Category: Daily Notes

 

well tribe – the sentiment today – at least earlier in the day was UGH! survival needs.  financial and relationship struggles.  trauma’s getting triggered H U G E L Y.

after a challenging nights sleep where all in this house had poking dreams, i woke up feeling an even new level of DONE.  before i went to bed last night i was the epitome of “fit to be tied”.  not pretty.

the feeling lately – rather bi-polar.  for me.

and given the overwhelming number of public and personal messages i read and received this morning and today – i quickly realized i was not alone in this current experience.

thank goodness as i really was wondering if i was indeed losing my mind – actually if i was the only one. i figured ok if we’re all losing our minds together so be it.  don’t want to do THAT one alone.  ha.

so no – not losing our minds in the way we are shown here.

maybe just losing and releasing what isn’t mine.

and perhaps too also just getting plain ‘ole attacked.

so….i made the choice to work with this experience.  actually a better term is play.  i played with it.  i had my trauma integration session today and before i left the house, i let myself first write, then speak the words behind the feelings i was having today – out-loud.  alone.  i just went with it and let it out.  this helped.  and unlike last nights releasing, i felt i had supportive energy.  that feeling was subtle – but definitely noticeable.

so….by the time i arrived to my session, i was feeling inspired.  during today’s treatment, i went to a core wound – and found an empowered place again – in a way i haven’t felt so purely in years.  you know how it goes – you speak the words on how you want to feel – but that doesn’t always align w/the the wounded voice within.  today – the feeling within synched up w/the words i spoke.

asserting my needs.

stating my value.

feeling my value.

I AM THE VALUE.  i got that today.  i just GOT it.  i haven’t written of that yet here as the term has left me rather confused.  what does it mean:  “I am the value”.  i have been searching for that feeling lately – what is this for me?

for me – this is my experience for now – the current healing – owning my value.

when i am in that space i create good, solid boundaries.

i align myself as pure equals with others (instead of either feeling less than or when i go to the opposite – better than).

and i assert my needs.

and with that i bring this to the table:

My work i do here on this website has value.

and it is work i do here and provide every day.

if you are a regular reader and you find value in what i do, i request of you to provide an energy in return by donating.

it is time to step it up.

show my work has value to you.  show it is worth my time and energy to keep this site going.  even just $1/month which all can do. as i have said – all providing just a couple of dollars adds up each month.  i see the work i do here as being no different than going to see a counselor or having some energy/body work done, buying a self-help book, purchasing a space in a webinar or even hiring someone to come provide a needed repair.  what IS different is that i leave the amount up to you.  

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i wanted to share an idea i had today while i was feeling inspired – sitting in my car in the moments before i walked into the building for my healing session….an idea of how we can support one another through this.

if there is something you need – pass it on to me privately (via the “CONTACT” option on the main page) and i will share it here.

if it is a need that cannot be provided for by anyone in this space, we can hold that need in our vision and hearts and call forth the experience needed to surround the person.

together and with effort and persistence we can create amazing things for ourselves and one another.

as i told my mate last night:  “i am going to manifest firewood for us to last as long as we need.”

as i end this writing, we now have 3/4 of a cord of wood out back.  the cost?

free.  (they needed the wood gone – it saved them a costly trip to the dump. so a win/win deal!)

one last thought – about wtfrig happened last night and into this morning. my feel is an attack of some sort went through the matrix – and then early this morning those energies were cleared – at least greatly lessened (although i visualize it clearing out totally and permanently).  interestingly enough, checking on the schumann, there is a 6-7 hour gap of missing data – which began around 11pm pacific time (here in the states) and ended around 4am.  and wow was i a royal mess during that time both in waking and sleeping state.  shaking off the residual experience when i woke up, grumpier than i can recall feeling in a long time, and working through it, i was rather surprised at how supported i felt in doing this.  truly – i was surprised.  last night i cried and wrote to release – none of that worked for me.  at all.  and so that’s why i also began to freak out a little bit – maybe i am losing my mind.

i take this as an indication it will be easier to release these experiences.  we have been hearing this for awhile – perhaps that has now made its way to us.  MAY IT REMAIN.

that is my wish for every one of us.

love,

victoria

 

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so…..i get up and do the usual……….

i check headlines…..same chaotic nonsense

the schumann…..yeah it has spiked.  again.  so what?  we’re still HERE.

new messages from this alleged narrative of “Home”.  “soon”.  “awhile.”

so frigging what?

try something new, i am told…………..lolololol

NEW?

really??!!

i have no CONCEPT of what is “new” here.  been there done that D O N E.

i have been thinking outside of this matrix box for over 20 damn years.

i have asked for help with a variety of things…..promotion….increasing my income….$$ help for the work I do…..

today i feel completely fully utterly used, abused, tattered, stripped apart, spent and quite DONE.

