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i realized i do have some reflecting to share.  energetically i pulled away from a lot this past week.  however the synchro’s and feelings/messages came in nonetheless.  here’s what i have been experiencing this week.

first i have been feeling something new about this thing we call “time”.  it began a few days ago when i noticed my clock on my computer was the same time as the clocks in the rest of my house.  we don’t honor the “turn your clocks back one hour” in the fall in this house so the clocks on my cell and computer are always 1 hour behind all of our other clocks in the house until everyone else turns their clocks ahead in march.  so i found it odd to notice – clock in living room – clock on computer – same time.  hmmm…..  i turned off my computer – it remained – until yesterday when suddenly the clock on my computer was showing an hour behind again.

never done that before.  

then i saw a tweet by VKennedy where he said something like “feels like the year is almost over”.  now many assumed he was referring to the chinese new year which began today.  that could have been the main message.  however that little voice within nudged at me – and i felt there was a deeper meaning to his tweets (which have been quite “deep” lately).  my feel?  we are seeing/feeling how fast things are really moving now.

then there is our weather here.  suddenly it feels like march.  60 – dry (mostly cloudy – and i thought if the sun comes out it’s gonna hit 70).  and overnight lows are near 50.  unreal for january.  so nature is saying “it’s march – early spring”.  buds are on the trees.  flowers are starting to bud and bloom.  4 weeks into winter.

then lisa harrison’s latest combined w/my friend rick’s dream last night – as well as yellow rose’s latest intel which was we are “good to go” – the green light being given – well i feel timeline jumps etc. are over – all has merged into One Experience and it is quickly playing out.  i am pondering too that these schumann signatures/frequencies are assisting.  or perhaps they are just reflecting what is happening back TO us.

i have also been drawn to focus on this experience we call our dreams.  the astral state.  i am really feeling the need to know exactly what that experience is.  it’s pretty much a mystery to us – and yet i am feeling there is now this “ability” to tap in and see more of what exactly it is and in particular, where we go in the dream state.  i also noticed VKennedy was tweeting about dreams at the same time i began having this draw.  i thought of this today in the car and guess which song came on the radio?  “DREAM WEAVER”.  no joke.  lol

i had an intense body purge of stuff last night.  mate too.  i began seeing a trauma expert and realized if i am to share an experience in words/a story, i need to finish it up by doing work to release the energy.  (she has been gathering details to get a picture of where and who i am.  not sure i am going to do this at this point.  just find where the energy is and help me release it.  no more “revisiting” the stories.)

the experience here now just feels – different.  that’s the only word to describe it at the moment.

so with that, i close up this piece.

as always, i welcome hearing of your current experiences/reflections.

love,

victoria

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what an absolutely odd nights rest.  up until almost 5am – a lot of anxiety. i went to bed early after doing a couple of meditations.  took cbd oil.  slept for maybe an hour and then was awake.  i tossed.  did deep breathing.  self talk. nothing was working.  so i let myself just be….in bed with anxiety and essentially feeling like crap.  around 4:30am i got up, returned to bed and discovered my mate was awake and had been having the same experience. couldn’t sleep.  anxiety.

as i just observed this otherwise unpleasant situation, i was able to fall asleep.

the grief is still coming in waves and all i honestly wish to do now is cocoon myself and rest.  sleep.  i have had a thought/feel for over 2 years that the closer we get to “it” – the more i will want to sleep.  never thought perhaps that could be due to grieving the loss of someone.  doesn’t matter what thoughts i create on this situation – the truth is we miss him.  period.

speaking of our adopted grandpa, we are about done going through his stuff – well at least picking out anything we want to keep.  that has been an emotional challenge.  many emotions.  we have laughed and remembered – and after that experience, we feel that heaviness kick in.  just sadness.

his children have been so wonderful in keeping us involved in all of this.  as one said yesterday “you were his chosen family.”  chosen families have that extra specialness. one of his daughter’s is making a box for us – a collection of all of the cards, pictures and drawing’s done by our child we had given to him over the years. he kept it all.  the importance of that is not lost with any of us.

the weather seems to match the “mood” in my space.  well – a collective of people here in town i should say.  many seem to be really challenged ~ allison coe wrote of this as well in her recent video.  i sure hope others will begin to question the notion of contracts – how we agree w/loved ones before coming here that one will die in order to awaken the other.  etc. etc.  that is of course part of their narrative.  who would ever set forth to create intentional trauma (other than some entity who desires to see others suffer)?  especially that of ones child.  ugh.  those who speak of “loss is an illusion” and “be thankful for the time you had” and other such heartless nonsense – well i wonder how they would respond if the grieving parent said back: “ok i cancel this contract then.  YOU can have that with YOUR child instead.  i want my child back!”  would the other parent agree to such an agreement?  of course not.  seriously people need some red pilling right now on loss and grief.  i am seeing this hugely right now and i am not remaining quiet when others say “don’t be angry” and coldness.  for that is cold.  detached.  even before i was “awake” – i knew what grief was.  never did get that part of the new age movement.

