Category: Daily Notes

Upon leaving the grocery store tonight, I walked into the parking lot and felt magic in the air.  The sky was A M A Z I N G.  The energy felt super-charged and the clouds were so unbelievably huge and low I felt I could jump up and touch them.  Once I got home, the sky took on even more beautiful shapes and images as you will see below.  Even my neighbor next door, after I stepped out of the car, said “things feel really interesting right now.”

Absolutely they did.

You will see an amazing image/cloud absolutely lit up.  It looked like a phoenix – rising.  It was really powerful.

You will also see the rainbow(s) below.  They lasted for almost 30 minutes and would come and go.  Yeah, that felt magic.  And they were over Grandpa Don’s house – at least they started there.  I felt him around – felt he was helping us – at least giving us the only gift he could give right now.  Perfect timing as yesterday and today I cried over how much I am missing him now. As I played the piano tonight, I kept hearing his words:  “Whenever you play the piano, if my windows are closed, I throw them open and listen to you play.  I enjoy your playing so much.”

Tonight, I felt how much I miss playing music with him.  He singing, playing the guitar and me, trying to harmonize with him (trying lol), backing him up on the guitar or piano.

He was one of my biggest fans.  I hope he still is.  I hope he is still throwing open his windows wherever he is –  listening to me play – often songs just for him.

Lastly, I hope these images bring you some peace – if that is what you seek. Given the happenings and energies that have left me feeling like an emotional wreck, having more meltdowns lately, I needed to see these sky paintings tonight.

Love,

Victoria

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It turns out  my mate and I had the same dream.

We were both in a large room – sitting at a big long round table – in a meeting.  We both felt ourselves to be bigger.  The meeting was busy and important – the energy of all there was that of absolute seriousness.  (of note:  my mate and i do not recall seeing one another there)

I saw Lisa Harrison there as well and felt LeeLoo’s presence – felt her voice coming through – somewhere.  Was she there as an actual being or just a voice?  I don’t know.  I just know I woke up utterly exhausted and it took me quite a long time to full bring myself “here”.

Am I seeing something that is really going on?  Is this just another matrix program (given how I felt when I woke up)?  I don’t know – but it does feel different than other “dreams” as in I felt “myself” there.

And given my mate had the same experience, and given what I felt yesterday in the energetics (busy and intense), I lean towards Authentic experience.

Ya’ll know what I always say – we will see.

Love,

Victoria

About 2, 2/12 years ago I had a dream.  I was out back with my mate.  The weather felt fall’ish (early fall).  I walked over to him, took his hand and said “We made it.  It only took us about 20 years but we made it.”  And in a moment of ceremony – or perhaps as I now feel was more of a metaphor – we went out front, took down our postal box and tossed it at the side of the house.  The experience then ended.

We know about these 1 & 2 year delta’s that have been playing out.  At the time of this dream I thought the reference was to that particular fall (2018). Ha.  Little did I know this was one long-@ss movie.

I pretty much let that experience/dream go – until this morning.  Upon waking up, it was present in my mind – in particular the mailbox piece.  I felt there was significance to the mailbox.  Then the truth came through me like a cool breeze:  At present there is A LOT of info coming out about the post office, in particular their fraudulent doing’s over the years.  Yesterday and today that has been huge in my face – and I haven’t gone looking for such intel.  It just doesn’t interest me.  And as I get on to type up this piece, in my mailbox is the latest Newsletter from Tom Fitton from Judicial Watch who is focused now on exposing the USPS.  Coincidence?  Yeah, I think not!

I feel all of this aligning with that dream I had some 2 years ago. And while at the time my mate and I were coming up on our 20 year anniversary, we are now approaching year #22:  Our Number.  I shared this with my mate and he is uh quite done speculating, etc. so I am sharing this here to offer up something perhaps for someone.

All that we have been seeing and feeling is presenting itself in these moments.  And I certainly do not see anything further to reveal much past this fall.

Other than that – physical sensations – I AM SO HOT INSIDE!  Yesterday was about 10 degrees warmer and yet I was cooler – even remarking how I feel I am better able to adapt to warmer temps.  I am also feeling that “brick on the chest” sensation.  I took 30 minutes “off” about an hour ago and just sat in the hammock as I heard John Lennon’s song “Wheels Go Round and Round”  – “I just had to let it go.”

Quite happy to do that!

Love,

Victoria

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Quoting from my journal:  “From Heather last night who is in DC and says the green light for our account access without problems or blocks has been given and announcement this week.  Her birthday is July 31st and she intends for this to be in place for all easily and free flowing and flowing freely for her birthday, she quotes as saying ‘end of month'”.