DONE.  fully totally DONE.

i have no more “answers” for myself.

deep breaths…………..self talk………..tapping…..meditation………playing music………holding on to faith and hope…….visualizing…….blah blah frigging BLAH

all of it – TEMPORARY cover-ups for the truth:

i am alone here.  i always have been.  i don’t fit in.  i never have.  i have never authentically felt comfortable in my own skin here.  who i am and what i desire for myself – you know – that right to create my own experience freely – just ain’t happening.

so……….more hurry up and wait?  soon?  awhile?

today this provides me absolutely no comfort.  the only thing that does is my bed with the covers thrown over me.  i would rather “wait” there instead of doing this daily nonsense i have been doing.

over and out.

love,

v.

 

A very amazing, majestic thing happened today.  A Hawk flew onto our property, landed at the top of our American Flag, stayed for just a moment then flew off.

A first.

There wasn’t time to capture it on film.  My first thought was this had something to do with where we are in restoring not just the country of America but all lands.  GAME OVER.

According to Native American Spirituality, when Hawk presents herself to you, she is guiding you to follow your instincts, your inner Divine and often, this signifies leadership and new direction – literally getting ready to spread your wings and fly to new heights.

Love,

Victoria

 

 

this morning i awoke hearing some lines from the Boston song: Peace of Mind.  in particular i was hearing “take a look ahead”.  as i shared in my previous piece – Lisa Harrison DTC update – i also woke up knowing she had an update.

so i know to listen to this first-thing-in-the-morning thoughts.

as i got going on the day’s doings, i forgot about the morning messages, instead focused on tasks of the mind.  a couple of hours later brother rick sent me a message saying he felt a big shift today – the feeling was no one is holding us back.  the interference is gone.

i told myself i would need to create the space to tune into that and put it together with the messages i was getting this morning.  where do i do that best?  the shower portal.  and that i did.  and here is what flowed through me:

first i received a visual of the “take a look ahead”.  i had felt some confusion in that.  that’s not being in the now.  that’s living in the future.

nope.  wrong.  lol  what came to me was i am now quite literally and energetically standing focused forward.  my back is my past and it is fading – being pulled away from me – becoming distant.  it’s as though it happened but almost to someone else.  or a temporary version of me is fading.  the illusion that was created for this game/experience here.

i felt a good comparison was how we compare waking vs. sleeping here.  we give more focus on the “reality” of our waking state as compared to our dreams – which we view as only temporary.  we forget most of them.  that will be our experience once we exit and are Home.

i also felt that the trauma portion of the program that enabled the traumas to “stick” to us – is over.  removed.  i received a visual too – double sided sticky tape.  the sticky part is gone.  this explains why some of us are feeling our past is being pulled away.  (perhaps that is why i was able to finally find a local counselor to help me w/the trauma releasing – the energies that is.)

what then came through was that as a program gets removed – there can be a build up of heavy energies which can be felt as anxiety, depression, anger, frustration.  once it is removed in our bodies we feel light again.  that has certainly been my experience – indeed from yesterday into this morning.  the visual i had was a rubber band being stretched to the max until finally KAPOW it gets detached – released.

this had me question:  how many programs and cords have we each had??

i feel this process is collective but is largely individual – varies for each of us.  it is based on our individual experiences here.  the more trauma we experience the more the programs “stick”.  the more “sensitive” – in tune – we are the more “stickiness”.  to help with this process now – the visual i received was to be in the Heart and feel and see ALL that does not serve Love being removed.  it should be easier now.

i felt into lisa’s reference to the #27 – how important it is here.  for now – i feeeeel this could indicate that since much of our body processes (in these bodies here) can be attributed to the #27 – perhaps that is an indication that the cycle for having bodies designed as they are now – is over.  i still have to finish listen to her latest – likely more than once – and will comment or update on that if i feel the need.

for now i am off to explore magical things.  my girl just said she saw an Orb – a rainbow orb – in grandpa don’s house where his chair used to sit.  we had another experience last night at 4:30am when suddenly something fell off our wall in our bedroom.  no earthquakes.  all were sleeping.  and it was securely in place.  frequency shift or a blending of realms or a bit of both. who knows!

love,

victoria

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One of my social media photos has a woman flying with the caption “GET ME OUTTA HERE”.

Today I am most definitely feeling this at an even stronger level.  This feeling only grows.  It is not slowing down and it is not lessening.  Any attempts to the contrary are only temporary – if they work at all.

So I am allowing myself to feeeeeeeeeeeeeeel the way I feel.

My daughter is having the experience herself as well – today suddenly whining how we have “walked every street in our area!  I want NEW streets to explore!”