anyway – i left a comment gently stating i hope others who still align w/this narrative to at least consider maybe it isn’t Truth.  at least not OUR truth.

song messages of the day – back to back – “and the sky opens” followed by “this all ends”.

what does bring in comfort is knowing our adopted grandpa watches over us.  we are seeing this – feeling and experiencing it.  our water bill jumped up to $170 (yes – $170) and i realized it was because we have had a running toilet that, as i have been pointing out, had recently increased in its running.  too occupied w/latest life stuff to deal with it – kept saying yes we need to address that.  anyway – so my mate was able to find the replacement valve kit in grandpa’s belongings.  the man had 2-3 of just about everything. so we are thankful for that although don’t quite know how we’re going to swing that water bill next month.  as always, donations are welcome and needed.  or items i create/sell can be purchased which i usually link below my personal pieces.

all of this being said – while we are thankful for his protection – we would give back all of the “stuff” just to have him back again for another hug and conversation.

for now – we grieve.  that has shown up for me as itching and a rash.  it began days after we learned his diagnosis was terminal.  i can see my energy vessel within is completely full and all it takes is one little challenge and i feel myself bursting inside.  i know i have reached my zenith with life now.  so i am focused on releasing what is stored within me via counseling and guided meditations/release.  all i know to “do” is to care for myself as i would a child for that is how fragile and vulnerable i am right now.  i ran on fumes long enough in an attempt to convince myself i could do this alone – i could carry all i was undertaking and having to deal with.  it did become too much.  this notion that life doesn’t bring you more than you can handle is nonsense.

but what i do know – is that Love does find a way through the muck of this lower energetic realm – and brings forth a gift of kindness.  comfort.  and for those moments, i remain deeply grateful.

love,

victoria

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here are some thoughts that came up and out of me (more descriptive than “through me”)….

1. We have been taught to be afraid of giants.  It’s just another narrative here to keep us afraid of our Real Selves.  I have seen myself on the outside and as I stated, I was much bigger than I am in this current form.  My mate had a similar experience as have others (while in sleep or meditation).
2. Recently I saw a photo of what looked to be a huge arm in the sky holding a bird the way we do when setting such things free.  That felt like a display of Home/Us on the outside.  I felt a double message w/it.  A size comparison (the size of the arm is real Us, the bird, how small we are to All on the outside).  And the most beautiful part – we are being set free.  All on the outside which includes the rest of Us – which means we really are liberating our own selves.
3. For some reason I was thinking of cannabis.  I have felt for some time it is not native to this realm here – but is native of Home.  It was brought in here in some “secretive type” mission to not just help awaken, but to provide some much needed elements of the plan to the sleeping receptors in our bodies.  We know we have cbd receptors in our bodies.  When I first smoked cannabis, it took a lot and some time for my body to feel the effects.  I understand the reason why – it was taking the receptors in this vessel time to awaken and remember.  However, given the deception of our experience here and all that has been hidden from us, going into those psych-active like states makes us vulnerable to the hiding dimensionals – so that is something to consider when using cannabis.  I’ve been using hemp based cbd oil for about 9 months.  I’ve been able to increase the dosage as well as the mg.  If I miss a dose or two, my body lets me know.  It is literally something my vessel needs.  Even though it is costly, we also began using the broad spectrum kind which has terepenes not found in “regular” variety cbd oils.  Wow – what a difference!  Anyway – Home knew we needed something to use as a tool here for our health, well being and awakening – and what better plant than that?

Songs – music – continue for me to be the biggest gift in my awakening and my “keep on keeping on”.  Today’s songs:  Home Sweet Home (Motley Crue – was playing on the radio as I turned on the car today to come home) and “Waiting” from the album “Coming Home” on the tv music channel.

That is all.  For now, I am going to enjoy some free/quiet time.

Love,

Victoria

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this experience we are going through is for every one of us.  doesn’t matter where you live, what your “beliefs” are, male, female, conservative, liberal, financial status, etc.  those labels don’t mean squat in the end – and it is time to let them all go and embrace the energy behind the thought that says the awakening is for ALL.

that includes sharing of information – in particular personal insights.  we need to be doing this in terms of its helpfulness.  such sharing can provide hope.  validation.  a sense of belonging.  the matrix realm is in part an energy of separation and isolation.  why feed it anymore than necessary?

i understand and innerstand the need to keep certain information quiet. there has been an actual battle – a physical war – going on inside here and on the outside (although allegedly the outside stuff is over).  there are so many things we aren’t able to see due to our current body design (with our senses being hugely hindered) – that we can only feeeeeel what is happening.  in any battle, you don’t want to let known your plans to those from whom you are attempting to break free from.  that info – yeah – keep that quiet.

but this inclusive/members only creation that can come up with information that doesn’t fall into that category AND would benefit humanity – well – share it.  Love calls to do just that, doesn’t it?  well….that is my perception.  just offering that up as something to consider for those who don’t hold it.

in the end – we’re ALL Source in one form or another and thus in the end – ALL is actually revealed for ALL to see.  so why not make the process of Awakening that much easier by being fully generous from the Heart and sharing something that just may make a world of difference to another. sometimes the best gift one can give another isn’t something you can put inside a box with a pretty bow but rather a personal reflection that the other is needing to hear.

