i’ve been slowly withdrawing from all of the awakening stuff – the politics – spending more time watching some old movies, listening to old music and eating sweet treats. really needing that energy of sweetness and innocence. at this point i feel i’m as awakened as i can be (obviously not done – just in a holding pattern). got the information gathered. put together puzzles. and it feels like i am seeing the same story – the same narrative – on repeat and wow is that O L D. there continues to be lots of speculation but no real answer(s) as the “new” is taking its time to manifest. in a nutshell – the passion isn’t there as it once was and i am quite bored at the moment. and so lately the inner question has been “now what?” and i don’t know. i have no answer to that. so – some breathing room/time away is in order.
i don’t know for how long. a day. a week or two. i may return and share something that inspires me – either from another or my own synch/alignment i receive – and then may decide to “go quiet” again. sensing a theme of “i don’t know”? lol that’s because it is where i am. i. do. not. know. i know i’ve been on the right path – guided – divinely guided – gently. force fitting though – commanding or demanding – whatever it is i feel i need or want – isn’t working. so going within and giving myself whatever it is i feel i need – as best as i can that is.
i shall return and see you when i see you.
love,
victoria
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Very tired. Little appetite (well, none really). And food just doesn’t taste good. Foods – lacking in flavor. Only craving sweet foods. All in this house having the same experience. And for myself after running quite warm lately, I feel cold today.
A day that would have been best served sleeping with heated blankets – or on a warm beach with room service. Could use that experience from now until exit.
I did begin to compose a song. My mate says it’s the best one I’ve written in the 22 years we’ve known one another.
Today the feel is – I have seen it all. Anything I now view – is a repeat. I realized something along those lines. The sun and moon both move in an infinity shaped pattern. The infinity loop by its very nature says nothing changes. One giant circle you cannot escape from that repeats itself indefinitely….or until the program running it ends – is hijacked – for FREEDOM.
I do all I can each day, spend time going within, to search for a way for me to assist w/that process in a new way and to speed it the blip up.
So today happens to be Carolyn Bessett Kennedy’s birthday – 54th to be precise. As I have said, she and I are exactly 6 days apart – and my mate is 5:5 to JFK Jr’s b-day (5 months and 5 days apart). I have no logical reason to feel a connection w/these two but I do as does my mate.
So today I was at the store, sitting in the parking lot as I finished listening to a song. I sent out a happy birthday thought to Carolyn and then I felt John Jr come in. I felt there was something I was going to hear/feel. Yeah I had shopping to do and I let it go (more on the “flow” after this share). Actually I should say the feeling just left. The me here did nothing. That “letting go” when it is the real deal just happens.
So I did my shopping, got back into the car and turned on the radio. “You Can’t Always Get What You Want” had just started. Ah, ok so I get to listen to his song, I thought. (for those who aren’t into any of this jfk jr stuff – this song by the Stones plays at the end of every single POTUS rally. it was said to be John Jr’s favorite song – or one of them. he also used the following lyrics in one of his editorial’s to a George Magazine piece: “You can’t always get what you want. But if you try sometimes, you just might find, you get what you need.”……. there are no coincidences.)
So I continue driving home. My girl was with me and requested we go the long way home – up into the hills – so I complied. The song’s still playing as my girl says “MOM STOP!” I glance over and see this flock of turkey’s just feet away from us. I stopped – we watched. I felt this nudge to ask her to count them. She happily agreed. 18.
“R” I heard.
Then – I got the knowing for the reason for this song he is said to like. Came to me in chills and a lot of excitement. What does he want more than anything? To get his dad back. But – he can’t. However by working with others, including POTUS, he (and all of us) are getting what we need: the end to the experience that allowed for his father’s death and our enslavement.
So one last thought on “the flow”. It is an organic, natural occurrence. The feel of it – is very unique. It cannot be forced. That’s why when I have searched for an answer and wanted one at that moment, it rarely happens – but it does arrive – at some point. And at times when it does arrive – that answer I seek – quite often I have now noticed it doesn’t feel right. This likely explains why I pulled away from channeling’s as most (not all) are a rather “Ok I am ready to receive information. What do you have for me?” And in those situations, in this simulation/matrix, this has allowed for ANY THING to come through. And until I am able to return to my Full State of KNOWING – SEEING – I am not letting any invisible “entity/being” pass along information – certainly not blindly. The clowns are everywhere – both inside and outside of this game.
Love,
Victoria
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I was receiving a lot of inner “stuff” last night – feels. It was too late to type up anything. After listening to Sainted Anon’s video last night (which I am going to be listening to again), I began feeling into timelines. We have seen for well over a year – perhaps 2 or more – these marks on the schumann some say are timeline jumps. My feel? They are timeline compression’s.
There is a difference.