I saw other vibe tribe people saying/expressing similar today.

Then I see KP’s video today lamenting the same feeeeeeeeeel.

“I don’t belong here.”  Absolutely KP.  I hear ya!

Love,

Victoria

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this morning i spent some time tuning in.  i awoke feeling “inflamed” so i worked w/that to release the energies causing it.  now that i am actively working w/stored trauma energies/memories, i am witnessing how this release work is also activating everything that has remained dormant.  so now i see the importance of continuing the work beyond the regular sessions.

after i did some energy releasing techniques, i had the desire to tune in and get some information – some intel – if this was possible.  i expected nothing to come (as that is usually the experience).  something did come through.  i share this as is – as i remember.  on the very rare occasion this has happened, the info flows FAST so remembering is difficult.  please take it as is.  as always, i remain discerning – in faith with a watchful eye.

1. there is a new program – new programs – that essentially replaced the old OS (operating system).  a program is benign until given an agenda – a focus – just like a thought or action.  the best way to put it is the old programs have been taken over by Home.  The Alliance.
2. there is no longer the “starting over” program – instead it was replaced with the “continuing on/ongoing” experience.  i was confused by that one – but then had a feel and a visual.  when we come into this experience in this realm we essentially “start over” – mind is wiped and we start “fresh” with essentially nothing to go on.  most of us already know that.  my feel on the “ongoing” experience indicates we are once again now FREE to CHOOSE our own experience – no outside influence.  Assistance perhaps if we wish – but no one tells us what to do or even what is “best”.  Our experience = Our choices.

That’s all I can recall receiving.  I was pretty tuned out and in and didn’t even quite know what was going on until my mate said something – interrupting the experience and I realized oh wow – I just had an experience.  lol

So there you go.  Take it as it is.  I have my bias of course – my own desires of what I intend to occur.  However, this feeeeeeeeeeels to me like an experience of Freedom Of Choice – which is what every one of us has the right to have/Do/Be.

UPDATE:  i just remembered something else.  lol  we can now “talk” with this particular program.  they have now been created/refurbished you could say to work on our behalf.  to work for us.  so give it a try and see if anything comes through.  the feel i have now is tuning in and receiving Authentic/Truth is now clearer than we have had since the original hijack.

Love,

Victoria

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the inner clearing and cleaning up continues.  i see how i seem to be two different people inhabiting this body.  one part of me likes to be in the flow – easy peasy let things just happen and come to me.  sometimes this looks like plain ‘ole laziness (which it is – i am an expert as “putting that off for another moment”)….

then i have another part of me that is very driven.  get up get going get ‘er done.  this part i rely on to engage in the trauma release work i am doing. today during my session, the counselor working with me paused when she saw me struggling.  “this is hard work,” she said.  “you can take a break if you want.”

No, i said. This isn’t hard work.  What’s been hard is living with this crap inside of me.  I want it O U T.

So we continued.  At another point she said “You don’t have to do this work each session.  You may just decide to talk at times.”

No, I said (again).  I am here to release this baggage and be the Me I know I can be. I am here to do this work and not just sit and talk about it.

Maybe if I had employed that with consistency in my younger years, my experience here would have looked different.  Been different.  Felt different. Coulda, woulda, shoulda…….None of this is an indication that I can’t or won’t have different and new while I remain in this experience.

We hit upon something near the end.  The subject:  Control.  She said how we don’t have complete control over our body.  I said “inside this realm, no.”  The tension I felt within…..I KNOW I am supposed to control this vessel.  I once had that ability – easily.  We all did.  I went on to share my view on Freedom.

That’s not how it is here, she said.

“Doesn’t that bother you?” I asked.  She shrugged.  That’s just how it is.

Just how it is.  That allowing for all.  U G H

(btw – this is why talk therapy never did work well for me – many of my conversations w/otherwise wonderful, well-intentioned counselor’s went nowhere – lol)

So – I keep things pretty p.c. in order to stick to my focus of releasing trauma using this particular method  by bringing up the event so my brain can finish processing.  I’ve done similar work in the past but not to the level I am with this woman.  And today I saw the amazing ability of the human brain.  It seeks to finish a task – even if it was interrupted for decades.  I gained new awareness of the particular situation worked on today and found reason to smile – and put another notch on the empowerment ladder.

Other than that, energetically I am feeling pretty up.  Pretty energized – until I’m not when, like tonight, I was suddenly and strongly hit with the “go to bed and sleep – NOW”.  I listen to that voice and when I do, like tonight, I am out within moments – sleep deeply – and wake up just as quick as I fall asleep – often confused.  Where am I?  What time is it?  Where have I been?  I swear, I “go places” during those particular naps.

