGIBLE RESULTS.

Something did indeed happen to this realm around the time 2012 came and went:  The ability to create – for me – kinda got the boot.

Until that point, more or less I could feeeeeeeeeeel the flow and it guided me.

I have been stuck in neutral ever since.  Living each day pretty much the same.  Perhaps part of it is me – perhaps that small quiet space within that has more or less told me to just “be still and wait” until….

Until all that I desire within manifests.

The technology.

The new ways allowing us to create and be and do all NEW.

The experience without their corrupt deceptive influence.

Or perhaps what I have been working towards is just another fake narrative. A program I need to spit on and toss to the winds.

My god…..

The Demoncrat convention here in the states is taking place.

I had to walk away from a conversation earlier today listening as someone spoke of watching it.

W H Y?

WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY don’t the majority SEEEEEE yet how awful these people are.

?????

I repel inside in giving focus to any such thing that is not Pure and Divine – more than anything that is AUTHENTIC.  Honest.

God damn it all to All Eternity

Is there anybody listening???

GET US THE FUCK OUT OF THIS REALM!!

Love,

Victoria