With a jump you literally “move” to a new period on the timeline continuum. With a compression, this is a previous timeline collapsing onto itself – to merge, eventually, into One Experience (which includes “the event” – the end – and our return to Eden/Original Experience). Lisa Harrison stated last year we were now on “One Timeline”. At least, according to how I feel, we are headed in that direction. The REAL timeline – which is how this show ends – has indeed been put into place and is NOT going to be altered. This is more than just advanced tech – this is Source Creation. Pure. Divine. And it includes each of our Big/Higher/Real Selves co-creating.
I am also hearing and reading from some that “attacks” ramped up. This is not to invoke fear – but rather knowledge. Being in knowing of a potential experience so you can be best informed and thus prepared. All in my house have been feeling this as well. Last night I had a dream experience where I was in a rather familiar house from my past. Many people from my past were there – those I once trusted, etc. but are no longer in my experience today.
The “others” knew I was feeling quite vulnerable last night and took advantage of the longing I had in my heart before falling asleep. In this particular dream experience, I heard a knock on the front door. It was quite stormy outside and dark. I was drawn naturally to go to the door. I saw a golden swirl of energy start to permeate the cracks in the door (which was massive and solid and quite beautiful). The feeling of ancient Knowing/Truth emitting from this door on the other side was awesome. Very powerful with this solid sense of Knowing. I left the crowd I was gathered with to go answer the door. Many of them began behaving in a fearful manner, telling me not to answer the door. I instead followed my inner feeling and went to the door. A communication began. I heard “We are Q. We are here.” YES, I felt. The people around me increased their words of “DO NOT ANSWER THE DOOR CALL THE POLICE”. Again, I ignored it and as I began to open the door I felt this attacking energy in my center. Overwhelming fear hit me. I walked away, rejoined the group, hoping for a hug from someone I once felt very close to only she hugged another female instead. Feeling disappointed I said “I’m outta here” and left the experience.
When I awoke the fear within was still there and it was overwhelming – a level I have not experienced coming out of a dream state. It took me awhile to shake it. I got clarity on what it was about….and I did some inner work and removed the feeling – returning to that solid inner Me that never waivers and knows how to create a boundary.
This may be a “movie” of their creation and we may have been playing along – but speaking just for myself, I played along unknowingly – certainly not with FULL AWARENESS – if anything under their control – which makes it an INAUTHENTIC CREATION. Therefore the movie is null and void and my participation is something of which I do not consent. WE are writing the ending now which is #ENDGAME for them and Freedom for All. For all that is Me knows I would never fully consent to such a nightmare. And if I did – I have asked for forgiveness and simply stated “I have changed my heart, mind and choice.” Actually as I type this – I receive the feeling that I may have said “yes” to an experience of Free Will – without an innerstanding of where that experience could go.
Knowledge gained. Free Will allows for ALL to be created and that is simply not a joyful experience for the harm it leads to (was created). Freedom it is instead.
Love,
Victoria
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I just took pictures instead of making another video. Oh and yes – we also have another “planet with mechanical arms” transiting. WTHushpuppy is going on? Three objects? Aye aye aye. The movie took a huge swing upward in the crazy zone as we entered 2020. I just want to stay in bed and sleep until it is O V E R.
So……Here we have our little friend entering from the far left at the 18:42 time frame….
Are ya with me? Good. Let’s move on.
Then at 18:54 it’s suddenly gone. Pulled away (watching it in video you see it pull back – there is obvious movement. If you want to see that for yourself, go here.)
Seems to be gone forever into the abyss.
But wait – our little friend returns again. Here at 22:18, she’s back again, headed off to the right to join in with her happy little friends to the right. And remember boys and girls, one of those little friends to the right also did one of those “hopping” motions just 2 days ago. But we know planets do that all the time, right?
I’m outta here folks.
Love,
Victoria
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well considering i just spoke the words of the title to myself and it came out “bwief wefwection” – that is a good indicator of how tired and other-worldly i feel today. it is largely due to last night’s sleep. no one in this house slept well. i felt very agitated and could not sooth myself much less feel comfortable. we spoke with a couple other people (one nearby and another further away) who commented how awful they slept last night. in fits. finally at around 5am, i dosed up on another round of CBD oil, ate some noodles, drank some OJ and was able to sleep for a few hours.
my body also feels – weird. unusual pains. that could be due to grief showing up. we have been spending the last couple of days going through some of our grandpa d’s belongings to pick out things we want. this is a difficult thing to do and feels invasive – even though i know he would be fine with it. he was and is a very generous Soul. both my mate and i were having the same experience and we both heard “hell, help yourself” – which is exactly what he would have said. there was really just one tool of his i really wanted – and i looked for it for a good hour. it wasn’t until the end that i finally took a moment and asked him for some help. i was guided to look in an unusual spot – the linen closet – but there it was in the top drawer among some linens.
there is a sense of finality now which brings a sense of peace along with a very quiet but deep sadness.
that’s all for now. i am tossed between wanting to be alone in quiet – and watching something funny. as i would respond when i was a kid and asked to pick between two things: “i pick both!”
as ya’ll know i rarely make videos (not really my thing and know nothing about editing, etc.) – hadn’t planned on making any more given youtube’s latest policy – but i decided to take a recording of another “planet hopping” event. get out some popcorn, add some music and have fun with it. love, v.