So…..

Three years ago…

Now before I begin my rant, know I am not upset with Heather.

While she may not like to hear these words or care to align with them, she has been victim of this stinking satanic system as much as we all have.

And her beautiful work and paperwork?

What has it done?

Is all of this proof just sitting in some records facility at some satanic courthouse?

The woman is still frigging in jail.

For doing nothing but EXPOSING the corruption.

Other prisoners are getting out of her particular jail of residence.

But Heather?

She remains with an EXTENDED prison sentence.

All of these beautiful uplifting words she shares.

I want to see the woman get royally pissed for once.

I want to see some of that inner anger and rage she HAS to feel at times.

I want to see her USE THAT and form some sort of a group on the outside.

Her supporters – those who know her – wtf are they actually doing now?

Just letting it all be?

Where are those people – mostly men – who spoke out at the time of her arrest saying they would storm the jail and bust her outta there.

Just all talk?

Isn’t that how all of this filth has been allowed to continue as long as it has because those “in the know” have been mostly just all talk?

Then there are the words I read speaking of my physical symptoms – the woozy wobbles and the sudden body aches and the sudden need to sleep NOW and the lost sense of “time” and the inability to know what day of the week it is……

All of these allegedly “ascension” or “awakening” symptoms….or perhaps as we also hear “us on the outside getting moved or work done.”

HOW DO WE KNOW ANY OF THIS FOR CERTAIN??

I am just disgusted – as usual – when I look back and see all I have intended and focused on and worked on – hoped for longed for desired done all I can to create that experience from within and see NO TANGIBLE RESULTS.

Something did indeed happen to this realm around the time 2012 came and went:  The ability to create – for me – kinda got the boot.

Until that point, more or less I could feeeeeeeeeeel the flow and it guided me.

I have been stuck in neutral ever since.  Living each day pretty much the same.  Perhaps part of it is me – perhaps that small quiet space within that has more or less told me to just “be still and wait” until….

Until all that I desire within manifests.

The technology.

The new ways allowing us to create and be and do all NEW.

The experience without their corrupt deceptive influence.

Or perhaps what I have been working towards is just another fake narrative. A program I need to spit on and toss to the winds.

My god…..

The Demoncrat convention here in the states is taking place.

I had to walk away from a conversation earlier today listening as someone spoke of watching it.

W H Y?

WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY don’t the majority SEEEEEE yet how awful these people are.

?????

I repel inside in giving focus to any such thing that is not Pure and Divine – more than anything that is AUTHENTIC.  Honest.

God damn it all to All Eternity

Is there anybody listening???

GET US THE FUCK OUT OF THIS REALM!!

Love,

Victoria

UPDATE:  I forgot to share this current physical experience…..which is no surprise considering my ability to form a complete thought is a challenge not to mention my ability to RETAIN that complete thought is equally challenging atm….anyway my front cortex or maybe it’s just my brain but feeling it in my frontal cortex area – feels like it is being squeezed – much in the way I imagine we “feel” when we are traveling out of our mother’s bodies during birth.  For me this isn’t creating pain – but the pressure is something I am feeling.  I decided to share this with my mate and he said he couldn’t believe I was sharing this as he too felt his head was being squeezed today……

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The energy today was rough.  It was very challenging to be here and be centered and in the heart.  Even when I was able to center myself, I simply found zero enjoyment here.  I have purposefully pulled away from the headlines the past couple of days – other than seeing President Trump’s brother Robert died yesterday.  I feel off about that and others have said the same.  I don’t know if I have tuned into the truth of that or just the collective’s vibe.

I have been saying “The war is over.  I am free.”

All of this “stuff” playing out is absolute nonsense and as I have said, I don’t align with any of it.  I am feeling even more of a stranger here.  That experience really increased this weekend – and interestingly enough coincided with my choice to pull back from the headlines.  Instead I have spent more of my time reading and watching movies – anything to pull as far away energetically as I can from this experience now.  I am letting myself “get lost” in other worlds now.  I have to – for my sanity.

I have noticed whenever I am around any sort of conflict right now or strong emotions of anger I not only detach – I feel as though I get pulled out of my body and stay there until the experience is over and then I can merge back again and find my ability to think, process and respond.

So it does seem that anything that doesn’t align with me brings about an immediate and noticeable effect and I do all I can to create my own space so I don’t have to “deal” with that which does not align.  I simply will not allow any outside “force” power over me and dictate what they think I am “supposed” to do.