I also saw the importance of having my personal space and solitude.  I felt, within, the impact how this has been missing.  I’m not talking about having an hour or two – but days.  I looked back over my experience and saw my most favorite moments, overall, where I felt best, where I felt most connected and at peace was, believe it or not, when I was alone.  I really do enjoy my own company.  I love my family.  I love connecting (in as much as I can) with friends in my area.  But nothing gets me back to Center Self than the freedom to Be when I am alone.

I wanted to add something I recently read – the virus within these vessels – the ability to purge that should now be easy to do instead of the ongoing struggle it has been for us.  I feel this aligns w/Yellow Rose’s latest where she spoke of their fear pushing at us is virtually powerless.  The time is now to focus on what we really want – what awaits us – what calls us – what Home is and all is has to offer….that deeply aligns w/my own feeling now as well.

I leave you with a song and a picture.  Knights in White Satin (the extended version).  A favorite.  A Love song of searching.

The picture is of me.  I’m private in sharing such things – especially on the internet.  But this is something I’ve wanted to do for awhile so I thought why not.  And that way when we exit, you will know who to look for.  I am being humorous of course – we will know within who our family/tribe is. Thank you for being mine on this ride inside.

Love,

Victoria

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the energy “out there” felt chaotic today – a new level of frantic.

the headlines i saw matched.  wow – the push to scare us all into beLIEving a mass extinction event is upon us is all over the place now.  from the corona virus to the asteroid NASA says is approaching this weekend and if it hits will wipe out humanity – RIDICULOUS.  so…. i have decided not to share any of it.  not giving them further attention.

as my mate said – we are so much more awake and sensitive now to “them” and their agenda.  we can now feel how the day will go (according to their narrative they are pushing that is) before we check any of the headlines.

i continue to find my Truth within.  i have been on this particular awakening journey that has lead me to where i am.  and NO WAY do i feel that now suddenly i have to throw it all away because everything i was guided to do – that came completely from w/in – was a lie.  most everything i read by THEM through education and media and church – THAT was a lie.

and they are pushing their lies BIG TIME right now – as i felt they would do at the very end.

so i remain focused within – while also having a discerning eye.

given tomorrow is one of “their” days – they likely engaged in their sickness this week – and are pushing fear big time right now – even in our face.  the in your face is in reference to a John McAffee tweet today.  i am not sharing that either.  you have either seen it or can go searching for it (hint: not worth your time to watch.  some are saying it’s disclosure but that is NOT the way to disclose a sick truth.)

the weather matched the mood out there.  all day i focused on lifting the mood – intending the sun come out.  it did not work.  so i will continue on regardless focused on what i want and need.  i am also creating space to focus on NEW and i use that word in its truest definition.  NEW as in expanding my consciousness and heart so expansively, i am able to see and feel and bring in new ideas new creations, new ways of Pure Creation i have not experienced here.

love,

victoria

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so…..after reading my latest daily notes piece, brother rick sent me a message saying last night he heard a “loud metallic rumbling” sound from the sky.  it was foggy in his area as well.

then tonight at dinner we suddenly heard a loud crash/tumble out back.  we all jumped up and quickly realized it was our wood pile.  so we go out back to take a look.  3/4 of the pile had collapsed onto the grass.  we have lived here 8 years and have had 4-5 cords of wood per winter season we have had stacked against the house.  we have NEVER had anything like this happen.  once or twice – in the middle of the night – a small animal has jumped up on it knocking down just a few pieces so this was a new occurrence.

the weather was calm and clear – dark of course.  no big truck came through (we’re on a quiet residential street).  so we concluded some frequency came through.  we checked on earthquake sites – no earthquakes in our area or city in the last 24 hours.

as we spoke of it my mate said he felt these are cymatic frequencies coming in.  these energies have the ability to totally change physical space.  he wanted to know more.  the Flow responded.  next i will share the latest video from Steve Olson/WSO which shows what looks like cymatic energies coming in – NEVER seen anything like it!  the hologram is being changed.  let us STRONGLY HOLD THE INTENTION that this is not another one of their resets.  not this time.  this time we are SEEING and FEELING what is happening and this time the deception game is OVER and we are FREE.

so………..

something’s “in the air” INDEED.  as VK tweeted out this morning – interestingly enough:

.Feeling something…
Like a shuddering vibe.
Anyone else?

— Vincent Kennedy (@VincentCrypt46) February 11, 2020

and here’s a pic of our wood pile (which has since been re-stacked)….

and a couple of sunset pics from earlier tonight:

love,  v.

and why not – a sweet treat (homemade cinnamon raisin bread)….

 

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Thank you to All who support my work!  It is so very appreciated.

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