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ok something’s going on. i’m feeling very floaty today. tonight? totally between a variety of experiences. extra special experience. walking sideways. chest is heavy. INTENSE! i’m not even partaking of alcohol – just oj and mineral water. perhaps another piece of me out there is having a party. brother rick texted an hour or so ago and said essentially wow these energies are intense!
checking in on the schumann, etc – i see nothing unusual. all is quiet actually. the live meteor’s channel however is showing some really strange dotted lines and continues, like the lasco, so show a white plasma-like signature all over. i asked what those never-before-seen dotted lines are on the live meteor’s channel and was told they are clusters of ionized electrons coming through our magnetosphere. and yet – it is an obvious signature in a very straight pattern – no wavering. and the electron graphs on the solar wind site don’t show anything unusual incoming. in fact the electron reads are flat.
i went back in time to view some of my saved lasco pictures to see how long this whitish haze has been going on. it began back in november and has only increased in scope. obvious questions: what is this and is it leading up to something?
who knows. not i. but someone “outside” does and i aim to tune in and find out.
and lastly a dream share. i had a dream a few weeks ago where i saw myself in a mirror – felt someone was messing w/the image – did a “re do” then saw myself differently – more in alignment w/myself. however – something was still off. then 2 nights ago – holding no intention – i had another dream where i saw myself in a mirror. same mirror too. this time i felt woozy and looked disoriented – as though i had been propped up/sat up after being vertical for some time. others were around me – in back of me – assisting me. it took me a few moments to focus and when i did i said “wow!” it wasn’t that i was so young – it was the color of my hair. strawberry blond – lots of it – and very curly. i was a bit confused as to why i would feel the surprise over my hair (esp. the color) – then when i was pulled out of the experience i remembered brother rick telling me in the past year or so seeing me at “Home” – and my hair was strawberry blond. in my mind i dismissed it as my hair in this vessel has been reddish brown – certainly not s. blonde. but i was not able to let it go as i felt his description was likely accurate – and as such held the desire for clarification. so……..
for now – i send you all the intention of an AMAZING Glorious 2020 with perfect EVERY THING. May ALL that YOU desire manifest with Ease. thank you all for your loyalty and support this past year.
editor victoria’s comment ~ sister linea is at it again – sharing another beautiful message on Compassion. Love. Generosity. Acceptance. i am reminded of an experience i had over 10 years ago. i had already seen through a lot of the “you and you alone create your own reality here” nonsense and was in the middle of an RET session. the practitioner was saying how the children of iraq (at the time) had chosen the experience to witness death and war. i asked her if she would hold the same view if this were happening to her child here. she tried to dismiss that w/some new age bullshit. i told her she was nuts and never returned.
let this be a good message to walk out of 2019 and into 2020 – the year of Plenty. the year of Perfect Vision. the year of Liberation and Freedom.
Lift up others (self included). Assist. and if unable simply hold space.
and when the urge to offer up unasked for advice/telling them what you think they should do arises, give the gift of Silence. lovingly STFU.
that’s the best title i am able to create at the moment.
seems as though headlines are the same story – just different words. someone tweets about confronting pelosi at some sporting event claiming it was “epic”. epic? ha! the guy very politely said he didn’t like what she was doing in california. she dismissed him of course.
that was it.
what was so epic about that?!
epic looks a little something like this. a group of people from california approach her and make a citizen’s arrest. first they stop at one of the homeless camps in her district and put her to work cleaning up and handing out money, food and whatever else these people need. then she is hauled off to jail where she remains for the rest of her experience here or decides to make a new choice.
THAT – is epic.
i was feeling a bit overwhelmed with the whole “next day same experience” feel so i ventured into the garage, cranked up the stereo and wailed on my punching bag. did some dancing. moved my body in whatever way i felt i needed to. intending for new x y z – ongoing.
here is what keeps coming to me – are we tired of this show yet? let’s hear it – are you tired of this show?
what are we going to do about it then? collectively what can we do? what are we able AND willing to do? i know for me and for many of you as well – the usual ways of creating a new experience flatlined this year.
now what?
as you ponder that, check out the schumann. we also have something unexplainable on the lasco. matrix busting down perhaps? program error? all i know is whatever was transiting the sun from the LEFT headed TO the right – “disappeared” in front of the sun a few days ago – and has yet to emerget. and NOW we have some ship/vah coming FROM the right headed to the LEFT. in this experience of anything goes, well – apparently anything goes.
it is time for OUR “anything goes” to M A N I F E S T ’cause this show has done run its course with me and i know for many of you as well. as i said this morning my “plum done had it has plum done had it”. lol not really funny though.
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