I.  Am.  Not.  Having.  That.  Never did like it.  The disdain for it – again – increases.  The power to state my piece (peace) – my needs – and let be what will be – increases.

GI issues continue, although better.  The need to sleep more continues and today I had the knowing this was for a real purpose now – as though the more I sleep the more “merging” I receive to make this upcoming transition/whatever “it” is event easier.  I am currently feeling an increase in my desire to remember what I feel to be my Original experience (what I call Lemuria)…..very much seeking small community memories, stories and experiences….rural…..serene and peaceful…

That’s about all I have to share.  Next I am sharing a video passed along to me by Sister Jules – a dream which sounds like the emit/transition.  Other than that, this little place on the ‘net is pretty quiet at this time.

Love,

Victoria

current “symptoms” of whatever is allegedly going on:  GI issues….burping (my god!!)….waking up feeling tense….strong anxiety/shaking….

i had one of those cosmic synchs about an hour ago.  i was doing something around here when the song “red skies at night” suddenly popped into my mind.  the song felt “close” and it also felt like it was something happening outside of me.  a weird sensation.

so then i decided to get on twitter and notice one of my twitter like-minded “home” friends had done a gematria on her name and one of the g’s that come up was “RED SKY AT NIGHT”…..at first i was excited – and shared it with her…

and then i stopped myself.

i have these moments where i am tuned in….

and i make that connection.

and i get excited.

and then…..life becomes utterly boring.

again.

we have this power.

I have this power.

I AM that power.

so that being the Truth

WHY AM I STILL EXPERIENCING THEIR REALITY THAT I WANT NO PART OF?

the only reason i “feed” it or give it my focus is because i have to, you know, pay to keep myself and family going.  fed.  sheltered.  etc. etc.

when i awoke this morning the song “let it go” was going through my mind – a highly annoying song to me at this point considering i have heard it off and on for about 4 years.  however it was a bit interesting that this time there was a different line:  “turn away and slam the door”.

consider it DONE.

love,

victoria

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If I hear yet again that “the matrix is breaking down” I am going to say – FOR WHOM?

We were awoken shortly after sun rise by pounding.  Apparently our new neighbors are putting in a new roof (grandpa don’s former home).  It would have been nice to have had a heads up so we could have had windows closed, fans on (to hide the noise).  And yet – we are still waiting to get a trench in our yard filled in that workers they hired created.  About 6 weeks ago, they hired people to come and take out ivy in the row of hedges separating the properties.  Apparently there was more ivy than they thought so maybe 10% of the hedge remained so they decided to just rip it all down and put up a fence.  We discussed this with them and agreed it was best.  So when the next round of workers came out to remove the remaining hedges, they dug into our yard, removing grass, dirt and rock AND plants.  We remained reasonable about it.  For the past 3 weeks we were told the dirt, rocks and plants would be replaced.

This has yet to happen.  And now – we have pounding.  And sawing.

As my mate said – when you have money – elite privilege – you can do whatever you want.

We also have our neighbor across the street getting yet more work down on her house (this time her back yard).  She is never happy with her place apparently.  Again – elite privilege.  The workers parked half of their equipment in front of our house when they could have easily parked it in front of hers.  We got that taken care of.

So while for US it appears everything for those with money are carrying on as usual.

But for myself, personally?  Nothing is normal.  Nothing feels right.

I have been seeking some work-at-home opportunities.  Nothing but blocks – but I continue to pursue.  My recent challenge was the website telling me my zip code could not be verified.

I was thinking about the concept that all has to play out.

Why?

Why is that?

What is the POINT of creating further challenges?

What is the POINT of allowing THEIR narrative to play out while OURS continues to be hidden and/or repressed/blocked/controlled.

For all of the gratitude I have, I am also filled with frustration.  You could say I am a walking paradox.

But that is how things run here.

Other than that, I had an amazing, heart-filling dream of a gathering.  Linea was even there.  That provides me comfort – at the time.  Now?  It just pisses me off.  ha  (now that I have had the experiences of today and am in a quiet space, I was reflecting more on this dream.  It wasn’t a dream.  I was able to recall within the feeling.  It was a real experience.  The energy – the frequency – was different – unlike any “dream” I have had before in terms of the energy.  It was literally another version of Me.  It feels quite prophetic. My mind is trying to grasp the concept that Big Me has already had the experience and I am waiting for the me here to play catch up.)

Love,

Victoria