anyway – that’s what i align with and thus what i do here.

love,

victoria

 

it appears as though last year’s financial hits are continuing on into this year.  now and then i consider making some of what i do paid-only – but i can’t operate that way.  i really need an increase in donations – as i have stated – even just a small amount from many adds up.

with the death of our adopted grandpa, the work we did for him throughout the year was another big $$ hit.  my experience here is busy – my plate is full – homeschooling our child, running the house….taking care of our girl’s after school activities and then running the two sites.  i would love to find the kind of educational environment for my girl so that would free up a lot of my time – but i have yet to find that (that doesn’t cost a fortune).

i’m feeling quite uneasy over what happened with the lmh share.  again there was no malice on the part of my reader or myself.  it would have been FAR kinder if there had been attempt at personal communication to inquire why the info was shared.  certainly would have created a better situation for all.

my heart calls me to share.  and to ask.  and to seek peace.  ugh – life has just felt so heavy lately.  just wanted to check in and share a bit.

love,

victoria

btw – the schumann is back.

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apparently those sessions are not for public viewing and what i passed along had some translation issues (which ones got lost was not communicated w/me).  so i have deleted the post.  i apologize for any misunderstanding.  my intention was honorable in wanting to give some info and faith to those who are on this journey as i know many have felt quite lost and frustrated lately – myself included.  we all deserve the truth.

i don’t want this turning into some drama fest – which it was becoming given a comment that had been shared by one of the group members essentially shaming me. shaming is for those who have committed the most dark of horrors and i won’t allow that energy into my space – certainly not without first asking why i did what i did.  i did nothing to be shamed for nor did my reader – it was an honest error in choice/judgment.  but for the sake of all – the post has been removed.

love,

victoria

 

usually when my reincarnation date rolls around, i feel magic – a lift.  i would feel the Universe “celebrating” with me.  today i had a different experience.  the energy felt heavy and just weird.  a void-like energy.  i saw others speaking of their animals behaving very strangely and feeling anxiety and stomach issues themselves.  i definitely had the stomach issues that i could not attribute to anything in particular.

going out and about i was able to “feel” that connection to Home/Universe.  i was guided to a car and saw “222”….then turning on the radio, “Truckin'” was on in particular “Truckin’, i’m goin’ home.  whoa baby back where i belong…”  Next song – Two Tickets to Paradise.  Then Journey  “Don’t Stop Believin'”…..I felt this sense of “we are here with you and like you we too are waiting for the transition”….hold on and keep on…………for now i bought myself a cherry pie – locally made with pure ingredients.  i decided not to bake my own sweet treat.

i had a very interesting and powerful dream last night.  a boy i knew when i was a girl.  i had a big crush on him in junior high only he was dating a high school girl.  older woman.  lol  i didn’t see him until a few years later.  he would come visit me at the local shop in which i worked.  he kept asking me out but i felt he was just looking for a good time so i turned him down each time.  he kept at it for almost a year and then, well life happens.  he stopped visiting.  i moved on and did different things.

then a few years ago i read he had died in a horrible car crash east of here.  i felt this immediate heaviness in my heart and i cried later that night.  then last night – i dreamed of him.  he was in the same space in which i was – saw me – walked over and smiling, touched his forehead to mine.  then the dream ended and i woke up whimpering.  makes me wonder if we did have an authentic heart connection here.  oh the things we do when we’re young and lacking in frontal cortex development.  the fear.  the “there’s always later”…..

some moments i think a do-over would be wonderful.

for now – well – i am being told i need to see the news today.  my mate says they’re better.  but i am eating pie and watching old movies.  i will see how i feel about all of that at another time.  for now – inner reflecting continues.

how are all of you feeling and doing now?

love,

victoria

 

 

i’ve been slowly withdrawing from all of the awakening stuff – the politics – spending more time watching some old movies, listening to old music and eating sweet treats.  really needing that energy of sweetness and innocence.  at this point i feel i’m as awakened as i can be (obviously not done – just in a holding pattern).  got the information gathered.  put together puzzles.  and it feels like i am seeing the same story – the same narrative – on repeat and wow is that O L D.  there continues to be lots of speculation but no real answer(s) as the “new” is taking its time to manifest.  in a nutshell – the passion isn’t there as it once was and i am quite bored at the moment.  and so lately the inner question has been “now what?”  and i don’t know.  i have no answer to that.  so – some breathing room/time away is in order.

i don’t know for how long.  a day.  a week or two.  i may return and share something that inspires me – either from another or my own synch/alignment i receive – and then may decide to “go quiet” again.  sensing a theme of “i don’t know”?  lol  that’s because it is where i am.  i.  do.  not.  know.  i know i’ve been on the right path – guided – divinely guided – gently.  force fitting though – commanding or demanding – whatever it is i feel i need or want – isn’t working.  so going within and giving myself whatever it is i feel i need – as best as i can that is.

i shall return and see you when i see you.

love,

victoria

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